Something big
--I just noticed the other day I live with this reoccurring presupposition that something “big” is going to happen in my life one day, sooner than later. At first I thought it was just me, and maybe it is, but I feel most people have the desire for that “big” thing to happen someday soon, whether is be marriage, getting the job, or changing the world, etc. We seem to go through our everyday, mundane lives doing our everyday frivolous activities but holding hope in the back of our minds that something “like in the movies” is going to happen to us. Though the more I write this, the more I feel as if I’m the only one that has these premonitions. The more I think about it, the more I feel most people are “content” with their everyday boring lives full of 9-5 job, kid #1 and #2, and summer family vacations. Maybe that’s fine for some people, but I feel like I was built for so much more than suburbia and mini-vans. I want to change the world, pragmatically. Sure I’m always content with my “soul’s” status, but I’m not always necessarily content with my “impact” or “everyday living” status.
I don’t know. I just feel life as it is right now is so lame, so ordinary, and so passive. Most people would advise me to “do something about that Keith”. Go travel the world, go join the Army, go back to school so you can get a degree. Well I’m not interested in creating my own lame adventures. I want something to happen out of the ordinary. I want something to happen that was initiated and orchestrated by someone other than myself. I want fate to intervene into my everyday live and I want that fate to be extraordinary; something I could've never planned myself.
Whether this does happen remains to be seen, though I do hold this pipe dream in my soul as I get up every morning to go to my same old boring job. And I’m sorry, unless that job involves creating something from your own intellectual property, it is a boring job. So in the meantime I’ll be waiting for something “big” to happen to me. I’ve always felt something “big” would happen to me. I guess we’ll find out if that feeling is just dust in the wind.