I Want to Live the Simple Life

I wanna run in fields
walk aimlessly on beaches
talk randomly on benches
and run fingers through hair.

I wanna play video games
drive my car
climb trees
and swim in the ocean.

I wanna eat ice cream
on warm summer nights
watch movies
and play guitar.

I don’t want this mind
that worries about things
that thinks about things
that dreads about things.
I don’t want eternity on it
i don’t want reality on it.
It causes me not to sleep
it causes me not to eat
it causes me to cry inside
it causes me to die inside.

I wanna live the simple life
not worrying
not realizing
not traumatized

I wanna settle down
not live on the run
like I have, from my fears
I want ignorance.

I want it to be simple
I want the blue pill
I regret taking the red
can I not have both?