I was looking to discuss my beliefs with you and I have come to a decision that there are many things that I am still unsure of.  I know and believe the teachings I was taught oh so many years ago, but now that I am older and hopefully a little wiser, I have found some new ideas that I have just found fascinating.

When I was 10 years old or so, I started attending Sunday School at my local church, and had attended the confirmation classes there as well.  I was involved with the youth group and other church functions. So of course you learn all about Jesus and his disciples and what he sacrificed for us to be who we are today.  After I was confirmed around the age of 14, attending church didn't much matter and I strayed away from my beliefs for a long time.

When I turned 21 years old, I got involved in a relationship which was a bad time in my life.  I believed what he told me, and pretty much didn't know any different.  I knew deep down what was right and wrong and knew how much I was hurting my mother and my family, but Mike was my life.  I realize now after the fact that I should of turned back to my beliefs in God and I should of got out of the relationship earlier then I did.  But I guess what they say is true, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.  And in this case I learned from my mistakes, and will never go through another relationship like that again.

After 5 years of marriage to a wonderful guy and 5 years of trying to start a family, I realized that I can not do this alone and I needed to change my life.  
 

Now that I am 29 years old, and have gone through so much in trying to have a baby, there are many aspects of my life I feel should change.  My belief in God and his power to help each of us when we need him, my belief in the angels who guide me through the life I lead.   

I believe there is an other side that we go when we pass away, and that there are the few who can speak with those who have passed over.  I believe those who have passed watch over us and protect us, and try to communicate with those who were in their lives.  Whether it be the flicker of the lights, the feel of a presence, or the coming into your dreams, we can certainly talk with those loved ones who have passed.  I also think that when someone passes away their spirit can be brought back through another life.  Many say that a miscarried baby's spirit does come back through in the next baby, and that the spirit lives on through the new life.  I have always been told that when 1 dies, another life is born and that the spirit of one lives on in another.

I believe each of us has guides and angels who guide us and protect us as we go through life, and that each of us has a job to do here, whether it be a mother or a friend who lends a helping hand.  I have come to realize that each of us should live each day to its fullest, because you don't know what the future holds.
 

I have had many losses in my life over the past 5 years, I have lost so many friends who were so young and who had so much to live for.   So many people who knew them and loved them, the question had been why?  Why take a family man who loved his wife and his children?  Why take a young man who was loved by many?  Why take a young man who was turning his life around and had so much potential?
 

Because of my job as a monument sales rep, we see and talk to so many people who wish they would of had a little more time with those loved ones who have passed.  Children who have so much more life to live have passed by someone else's hand are always the toughest to understand.  We talk to so many people, who think it won't happen to them, but it does.  It happens to everyone at some point in their life, and when it does, they need to understand, to grieve, and to find it in their hearts to forgive.
 

I have been trying over the last 5 years or so to bring God back into my life, to ask him for help when I need it, and to believe in what he can offer me.  I am not an overly religious person, and probably never will be, but I do believe there is a God and that he created all creatures.  I do believe there are angels among us who protect and guide us through our lives.  I do believe there is a Heaven and that we are forgiven of our sins.  I do believe those who have passed try to communicate with the living, whether it be through a medium or come to you in your dreams.  I believe there are those spirits who are in limbo and need to go through to the other side, those who haunt the home you live in or those who are lost and don't know where to go.  I believe there are mediums out there who can speak with the dead, although there are many who are skeptical.   

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There is so much information on the Internet about death and what it means.  Many who are fascinated about what happens when you die, is it the same for everyone?  There are so many ideas about death, I guess it comes down to what you believe in.

How did I do that?  I went from talking about what I believe in to death and dying....I guess that is what happens when you babble.  And I do that a lot.