Note: The following scenario actually happened to my brother-in-law, who lives in AZ.  At the time, (being from up north) he thought he would surely die, and couldn’t believe that nobody else seemed too concerned.

 

 

Dying

 

If you prick us do we not bleed? If you tickle us do we not laugh? If you poison us do we not die? And if you wrong us, shall we not revenge? --Shakespeare, The Merchant of Venice

 

"If you poison us do we not die?" Adam murmured, reasoning with himself that the poison from not one, but two scorpion stings had to be fatal, no matter what that so-called doctor had said. It was only a matter of time.

 

His hand was burning like the devil; his arm was numb. He could still feel the poison traveling through his bloodstream, and since the doctor had left, his shoulder had begun tingling too.  There was nothing else for him to do but await his death, to anticipate the blackness that would soon encroach. He could picture it all so clearly: the image of himself dressed in black, clutching his chest as his heart began to fail, staggering as his limbs suddenly refused to hold him up, then falling to the ground, gasping, his lungs struggling to draw one last breath before finally he would succumb to the inevitable, inescapable sleep of death. 

 

He just couldn’t understand why nobody else seemed the least bit concerned.

 

“Aw, Adam it was just an itty-bitty scorpion.” Joe's voice interrupted his mournful contemplation.

 

Itty bitty?” Adam was appalled at his youngest brother’s lack of sensitivity. Joe had always been a bit self-centered, and downright surly towards him since he'd gotten back from school, but this was going way too far, even for him. Did he mean nothing to the kid? Most likely, Joe was anxiously anticipating his oldest brother’s death, hoping to get his grubby hands on Adam’s brand new rifle? Or perhaps the little troublemaker was just looking forward to having one less person watching him.

 

“Yeah, ya didn’t have to squash the poor little thing,” Hoss admonished with a scowl.

 

“What? The poor little thing?” Adam nearly fell over from shock. It was almost too much that not even Hoss cared whether he lived or died. Sure, Hoss had always had a soft spot in his heart for creatures of all sorts, but Adam had no idea that they meant more to him than his own brother. Why, oh why hadn’t he just stayed in Boston? There were no scorpions in Boston.
 
“That critter was just protectin’ hisself, Adam,” Hoss scolded, waving an accusing finger at him. “Ya had no call to go stompin’ on him like ya did.”

 

Adam stood there, jaw gaping, unable to believe his brother was actually defending his murderer.  “First of all,” he said mostly to Joe, “it wasn’t itty bitty, it was *huge*.” He would have displayed for them the precise hugeness of the said 'critter' if he’d had any feeling in his arm and if his hand hadn’t been burning like hellfire and damnation.

 

“Well, that’s actually a good thing, son. Since, apparently, the bigger they are, the less poisonous…most of the time, anyway.” His father’s rich baritone was usually calming, but unfortunately this time Adam found no reassurance or comfort in the voice or the words his father spoke.

 

“Says who?” he snapped, attempting to fold his arms across his chest, but only the left one cooperated.

 

“Says the doctor.” Ben gave him a reproachful glance, but Adam figured he didn’t have much to lose anyway.

 

“The doctor? How can that man even call himself a doctor?” He had shown no compassion; had done absolutely nothing to treat Adam’s wound – nothing but tell him to put a cold compress on it. “The man is obviously a charlatan; he doesn't even care that his patient is dying.”

 

“Oh Adam," Ben scoffed, "how many times must I tell you that you're not going to die." He smiled then patted him on his tingling shoulder. “Now, I have to run down to the livery and make sure those horses will be ready to go in the morning. You, young man, need to lie down for a while. You always tend to get a bit overwrought when you’re in need of a nap." Grabbing his hat, he headed for the door. "I don't know about the rest of you, but I am certainly looking forward to getting out of the desert.”

 

His pa was leaving him now -- in his hour of need? "But, what if...."

 

“Don't worry, we won’t be gone long.” With a chuckle, Ben motioned for Hoss and Joe to follow him. “Come along boys, let’s let your brother...uh, rest in peace.” As soon as the door was closed, he heard his family burst into laughter.

 

“Very funny." He sat down on the bed and silently lamented over the misfortunes of his life and then began pondering his epitaph. He would write something moving and dramatic, yet simple. Something proclaiming the injustice of dying so young, with so many hopes and dreams unattained; the anguish and suffering of his soul over being mocked and ridiculed by his family.…

 

And then he realized that the final ironic tragedy of his life, and death, was that his right hand was completely numb, useless; he was incapable of holding a pen. Resigned, he laid back on the bed hoping that at least they would bury him in his new black outfit, with his new boots and his fancy, new jingle-bob spurs. “Good-bye, cruel world,” he whispered, then closed his eyes and yawned hugely as he felt consciousness drift away.

 

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