Notes: The idea for this AU sort of popped into my head as I watched a Mad Max movie one evening.  The story is set after much of the capitalist world has been devastated and the survivors left to fend for themselves in a state of anarchy. The Mission is supposedly located around the border of southern New Mexico/western Texas. Think: Carlsbad Cavern/Guadalupe Mountains National Park area . . . loosely. J  The Mission, or < insert better name here > universe is open, if anyone’s interested.  My thanks to Lacey for her help and advice!

 

 

The World As We Know It

 

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Chris Larabee reined his horse to a halt on the side of the road. A small boy slid from behind him, dropped to the ground and scurried into the brush.  Chris dismounted too, taking a few minutes to stretch while he watched the boy. He was searching for an object they’d seen glinting in the sun as they’d come over the last hill. They’d been out half the day trying to track the small herd of wild horses Chris had seen several times over the past two weeks, but it looked like today they weren’t going to find them. 

 

They already had two horses -- three now that the mare had foaled. Several months back they’d found the black stallion they were currently riding. It had been limping heavily near one of the small, wild herds that roamed the canyons. The quality of the horse had made it stand out from the rest of the herd. Their first thought had been that perhaps it had gotten loose from somebody’s corral and was now trying to run free with the other mustangs.

 

When they’d gotten close enough to inspect its hooves, he’d not been surprised to find the horse was shod. The shoes had been in poor condition though, one in particularly bad shape, making it painful to walk on, let alone run and keep up with the herd. As for the mare, she actually belonged to Jack Tanner, but Jack had gone missing over six months ago, so Chris had been taking care of her in his absence. The man had taken off on the gray mare early one morning, and nearly a month later the mare had shown up again, without her rider.  And shortly afterwards, Vin had shown up, as well.

 

It had actually been Jack’s idea to attempt breeding horses. He’d figured if they could raise enough horses, they wouldn’t have to rely as much on fuel, which was almost impossible to come by, and likely to run out completely sooner rather than later. Plus, a horse was a lot less conspicuous out on the road and easier to conceal, if need be. Chris had thought it was a pretty smart idea, although Jack’s disappearance had put the entire project on hold for a while. When it looked less and less likely that Jack would return, Chris had finally resolved to follow through with the plan on his own, which was why his present goal was to find another mare.

 

Chris stroked the stallion’s muzzle, pleased that he was behaving himself fairly well that day. He much preferred to ride the silvery-gray mare they’d affectionately deemed ‘Mary’. She was much more docile and easy to control than ‘Steve the stallion’, but it was much too soon to take her away from her little foal. 

 

Chris watched as Vin’s blond head popped up from behind a bare shrub. The boy jogged back to Chris, a smile on his face as he held out his new prize for the man’s inspection. “Well, well…that’s pretty fancy,” Chris said, inspecting the object then holding it up to his eye. “Know what it is?”

 

The boy didn’t answer verbally, and Chris hadn’t expected him to. He just shook his head and waited expectantly for Chris to explain.  It had been six months or more since he’d first met this boy, and never had he heard him utter a word.  He was friendly, affectionate with people he was familiar with, and every now and then somebody – usually Buck – would manage to make him laugh. That he could make that sound was a good sign, but as more time passed, Chris had to wonder if Vin would ever be able to tell them a single detail about himself -- or his father.

 

He hadn’t known Jack Tanner very long, but oddly, almost from the moment they’d met, Chris had trusted and believed in him. Something he wasn’t in the habit of feeling for total strangers.

 

Tanner had been a Texas Ranger, as his father had been, but unlike his father, he’d also been a fugitive -- a wanted man, convicted of murder. Chris remembered following the case back when he’d worked homicide. Tanner had been working on an unsolved murder case; had claimed that he was close to making an arrest and felt that was the reason he was set up.  The crime scene had been so obviously manipulated that Chris thought even a blind man should’ve been able to tell. But the public had wanted justice for the murder of a ‘helpless, paraplegic – a highly decorated war veteran’. They demanded a quick close to the ugly ordeal and despite Tanner’s own prestigious military and civilian records, despite the fact that there was no clear motive, no viable reason for this respected law enforcement officer and family man to suddenly resort to murdering informants, he nonetheless became the convenient scapegoat.

 

Chris hadn’t been too surprised that the judge had found him guilty, but he had been a little shocked when he’d found out that the man had received the death penalty. When he’d learned that Tanner had escaped en-route to the prison, Chris hadn’t been the only law enforcement officer to silently cheer him on -- and the rumor was that some had actually done quite a bit more than just cheer him on.

 

Tanner had been at the Mission with Josiah Sanchez when Chris and Buck had arrived, more than two years ago; apparently he’d been staying there for quite a while, probably since his escape from the prison bus the previous year. Meeting Jack Tanner in person had only convinced Chris that much more of the man’s innocence.

 

Jack Tanner was a calm, quiet, thoughtful man with honest, expressive blue eyes – the same eyes that Chris saw everyday when he looked at Vin. He’d spoken a few times about a having a wife and son, but Chris thought that he was probably reluctant to mention them, knowing that even on a good day Chris was barely able to contain his grief over losing his own wife and son.

 

Tanner had suspected that his family was being held in one of the camps, and by the way he talked it was obvious that he planned to find them and bring them back one day; but as far as Chris knew, Tanner had never gotten a solid lead on his family’s whereabouts.

There were so many folks out there who’d been separated from their loved ones that hearing a man vow to find his lost family had become fairly common.

 

Not all of the camps had guards, or a watchtower, or dogs and lights, but a lot of them did. Those particular camps could be tricky to sneak into, although they’d managed it on many occasions. In fact, they had yet to be unsuccessful in a rescue attempt -- which is why their services were sought out so often.  Sometimes they’d be paid well, and the extra provisions helped out a lot when the other party was in a position to offer. But there were times when the only payment they received was the gratitude and appreciation of a family reunited. In truth, that was enough payment for all of them.

 

Unfortunately, and for reasons Chris couldn’t understand, Jack had never asked for their help, or even told them where he was going.  Chris could only assume that the man had gone after his family. He had found no blood on the horse, no hint of a struggle. In all these months he hadn’t been able to turn up a single clue as to the man’s fate. Although, he had the feeling that the answers he was looking for were locked away tightly, somewhere in Vin Tanner’s subconscious mind. 

 

Chris wiped the lens with a corner of his shirt, then held the glass up to his eye again, scanning the horizon, as his thoughts wandered back to the first time he’d met up with Vin.

 

He’d been in the stable, tending the mare that had just returned after being gone for a few weeks. He remembered brushing the horse, allowing the calming, repetitive motion to help him sort through his thoughts as he tried to figure out what – if anything – he could do to find Tanner.  He’d tried to follow the horse’s tracks, but had lost them before he’d even gone a mile. Jack was an excellent tracker, and he’d taught Chris and Buck a thing or two, but they hadn’t gotten in much practice -- not enough to be very useful, not on that occasion anyway.

 

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“Come on out of there, Larabee!” He recognized the voice, heard others along with it and instinct set his heart racing, his adrenaline pumping. 

 

The small group of rough-looking men had shown up a little over three weeks ago. Their looks alone were intimidating, and their attitudes could be described as arrogant and disrespectful, but they’d gone along with the Mission’s standard quarantine procedure, remaining in the secluded tent for the required two weeks. They’d allowed the doc to run his blood tests, agreed to the terms of living at the Mission -- and they had yet to actually harm anyone. Chris had the feeling that was about to change, though. 

 

The previous day Chris had been given the pleasurable task of asking them to stay away from the widow, Gloria Potter. The Potter family had been one of the first families at the Mission, and Mr. Potter had only recently succumbed to injuries he’d received when a faulty generator had sparked a fire in their newly built cabin.  Mrs. Potter and her children were still grieving. She didn’t need these men pestering and scaring her, on top of everything else she was dealing with.  Chris had politely requested they stay clear of her, in no uncertain terms.  Although the men had made light of it, they had backed off, or so Chris had thought.

 

Setting the brush down on a crate, he slowly walked outside of the small stable.  “Can I help you boys?”  He stood for a moment, hands on his hips, sizing up the opposition. There were five of them, and one of him. Not the best odds.

 

“We come to teach you a lesson, boy,” one of them said – a short, stocky fella with a buzz cut, who looked about as wide as he was tall; the way his arms hung reminded Chris of a gorilla.

 

“Is that right?” Chris replied with a cocky grin, although he knew he was outmatched. It sure would be nice if Buck would show up right about now, he thought. Maybe between the two of them, they’d fare a little better than a snowball in hell.

 

“We think it’s about time you learn who’s runnin’ things around here,” the tall, lanky one said. Chris remembered one of the others calling him ‘Stretch’. He reached a long arm out and wrapped it around Chris’ shoulders, squeezing it hard. Chris looked at the hand gripping his shoulder, noting with strange fascination that the man’s hand was enormous.

 

They surrounded him, forcing him to walk several yards, into the more wooded area.

 

“Five against one? Don’t seem fair,” Chris mentioned, but he was pretty sure these men weren’t the least concerned with fairness.

 

“We don’t like to be told what to do. You need to learn your place, sonny boy.”  One of the men behind gave him a hard shove, sending him to the dirt. He glanced over his shoulder and saw the man smirking at him. He wore mirror sunglasses and was bald on the top of his head with long greasy strings of hair hanging down to his shoulders. He pulled a flask out of his black leather vest, took a couple swigs, swished the liquid around in his mouth then spit it on Chris. The others laughed like it was the funniest thing they’d ever seen.

 

With a grimace, Chris slowly rose to his feet, knowing he was in trouble but not willing to just give up. Raising his hands, he tried stalling, hoping some ingenious plan would pop into his head.

 

Another of the men – big, with a mass of tattoos decorating his bald head -- grabbed him roughly by the front of his shirt, pulling his face close. “I heard you used to be a pig, Larabee,” he accused with menace.

 

The man definitely needed a Tic-Tac. “I heard that, too,” Chris replied coolly, cringing slightly and trying to pull away from the offending breath. The others thought something about that was funny, but apparently dragon breath didn’t share their sense of humor.  He slammed his fist into Chris’ diaphragm and as Chris doubled over, he brought his knee up smashing it into Chris’ face. Oh yeah, that hurt. Chris dropped to the ground and stayed there for a long moment, just trying not to black out.

 

Another meaty hand reached for him again, pulling him up by his collar. Chris felt the warmth of his own blood flowing from his nose and he tried to blink away the darkness encroaching his vision. All he could see was a crown of stiffly spiked hair and then a fist in front of his face. He managed to duck, somehow finding the strength to take a step back for leverage, then ram his head into the man’s solid mid-section. The force was enough to drive his opponent back a little, but the man stayed on his feet and reached for Chris again.

 

Chris tried to prepare for the blow he knew would follow, but it never came. Instead, he heard a sound that he figured had to be gunshot. The man suddenly jerked back, releasing him. Chris watched, amazed as the man staggered and fell to his knees, pressing his right hand to his left shoulder.  Jesus, that was close, Chris thought as he watched the patch of crimson spreading outward on the man’s t-shirt.  A couple inches lower and that would have been him.

 

The others paused, each taking a step back, looking down at the fallen man then turning to look in the direction the bullet had come from. Seconds later, there was another report and a second bullet grazed the neck of gorilla man, taking out a nice chuck of flesh before sinking into the upper arm of the man with the mirror glasses standing behind him. Gorilla man grabbed the side of his neck at the same moment the other man grabbed his arm. He could tell by their expressions they were both stunned and in pain. He didn’t think any of them had been mortally wounded, although the one with the shoulder wound had pitched forward on his face. Were those warning shots, he wondered. Or a sniper taking random pot shots at them? 

 

Another shot rang out and then another. One bullet landing right above Stretch’s kneecap and the other skimming dangerously close to dragon breath’s manhood – close enough to sting apparently, since the man was now holding his crotch as if he was in desperate need of a restroom. Chris looked carefully through the foliage and scanned the rock formation behind it, trying to get a glimpse of the sniper, but whoever was doing the shooting was staying hidden. Dragon breath managed to pull his spike-haired comrade to his feet just in time for another shot to land directly in the toe of his boot. He stumbled backward into Stretch, who was bent over, cursing and clutching his knee.  “Let’s get the hell out of here.”

 

“What about him?” the man still clutching his neck questioned, glancing at Chris.

 

“Who gives a shit?” One yelled, at the same time another said, “I’m getting the hell out of here!”

 

Chris ran a shaking hand through his hair then tried to wipe at the blood still dripping from his nose. He wondered if he shouldn’t be getting the hell out of there too. He had no idea who the sniper was, but he was pretty sure that standing where he was made him a pretty easy target. If it were Buck or one of the others though, they would have identified themselves, he thought – then wondered why nobody from the camp had come to investigate what the shooting was about. His legs felt like rubber and his heart was still hammering away, but he decided that if the sniper had wanted to hit him, he probably would have done so already.

 

Chris waited several moments, until he felt a little steadier. He kept glancing in the direction he guessed the mystery shooter had been, but whoever it was didn’t appear. He was curious about the person’s identity, but not curious enough to go snooping around and end up getting shot. He was just about to leave and head back to his campsite when, to his astonishment, a little boy carrying a rifle stepped out from behind a cluster of sugar pines up the hill.

 

The child approached slowly, cautiously, coming to a halt a safe distance from Chris’ reach. He wore an oversized cowboy hat. His clothing was filthy and tattered; the sleeves of his shirt ripped off near the shoulder, exposing his tanned, sinewy little arms.

 

The rifle he carried looked like it might be bigger than he was, and upon closer inspection, the rifle was disturbingly familiar to Chris. The kid propped the rifle over one shoulder, and pushed the brim of his hat up, allowing Chris to see his face. Past the dirt and grime was a pair of wide, blue eyes that seemed as familiar to him as the rifle did. Chris thought the boy couldn’t be over nine or ten, and in another time he’d have scolded him for being out alone in the woods, for possessing a firearm. But the fact was, the kid had just saved his ass.

 

“You got good aim, cowboy,” he said, truly impressed. Something about the boy told him that not one of those shots had been random. The way the boy held himself and seemed confident with the large weapon, or perhaps it was that look in his eyes.

 

The boy didn’t say anything, just nodded once, took a hesitant step closer and offered him a canteen. Lord, the kid was so young, he thought, maybe a couple years older than his own son would have been, definitely too young to be out here alone.  Chris accepted the canteen, taking just enough to wet his lips then handing it slowly back. For the kid’s sake, he hoped the water in the canteen was safe.

 

“Thanks.” He paused for a moment, using the tail of his shirt to wipe again at his nose, feeling a bit unsure of what to do next. Should he question the kid, or let him walk away and follow him? Should he offer to take him home, or back to the Mission and see if he could get some answers from him back there?  “Name’s Chris,” he said, extending his hand. He figured that finding out the boy’s name was probably the best place to start, especially if the name was what Chris thought it might be.

 

The boy glanced at Chris’ hand then looked up and studied his eyes. Slowly, he shifted the rifle to his left hand then reached out with his right, keeping wary eyes locked on Chris’. 

 

Chris smiled encouragingly, feeling like he was dealing with a skittish, wild animal. “You got a name?” he asked, crouching down so they were on eye level. The boy frowned, looked down at the ground then back up. Chris could tell he was mulling things over, trying to decide whether or not it was wise to dispense such information. Finally, he turned sideways, glancing at Chris then down at his right shoulder where Chris could see a set of black letters peeking out from beneath his shirt. 

 

Reaching out slowly, Chris pushed the material back so he could inspect the mark.  Etched permanently into the kid’s tender shoulder was the name ‘Tanner’ in bold, black letters, followed by a set of identification numbers. Obviously he’d come from one of the camps. Some marked their occupants, a procedure that was originally intended as a means of identification, but never had gone over too well. Very few people consented to it, so whenever you saw one you could pretty much assume it had been forced on the recipient.

 

If this was Tanner’s kid -- and Chris was ninety nine percent sure it was -- did that mean that Jack was somewhere around? He couldn’t imagine Jack letting his boy take-off with a rifle, but maybe the man was injured somewhere, in no shape to look after a child.

 

“Is that your dad’s rifle?” he asked. The boy just gazed at him, not answering in any way. “It’s okay, I know your dad. He’s a friend of mine.” Still no response. Chris frowned, not sure how to reach the kid. “Are your parents around here?” he tried again. That got a subtle reaction. Chris watched the boy’s face intently as a barely detectable struggle of emotion took place, then he gave the slightest shake of his head and looked away. 

 

Chris sighed, feeling frustration building. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly, reminding himself that the boy had probably been through a hell of a lot, more than Chris wanted to imagine.  It could be that something very bad had happened to his parents – to Jack – and this child needed to be handled carefully, with all the patience Chris could find. “I bet your name is Vin,” he said, managing a smile. That got another reaction; the kid turned his face back toward Chris, eyes wide with surprise.  “Am I right?” he asked, lifting an eyebrow. A small nod, and then the corners of Vin’s mouth turned up in a hopeful smile.

 

“Well, Vin,” he said, figuring the best place to start would be a decent meal. “Ya hungry?”  He didn’t expect the boy to panic, but suddenly he looked like he wanted to bolt. “I have a camper, back at the Mission. Least I can do is offer you some food, and something to drink after you saved my hide.” Chris watched his eyes, knowing when he’d come to some sort of resolution.

 

Standing slowly, he tilted his head in the direction of their camp and offered a hand. “What d’ya say?”  The boy didn’t say anything; he just nodded, looking more than a little scared as he took one step -- a leap – and placed his small hand in Chris’.

 

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A touch on his arm brought him out of his reverie, and he looked down into questioning eyes. “It’s a spy glass, and an old one at that,” he explained, handing it back to Vin. “Looks brass; if we polish it up it’ll be real nice and shiny. Hold it up to your eye.”

 

The boy gave Chris a look of mild disbelief but did as was suggested.

 

“You have to close the other eye, and look through the hole.” Chris reached out and turned the boy by his shoulders then pointed at the western horizon. “Look out that way.”

 

Vin looked through the glass for a long moment, gazing out over the rough, rocky terrain; then he turned back toward Chris with the glass still at his eye. A rare grin lit his face and he pulled the glass away and blinked as if startled.

 

Chris narrowed his eyes. “Ya sayin’ I look funny?” he asked wryly, the corner of his mouth twitching up.  The boy grinned wider. Chris rolled his eyes then stood up, knees crackling. “Okay, wise guy, we best be getting back.”

 

When Vin tried to hand over the looking glass, Chris waved a hand dismissively. “It’s yours, you found it,” he said, stepping into the stirrup and swinging his leg over the saddle.

 

The boy smiled again, and tucked the glass into his belt. He grasped Chris’ hand, allowing himself to be hoisted up behind him. With a flick of the reins they were headed down the long road, towards the Mission.

 

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In his former life, Chris Larabee had been a homicide detective. Buck Wilmington had been his partner for close to ten years before they’d both been promoted to captain, and Chris had been transferred to the Major Crime division. That had taken place just a few months before the attacks, but it seemed like a lifetime ago.

 

The city where they’d worked hadn’t been one of those attacked by foreign enemies; instead, it had been pillaged by its own citizens. The buildings were vandalized, the stores and businesses looted. No household was safe from the theft and violence that had spread quickly through the city and its suburbs. The National Guard – what was left of it -- had been sent out to the major cities that had been struck by the enemy forces, leaving the citizens with little alternative other than to grab what possessions they could carry, and flee.

 

And the enemy didn’t really have a distinct face or name, not like it had in previous wars. It wasn’t any single country in particular, but an elusive organization of wealthy terrorists that included many powerful religious and political leaders. The organization had managed to incorporate into its ranks all of the major terrorist factions of the world, along with the numerous smaller, less organized groups. It had the charisma, power and money to win the support of the third world masses, among others, with its extremist rhetoric and oaths of vengeance to the faceless capitalist enemy.

 

A little over five years ago they’d unleashed a number of plagues -- diseases once thought to be contained like small pox, bubonic plague, along with a few new viruses and retro-viruses as well.  Major epidemics had taken a lot of lives, especially in the more populated cities.  It wasn’t surprising that the perpetrators had managed to evade the homeland security measures; Chris suspected that most of them had been living in the country for years. 

 

Two years later, the entire country was brought to its knees within a matter of days. The major cities were hit with small-scale, ‘home-made’ nuclear bombs, the effects of which were still being felt and would be for years to come.  High radiation levels made it impossible to live in the sections of the cities still in tact. The water supplies had been tainted; the power hubs shut down or destroyed, cutting the electricity throughout the nation. There was nothing left of New York City, or Washington DC but piles of smoldering rubble.

 

With no power it was difficult to tell what was going on in the rest of the world. The information from secondary sources was that Europe and Canada were in much the same state as the US. Metropolitan areas in other parts of the world, all allies of the US and her European counterparts, had also been attacked in a similar manner. So there was little hope for relief or aid of any sort.

 

Chris remembered sitting in his office, going over a report when there was a knock on his door, and one of his detectives leaned in to tell him ‘you’ve got to come and see this’. Chris had been holding paperwork in front of him, browsing through it as he made his way to the break room. What he caught on the television there had been staggering enough that he’d allowed the report to fall to the floor and never did bother to retrieve it.

 

He’d called home to make sure Sarah and Adam were safe, then called Buck to touch base with his best friend. Initially they’d intended to stay to try and help keep order in the city, but once the power went out things got completely out of hand. The chaos that ensued was beyond anyone’s control. 

 

Riots broke out, the mobs even forcing their way into the police station before setting it on fire. Chris had used a flashlight to search the dark building for wounded, and found Buck unconscious in the hallway just outside of Homicide.  He’d hoisted his big friend across his shoulders and headed for the parking garage across the street. Everything from the point of getting them into his truck to the moment he turned off the ignition in his own driveway was still a big, confusing blur.  He vaguely remembered trying to maneuver his way through the downtown area and out onto the highway.  Then Buck had come to and they’d both agreed that the most sensible thing for them to do would be retreat to the ranch and ride out the worst of the mayhem -- and maybe return to help pick up the pieces afterwards.

 

Chris had figured his ranch was the safest place they could be. He’d been wrong about that.

 

What Chris hadn’t figured on – hadn’t even considered – was that in the midst of total chaos, a band of prison escapees would come looking for him.  Instead of killing him though, they’d made both he and Buck watch as his house burned to the ground, with his wife and son inside. Then, when there was nothing left but smoldering ashes, they’d left the two men tied to the big oak tree out front, with Adam’s empty tire swing, swaying back and forth beside them.

 

Apparently they hadn’t figured he and Buck would get loose, or else they hadn’t cared.  God only knows why, but they’d left the barn untouched, and hadn’t bothered with his truck or their new camper. The mini-RV was fully stocked, just incase of emergencies, but the stupid bastards hadn’t seemed to notice that anything else on the property existed.

 

As soon as Chris and Buck had gotten loose, Chris had jumped in his truck, Buck following his lead with only slightly more caution. Within a few days, they’d single-mindedly taken down almost all of the men. 

 

Chris had felt absolutely no remorse in carrying out his own personal sentence. Knowing that each of the men had already been tried and convicted of murder made it just that much easier to live with. Buck, who in the past had always played good cop to Chris’ bad cop, had been just as ruthless as Chris.  Being forced to helplessly watch as their family burned had apparently shoved both men well past the point of reason.

 

Two of the men remained at-large -- out there, somewhere. Whether they were dead or alive he may never know, but he did know that as long as he lived, he’d never forget their faces. He’d never stop looking.

 

For the next few weeks, they’d stayed in the camper, parked behind the barn. Although they couldn’t actually see the remains of the house from where the camper was parked, it was there nonetheless, like some horrific, white elephant.  They spent those weeks doing their best to finish off several bottles of whiskey Chris had stashed away.

 

Then, one day Chris woke up in the back of the RV, realizing it was in motion. He’d stumbled to the front to find Buck at the wheel, the highway stretched out before them.

 

Buck had given him one of his characteristic, big cheery grins, “Mornin’ sunshine!” like nothing bad had happened.

 

Chris, bleary-eyed, not ready to let go of his grief and anger, had squinted out the windshield, silently cursing the sunshine. “Where the hell do you think you’re going?”

 

Buck, patient and sober, had looked him in the eye and said, “Anywhere, just as long as it’s away from that place.”  He knew then, that Buck had dragged himself back across that line they’d both crossed when they’d watched his house burn, and he was trying to drag Chris back too.

 

That place is my home, Buck,” he’d growled, feeling the throb of pain in his head increase. How could he leave them? How could he just move on? He’d felt he was betraying them in some way.

 

“It was your home, pard. Hell, it was my home too. At least that’s what it always felt like. But…being there…it’s no good, anymore. It’s killing you, Chris, and I don’t think I could stand to lose you, too,” Buck had answered solemnly, his voice cracking, his eyes remaining focused on the road ahead.

 

Chris had wanted to protest, even though he’d known deep inside that Buck was right. He’d wanted to tell Buck that it was none of his business, but the worried look on his friend’s normally happy face made him stop and think. Buck acted like a clown most of the time, but since the first day they’d met the man had always been there, always had his back. There was nobody Chris Larabee respected and trusted more than Buck Wilmington -- and because of that, he kept his mouth closed, and let Buck drive.

 

An hour or so later, he’d repeated the question, that time with resignation instead of hostility. “So, where we headed?”

 

“Ya remember that chaplain, used to work up at that prison a few years back?” Buck glanced over at him. “Father Sanchez was his name.”

 

“You mean that crazy bastard who up and left because he thought the end of the world was coming?”

 

“Yep,” Buck nodded with a grin, “that’d be him.”

 

“What about him?”

 

“Well, he used to come back to town from time to time, to stock up on supplies and such, and visit his sister at the institution. He told me he’s living at an old, abandoned mission a few miles from the border. Said he’s got all the things he’ll need to last out the Tribulation.”

 

“The Tribulation?” Chris asked, raising an eyebrow skeptically.

 

“Yeah,” Buck shrugged a shoulder, “that’s what he told me was comin’. He said it’s in the Bible, but I haven’t looked. You got a Bible in here?”

 

As a matter of fact, there was a Bible in there somewhere, but instead of saying so Chris just looked at him tiredly.

 

“Never mind.” Buck was quiet for a moment, looking like he was deep in thought, then he continued. “I guess it’s supposed to be a rough time, right before the end of the world.”

 

“That sounds encouraging,” he replied dryly. “Life sucks and then you die?”

 

Buck snorted. “Yeah, guess so.”

 

Chris rolled his eyes. “Maybe he should be the one at the institution.” He glanced at Buck with a slight grin. “Maybe you, too.”

 

Buck laughed. “Yeah, maybe we all should. Who knows? Anyway, he always said that one day we’d all see that he was right, and if it wasn’t too late, I’d be welcome to join him. He’s been restoring that mission for the past few years and he’s all set up; got all the equipment, generators, radio, supplies, firepower -- everything you’d need to survive for years.”

 

“Why is this information setting off alarm bells in my head?”

 

Buck only laughed again.

 

“We got supplies, firepower, a water filtration system. Why do we need to go there?” When it came down to it, Chris hadn’t been sure he was ready to be around people, yet.

 

“We can’t just keep driving around, Chris. You got a better idea?”

 

Unfortunately, nothing came to mind.

 

“I figure he’s got to have some plan, some idea of what’s going on, what’s going to happen. These survivalist types take this shit real seriously. Everyone thinks they’re off their rockers and maybe they are, but they’re probably the only ones prepared to get through somethin’ like this.”

 

Chris couldn’t argue with that, besides he knew they couldn’t drive around too long or all they’d accomplish is running out of gas. He’d closed his eyes, drawing images in his mind of Sarah and Adam standing on the front porch, waiting for him to come home, as they’d always done.

 

Once they got to the mission, they’d found that they weren’t the first to seek out the preacher. There were two other men already there. Chris had recognized one of the men as the fugitive Texas Ranger, Jack Tanner. There was also a doctor, Nathan Jackson M.D. who had met Sanchez years before, while doing his medical residency at the same prison.

 

 Jackson had been at the hospital when the riots began, ended up working long shifts when the casualties started coming in. When the phones went out he’d been unable to call home, and by the time he’d managed to get home his wife and daughter were already missing. He’d gone back to the hospital, but by the time he’d got there it was already engulfed in flames. At first, he’d set out on his own to search for his wife and daughter. It hadn’t taken long for him to become overwhelmed by the destruction and hopelessness around him, and to realize that he wasn’t going to be able to do much of anything for anyone on his own. So, he’d sought out his old friend, the preacher, Josiah Sanchez.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

As Chris coaxed the horse to the top of a steep embankment, he looked out over the landscape ahead. From that point, he was barely able to make out the Mission, and that was only because he knew it was there.  The road they were traveling on was miles off the highway. Ahead there was another winding road – more like a wide path – that cut across the rugged terrain and led to the old monastery that was the Mission. They were deep in the canyon-lands, but the Mission was located in a semi-fertile valley, with the river running through. It had been built into a high bluff that curved inward at that point, sheltering the building.  It blended in with the stone, and was veiled by trees and brush. The climate at their elevation was fairly steady year round. Most days were warm, occasionally too warm and at night the temperature would often drop to freezing, even in the summer.  The winter months brought cooler weather, but even then the temperature usually stayed above 60 degrees in the daytime.

 

There were a few dozen people who had set up campsites around the Mission. Newcomers went through a sort of interview process, just to make sure that they shared the same goals and expectations as the other residents did. Almost everyone was invited to stay, as long as they agreed to allow the doc to run his standard tests, and abide by their quarantine rule.  In fact, the only people Chris could think of that had ever been turned away were the five shitheads who had tried to jump him. Nathan had bandaged their wounds and they’d been sent on their way.

 

For the most part, they were just a bunch of normal, everyday people who were determined to survive and to remain as self-sufficient as they could. They were extra cautious to avoid following the patterns of the other camps, which had probably started out much like them. Chris imagined that in the beginning, most camps were just groups of regular people looking for a sense of security and community. He doubted that it had ever occurred to them that the fences they raised for protection would someday become their own prison walls. 

 

Sadly, the average survivor was only too willing to hand over their possessions along with their freedom and independence.

In the rare event that an occupant wanted to leave the camp, usually the overseer would hand the person a tally of what they owed for room and board, and any other charges that could be included – along with interest.  When they were unable to pay, which almost all of them were, the overseer would give an estimation of the time it would take to pay off their debt. Sometimes they’d be offered other, less than honorable options for paying the debt off quicker. Of course, the debt increased with each passing day, so most of the time the occupants found themselves in a no-win situation, but they tended not to fight it.  They chose instead to merely accept that their lives would now consist of twelve-hour workdays in exchange for rations and a roof over their heads at night.

 

Ironically, almost all of them focused their anger, and blamed their conditions on a nameless, faceless specter of an enemy.  Chris couldn’t help but wonder whether or not a hundred years down the road history would repeat itself?

 

The Mission had no fences, no watchtower, or overseer, nobody doling out rations and forcing labor. The people respected each other -- each other’s property and privacy. They bought and sold, or traded each other for services and other necessities. Everyone contributed in some way, but nobody was forced to participate, nobody was forced to stay.  They were everything the enemy had tried to wipe out.

 

Chris, Buck, Josiah and Nathan kept the peace among the settlers. They didn’t give orders, or bully anyone. They simply stepped in if a situation got out of hand, or if someone asked for their help.

 

It was late afternoon when they made it back to the small RV they shared with Buck. Chris waited for Vin to climb down from the saddle before dismounting himself.

 

He couldn’t help noticing the unfamiliar late model sports car parked close to the Mission; it was bright red and stood out like a sore thumb. Several of the other residents had vehicles, but they were seldom used because fuel was in such short supply, and he knew for a fact that none of them were that flashy. Before he could lead the horse around back to the lean-to they used as a stable, he saw Josiah walking toward him, a pretty blonde-haired woman on his arm.  He caught sight of a boy trailing behind the two, who looked to be a few years older than Vin. Chris felt a little relieved, assuming that the car must belong to the woman and the boy. “Looks like we got company,” he said, nudging Vin.

 

Vin smiled up at him and turned to see what Chris was talking about. When he saw the newcomers he moved closer to Chris.

 

The youth walked around from behind the woman, and smiled at Vin. “Why Mr. Tanner,” the boy said with a nod. “What a pleasure to see you again.”

 

“Chris, I’d like you to meet the lovely Ms. Maude Standish,” pausing, Josiah gestured to the boy, “and this is her son Ezra. They’re going to be staying with us for a while.”

 

 “Nice to meet you,” Chris greeted, politely shaking the woman’s dainty hand. He put an arm across Vin’s shoulders, and asked, “You know these two, cowboy?”

 

Vin didn’t answer; he just looked up at Chris, his expression troubled.

 

The other boy stepped closer. “Vin and I are old friends. We both had the misfortune to be placed in the same deplorable facility.”

 

“Vin?” Chris questioned, raising an eyebrow at the boy beside him.

 

Vin gazed at the boy, then beyond him. His eyebrows were drawn together, like he was trying to think, trying to remember.

 

“What’s wrong, Vin?” the other boy teased. “Cat got your tongue?”

 

Vin didn’t acknowledge the boy; instead he looked down at his shoes. Chris recognized the all-too familiar response. It was the same thing that happened anytime one of them mentioned Vin’s past, or his father or mother.  The kid just sort of zoned-out -- went somewhere else. Josiah had said it was a defense mechanism. Whatever it was, it pained Chris to see it.

 

“Vin doesn’t speak,” Josiah explained to the boy. “But, I’m guessing that he did at one time?”

 

Ezra looked puzzled, but he nodded.

With a gentle hand, Josiah tipped Vin’s chin up then gave him a smile. “Perhaps he’ll be able to find his voice again, for us.”

 

Vin looked at the preacher, but he didn’t smile as he usually did at the man’s gentle encouragement.

 

Maude Standish cleared her throat then smiled sweetly when everyone looked at her. “Father Sanchez, is there someplace where perhaps I could freshen up?”

 

“Of course,” Josiah gestured towards the mission, offering his arm for her to take. “There’s an outhouse right out back.”

 

“Outhouse?” she repeated, looking somewhat appalled.

 

“Well, the monks who built this place decided that indoor plumbing was a bit too extravagant. You know how monks can be.”

 

Maude huffed. “Barbarians.”

 

“Yes,” Josiah grinned. “Indeed.”

 

Ezra watched them go then turned back to Vin. “Is this your father, Vin?” he asked, glancing at Chris.

 

Vin took a step back, alarmed. His father? He took another step back and shook his head. No, Chris wasn’t his father. His father was . . . somewhere else.

 

“Wickes told us you’d been sold,” Ezra said hesitantly. “But, Ms. Dunne told us that your father had come to get you.”

 

Vin kept his eyes fixed on the ground. He tried to block out the words. He filled his mind with the song – humming it inside his head because he could no longer remember the words. He only remembered it was about sunshine, and that she used to sing it to him and it made him feel happy and safe.

 

“Vin? You okay, partner?”

 

No, he wasn’t okay. There were images swirling around in his head, and they wouldn’t go away. Flashes of him riding on the gray horse, only it wasn’t Chris in front of him, it was somebody else. Men following them, somebody making him hide up in a hollow tree trunk . . ..

 

After a long pause, Ezra continued. “JD and his mother disappeared soon after you left.”

 

Vin suddenly lifted his head. JD?

 

“The rumor was that Ms. Dunne was punished for failing to divulge the information she knew concerning your escape. Nobody saw her again, but I’m certain that I saw young JD, several times, looking out the second story window of Wickes’ house.”

 

Vin’s mind kept repeating the name JD, over and over . . ..

 

“Who’s JD?” Chris asked Ezra. He kneeled in front of Vin, studying him with concern.

 

“When I arrived at the camp, Vin was already there, along with JD and his mother. I believe Vin’s mother,” his voice became hushed, “had passed away some time before that.”

 

Vin felt dizzy. His mother? He remembered when all the lights went out, she had put him in the car and told him they were going to see his daddy. He remembered being happy because he hadn’t seen his daddy for a long time because he was always working, putting bad men in jail. Like the bad men who had stopped their car. In his mind he could hear them shouting, see them jumping on the car, their faces pressed against the windows, the windshield shattering and then . . . he’d woke up in a bed and JD’s momma was smiling at him.

 

“Anyway,” Ezra continued, “Ms. Dunne, JD’s mother, looked after Vin . . . as she did for me, as well.”

 

Vin closed his eyes, trying to push the bad images and memories away. He felt a hand on his back that he knew belonged to Chris.

 

“Why don’t we all go inside and have some orange juice?” Chris asked, nodding toward his camper. Vin was looking like he was getting ready to fall over or take off, and Chris wanted to try and avoid either of those from happening.

 

“Orange juice?” Ezra questioned skeptically.

 

Chris grinned and shrugged. “Well, it’s orange.”

 

The last thing Vin wanted to do was go inside that camper. He suddenly felt as if there wasn’t enough air to breathe and being inside the trailer would only make it worse. The trailer would be too small, too stuffy and confining. He grabbed Chris’ sleeve and was about to point to the horse that still needed to be put up when Buck pulled alongside them in the big black truck.

 

“Howdy, boys,” Buck greeted, touching the brim of his Stetson as he steppd out of the truck.

 

“Hey, Buck,” Chris paused at the bottom of the metal steps. “Where’s Nate?”

 

“Dropped him up the hill,” he nodded toward the Mission then turned his attention to the boy standing at Chris’ side. “Hey there, half-pint.”

 

Suddenly, Vin felt he could breathe again, and he beamed at the dark haired man. Buck always made the bad thoughts go away.  Vin remembered the spyglass, snatched it out of his belt and waved it in Buck’s face.

 

“Whatchya got there, lil’ pard?” he asked, kneeling down to look at the spyglass. He turned it around, inspecting it properly, then let out a long whistle in admiration.  “Whoo-whee, a spyglass,” he said, seriously impressed. “Looks like an antique, maybe even older than Chris.”

 

“Very funny.”

Buck winked at his old friend. “It’s alright Chris, we still love ya, don’t we, pal?” Vin nodded seriously, and Chris gave Buck a dirty look.  Buck dismissed it, choosing instead to put the spyglass to his eye – backwards – just to make Vin smile. Then he turned it around the proper way, making a big show of peering up then down, all around the yard, until finally coming to rest an inch from Vin’s face. “Holy buckets!” He whipped the glass away with an expression of horror that immediately turned into a grin. “Oh, it’s you.”

 

Vin rolled his eyes then reached out and patted the front pocket of Buck’s flannel shirt. 

 

“I guess you’re wanting this?” He pulled out a pack of sugarless bubble gum. Vin snatched it out of his hand with a grin. “Hey now,” Buck playfully scolded. “That stuff don’t come free, ya know?”  It didn’t either. Any kind of gum or candy was hard to come by, but somehow Buck always managed to bring a little something back for the kid. Vin tilted his head like he was thinking of a suitable payment, then wrapped his arms around Buck’s neck and held on tight. “Yeah, that’s better.”

 

Ezra coughed. “How touching.”

 

Vin pulled back to glare at the boy, and Buck lifted his eyebrows to Chris.

 

“Buck, this is Ezra Standish,” Chris explained. “Ezra and his mom are going to be staying here, at least for a while.”

 

“Well, it’s nice to meet ya, Ez.”

 

“Ez-RA.”

 

Buck nodded, appearing slightly chagrined. “Nice to meet ya, Ez-RA.”

 

Vin let out a soft giggle.

 

“What are you laughin’ at, Tanner?” Buck growled, narrowing his eyes at Vin, ready to scuffle with the boy. Vin only grinned, raising his hands and trying to back away.

 

Chris watched Buck lunge forward and grab the boy, prompting another giggle. He was actually glad that Buck had showed up, and apparently Vin was too. That’s okay, he thought. We’ll get this all figured out in good time. It was probably better that Chris speak with Ezra alone, and get all the information he needed and have time to sort through it before any confrontations.

Buck stood up, holding Vin around the waist, as the boy half-heartedly tried to break free.

 

“Is there anyway I could get you two to put this horse up for me?” asked Chris. “I promised Ezra a cold glass of juice.”

 

“Cold?” Ezra asked, seeming a little more enthusiastic about the juice.

 

“When we’re done, we’ll help unload the truck,” Chris promised, getting a dubious look from Ezra that made him grin. “Won’t we, Ezra?”

 

“Surely you’re joking,” Ezra drawled, as he inspected the bed of the pick-up, which was neatly stacked with wooden crates and bags of supplies from Buck and Nate’s trip to Colorado.

 

Chris just chuckled.

 

“Okay, let’s put this big boy away, squirt,” Buck said, lifting Vin into the saddle and taking the horse by the reins. “Did I tell ya that I come up with a name for that new colt?”

 

Vin shook his head, grinning broadly.

 

“How’s this sound? Billy the kid.”

 

Chris groaned, but of course, Vin nodded.  “Buck,” Chris warned. “You’re not naming it Billy.”

 

“Whatever you say, ol’ pard,” Buck said agreeably, but Chris didn’t miss the mischievous wink he gave Vin.

 

“Come on, Ezra, let’s get that cold drink.”

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

There was one image that refused to be pushed out of Vin’s mind, a little boy’s face – big dark eyes and round cheeks. He could imagine the face looking down from the second story window of Wickes’ house. He wondered why Wickes would keep JD in the house, then figured he didn’t want to think about that just then.  JD’s momma had always looked out for him, made sure he had enough to eat and drink, and even tucked him in at night and now Vin was feeling an overwhelming responsibility to do the same for JD, especially if what Ezra said was true, and JD’s momma was no longer there for him. 

 

Once they were inside the stable, Buck lifted Vin from the horse and set him on a crate, giving him a pat on the leg. “I’ll get the saddle,” he said, and Vin nodded, waiting for Buck to undo the cinch and remove the saddle before he went to work on the headstall. 

 

Vin tried not to look, but his eyes kept darting over to the mare and her gangly-legged colt, who watched them curiously through the stall.

 

Vin was pretty sure that he knew who that mare had belonged to. Chris had probably even told him outright at one time, but he’d stopped saying things that upset Vin some time ago. Now, if he let himself, he could remember the man -- his dad -- taking the leather bags from the saddle then giving the big gray horse a slap on the behind. He could remember watching the horse gallop away as his dad hid him in the old tree . . . before the men had come.

 

He’d waited until the men left, and then like his dad had told him to, he followed the river . . . not thinking about what the men had done -- what he’d seen them do. Now, the images were blurring together with other images, similar yet different. His momma. Men had hurt her too.  He could see her face, and blood, and her eyes . . . and when he’d cried out for her, the men had laughed, and hurt him.

 

“Vin?”

 

Vin swiped at his eyes, then turned to Buck, trying to hold back his tears.  He wanted to shout that he was sorry that he hadn’t made the men stop. He wanted to beg for his mom and his dad to forgive him, but all that came out was a broken sob.  And then Buck was there; his strong arms enveloping Vin, tucking him close, protecting him from whatever demons were calling him out. 

 

Vin hardly made a noise when he cried, nothing more than a hiccup or a hitch of breath, but those along with the tremors running through the small body were nearly enough to break the man’s soft heart.

 

After several long minutes, he finally felt the body in his arms relax and thought maybe the kid had fallen asleep. He pulled back a little to get a look at Vin who wiped his eyes, and managed to look up at him with a tremulous smile.  “You gonna be okay, kiddo?” he asked quietly.

 

Vin nodded.

 

“How ‘bout we go see what Chris is up to?”

 

The boy gave Buck one last hug, then slipped his hand into Buck’s and the two of them made their way slowly back to the camper. 

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Josiah Sanchez escorted his guest down the stone path of his small but well-cared-for garden, to a patio area in the center. It was a tiny oasis, sheltered on one side by the tall sandstone bluff, and on the other by the walls of the Mission. Sitting there, surrounded by the flora -- sparse as it was that time of year -- it was easy to forget the rest of the world existed.

 

This would be the so-called interview process; it was an important step they took before allowing anyone into the camp. Ms. Standish had already been informed of the quarantine, and agreed to the blood tests. The interview was usually done so informally that the interviewee never realized they were being sized-up. Josiah liked to think of it as a get-to-know-you session, rather than an interview.

 

“This place is lovely, Reverend Sanchez,” Maude said appreciatively.

 

Reverend, Father, Preacher -- Josiah didn’t think it mattered, and he couldn’t see the Lord being too nit-picky about the earthly titles given to His servants. If Maude Standish couldn’t make up her mind whether to call him reverend or father, well, the Lord was understanding, and he guessed he’d have to be understanding too. “Thank you, ma’am.”

 

“It reminds me of home.”

 

“Home?” Josiah inquired, offering her a chair at one of the small tables he had set up. They were all welcome to seek the peace and tranquility the garden had to offer. The monks who had lived there so long ago, had obviously made the garden as a place of meditation and reflection. Further out from the patio, they had built a stone labyrinth that Josiah walked often enough that it might be more out of habit, or routine. In his mind, he was sure that his thoughts and emotions had become more calm and orderly since he had started walking the labyrinth.

 

“Yes, we’re originally from Atlanta, Georgia,” she told him. “But, we’ve always traveled quite a bit. I haven’t been home in years.” She sighed, a troubled look on her face. “Of course it isn’t possible for us to return now.”

 

Josiah nodded, understanding. Atlanta was one of several major cities where bombs had destroyed most of the inner city structures -- the airport and news headquarters, among other buildings. The bombs contained radiation and in some instances other chemical or biological elements designed to kill the remaining population in the aftermath. They destroyed on a much smaller scale than a nuclear warhead, but still left the environment uninhabitable for years.

 

“So, how did you manage to get your son away from the camp he was in?” he asked out of curiosity. 

 

“Well, it’s a long story, but when the initial mayhem ensued, I was on my way home from New York.” She leaned closer and touched his hand. “If I’d have stayed just a few more hours . . ..” Her voice trailed off and she shook her head sadly. “Anyway, I’d left Ezra with my cousin Bridget in Taos while I went to New York on business.  Our plane was over Denver when the bombs hit. We ended up landing in a small airfield in New Mexico. The phones were out  . . . I had no idea where my boy was, or if he was all right.”

 

“That must have been very frightening.”

 

“By the time we made it to Taos, there were hoodlums running the streets, stealing and vandalizing,” she shook her head, “my cousin was gone . . . the whole neighborhood was abandoned. We searched – James, my pilot, helped me, but we couldn’t find them anywhere. It took a few weeks, but we finally got information on several camps where citizens were supposedly gathering. James found his wife in one of those camps, up near Albuquerque.  That one wasn’t so bad, but the one I found my Ezra in was positively wretched.”

 

“Almost two years?” Josiah said with a frown. “It took you that long to find your son?”

 

“Yes, I stayed at the camp near Albuquerque for several months because I had no idea where to begin searching for Ezra. I had some money, and I managed to make a little more during my stay at the camp – enough that I was able to persuade the person in charge to help me out. He managed to obtain the information I was seeking, and a vehicle, but when I got to the next camp . . . well, let’s just say it wasn’t at all what I’d been expecting.”

 

Josiah was just about ready to offer something sympathetic when the woman grinned.

 

“I made a fortune off of those poor pathetic creatures.”

 

“Oh,” was all he could say.

 

“That’s how I got the car I’m presently driving. I know it took a little longer than was comfortable to find my son.  I had to keep reminding myself that we needed the money.”  She shrugged then let out a sigh. “Anyway, it all worked out for the best. I made enough money to purchase the car, and Ezra’s release, and I have a little extra left over – for you, of course.”

 

Josiah’s eyebrows shot up then he smiled, looking both amused and a little uncomfortable. “Well, we don’t have much use for money out here.”

 

“Oh?”

 

“We don’t require any fees.”

 

“Oh.”

 

“May I ask what sort of business you were in? Just to give us an idea of your interests,” he explained. “We all try to pitch in, help out where we can to keep things running around here.”

 

“Well, I was involved with . . .” she cleared her throat, “investments.”

 

“Investments?”

 

“Yes.” She smiled sweetly at him. “Investments.”

 

“I see. Well, I’m sure we’ll figure out something that interests you.” Although he had no idea what.

 

“Money interests me. I’m good with money.” Maude pouted for a moment, then her face lit up. “I’ll bet you ten dollars that you can’t guess how much I paid for that car.”

 

“You’re probably right.” Josiah replied warily.

 

“Oh, come on now. Aren’t you even going to try?”

 

Josiah studied the car, thinking that even a fine car like that probably cost no more than an old rusted out beater, in fact the flashiness probably made it less valuable on this odd market. It stood out too much. “Five hundred?” he guessed off the top of his head, doubting he was anywhere close, but the disappointed look on the woman’s face told him different.  He grinned and shrugged. “Lucky guess?”

 

“You’re no fun at all, Father Sanchez,” she said, her pout returning as she dug in her purse and handed over a ten-dollar bill. “Do you play cards, by chance?”

 

Josiah grinned toothily -- like a shark.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Chris sipped his coffee, as he listened to Ezra talk. He’d thought it might be difficult to get the kid to open up, but he seemed more than willing to answer his questions and tell him everything he wanted to know, and some things he’d rather not.

He’d already described the camp and its occupants -- mostly single women, some orphans, and widows with small children. He’d told Chris about the ‘miscreant’ who operated the camp, a man named Wickes who liked to bully the women and force the children to do ‘menial labor’, and the ‘ruffians’ who patronized the place for its liquor and offer of female companionship.  It sounded suspiciously like a brothel, to Chris.

 

“Sometimes he beat them, sometimes he did worse.”

”Did he beat you?”

 

“Not really, he hit me . . . back handed me once or twice, but nothing like he did to some of the others, mostly the women.”

 

“What about Vin?”

 

“He didn’t like Vin for some reason. Perhaps it was because Vin never cowered from him?” He chuckled a little, shaking his head. “He always had this defiant look in his eyes, even when Wickes would threaten him. One time he made Wickes so mad that he locked him in the crawl space under the house for two days without food or water.”

 

“Bastard.”

 

Ezra nodded agreement.

 

“So, did Vin ever tell you anything about his family?”

 

“Well, he spoke of his father,” Ezra told him. “He kept hoping that his father would come to get him, but I didn’t really pay much attention.” He looked a little remorseful, then shrugged. “Almost all the orphans hoped that a relative would come and rescue them. Then one morning we woke up and Vin was gone. Wickes and his men told us he was sold, or given away, for misbehavior, but Ms. Dunne told us that Wickes was lying and that Vin was with his father. That’s who I assumed you were.”

 

“No,” Chris frowned trying to piece the information together. “When I found him he was alone. You said his mother was . . . passed away?”

 

“As far as I know. Vin never really spoke of her. I asked him once, and he only said that she was gone. Later, Ms. Dunne asked me not to mention it to him anymore. She told me that she had found Vin lying in the street, near a woman who she assumed was his mother. She was dead. Apparently Ms. Dunne was unable to do anything more than pick him up and take him with her.”

 

Chris took another swallow of coffee, feeling his own grief mingling with the grief he felt in Vin’s behalf, unable to think of anything else to say.

 

After a few moments of silence, Ezra cleared his throat and folded his hands. “May I ask you a question?”

 

“Sure,” Chris said easily. “Go ahead.”

 

“Is it true, what I’ve heard about you?”

 

Chris raised an eyebrow. “That depends on what you’ve heard about me.”

 

“Well, not about you specifically, but I’ve heard about the Mission, the men who can get in and out of the camps – they rescue people.”

 

Chris nodded vaguely, feeling a little uncomfortable.

 

“Is it true that you set an entire camp of prisoners free?”

 

“That wasn’t actually part of the plan,” he said, grimacing. They hadn’t intended to set the entire camp free, just a handful of innocent men. But they’d run into a bit of trouble with the guards and the entire operation had turned sour. Before they even realized what was happening, a riot had broken out and they’d been lucky to get out alive.

 

“But,” Ezra persisted, “you help people? You get them out or help them to escape?”

 

Again, Chris nodded, wondering where this was going.

 

“You have to get JD,” Ezra said, surprising Chris by sounding a little desperate.

 

“JD? You mean the kid at the camp?”

 

“Yes, he’s just a little kid, and he’s all alone. I can’t believe Vin never mentioned him,” Ezra said with a puzzled expression. “They were like brothers. JD’s mother treated Vin like he was her own child.”

 

“Ezra, Vin hasn’t mentioned anyone,” Chris said, his tone a little defensive. “He hasn’t spoken a single word the entire time I’ve known him.”

 

Ezra nodded, like he’d just remembered that detail. “That’s just odd. I don’t understand. He was always quiet, but he did talk. He always annoyed me by calling me Ez, just like your friend did.”

 

Chris couldn’t help but smile at that. They all had a theory of why Vin didn’t talk, but Buck had never seemed too worried about it. ‘He’ll talk when he’s ready,’ Buck always said. “Something must have happened between the time he left the camp, and the time he showed up here.”

 

Ezra gave him a wry look. No kidding?

 

Chris blew out a long breath. “As for JD, I can’t really give you an answer on that right now, not until I talk to the others.”

 

Ezra narrowed his eyes, but nodded, seeming to accept the answer for now. “All right.”

 

They heard Buck’s voice outside in a boisterous, one-sided conversation. Ezra finished his drink in one gulp then wiped the back of his hand across his mouth in very unmannerly fashion. Chris had to smile. Apparently Ezra was a kid after all.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

It had taken a few hours to unload the truck and distribute the supplies to the proper places, so they’d eaten supper later than usual. Ezra had put up a fuss about being forced to do manual labor, citing various child labor laws -- most of them completely fabricated -- but in truth, he hadn’t really minded helping out. He’d gladly do a little work in return for everything he felt was being offered to them. Besides, he actually found that he genuinely liked the people there. His mother would be so disappointed.

 

It had gotten dark early, as it usually did that time of year, and several of the men were seated around a blazing campfire, drinking coffee and talking. 

 

Ezra sat in a folding lawn chair beside Father Sanchez. They’d taken a vote and decided to forgo the usual quarantine in this case. They had still been made to undergo the other tests, but Maude and Ezra were given a room inside the Mission, instead of being forced to stay in the usual tent on the outskirts of the campsite. Up until then, all of the newcomers had been men, or at least had a man in the family. Not so long ago, some might have considered the decision to be sexist, but in the world they lived in now, a person knew better than to turn down a kind gesture.

 

Chris Larabee sat on the preacher’s left, with Vin Tanner sprawled across his lap, half asleep and Buck Wilmington to the left of Larabee. 

 

Ezra looked up as the doctor approached, taking the empty lawn chair to Ezra’s right.   “Your mom is fine, just a bad headache,” he said, with a gentle smile. “I gave her something for it that’ll probably help her sleep too.”

 

“Thank you,” Ezra nodded, amazed again that these men seemed to truly care about them and about each other.  He glanced down at Vin who was gazing trancelike at the flames, eyelids drooping, seeming completely boneless as Mr. Larabee absently stroked his hair. Vin seemed so much younger, or perhaps more vulnerable than Ezra remembered him being at the camp. His refusal, or inability to speak was frustrating. Ezra kept expecting to hear his friend’s soft drawl, but so far all he’d gotten were nods, shrugs, or a shake of his head.

 

Chris took a sip of his coffee then glanced around at the others before looking down at Vin. “Since everyone’s here, I have something I need to talk to you all about.”

 

The other men sat up a little, giving him their attention.

 

“Ezra has given me some information that we need to consider.”

 

Ezra took a deep breath and let it out slowly, relieved that Mr. Larabee hadn’t been putting him off earlier.

 

Vin suddenly appeared more alert, even though Chris kept combing his fingers through the boy’s hair.

 

“Seems that there’s a boy . . . six years old?” He glanced at Ezra who gave him a nod. “His mother watched out for Ezra and Vin when they were in the camp, but now Ezra thinks something has happened and the boy’s mother isn’t around anymore.”

 

Vin looked intensely, hopefully at Chris.

 

“Ezra thinks that Wickes, the overseer, has the boy stashed in his house . . . for God only knows what reason. He thinks we ought to go get the boy,” he said, laying it out short and simple. “And,” he smiled down at Vin, “I’m betting Vin would like that too.”

 

 “Okay, but what are we gonna do with him once we get him out?” Buck asked.

 

“Well, we can worry about that later. Anything’s got to be better than leaving him there,” Chris answered a little sharply. “From what Ezra has told me this Wickes guy is a real bastard.”

 

Vin sat up at that, nodding vigorously. 

 

“Are you sure his mother is gone?” Nathan asked Ezra.

 

Ezra glanced at Vin, feeling a little apprehensive. “I just know what people were saying. I never saw her again. I saw JD, but not his mother. Even if she is still alive . . .couldn’t you get them both?”

 

“Yes,” Josiah answered, his voice calm. “But, we need to know how many people we’re going in for.”

 

“Maybe we could take a little trip down there next week and check things out,” Chris said.

 

“Next week?” Ezra sat forward, looking at them all with disbelief.  Vin looked at Chris, his expression mirroring Ezra’s.

 

“We can’t just go storm the place without knowing the layout and having some idea of what to expect,” Chris said, reasonably. “We need to go up there, take a look at the place, see if we can talk to anyone and then figure out a plan. A few days isn’t going to make that much of a difference.”

 

Ezra and Vin exchanged frustrated glances.  “Perhaps it will to JD,” Ezra grumbled, and Vin nodded his agreement.

 

“We’ll get him out, but we need to be prepared before we go in,” Buck said, trying to conciliate.  “Why don’t you boys go on now, get ready for bed?”

 

“Bed?” Ezra questioned.

 

“Come on, squirt,” Buck said, pushing himself out of the squeaky lawn chair and winking at Vin. “Ole Buck’ll tell ya a story.”

 

Vin slid from Chris’ lap and took Buck’s hand with a smile.

 

“None of those stories like I heard ya tellin’ the other day, I hope,” Nathan scolded, raising an eyebrow at Buck.

 

“I only tell classics,” Buck grinned. “Right buddy?”

 

Vin nodded, and Chris rolled his eyes. If Buck claimed he’d seen cows jumping over the moon, Vin would back him up.

 

Once the door of the camper was closed, the remaining men each turned to Ezra who was still sitting there, trying to blend in.

 

“You want me to tell ya a bedtime story, Ezra?” Josiah asked, with a teasing smile.

 

“No thank you. I’m not a child, you know.” But when he looked at the men, they were all smiling as if his statement was supposed to be humorous. “Fine,” he huffed and stood, raising his chin haughtily. “I’m sure the company of my unconscious mother will be much more appealing, anyway.”

 

Chris gave him a two-fingered salute.

 

“Nighty-night, Ezra,” Josiah said with a big grin.

 

“Good night . . . sirs.”

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Vin had been up for hours, trying to keep himself occupied as he waited for Ezra to wake up. He knew his friend liked to sleep late, but he could never understand why. He was at the stable cleaning up and mostly fussing over the new foal when he noticed Ezra standing at the door, watching him.  Glancing over his shoulder he smiled.

 

“Mr. Tanner,” Ezra said, making Vin roll his eyes and turn his attention back to the little foal. 

 

“Vin,” he tried again, “we need to discuss the predicament concerning young Mr. Dunne.”

 

Vin liked the way Ezra talked, the fancy words he used -- all except for the way he called everyone Mr. or Miss. He thought it sounded real dumb to call a little kid like JD ‘Mr. Dunne’.  He nodded though, agreeing that they needed to figure out what to do about JD.

 

“Your, uh, Mr. Larabee said they would go to the camp in a few days, but I believe we could have him out by then if the two of us ventured there ourselves.

 

Vin turned to frown at him. How in the heck were they supposed to get there? He knew the general direction, but the camp was pretty far away, and if they walked, or even took the horse it would take a whole lot longer than it would for Chris and the guys to get there.

 

“You agree we need to get him out of there, as soon as possible?” Ezra prompted.

 

Vin nodded. Of course he wanted to get JD; he just wasn’t sure if they could or even should try to do it on their own.  Chris and the guys did this kind of stuff all the time; they were experts at it.

 

Ezra cleared his throat and looked around, then leaned closer to Vin. “We could take my mother’s car,” he whispered conspiratorially. 

 

Vin’s eyes went wide. Was Ezra crazy?

 

“I assure you that I am an excellent driver.”

 

Vin lifted an eyebrow.

 

“Do you have a better plan?”

 

Vin thought for a moment, running possibilities through his mind; then he shrugged and shook his head. He was sure there had to be a better plan, he just couldn’t think of one right then.

 

“We’ll leave early tomorrow,” Ezra said quietly.  “Right before the sun comes up.”

 

Vin snorted, doubting that Ezra had ever been up before the sun. This, he had to see. 

 

After lunch, he and Chris went for a ride on the stallion, half-heartedly looking for and not finding the little herd of wild horses they’d been after. He kept thinking about JD being all alone at the camp, and how much he wished he could go and get him right then. He also wished he could tell Chris about the plan Ezra had come up with . . . maybe get his advice, but he also knew that was pretty dumb because even if his voice would work, telling Chris about the plan would put an end to it right away.  He knew it was risky, going on their own, but the more he thought about it, the more he couldn’t stand JD being with Wickes.

 

He was also a little nervous about taking Ezra’s mom’s car, and even more nervous about Ezra driving. Ezra knew a lot of things, he was real smart – probably the smartest kid Vin knew, but he wasn’t all that much taller than Vin, and he sure wasn’t old enough to drive a car. But, then again, Ezra always seemed to surprise him. Maybe he did know how to drive? Or, maybe he was just talking out of his behind?

 

They had an early supper that night and sat around the fire as they always did when it wasn’t too cold. He thought about not sitting with Chris – sitting in his own chair, because he didn’t want Ezra to think he was a baby, but he just couldn’t do it. He looked forward to sitting with Chris in the evenings; even if he looked like a baby, he wasn’t going to care.

 

He didn’t remember Chris or Buck carrying him in and putting him to bed, but he woke up on his cot inside the dark camper. There wasn’t a clock, and Vin didn’t know how to tell time that way, anyway. Instead he pulled back the plain, blue curtain to look outside. Sure enough, he could see the dawn’s pink glow, barely beginning to brighten the eastern horizon -- but he didn’t see Ezra. Maybe they wouldn’t be going to get JD after all. Vin couldn’t seem to make up his mind whether that would be good or bad.

 

As quietly as he could, he slipped out of the cot, thankful that whoever had put him to bed had left him in his clothes. His eyes were adjusting to the darkness, and he was able to find his shoes without tripping over anything and then open the door, hardly making a sound. 

 

To Vin’s surprise, Ezra was already waiting outside, at the stable where they’d decided to meet. After getting his shoes on, he grabbed his father’s rifle and some ammunition, then followed Ezra to his mother’s car.  As he opened the door he found that he was still none too sure he trusted Ezra’s driving skills. In fact, it was making his stomach feel fluttery.

 

“We need to push it down the hill,” Ezra said, glancing at Vin as he sat on the edge of the driver’s seat. “When we get going, we’ll jump in and the car will start when I shift into gear.”

 

Vin nodded, still apprehensive.

 

Ezra shifted into neutral then got out of the car, grinning, with a spark of mischief in his eyes that made Vin smile. “Okay,” he said, then both began pushing the little sports car toward the path. Once they were rolling at a good clip, they jumped inside and closed the doors. When they were closer to the road and farther from the Mission, Ezra pushed in the clutch, and shifted into first gear. The car jerked a couple times and the engine sputtered before it began to hum.

 

Finding second gear was not quite as easy, and Vin wondered if that horrible grinding noise was a bad thing -- or more importantly if anyone had heard it back at the Mission. Finally Ezra got it into second, and then third without the jerking and grinding. Then he looked over at Vin with a big smile. “Piece of cake.”  Right.

 

They’d driven for over an hour, straight down the empty highway without a problem – if you didn’t count the turn onto the highway. Just ahead was the junction where they were supposed to turn again and Vin wondered how many grinds it would take this time. As Ezra fought to downshift, brake and turn all at the same time, Vin suddenly knew why twelve year olds weren’t given their driver’s licenses.  All he could do was reach for the dashboard and try to brace himself for the impact that was about to come.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Chris woke shortly after dawn, to the sound of birds chirping noisily outside the camper. He sat up slowly, yawning as he tried to motivate his body to get going and begin the day. The air was cool and a little damp, making him reluctant to let go of his blankets, making him have second thoughts about getting up at all. He could hear Buck snoring above him, and one bare arm dangled over the side of the bunk. He knew that even if he wanted to stay in bed, between Buck’s snoring and the damn birds, he’d never get back to sleep.

 

Another yawn and he got out of the bed, deciding that he needed some coffee. He glanced over to check on Vin . . . and found his cot empty. Chris puzzled at that. He hadn’t heard Vin get up and didn’t know where he would have gone this early – well, maybe to the outhouse. He started the slow process of heating water, getting dressed while he waited.

 

Buck rolled over and yawned loudly. “Damn birds,” he muttered, starting to climb slowly out from under his blankets. Once his bare skin hit the crisp air, he quickly drew the blanket back up to his chin. “Damn! It’s cold!”

 

Chris chuckled. “Well, if you’d wear pajamas or sweats, instead of those boxers.”

 

“You know I can’t sleep in pajamas or sweats,” he complained. “I can hardly stand to wear these boxers. It ain’t natural.”

 

Chris just shook his head, smiling. “Whatever.”

 

When Vin hadn’t returned by the time his cup of coffee was ready, and Buck had forced himself out of the warm bed, Chris took a few quick swallows and headed outside. He needed to hit the outhouse anyway, and hoped he’d run into the kid on his way.

 

The camp was relatively quiet – except for the damn birds. Chris made his ‘pit stop’ then looked around a little, checking the stable, but not finding Vin anywhere. He looked up toward the mission, wondering if Vin would have gone in to see Ezra, or Josiah, although he figured it was a little early for that. Then he noticed the red car that for the last few days had been parked next to Josiah’s beat-up, old pick-up was gone. 

 

He wasn’t usually the type to jump to conclusions, but he felt that the absence of the sports car gave him good enough reason to at least question Josiah on its whereabouts.

 

“Hey, Chris,” Buck called as he jogged toward him, from the direction of the outhouse. “Where’s Vin?”

 

“I don’t know, I can’t find him.” He started walking toward the Mission with Buck at his heels. “Maude Standish’s car is missing.”

 

“What?”

Chris pointed to the empty space where the car had been last night.

 

“Maybe somebody just stashed it somewhere else,” Buck said, frowning as he tried to think of possibilities. “It kinda stands out settin’ right there.”

 

“Maybe,” Chris replied quietly. “Figure Josiah ought to know.”

 

They found Josiah sitting in one of the pews inside the small chapel area, staring up at the large cross hanging on the wall, above the altar. “Is there somethin’ I can help you boys with?” he asked, turning toward them with a smile.

 

“We need to talk to Ms. Standish, or her boy, if they’re here,” Chris said curtly. “Vin’s gone . . . least I can’t find him anywhere, and that fancy red car of hers seems to be missing. Do you know anything about that?”

 

“No,” Josiah replied. “It was there last night.”

 

“It’s gone now.” He was willing to bet that they would find Maude sleeping, and no sign of Ezra.

 

Josiah stood, his eyebrows drawing together, instantly concerned. “Right this way.” He led them back to the sanctuary and down a dark hallway that had two doors on each side -- small dormitories where at one time the monks had resided, along with any who might come seeking sanctuary, out there in the middle of nowhere.

 

They knocked several times on one of the doors before a groggy, uncharacteristically tousle-haired Maude Standish opened the door, just barely. “Good Lord, do you realize what time it is?” she complained as if it were the middle of the night, instead of close to 7AM.

 

“Is Ezra in there with you?” Chris asked, without apologizing for disturbing her sleep.

 

“Ezra?” She looked confused, but turned around, stepping away from the door, and called his name, “Ezra!”

 

They waited impatiently for her to come back to the door. “He’s not here, but—“

 

“Ma’am, I hate to have to tell you this, but Vin’s missing, and so’s your car,” Buck explained in his courteous drawl, sounding a lot like Detective Wilmington. “Does your son know how to drive, by chance?”

 

“My car? What did you say?” Apparently, Maude was not a morning person; she definitely wasn’t her usual sharp, quick-witted self.

 

“Why don’t you get dressed and meet us out in the garden,” Josiah said, offering her a little time to get herself together.

 

“Try to hurry,” Chris shouted over his shoulder as they were ushered away from the door.

 

Josiah already had a pot of coffee going – real coffee, percolated, not the instant crap.  He poured a cup for both men and refilled his own mug before starting a new pot. 

 

Maude joined them in less time than they’d expected her to take. She sat down at the table, all seriousness, looking for once more like a concerned mother than a socialite. Josiah set a mug of coffee in front of her and she smiled appreciatively at him. “Thank you, reverend.” She took a sip from the steaming mug, then looked at Chris. “Now, where is Ezra and what did you say about my car?”

 

“I don’t know where Ezra is, and I don’t know where Vin is either,” Chris explained with a lot more patience than he was feeling.

 

“Vin is missing too? Well, perhaps they’re off . . . playing, or whatever it is little boys do,” she said, smiling and waving a hand as if that matter was all settled. “Now, where’s my car?”

 

“Well, ma’am, that’s what we’re trying to figure out,” Buck said.

 

Josiah reached out to touch her hand. “Does Ezra know how to drive?”

 

“I have no idea,” she said, seeming flustered. “I don’t think he does.”

 

“Vin ain’t tall enough to reach the peddles, even in that small car” Chris said, looking at Buck and then Josiah. “Ezra probably could though, barely.”

 

“You thinking what I’m thinking, Chris?”  Buck asked.

 

Chris gave him a quick nod. “Where’s the camp that Ezra was in?”

 

“Outside of El Paso,” Maude told him, frowning. “You don’t think . . .?”

 

Chris sighed, looking at Buck. “I can’t think of anything else.”

 

“Me neither,” Buck agreed. “That’s at least an hour and a half drive.”

 

“Why ever would they go back there?” Maude still didn’t want to believe it.

 

“Their friend, JD,” Josiah said with a shrug. “They wanted us to go get him. Ezra asked Chris about it a couple days ago.”

 

“We told them we’d go get him. Why would they take off on their own?” Chris asked, directing the question to himself, as much as the others.

 

“My guess is they didn’t think we were moving quick enough,” Buck answered.

 

Chris drained his cup of coffee then pushed back in his chair. “We’ll take my truck. Buck, get Nathan . . . just in case.”

 

“Copy that, partner,” Buck replied, then drained his cup too.

 

“We’ll find them,” Chris promised Maude then stood up and glanced at Josiah. “I’m going to grab a little fire power, and pull the truck around.”

 

“Fire power?” Maude asked with alarm.

 

“Just a precaution, ma’am,” Josiah said, his calm, baritone always sounded reassuring.

 

When they were ready to go, they quietly informed Josiah that depending on the circumstances, they may or may not attempt getting the boy out of the camp. Then they headed to what used to be a small ranger station, to gas up the truck.  The station always made him think of Jack, who had been the one to inform them of the supply of gas beneath the ancient-looking pump out back. They tried to use it sparingly, but knew that one day it would be gone. 

 

Chris replaced the nozzle and made a silent vow to Jack, wherever he was, that he would find his boy and then he promised to take better care of him from that point on.

 

“I can’t believe they stole her car,” Buck commented, shaking his head in wonder as they pulled back onto the highway.

 

“I’m gonna k--” Chris growled, but stopped short of finishing the sentence. Instead he prayed they hadn’t already managed to do that, themselves.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Chris slowed the truck, getting ready to turn at the junction when Buck leaned forward.  “Shit! There it is, Chris!” he said, pointing to the ditch on his side of the road. From the way it looked, the car hadn’t been able to make the turn and had gone off the road and right into an old telephone pole.

 

“Guess this answers one question,” Nathan mumbled, not really intending to be heard.

 

“What do you mean?” Chris asked, as he pulled over to the shoulder and turned off the engine. He tried not to imagine the worst, when he looked at the mangled passenger’s side, the way it was crushed inward by the pole.

 

“Whether or not the kid can drive,” Nathan replied, then reached for the first aid kit, hoping he was prepared enough for whatever they were about to find.

 

The airbag on the driver’s side had kept Ezra from being tossed around too much. He was a little dazed when they opened the door and deflated the bag. His nose had bled down the front of his shirt, but it looked like the bleeding had tapered off. On closer inspection, it also looked like he would be sporting a couple of black eyes.

 

“You okay?” Chris asked, placing a gentle hand on the boy’s cheek.

 

“My nose.” Ezra reached up, and gingerly touched his nose.

 

“You hurting anywhere else?” Chris unhitched the seatbelt and waited for an answer. “Your neck?”

 

Ezra shook his head. “Just . . . my face hurts.”

 

“The airbag must have smacked him in the nose,” Chris informed Nathan as he carefully eased the boy out of the car and into Nathan’s capable hands.

 

“No way can we get this door open,” Buck said from the other side of the car. The pole was right up against the door handle.

 

Vin’s eyes were closed, but he had a frown on his face. Chris was thankful that the airbag on the passenger’s side had either been disabled or had malfunctioned. He couldn’t see any injuries, no blood. Still, he had yet to move. “Vin?” Chris called out to the boy, as he took Ezra’s place in the driver’s seat.  He didn’t open his eyes, but his head turned slightly toward Chris, the frown deepened. 

 

Chris reached over and gently tapped his cheek. “Hey cowboy, time to wake up.”

 

Vin’s lower lip quivered and a tear slid down his cheek.

 

Chris brushed the tear away. “Vin, can you open your eyes for me?”

 

Slowly, he opened his eyes, blinking several times before looking at Chris.

 

Chris smiled, too thankful to be upset at the moment. “You hurtin’ anywhere?”

 

Vin thought for a moment, before nodding slowly and reaching for the side of his head.

 

Chris leaned around to get a better look, not wanting him to move too much yet. “Got a good-sized goose egg there, pard. But, you’ll live.” There was also a good-sized gash that was still bleeding, but he didn’t want to scare the kid. “Doc, how’s Ezra?”

 

“He’s okay,” Nathan answered from the ground a few feet away. “Mostly just shaken up. Might have a broken nose, but there ain’t much I can do for that, right now. ”

 

“Vin seems okay, could use a little bandaging. I’m gonna let you take over before we move him.”

 

Chris unfastened the seatbelt and was about to instruct Vin to stay still until Nathan took a look at him. Before he got a word out Vin was out of the seat and had both arms wrapped around Chris’ neck.  “Okay, okay. I got ya.”

 

Chris held on and carefully backed his way out of the car. Once they were clear and standing in the ditch, Nathan laid a hand on the boy’s back.  “How you doin’ Vin?” he asked in a gentle voice.

 

Vin didn’t answer; he just buried his face against Chris’ neck, holding on tightly.

 

Chris glanced at Ezra. Buck was kneeling in front of him, holding an icepack in one hand and cleaning the blood off his face with the other. “Vin,” he said to the boy trembling in his arms. “Nathan needs to take a look at that bump on your head, okay?”

 

Vin nodded, but didn’t let go.

 

Chris held up a finger, gesturing for the doctor to give them a moment, then he turned and walked a few steps away. “Hey pard, you scared me half to death,” he whispered, his voice shaky. “Thank God you’re okay.” He took another couple steps, then turned back, thankful that he was able to hold the boy, thankful he’d been given another chance and vowing not to take moments like these for granted. He rubbed Vin’s back, calming and reassuring himself as much as the boy.

 

“’m sorry.” Chris heard the barely audible words carried on a half sob, and suddenly felt light-headed. He turned to the others, his eyes wide, not entirely sure it hadn’t been his imagination. A look at Nathan’s encouraging smile, then Buck’s open-mouthed expression of shock assured him that it had been real.

 

Vin’s head hurt, but he also felt very guilty for what they’d done, for worrying the others -- for worrying Chris. He knew they could have been hurt much worse, even been killed. And he knew how hard that would have been for Chris, because he knew how hard it would be for him if something ever happened to Chris.  Just the thought of that made it hard to breathe, made him feel as if he were drowning. If it were ever to happen, he knew he wouldn’t have the will or the strength to keep holding on anymore.  So he held on now, as tight as he could.

 

“Vin?” Chris tried to pull him back, wanted to see his face, but Vin wasn’t ready to let go.

 

He listened to the boy’s sniffles, hearing Nathan mildly scolding Ezra from a few feet away. “I can’t believe you drove off in your momma’s car, without a driver’s license. If I was her I’d take you over my knee.”

 

Buck had moved up beside Chris and Vin, and put his arms loosely around them both. The three of them just stood there not saying anything for a long time. “Don’t ever scare me like that again, kiddo,” Buck finally said, his eyes were solemn, moist from tears, but the next moment he smiled. “How ‘bout you let Nate take a look at you so we can go spring your buddy JD?”

 

Vin did release his death grip on Chris then, leaning back to gauge their sincerity. He nodded, instead of answering verbally as they’d hoped. Chris wondered if Vin even realized he’d spoken, then figured it was probably best not to push anything, to let the process continue naturally and give Vin a little more time to work it out himself. 

 

Chris knew he should reprimand the boys. What they’d done had been wrong, dangerous, foolish, and a number of other things, but he was having trouble wiping the stupid grin off his face. When he noticed Buck wore a matching one, he figured they’d have to wait ‘til later to let the boys have it. 

 

Or maybe not.

 

“I got a mind to take you over my knee, personally,” Nathan muttered to Vin as he tenderly cleaned and bandaged the boy’s head wound. “And don’t think I won’t. You too,” he said, turning his glare on Ezra, who had the sense to look contrite. “You boys know better than to pull something like that . . . scaring the life out of me . . . worryin’ everyone like ya did . . . Ya ought to be ashamed of yo’selves . . . what am I gonna do with ya . . ..

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Once they’d gotten the boys cleaned up, they’d driven a ways further before pulling off the road. They’d had to leave the sports car in the ditch; unfortunately it was past fixing.  It was early afternoon, so they had a lot of time to spare before they would even attempt to go near the camp. They spent the afternoon looking over the map they had, going over details of the camp, and generally bouncing ideas off of each other to try and come up with the best plan they could.  At dusk they got back on the road, and continued on their way, parking the truck in a secluded area, a safe distance from the camp.

 

Nearby El Paso hadn’t been entirely destroyed, although significant parts of it had. Supposedly there was no radiation lingering there, but it was still a very dangerous place, ruled by violent gangs. The camp was several miles outside of the city, and mostly women and children resided there, but Ezra had warned them about the gang members that were often present, for ‘entertainment purposes’. Wickes not only ran the camp like a brothel, he also had a still, and apparently a generous supply of other drugs, making it a popular place for the gangs.  Chris couldn’t help but wonder what the man got in exchange for the things he offered.

 

They would have liked to been given a little more time to work out a better plan. Chris thought it might have been possible for them to pose as gang members, to get in and out of the camp a bit easier, but that was not to be.  The more they’d thought about it and discussed it, the more each of the men believed that they needed to get that poor little kid out of there, as soon as possible.

 

It was after dark when they approached the camp itself, on foot. Chris, Buck and Nathan stood outside the fence, studying the layout, and the large house near the center of the camp. They’d decided to wait a few hours after the camp had settled down for the night before they would venture inside.

 

There were several small tents inside the fence. A small wooden building stood about fifty yards away, between the fence and the big house. It was apparently set up for laundry, with lines of clothing strung from the side of the building to another larger building, more toward the middle of the grounds, that they figured was a mess hall of sorts. There had been women and children in and out of the smaller building all evening. A handful of rough-looking guards were seated at a picnic table outside of the mess hall, drinking and playing cards. The men had seemed disinterested in the other activities going on, but would pause in their game to give the women a hard time whenever one would have to pass by their table.

 

Around midnight the occupants had settled down, the guards had disappeared and everything became quiet. Other than the moon’s illumination, there wasn’t much light inside the camp. There was a faint glow on the first level of the house, as well as a faint glow coming from the upstairs bedroom that they were presuming was occupied by the boy, JD.

 

Still they waited, until finally, around 3 am, they decided the time was right. Chris began to snip the wire, starting at the bottom of the fence and working up until he had made a suitable entryway. He would have liked to make the slit more obvious, giving the occupants at least a temporary means of escape, but he didn’t want to raise any suspicions, or draw attention before they could get away. He told himself that he’d make sure the hole was obvious before they left, though.

 

“Ezra said there’s a back stairway, off the kitchen,” Nathan whispered. “But remember, you’ll have to go right by Wickes’ room.”

 

They’d parked the truck less than a mile away and left the two boys there – hoping they’d be safer there than if they would have accompanied them to the camp.  Chris had left the keys to the truck and given Ezra some basic driving instructions, although Ezra’s toes only touched the peddles when he sat on the edge of the seat. He’d also left Vin his rifle, just incase anything went wrong.

 

“I’ll go in,” Buck said, giving Chris a hearty pat on the shoulder. Up until then they hadn’t made any decisions on which one would go in, and Buck was fully expecting Chris to argue. “You and the doc stay here, incase I need backup.”

 

“Beauty before age?” Chris asked wryly, sounding a little put out.

 

“Well, that goes without saying, stud,” Buck grinned, tapping his firm abdomen. “Can’t help that I got the body and stamina of a twenty-year-old.”

 

Chris couldn’t help but chuckle softly. “Right, you keep telling yourself that, stud.”

 

Buck gave them a wink and started to go through the fence.

 

“Watch your back,” Chris cautioned, sincerely.

 

Buck nodded and climbed through the fence, then stealthily moved across the yard, to the house.  He was a little amazed at how easily the lock opened. He was expecting to have at least a little trouble getting inside, or to find some sort of an alarm system in place.  Most places weren’t able to have any sort of high tech alarm system, so they used dogs or set up handmade contraptions that would warn them of an intruder. The kitchen was dark, except for a very faint glow from a lamp out in the foyer. The only sound he heard was the hum of the refrigerator motor. Hopefully things would stay that way.  He looked around carefully but found no traps, nothing rigged up to go off as an alarm.

 

Quietly he ascended the stairs, pausing to check the hallway before he reached the top. It seemed that everyone was asleep, and he could see no ‘booby-traps’ set up there either. There were four doors, two on each side. Buck looked down at the second door on the left, which was supposed to be JD’s and said a little prayer that it actually was. Silently he walked toward the door, thinking that it seemed an awful long way – or maybe it just felt like that.  He checked the door, finding it locked, so he reached into his pocket and pulled out his tool, again thankful to whomever it was that had invented such a nifty thing. He’d kept a few items from his days on the force, mostly the things he’d had on him that last day. After the riots they’d attempted to retrieve some of his things from his condo, only to find that the building had been burned to the ground.

 

He picked the lock, easily. Still amazed that things were going so well, he stepped into the room, dimly lit with the soft glow of a nightlight. Right there on the bed was the boy. He took several breaths, listening for any sounds before starting across the room toward the boy. The wooden floor creaked beneath his feet, halting him in the middle of the room. He felt sweat drip down the side of his face as he stood there frozen, and realized his heart was thudding in his chest, in his ears; he wondered if that sound alone would wake up everyone in the house.

 

After several minutes that felt like an hour, he took another deep breath and continued toward the bed, stopping at its side. He looked down at the small figure, and was instantly reminded of Chris’ son. The boy might have been a year or two older than Adam, but he seemed so small. For a brief moment he worried about Chris; Would Chris see the similarities? Would being able to save this boy help Chris, or cause him more pain? 

 

First things first, he told himself.  He needed to actually get the kid out of there, and then he’d worry about the rest. Looking down as he carefully pulled the blankets away, he couldn’t help smiling at the way the boy’s arms sprawled up, over his head. He was so damned small, and so damned cute. Shiny black hair, round rosy cheeks, long dark eyelashes – hell, the kid looked like one of those little cherubs from a Hallmark card.

 

He was just about to lift him from the bed, wondering on the chances of getting the kid out without waking him up, when two dark eyes popped open. “Who’re you?” the kid asked, a little too loud for Buck’s comfort. Suddenly, the eyes were filled with fear, and his chin began to quiver.

 

“Shh . . .” Buck tried to smile, tried to look kind, but he was starting to get nervous and jumpy. “I come to get you out of here, JD,” he whispered. “I’m gonna take you to see Vin.”

 

“Vin!” Just like that the kid sat up, looking ecstatic and then Buck heard a noise from somewhere down the hall.

 

“Shi . . . shoot.” He looked around the room then quickly and quietly closed the door. There was no lock on the inside, but there was an old wooden desk with a plastic chair in the corner of the room. He grabbed the chair and wedged it under the doorknob, knowing it wouldn’t hold anyone off for long, then he went to the window. “We’re gonna have to climb out this way.” Chris, I hope you’re payin’ attention, out there.

 

The boy was sitting up, his bare feet dangling over the side of the bed, looking at him with wide eyes. “Where’s your shoes, lil’ bit?” he asked, searching the floor.

 

The boy practically bounced down from the bed, got on his hands and knees and stuck his head under the frame. A moment later he reappeared with a pair of dirty tattered canvas sneakers that were tiny, yet looked a few sizes too big for him. “These was Vin’s!” he said, holding them up proudly.

 

Buck heard footsteps coming nearer, but smiled at the boy anyway as he kneeled to help him slip the shoes on. “There ya go.” Quickly he stood, pulling the top sheet off of the bed. It wouldn’t be long enough to reach the ground, but at least it would be a little better than dropping the kid from the window.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Outside, Chris was getting antsy.  He couldn’t take his eyes off the bedroom window. When he saw a shadow cross the curtains, he felt some sense of relief, cautious as it was. Buck must have made it to the room, but he wasn’t out yet.

 

Then another light turned on, and Chris sucked in a deep breath. “ Somebody’s awake.”

 

“Damn,” Nathan muttered, glancing nervously from one bedroom window to the other. He saw the curtains part, and a tall figure at the boy’s window and he was sure that his heart skipped a beat, or two.

 

“I’m going in,” Chris said, already climbing through the fence. “If anything happens you get the boys home safe then come back with reinforcements.”

 

Nathan nodded, knowing it was the most sensible plan, but not liking the thought of possibly having to leave Chris and Buck behind.

 

Chris was already half way across the yard, so there wasn’t much he could do except keep watch . . . and send up a prayer that Josiah’s God was keeping watch over them, too.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

“See the man coming through the fence?” Buck pointed toward the section of fence where he saw Chris slide through. “I want you to hold onto this sheet, real tight. I’m gonna lower you out the window and as soon as you can you need to be real brave and drop to the ground and run for the man. His name’s Chris and he’s gonna take you to Vin.”

 

“What’s your name?” The little boy asked, looking up at Buck with solemn eyes.

 

“My name’s Buck.”

 

“You’re coming too, ain’t ya Buck?” JD tilted his head, now looking worried.

 

“I sure am, but you gotta go first, okay?”

 

JD looked out the window, then back up at Buck. “It’s kinda far.”

 

“You can do it,” Buck assured him. “C’mon now.” He helped JD climb up to the ledge, and was thankful to see Chris was already right below them. “Now, hold on tight,” he reminded, then he lowered him over the side. Buck leaned out, watching, keeping a grip on the other end of the sheet. The kid hung on tenaciously until he was about half way and then he let go, dropping right on top of Chris and knocking him on his rear.

 

Chris got to his feet right away, and set the boy on his feet as well. “C’mon Buck,” he whispered loudly, looking up at the window.

 

Buck hesitated a moment, turning back when the doorknob jiggled. “Shit,” he cursed and began climbing out the window.

 

“JD!” A man’s voice yelled and suddenly someone was pounding on the door.

Buck cursed again, realizing that he was going to have to jump for it. He didn’t waste any time thinking about it further; he twisted around, grabbing onto the frame, then swinging his lanky body outside. He felt the aluminum ridges digging painfully into his fingers and let go sooner than he’d intended. The big man landed hard on the ground and before he could take inventory of his body, Chris had his bicep in a death grip and was pulling him to his feet. The two men ran, with Buck limping, hoping his ankle wouldn’t give out. Each of them held tightly to JD’s hands as they pulled him along between them.

 

Before they were past the laundry building, they heard men shouting, followed by gunfire. “In there,” Chris shouted, pushing them toward the small building.

 

Buck pushed the little boy between two stacks of wash bins then took one from the top and placed it in front of him, pretty much covering the small figure.  “You stay put, little one,” he said firmly, waiting for a nod before he got up and went to the window. Chris was still at the door, firing at whomever was firing at them. Buck wasn’t even sure how many they were up against; he just pulled his Sig from its holster and took aim.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Vin and Ezra had sat as patiently as they could until they heard the sound of gunfire erupting in the distance.  The two boys looked at each other and Vin reached for his rifle on the floor of the truck. Ezra, with his two black eyes and a swollen nose, gave Vin a determined nod then each boy simultaneously reached for a door handle and climbed out of the truck.

 

Vin remembered Chris’ words, telling him to stay put, telling the boys to drive back to the Mission if anything happened to them. Then he’d left, along with Buck and Nathan and ever since Vin had been remembering a set of similar instructions, given by his father. As he’d sat in the truck waiting for Chris, the images played through his mind, over and over, scene after terrifying scene.

 

He remembered his father hiding him, handing him the rifle and telling him to stay put; telling him to follow the river to the Mission if anything were to happen to him. He could almost hear the men’s voices, their taunting and ugly laughter as they hurt his father. He remembered not knowing whether to come out or not, wanting to help, but afraid, waiting and waiting for what seemed like an eternity. Then, he pictured his father lying on the ground, bloody and battered, eyes open and staring, face swollen, almost unrecognizable. Something inside him had broken then – or that’s what it had felt like -- and he’d blocked those images out of his mind, had kept them locked away – until tonight when they had all come rushing back to him.

 

When he heard the shooting, he knew that there was no way he could follow Chris’ instructions. There wasn’t anything he could do to help his dad, but he could still help Chris and Buck and Nathan. He couldn’t sit by and do nothing . . . again.

 

They approached the camp silently, easily hiding among the rocks and scarce trees that made up the landscape surrounding the camp. Vin could see several guards, trying to stay low on one side of the root cellar and a couple of others taking cover behind an outhouse. He almost laughed at the scene before him, watching as the guards fired occasionally at the laundry room, then ducked to avoid the return fire. Wickes and his men might have some protection from Chris, Buck and Nathan, but they were completely exposed to him and Ezra. 

 

Then they realized someone else was firing from the rocks outside the fence, several yards away from them.  Vin pulled Ezra down, and kept watching as the men inside the camp returned fire.

 

Obviously whoever was shooting from the rocks was no friend of Wickes, but he had no idea which one of the men it was.

 

Ezra pulled a small derringer from his jacket and held it for Vin to see. Vin nodded, resting the barrel of his rifle carefully across the rock as he lined up his site.  He felt the rifle’s kick, once . . . twice . . . three times . . ..  He knew Ezra had fired off a shot or two, as well.  His ears were ringing, there was an acrid smell in the air and in what seemed like no time at all they’d taken out at least four of the men, and possibly hit others. The remaining men were running for better cover, trying to dodge the new assault on their exposed rear.

 

“Vin!” They heard a familiar voice, and Vin recognized the other person shooting from the rocks was Nathan, which meant Chris and Buck were inside the laundry room. He felt a familiar panicky surge inside his chest and tried to push it back, knowing it wouldn’t do any good. He looked back toward the house, and wondered where JD was and if they’d gotten him out.

 

He saw Nathan’s shoulders and his baseball cap covered head, approaching, ducking behind the rocks then making a dash across a small clearing to join them behind the cluster of smooth rocks they were hiding behind.  “What do you two think you’re doin’?” he asked harshly, pulling the boys down beside him.

 

Before either of them could answer, a huge explosion rocked the entire camp. All three of them rose to peer over the rocks, just as Chris pulled his automatic rifle back, and slid back inside the doorway.  There were huge flames shooting from a point just beyond the mess hall, black and gray smoke billowing upwards, standing out against the already dark sky.

 

Then they saw three figures moving away from the laundry building, running across the yard in their direction. Chris and Buck – who was limping badly -- and a little figure that had to be JD. More shots were fired and Chris pushed Buck and JD toward an outhouse, then dove for cover along with them. Chris peered around a corner, raised his rifle and blew a hole clean through the corner of the main house.  A handful of men immediately jumped back, away from the protection of the house and Vin took the opportunity to steady his own rifle, aim and then fire three consecutive shots. 

 

Everything grew quiet then. It took several minutes for the smoke to clear, although what they now knew was a gas tank still burned brightly, lighting up most of the camp. The sun was coming up too and finally, they were able to take a good look around. From what they could tell, none of Wickes’ men were left standing.

 

A few of the residents began hesitantly coming out of their tents. Mostly women, looking bewildered, not bold enough to walk out in the open but they were looking around, trying to figure out what was happening -- possibly hoping whatever it was meant their liberation.

 

Buck set JD on the ground, and he and Chris walked around the bullet-riddled outhouse, weapons still at the ready. When Vin saw them lower their weapons and start talking to each other, he figured that had to be a sign that everything was under control.

 

Almost before he even realized what he was doing, he was standing in front of the rock, waving his hands. “JD!” he yelled, then froze, both shocked and amazed to have heard the sound of his voice.  His head whipped back to look at Nathan and Ezra, wanting to see if they’d heard it too. Nathan smiled at him, and slung both of their rifles over his shoulder, then held out his hand, glaring at Ezra and his gun.

 

“It’s my mother’s,” Ezra protested.

 

“Then I’ll give it back to her when we get back to the Mission,” Nathan insisted. “You take anything else that belongs to your mother?”

 

“No,” he said, handing over the derringer. “Not that it would matter, she’s going to kill me, regardless.”

 

Vin turned back to see JD running toward him, followed more slowly by Chris and Buck. “Vin! Vin! Ez! Ez!”

 

“Ez-RA,” Ezra grumbled automatically, not loud enough for anyone but them to hear.

 

He watched as JD slowed, pausing to look at one of the bodies then making a wide berth around it. Vin could tell it was Wickes, even from where he was. 

 

Vin gazed at the body, wondering why he didn’t feel particularly glad the man was dead. He thought he’d feel happy, or relieved that the man had got what was coming to him, but Vin found that he didn’t really feel anything at all.  Then JD was climbing through the fence, wearing a too-big t-shirt, dingy, gray long johns, and his old shoes – but he looked good to Vin, and by the way Ezra was grinning, Vin reckoned that he must think so too. 

 

Vin was so happy to see JD, so elated that Chris and Buck were alive, and nothing bad had happened to any of them that he almost missed the movement from Wickes’ body as Chris and Buck walked past it -- almost.

 

Time stood still as he watched Wickes’ body twist on the ground, his eyes open, one arm stretch out slowly, a gun held in his hand.

 

Horrified, Vin looked at Nathan, at his gun that was strapped over Nathan’s shoulder. Nathan was smiling at JD; Ezra was too, neither one paying any attention to the renewed threat, the man trying to aim his gun at Chris and Buck.  His voice failed him again, as he tried to cry out and warn the two men who meant everything to him. This can’t be happening, he thought helplessly even as it played out before his eyes. But then, in the blink of an eye, Buck spun around, gun raised at his hip and fired off one deadly shot that landed right between Wickes’ eyes.

 

Vin suddenly felt a little dizzy, his ears were ringing and there were tiny specks of light floating before his eyes. He could hear voices, people talking, but it all sounded muffled and far away.

 

“Breathe, pard.” This voice was closer, and he took a deep breath, and then another, as he felt himself lifted in the air, a pair of strong arms holding onto him. “You okay, cowboy?” murmured in his ear. And then time resumed.

 

~ ~ * * ~ ~

 

Epilogue

 

 

Nathan yawned then shook his head to keep himself awake. “Is there any of that coffee left?” He looked into the rearview mirror, but Buck was sound asleep with Ezra tucked under one arm, and JD under the other.

 

Beside him, Vin twisted around in his seat, reached back and grasped the thermos, handing it over to Nathan.

 

It was cold, but he drank it anyway. “Somebody talk to me or pop a tape in, or something.”

 

Leaning forward, Vin opened the glove compartment and began rooting around for a tape.

 

From the back seat, Buck yawned then sat up straighter. “Make sure it ain’t one of them awful jazz tapes of Larabee’s, though. Play something good.”

 

“Shut up, Buck,” Chris said without heat.

 

“There should be a couple of Elvis tapes up there.”

 

“No there’s not,” Chris replied, just as Vin pulled out an Elvis tape. Chris winked at him. “I used them to get a campfire going, a couple weeks ago.”

 

‘That ain’t even funny, Larabee.”

 

Vin tossed the Elvis tape back into the glove box, and put in a Journey tape, and Chris turned around to look at Buck. “How you feelin’ pard?”

 

“Ankle hurts, but I’m doing okay.”

 

“You get to hurtin’ too bad, you just let me know,” Nathan told him, glancing back in the rearview mirror.

 

“I will. It sure will be nice to have a few more women around to pretty up things,” Buck commented distractedly, a silly grin on his face.

 

All together there had been about 20 women and dozen or more children in Wickes’ camp. Chris had made the offer for any that wanted to come back to the Mission, thinking that staying at the camp, so close to El Paso, would be too dangerous. Several were now riding comfortably on a mattress in the back of the pickup truck. The rest had chosen to strike out on their own, or go in search of lost relatives. There’d been two old Astro vans, thankfully each with full tanks of gas, parked in a garage at the camp. The women and children had loaded them with supplies and headed out at the same time Chris had. 

 

In the barn, they’d found a crapload of  generators, some never before used, along with some water purifiers, livestock and a few other things they could use at the Mission. There’d also been a root cellar full of canned foods, bottled wine and other liquor. Unfortunately, they hadn’t been able to fit much else into the back of his truck. Chris was still debating on whether or not they should return to the camp later – after dropping off their passengers -- to stock up on some of the things they could use, before any others helped themselves to the supplies.

 

Nathan yawned again and Chris looked over at him. “If you need me to drive, just say the word.”

 

“I should be okay.”

 

“I could drive,” Ezra said helpfully, from the backseat. Chris’ truck was an automatic, and Chris had given him instructions on how to operate it.

 

“Over my dead body,” Nathan muttered.

 

Buck burst out laughing. “That’d be a sure thing if we let ol’ Ez here behind the wheel.”

 

“I can drive! I just got confused before!”

 

Chris heard a giggle from Vin and gave the boy a squeeze. “What d’ya think, cowboy?” Vin shook his head adamantly then snuggled closer. He knew for sure that he wouldn’t be driving anywhere with Ezra for a long, long time.

 

“How about the next time we plan on sneakin’ into one of those camps,” Buck proposed, “we let Ez take the guards out for a little joyride beforehand.”

 

“I do not find that the least bit humorous, Mr. Wilmington.”

 

“I bet your momma ain’t gonna find any humor in what you did to her car, either,” said Nathan.

 

“Buck!” A new voice suddenly rang out. “I gotta go -- bad!”

 

Nathan didn’t waste a moment pulling over to the side of the road. 

 

“I can take him,” Chris offered, craning his neck to look around the headrest.

 

“Nah,” Buck replied. “I’m okay.”

 

As Nathan waited for Buck and little JD to return from their ‘pit stop’, he thought about his beautiful wife and daughter, and how much he longed for them. Were they alive? Were they stuck in some hellhole of a camp like the one they’d just left? The thought that anyone would treat his sweet, compassionate Raine and innocent little Natalie the way Wickes had treated those women made his heart break.

 

A moment later, Buck opened the door and boosted JD into the back seat then climbed in after him. “I made a river!” the kid declared proudly, causing them all to snicker.

 

Chris waited until they were on the road again, before quietly asking, “You okay, Doc?”

 

Nathan wiped a tear from his cheek; he hadn’t even realized it had fallen.  “Yeah.”

 

“We’ll find ‘em, Nate,” Chris assured, knowing what his friend was thinking – wanting to offer some sort of comfort, wishing he could do more. “Ya gotta keep believing that.”

 

Nathan’s family was on his mind always, but sometimes their absence just seemed to hurt more. They’d managed to rescue so many people from the camps, and every time he couldn’t help but hope that this would be the time that he’d find his own wife and child. There were times when it all got to be too much and he just wasn’t sure he could keep on going.

 

Vin reached over and placed his small hand on Nathan’s and just left it there as they drove. He glanced down at Vin and caught the meaning in the vivid blue eyes that looked back at him. Vin was telling Nathan the same thing Chris had, and Nathan knew in his heart it was true.

 

A new song came over the speakers, one he vaguely remembered hearing a long time ago. It took a moment for the words to sink in, but oddly, the melodic voice was telling him the same thing.  Don’t stop believing.  It could have been coincidence – probably was, but he chose to think it was a sign, purposely meant to give him hope. 

 

In the world they lived in, you needed hope and something to believe in just to make it through the day.

 

 

 

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