I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because you know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid Because of you Because of you


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sok mei?!.. looks bitchy in my opinion..
have been ghost squadin' every week.. every free minutes and seconds.. cant believe we'r at lv 99.. so cool.. so happy for tong tong that he's still @ the top of the list for the gs contest @ 50k.. tongtong ho ging ah.. heheee~ we need to find a way to beat 70k for teamin tho.. 64k cant believe it..

|1|YES! i finished my automobile retailer report, full colour, 27pages, fully answered, fully analyized, printed and binded, started from scratch, and done in 12 straight hours.. havent been that gig dung for soo long! that felt so damn good~ i just love the feelin of rush..
|2|guess i will be back to normal from today on.. auntie pang's back.. lol.. well.. 4 more weeks of school and i will be free again.. still cant believe i went to ALL my classes today.. well i guess if i havent seen my english prof in the elevator i guess i wouldnt still be in school right now.. surprised that he recongized me and i havent been in english class for months.. so i gotta go.. no choice i guess..
|3|funni that a stoOopid body shop cant get the paint right for 4 times.. tongtong's benbenz beeen in there for a whole month straight.. wonder what they r doing with it.. ^__^"
|4|this week is the week for me to catch back my work before end of term.. let me remind myself with a checklist..
| |3 english esays
| |1 visual culture essay
| |design process journal
| |design process coperate + brand
| |re-do graphic communication workz to get a higher mark (which i really need if i want to go to year two)
aiya.. it just looks like i'll never et em done.. T___T~

|1|awwW shittz.. visual culture mid term exam's in 3 hours.. and im still xanga-ing + updating + tagging + *sigh*.. gonna cheat again.. oO yeah.. meow meow meow~
|2|itz not gonna be bad.. wallace + ling + kk + i studied for 8hours @ commercez destiny.. how bad could it be.. want my 60 n i m fine! ^___^
|3|yess.. so a new tag board is added.. + finally fixed the link hovering problem b/c it was pissing me off.. yup.. right before mid term exam.
|4|bad news? oO yeah.. cant believe that PAS mag realli wanna eat 3P up.. sad.. gang gang tim..


|1|jcke + chel = din por + sor por
yeah.. so.. who is ur lo gong dani-O?!.. w/ a white RSX Type-S soon? i wanna meet him.. letz go drink sometime.. *wAhahaaaa*
|2|whoA~ last 2 weeks was NON-STOP.. and it just passed by *snap* just like that.. bad luck dayz + auto show + 3 rooms mixed up @ Galaxy + away from home + away from work + away from homework + rushin of a 4 weeks group project till the last 12hrs.. and finally back to school now.. and noticed that mid term is THIS week.. oO.. holy mAda.. need to catch up wif life! (+ i finally cleaned my room..oo yeAh!)
|3|i have been @ the auto show everyday for 6 days straight.. except for tongtongz "dead after b ball" night.. mm.. i guess stock cars are realli my favouritez.. too bored looking @ modified carz.. street cars look ALL the same.. show cars are ALWAYZ the same cars.. some are even OVER-done that distroyed its own identity..


||me + 2 TRD's iconz (cant buy or touch em else where).. ho duk yeee.. i felt in love with em last year.. 2004 Darknightz..
||when to the auto show on wednesday for media day with tongtong.. met a lot of ppl.. especially that TRD booth designer.. b/c he lend me those 2 green fur ballz for a picture.. hehee.. but i will have to say that the highlight of wednesday was the all new honda ridgeline 4X4 pickup.. i just couldnt take my eyes off it.. saturn's sky was amazing as well.. quite an amazing show this year.. but one day really wasnt enough.. was so tired as well.. only had 3 hrs of sleep on the day before.. after the show.. i was still doing arcade, pui tongtong da bball, 3P teasers on forums.. didnt sleep until 4am.. and yes.. i couldnt wake up on the next morning and forgot about jae..
||thursday.. exciting one.. suppose to go back to the show for another day of photography.. instead, tongtong told me to drive him to get his benz back.. drove down and saw a sunfire stuck right under an 18wheelers on 401.. ai.. scary shiitz.. anyway.. car wasnt ready so we smoked up.. tongtong went coo-coO again.. hehe.. funny shiitz..
||PEOPLE.. come visit 3P @ the auto show in skydome on the 100 level..^___^

||fucked over and over again..
||car crashed (plus almost died) + hot soupped + car got broke in + speeding ticket.. that happened to me in less then a week.. anyway.. i hope as long as i follow ALL the rules from now on.. i'll be okay.. hopefully.. T__T~
||thankyou tongtong for being w/ me for the whole week.. my bad luck didnt scared u away mei?! sorry for making u so frustrated.. shocked.. et cetera et cetera.. and soO sorry for crying in the middle of nowhere.. that scared u didnt it?.. hahaa.. anyway.. thankyou for being lang jai actor for my coca-cola clips.. thankyou for handling my problems efficiently.. thankyou for having a hide-out for me.. thankyou for that superb v-day dinner that u cooked.. thankyou verii muchii.. w/o u i guess i got killed by my bad luck already..

||wow.. that was an exciting chinese new year for me.. first day of chinese new year i crashed my car.. second day of it i got souped from a restaurant in downtown t.o.. oo yeah.. boiling hot ones.. third day someone broke into my car yanked my deck + 20 oringinal cds + some.. tempons.. exciting wasnt it?
||now.. before chinese new year came.. mom told me that its gonna be a bad year for the year of rat (me).. so she gave me a lil snake jade for me to block some of the bad luck.. guess it did.. otherwise i'll be dead on the night of the crash.. since i was right beside an 18 wheeler.. if my car got caught under that fucking truck.. im sure i wont be in the hospital..
||on the other hand.. 3 bad things happened to me ALL at once.. gwai loz have a saying that.. after 3 bad things happened to you somethings good gonna be returned.. i hope its true.. because i'm getting my super 7z + 649z today since today's the 4th day.. hehehee..
||as well in the newest album of edison chanz Hazy.. theres a track named Grown Man -> "what doesnt kill me can only make me stronger".. this is gonna be true.. oo yeah..
||at last.. thankyou tongtong for being with me throughout.. i o u.. well.. i guess i just have to "yi sun sheung hui".. hahaaa..


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR GUYS! KUNG HEY FAT CHOI! wish all OCADs hok yip jun boe.. wish all workinz si doi gong sing.. wish everybody sun tai gin hong~ YEAH~ come out yum cha + chill chill ma?

woAH~ just skipped the day today.. that Alberta thingy wont be due until after study week.. no point of going to class?! ..and i hvnt started on the 750wds research essay for english thatz due today so no point as well.. =P skool suckzzzZ!
so i spent the day driving in a rainy weather.. drove mom to exhibition place.. pretended to go to school.. ;) then i drove to Pearson to look for tongtong..spyed him in the parking lot.. wasted $3 for a 0 min parking..
tongtong..whoz so stupid that didnt bring his house keys and his parents r actually leaving T.O until the 28th.. locked out?! no.. he was smart enough to tell his dad to leave his keys to one of those Air Can. attendents.. however no one.. absolutly no one was willing to help.. (baaaAd service man.. )nth he could hv done so we went back to oakville.. just when we arrived home.. Air Can. called said that they found his keys.. GREAT! then we had to run back to Pearson.. yeah~ he got his keys~ end of story!
when back to oakville for some home-cookin steaks + french fries (yumm~) and movie w/ desert and a sweet round of excercise.. and stuck in downtown traffic for 2 hrs just to pick up my mom on richmond and back to markham..
funni how some people have 4 cars.. 4 drive-able vehicles.. but wud just loOOOove to take the bus + taxi for $25.. =)

worked my ass off for the week.. im tired.. im emotional.. i feel so shitti.. mission accomplished for today.. work + school + did smth that i realli didnt hv to do.. great.. just great..
read a passage somewhere in xanga tonight.. its about love.. its about how it is suppose to be and the consequences.. deep! it realli was worth thinking about.. i wrote it down on my desk just to hv some thinking onto it.. BBLAH! dun even know watz going on anyway.. in so much misery.. so lost.. in the hazy weather tonight..

envy + jealousy.. is it?
..got some advices + comments + opinions from some other guy frds.. from a question "what can u do if u see a person u dun wanna see everynight in ur dream..?" from my MSN user name.. as well as question two.. "why would it start after almost an year?" and question three.. "would u trash/hide pics/items of ur ex when u'r wif ur current? and why?" thx guys.. appreciated!

yes.. new webbi.. i am starting all over again with other webbi.. *ai*
damn.. everytime i get a new camera i start new shitz like this.. and i realli dun have time for this.. anyway.. i guess i just need to learn to edit it a lil by lil and not over one night..
holy ma-da.. i am so freakin' frustrated.. >__<"" i cant sleep.. and yes.. i am scare to fall asleep.. dim gai dim gai?!.. ....it is embarasing to say this.. but i see this particular someone that i dun wanna see everynight in my dreams (i dun wanna see this person even anytime in my life span).. aside from this.. there's also tension in the dream.. every freaking morning i wake up after this dream.. it just feels like i never slept.. and yes.. ive seen this dream (exactly same version)for 5 or 6 times..
so.. what can u do if u see a person u dun wanna see everynight in ur dream..? and what does it mean? am i too stress? am i thinking too much?.. arr.. i am so tired of this bullshit..

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