I am unable to concentrate on my lessons.
I feel despair settling over me.

I am being torn in two.
My mind is in turmoil.
My heart does nothing but ache.
Confusion fills my days.
I am angry and hurtful towards others.

How could I love someone still when he has betrayed me time and again. And now I have proof the of his betrayal. I am starting to feel nothing but anger towards him. How dare he do this to me again. How dare he cause this constant pain in my heart.

Do I mean nothing at all?

Obviously.

And yet there is another who claims to have feelings for me.
But how can I trust him?
How can I ever trust again the pretty words that fall from a man’s lips?
I cannot help but think that is all they are…pretty words.

Now Zakon has gone.
Who do I turn to for wisdom now?
Who can I turn to?