Fumbling Towards Ecstasy


All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
it's my mouth that pours out this breath
& if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
& if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Companion to our demons they will dance
& they will play
With chairs, candles & clothes
making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in on upstream
or down without a thought
& if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
& if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle to find peace
Comfort on the way to comfort
& if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
& if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love...
I won't fear love...
I won't fear love...

Wait

Under a blackened sky far beyond the glaring streetlights sleeping on empty dreams the vultures lie in wait.
You lay down beside me then you were with me every waking hour so close I could feel your breath.
When all we wanted was the dream to have & to hold that precious little thing like every generation yields, the new born hope unjaded by their years.
Pressed up against the glass I found myself wanting sympathy but to be consumed again.
Oh, I know would be the death of me & there is a love that's inherently given, a kind of blindness often to deceived & in that light of forbidden joy.
Oh, I know I won't receive it.
When all we wanted was to dream to have & to hold that precious little thing like every generation yields the newborn hope unjaded by their years.
You know if I leave you now it doesn't mean that I love you any less, it's just the state i'm in.
I can't be good to anyone else like this.
When all we wanted was the dream to have & to hold that precious little thing like every generation yields, the newborn hope unjaded by their years....
And if I leave you now it doesn't mean that I love you any less...

Plenty

I looked into your eyes and they told me plenty... I already knew. You never felt a thing so soon forgotten, all that you do in more than words I tried to tell you the more I tried I failed. I would not let myself believe that you might stray & I would stand by you no matter what they'd say. I thought I'd be with you until my dying day, until my dying day. I used to think my life was often empty, a lonely space to fill. You hurt me more than I ever would have imagined, you made my world stand still & in that stillness there was a freedom I never felt before. I would not let myself believe that you might stray & I would stand by you no matter what they'd say. I thought I'd be with you until my dying day, until my dying day...