flying without wings

chapter twenty three

Bry had told me that the doctor said that I was lucky that the drugs I was taking hadn't gone too far ruining my body system. Shane drove me home to my apartment which me and Mark had bought couple of weeks ago. I was saving money to buy a simple and small apartment in Dublin when Mark said he'd helped me to buy it. Mark often dropped by and ended up staying over.

'Can I drop by Em?' 'Why not?' I was secretly hoping Mark would drop by and keep me company and celebrate with me. 'Okay you two. We'll see you later! Mark don't waste too much of your off days lazying around!' The lads and Georgina exploded in laughter. 'Yeah yeah, hush off lads. Bye G!'

Mark was about to blush so I quickly gave his cheek a soft kiss. 'Ooohhh, go Em!' 'Hush off you all! Hush off!' Mark was clearly embarrassed. 'Thanx for the ride Shane! See you all later! Byeee!'

When they all went away, Mark gave me a hug again. 'I'm so glad you're all perfect now. You have no idea what it means to me. You've always been perfect to me. Perfect.'

I hugged him back. Feeling as if I was flying without wings. Me? Perfect? He must've been dreaming. One thing he never told was that he loved me. I was dying to hear him saying those words.

'Mark, let's go in.' I didn't want to let go of his bear hug but people passing by were already looking at us as if they were checking if they were actually looking at Mark of Westlife. Mark and the lads had been great hiding the fact that Mark's girlfriend was a drug addict and she was in a detoxification centre in Dublin so we hadn't gone public yet.

When we got into the lift I kissed him again. 'Hey, that's the second time. What was that for?' 'What do you think about going out tonight to celebrate eh?'

Suddenly Mark seemed uncomfy. 'What is it?' 'I'm sorry Em but I promised these record company people that I'll have dinner with them.' 'But I thought you're having your day off! Alright then. Fair enough.'

I was really disappointed. I was planning to tell him about the baby tonight. I guess it showed clearly on my face. 'I'm sorry Em. I promise we'll go out tomorrow night okay?' But it wouldn't be the same, I thought. I really wanted to tell him.

But as if he could read my mind, he gave me this puppy eyed look that I always adore. 'What do I do with you huh? You go straight to the look and here I am, melting again.' Mark laughed.

We got to the apartment's door and when I opened it..,

chapter twenty-four