Over the next few months or so Laura and I would go and see the guys whenever we could, Shane would ring every two weeks and things always stayed the same. He never said anything else, like he was saying the first time we properly met at the hotel, so I didn't think anything about him having feelings for me. Laura had started to go and see the lads more, she would always talk of how she'd seen Shane and how great he was doing. I always had this feeling that something was going on, but Laura never spoke about a relationship so nothing was said. One day I got a phone call from Shane, they were all going out for a meal and wondered if I'd like to come. I asked about Laura coming, "Oh she hasn't mentioned it to you? I told her too, oh yeah she's coming she was the one who arranged it all.", I carried on normally for the rest of the phone call but as soon as Shane hung up, a tear fell from my eye. "I LOVE HIM, I LOVE HIM", I cried. It was clear now, Shane and Laura were going out. All the times she'd met up with him, spoken to him. That was why Shane hadn't spoken to me anymore, he loved her. I tried to convince myself that I was happy for Laura, I couldn't kid myself though, I wanted him, I loved him.