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Disillusionment

"Hey, what 'ya mean?" Allyson was confused. Her so-called best friends were arguing about her.
"I am phoning with Jen. We are fighting about who hates you the most..." Laura almost threw those lines at her. Then she typed again and again: "We hate you...hehe"
"We hate you...hehe"
"We hate you...hehe"
"We hate you...hehe"
"We hate you...hehe"
"Cut it out, will ya?" This was getting on Ally's nerves. She was really annoyed.
"Why? Why the hell should I stop it? Why don't you stop?"
"stop what???" The 18-year old girl needed an explanation. But the girl on the other line wasn't in the mood to explain her rude behaviour.
"GTG, bye!" This was all. Laura logged off. Jenny stayed a bit longer, but left without saying a word. What was on? Why were they so damn hard and bad at her?

It seemed to Ally that they hadn't talked for ages. She missed talking to her friends, especailly to Jen. They met in the Internet, on a Westlife - Webpage at 'free your mind'. The two girls started out talking for hours on the phone and writing long letters. Ally thought she could trust them so she asked Shane if he'd like to mail with these girls. He was kinda pleased because he always loved getting some feedback!
And now things had changed. Jen and Laura were mailing with Shane and not to her anymore, the girl felt like they had taken the piss out of her, just to get into contact with the cute boy from Westlife.

Allyson was, one can describe it as a close friend to the boys. They were together for about two years now, spending a lot of time together on parties, but this was the first time she gave Shane's addy to anyone. She thought she knew these girls especially Jenny, living in a country far away from herself, but she trusted in their friendship. Jen didn't tell about the conversations between Shane and herself (although Ally knew what they were about...) but Laura considered Ally to be a liar, to be pretending to be Shane. This was too much to take.
Ally wasn't so sure anymore if Jen had ever been her friend, was she just pretending to be? Ally trusted in her and told her everything, like how she got into contact with Westlife. This was one thing she'd never forget. Her sister Kitty, her full name was Kathryn, was 28, and two years ago, she had studied at Leeds. Her boyfriend Jack was a member of Leeds United, in the same team like Nicky Byrne. These two boys were quite good friends, so Kitty got in touch with Nicky. This was in the time before Westlife started out. And as this big thing happened Nicky was still close to her. Even after she broke up with Jack. Nicky and Georgina, his girlfriend, liked her very much, so she decided to go there on holidays, together with her parents and Allyson. The whole family was razy about horses, and Nicky told Kathryn that a friend of his runs a stable. And as soon as Ally rode one of Shane's horses Carlton Flight, the brown-eyed boy was content. She was nice and good to the horses, and seemed to fit in from the first time he had seen her.

Ally had a sleepover for about three weeks, because her mum required her husband to rummage around for a nice house in the closer surrounding. She loved Ireland from the very beginning and sought after having a holiday house in SLigo. A few days later, with the help of Shane's mother and Gillian, Nicky's sister, her daddy quickly found a very cute house, half an hour away from Sligo-town, close to \bellina and Enniscrone. And the best about it was, that there was a wide paddock in the backyard. So miss Martin agreed to Kittys and Allys plan to buy some more horses. And 'cutie' Shane offered to guide them through the stables. While bridling up Avimore, a Tinker-stallion, and Maverick, an unusual-coloured Connemara-gelding, the two girls met Mark and Kian, who owned horses themselves, and they started chatting up. The three guys showed them around and made them feel really comfortable.
This evening Shane, Mark, Kian, Nicky, Kitty and Allyson went out to a fancy club where they met Bryan, another fellow. Whilst talking to the girls got to know that the boys were in a group named Westlife. Aha, Ally never heard of them...but their first single 'Swear it again' shot straight up to Number One in Ireland and Englnad. Kitty begged the boys to sing something á capella and so they did.

"I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again"

Shane's voice was so soft and tender, and Ally firmly had to wrestle to yank her gaze away from him, but as she did, she melted in Bryan's blue-grey eyes. He smiled at her, obviously not knowing anything. Or was he just pretending? Ally didn't care at that moment. She admired him on and on, not realizing that Mark watched her, too.
Nicky swiftly piped up, he saw Georgina, his girlfriend, coming. She was the daughter of Ireland's premier-minister Bertie Ahern. She was very good-looking and very nice, too. The girl with the long brown hair sat adjacent to her 'lover' and they were holding hands. Ally smiled, she liked them, all and everyone of the group, she hoped that this friendship would last for a long time.

And it did last, for now two years they were in companionship, almost every holidays Ally and her family spent over there. Shane was completely crazy about Irish coffee because it was one of his brother's horses when the gelding was aged two. Then he had sold it, because one of the best German racing-managers asked for it. But Shane wondered that Ike was now with Ally, and she told him that her daddy, a close friend to Gunther Perschke, the former owner of Irish Coffee, got the horse as a present. The gelding was then about 10 years old and not that fast anymore. So this black Irish thoroughbred was Ally's first own horse when she partied her 14th birthday. But Ally never knew that it came from Shane's stables.

There she sat, in front of her computer, still running the Internet, No new mails, no mails to explain this strange behaviour. Two months ago she had surfed to 'Free your mind' to find new pen pals, and she had luck! Two girls, Monica and Georgina had an open ear to listen to her problems. As time went by, the three of them got very close and trusted. Georgie and Monica, who owned a website, were completely crazy about writing stories, just like Ally. But there were so many similarities, more than Ally had in common with the other girls.
When visiting a new site, Ally met Ingrid from Italy, her nickname was Sommariva, and Shirley, whose nickname was Lil. These two girls had read some of her stories and were pleased to finally meet her.

On this special day Ally used the messenger to talk to Monica but met Laura instead.
"Oh no!" was the first thing Laura said.
"Damn liar!" Laura fired her insults. "We don't believe you anymore, you never met Westlife, you can't tell us that you're a friend of them!!"
"Why..." Laura didn't let Ally finish.
"You are a so damn liar...even Jenny thinks that way...why won't you admit your lies? You lied to us from the very beginning on, now I wanna tell you something. I NEVER BELIEVED YOU!!! This was all I ever wanted to say to you, but I wanted to give you the chance to admit...you never met the guys...I know someone who asked them...And guess, what they answered? 'Maxi? Never heard that name!!!"
"Admit what? There's nothing I could admit, even if I wanted to! It's your problem if you won't believe in what I say, but remember, you are talking yourself to Shane, right?"
"And he is you, you are him...Even though I stopped talking with him!"
"It's alike, I don't care, you don't need to believe, it's your problem...by the way, why are you still talkin' to me???"
Allyson left. Why must it be so damn hard? She was close to tears, when she heard the phone ringing. She felt kinda puzzled and upset.
But now Monica wanted to chat.
"Please, hun, wait a minute, I'll be right back, the phone is buzzing!" She typed it in so fast, she was kinda suprised not to find any mistakes in her lines.
Allyson ran and answered the phone buzzing and ringing loudly.