I
have believed in the Craft and my Native American ancestors' traditions all my life. I have always
been involved with and believed in Witchcraft and I have always
honored the Earth. Along with all of that I have always felt
there was something out there for me, but just didn't quite know
what that something was. I sometimes doubted who and what I truely was.
Without abandoning my own
principles, I began to research various religions over the course of several years. I was looking for one that I could fit into... trying to
find others who shared the same beliefs and values as I did. I
never found one that I could put myself into 100% for one reason
or another though. But I knew there were others out there like me. I just wasn't looking in the right places.
Then I found a coven. Or rather a coven found me. I was overjoyed. Here were others that were like me! I didn't feel like an outcast. I belonged and I learned so much!
I have always been an eclectic. Thank the
Gods and Goddesses that the Craft, Wicca, Paganism and other natural belief systems are becoming more widely known now! All spiritual paths should have information accessible so that those searching can find what is right for them.
This great country of our's was founded, basically due to the desire to have religious freedom. Some people forget that and they want to convert the entire world into one large mass of people that can be considered a flock.
Well, I'm not a sheep and I think for myself. I have my own beliefs that may be similar to others, but trying to convert me is a useless chore because I refuse to just follow a mass herd or flock or whatever you want to call it because I am a free spirit and the Gods and Goddesses guide me on my path.
Hopefully the day will come to pass that all the
misunderstandings about the Craft, Wicca, Shaman, Druid, and all the other paths will be just bad memories.
Religious tolerance is a rare and precious gift and people should focus more on that, in my opinion.
My
favorite aunt is a witch. She has always had a book, which I now
believe is her own Book of Shadows, that she is very strict
about no one seeing. She has a connection with me and several
members of the rest of the family that is uncanny. She can just
think of us, telling us to call her in her mind, and we do. It
never fails. I seem to be able to do the same thing. Several
members of the family can do it. We don't discuss it much, its
just something that is there. My aunt and I can discuss such
things as she has always been there to give advice and honestly
answer questions, even when they seemed totally off the wall.
For example, when someone close to me has died, it has
never failed, I go to sleep, no matter where I am, about 30
minutes before they die. I dream of a casket. I walk to the
casket but it is too tall for me to see into, but I *know* who
is there anyway and I start to cry...wail. Just as I am clibing
to the top to look over into the casket, I either wake up or am
woken. It happens everytime. I used to think that I was just
losing my mind and that it was all just coincidental, but I have
learned to accept it as part of my life. Once, I pulled the car
over for no apparent reason. I just knew that I had to pull
over. I promptly went to sleep. I dreamed of the casket. I woke
up, crying and rushed home. When I got there the phone was
ringing. I didn't want to answer it. It was my mother. My uncle
had just died.
There are other things too. Like I know
when I am going to get unexpected money, when I am going to meet
someone new, when I will travel somewhere I have never been
unexpectantly and so on.
Anyway, there have been lots of
occurances in my life that have made me feel that I was
different, odd, crazy or whatever you want to call it. But one
thing has remained constant... my faith and devotion to the Gods
and Goddesses and to nature as a whole. I never stopped learning in the craft.
During my search
for a religious sect to belong to, I had never found one that I
could truely give my heart completely to except the one I had already done that with, The Craft. So, since moving away from where I could be with my coven, I remain a
solitary. This is not to say that I do not have contact with
other Wiccans, Pagans, Witches, etc. though.
There is so much that
has led me along this path that I am on and its hard to list it
all. Of course I would never reveal all that I know. Its a wonderous journey that I am on and I have met and
will meet many wonderful people along the way. I'm very happy and content with my path and I hope you are the same with yours.
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