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I don't know how long it's been since your face was
familiar
It seems you've gone somewhere
and left no forwarding address.
A shadow passes in your eyes, and I think
"It's so dark in there..."
Are you hiding?


These curiosities wander in and I wonder why,
why you haunt me.
I am afraid.
Your mysteries make me vulnerable.
My memories tease my judgement.


And yet...
there is beauty in the line of your jaw,
the curve of your voice; your passion moves me
your soul makes me want to believe
in childhood demons and God's fairy tales.


I avoid your gaze, a paradox best left...
unexplored.
Haggard innocence, the broken eyes of a
child who never was,
but who still dreams, in spite of what he knows.


You draw me inside those wire-thin lines
the secrets behind your battle scars
Past that keeps you awake these nights.
Let me tuck you in, little boy
Le me take you home.


I remember in his moment who you are.
My battered china doll, lost from years ago.
I can't hold your hand or kiss your skinned heart.
Life has made a man of you.
and I forgot his name, though I knew him well.
I miss his laughter most.