I should have known
you were too good to be true
for me
for this heart is too worn
this past is too twisted
for you
It was not my choice to be given
a dysfunctional life
but my choice to live it fully
regardless of the price that I pay
oh, how I pay now
this sweet soul of light
more than I could have wished
that creates laughter from tears
gives hope where once stood jaded indifference
brings goodness to a dark heart
and then must take it all away
must curse this heart that begins to hope
and trust in goodness once more
yet, it is naught more than I deserve
with this shamed past that torments me still
though I have fought my way clear of it
so many years ago
and I know,
that no man like you
belly full of honeyed goodness
could care for someone like me
heart full of lost childhoods
for, what innocence would not be tarnished
by my sullied past?
must let you go peacefully
I am sorry I cried those tears
where you might hear and be harmed
for that was never my intent, sweet man
and I will always thank you
for the moments that I spent
in the sunshine of your soul
