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| Back to back, face to face. Breathing down my neck. Gyrating and swaying together, feeling the warmth and passion of strangers Strangers locked in gaze. Look upon another like strangers. Careful breaths taken, careful steps taken. Yet, such haste upon entry and exit. What a sight. what a experiece. Trudging along, its only my MRT ride. |
| Faith Death befalls on all, why fear. End awaits all, why evade. Fullfilment? A total outcry of Invasion on human's weakness Almighty? Awaken and rose, reflect. Is he not Jesus the Amighty Son of God. For its you, who longed to be give a second chance looked upon. God-Fearing? Hail people. The possesion is held within. To posses further shall only be wasting time on faith. Have faith in only Yourself. |
| Ironsage As like the ocean breeze brings across the smell of salt. As blood lingers a breath of life. The sun who brings warmth to our lives. A living proof of innocence. Sincere and Warm. The reason that my heart throb. The reason for the lingering passion The red cheeks of which one will yearn. The smile of which one would relish over thought. Etched in my memories. You came along. |
| The only hope is to feel you close for its you that i chose. To send the stalk of red rose reminding me of the flowing locks i nose The sun from east it rose its like a daily dose of the kiss from you as i hold you close |
| The musty smell of his pillow. The crow of the bird by the window. The cold late night showers. How we hold each other close to shut the shivers. With you in my heart i really miss. Longing once more .. that loving kiss, |
| Love lost. Lovelorn. To infiltrate, like how water seeps through. The gaps of morality and sanity. To succumb to feel. To behold and reel. Bring forth what shall, and what may. Leave such and transcend. Then, it will be. Where no love shall be lost. None to lovelorn. |
| Love like you have never been hurt Tossing and turinin through the night Thoughts and emotions blinded sight A fool u called me for holding so tight Never I'll give up without a fight Illuminating my way with the brilliance of a light Yearning for your attention till I almost died Tears that flows will soon be dried This time im gonna use my might Wrench my lover free from Dr Hyde As I watch you from the lil corner that I hide Wondering when to relive passion that has died |
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| for once i thought i truly loved. i tried to make it worth but then i realise the heart is weak. for this is not the love i really seek. believe that i can almost feel your pain, as i walked under this mornin's rain. as much as i want to be. its not within me. to hurt a someone who truly loves me ... ever so deeply Tryin to prolong it any further, the hurt at the end would be much stronger. just like how i've encountered as i speak with much remorse, deep inside i hope its not a friendship lost. the beauty of truth lies within itself. just like the answer, seek no further but with yourself. for once loved in sweet surrender, promising the blue yonder. steppin on the stony path... grazed by the stony roughs... let faith step in to heal the pain. and may the wounded heart allowed to drain. devoid of all shame and pain. gather yourself, for im very sure you will be able to find time to ... Love Again... |
| as I walked in the howling rain listening with intent to the splatering shame asking me what i have achieved so far seeking nothing but gumdrops in a sealed jar though i tried so hard to break the cumbersome chains and within my heart, i tried to remove the stains instances as such would still revolve reminding me their is just so much to be solved |
| Gone |
| time to time i ponder whats beyond the blue yonder i trusted i believed true love will never falter hence seeking my heat's true shelter the kisses the caresses they were once so tender hoping our love will only become stronger its a curse its a sin with homosexuality there is no forever vicious cycle you and i cant handle seek no further prod no deeper realise the answer is not eternity but loving and caring with generosity |
| a lil poem in his name. every first letter of the prose. |
| despair |
| Answer |
| just when you think that every thing is going wrong undermining the the praises that came along something then tugged my heart touching the despair that had turned me so hard inspiring the passion and strength i never was able to see nudging the abitlity i had in me changing my views, my disspointment began to sway holding on to that little hope i sowed anticipation the fruit of loveto be behold nectarine sweet the emotions it flowed |
| maybe you are right. i should have given up the fight decieving myself. hoping i will get out of this realm much as i want to offer. you chose to cork me up like a bottle anticipating the splutter. once the cork can't hold up much longer hell with the promises you made. you landed me in this sorry state after telling me you're tired. your COCK in someone else's arse you slided. lowering my self esteem i once begged. but anger and hatred was what i got back less then days since i've departed. you lived your life as if you were ressurected yes, i once longed for your return. but right now, its hell i wished you would burn |
| Devastation |
| trudging along the journey seems prolonged my faith is still strong but i know its not for long i started singing a song hoping the sorrows would be gone relishing the memories once so fond her name on my mouth began to form in my arms she once belonged closing my eyes the love for her still lingers on from my life she is finally gone leaving my life filled with scorn I hope she will be happy from now on with this jerk named john |
| a lil poem in his name. every first letter of the prose. |
| a lil poem in his name. every first letter of the prose. |
| blinking. shimmering. shining. witholding secrets within on the dark velvety silkscreen its always clinging looked upon when men of follies are drinking prayed upon when disasters are falling wanted deep inside every child's yearning sworn upon by lovers awaiting the church bells ringing have you wonder what they might be saying deep in slumber you and i are sleeping as i life my head gazing i felt peace and comfort deep within you might think im dreaming when i heard their soothing singing |
| Stars |
| whispers could be heard inside deep within the crevices lurking in the darkness soon, it will strike unleashing torrents reducing all sanity never underestimate. lashing out inducing more pain then you will ever expect |
| a lil poem in his name. every first letter of the prose. |
| a lil poem in his name. every first letter of the prose. |
| Observe |
| javen, a friend rang me up late one night. what can It be? i wondered unless its really urgent, if not you are getting hell from me. i grumbled someone is drunk and he wants to speak to you, he lamented tingling sensation ran up my spine. abruptly my anger was hindered i became worried. the voice on the other end was staggered no, please don't let him be drunk! Not a pretty sight i then pictured i really wish you are mine, and im yours... His voice in my heart lingered lost in thoughts the moment i heard that. it made me really, really flustered of all the people that I cared. Please don't let his heart be one I have shattered very next thing i ask him to assure. I want him safe and sound and never to be hurt. ending the conversation i left him in the lurch yearning and persisted, your feelings for me never faltered. over the excruciating period of time.. our hearts has finally merged unity, thats when your heart in mine resided... and my heart to you, I've trusted |
| Dense forest I trugged though Amidst the morbid thoughts Revealing to me its greatest darkness Lanscaped within the void of pain In the pandemonium of hurt Nulling my efforts to hide Gasping for the tiniest shred of hope Pleading on my knees Laying next to your feet Emotions flowed like torrents Anticipation my end Seems so far away Ending it yet today Cruel as it may seems Overly painful it may feel Many would have succumb Experiencing the immense emotions Banishing my wildest thoughts Acknowledging my greatest flaw Concealing the unforgivable Killing the sinned |
| I submerged my head in water, I laid in the bathtub. as I resurfaced for a breather, I cleared my head of the soapy suds many times I lather, giving myself a contented rub. singing a lil tune as I ponder only to wonder time after time I attempted, ignore the fears and shudder indigantly fighting the thoughts, wishing the faith never wavered racing with time, fighting the invisible even if I tried my best, i know I can never be invincible desperate I may be, bemused at how the world could be bet the world think Im really crazy always thinking that Im being ditsy but one day Im sure, you will see my world has no beauty yes.. its nothing but mere acidity |
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| as the wheel of time start turning irreversible as the sand of time starts flowing memories like treasures sealed within etched upon my soul remaining best wishes for the one i once had a longing whom now is just a friend by this thread im holding the times we spent were worthwhile and fullfilling the smiles and cheers shall forever be shinng |
| darkness fell upon.. clouding my sight beyond anticipation of light.. just to guide me out of this plight weak and frail i may seem.. im waiting for the beam new day has finally begun.. welcoming bright warm sun |
| Our Story |
| fatigue |
| Dedication |
| love again |
| mrt |
| at times things will seem so bleak never in life you felt so weak dragging the baggage you have within endless torture you never thought that it'll begin remember that the cycle of time will turn slowly but surely, from mistakes you will learn begin each day with this little thought everything that went wrong may not be entirely your fault soon, you'll be able to find the way the little things in life that will brighten up your day realise that your friends will always be with you only to give you that hug when you are feeling blue now that you know we are always near god has sent us, your worries we'll be glad to hear |
| anger i never seem to be able to control nestled within my wounded soul destined to keep to myself and wallow events in my life my friends can't follow relationships i had were filled with sorrows seeking nothing but a place wot burrow im really tired letting the issues in life plague me over and over again it happens daily vicious and heavy beating ensuing in the amoisity yes, i am trying to move on out of life you bastards be gone under all the disguise, you are nothing but a moron |
| This place.. I make noise.. but most of the time lament about my life and all the things i have ever done... Some of it arnt poems. some of it are merely thots. |
| Strenght |
| agony |
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