*          *          *

 


“Hi, honey, it’s me.  I’m sorry I keep missing you…give me a call when you get the

chance, OK?  Talk to you soon, bye.”

 

Colin put down the phone, looking rather dejected.  Ryan gazed at him sympathetically. 

“She’s still not picking up?” he asked.

 

Colin shook his head.  It had become pretty obvious that Deb was ducking his phone

calls.  He’d been trying to get hold of her for the past few days, but so far she hadn’t

called back.  And whenever he dialed her cell phone number he got one of those ‘this

cellular customer is not available at this time’ messages.  She’d turned her phone off.

 

“I’m sorry, Col.  I guess she just needs some more time,” said Ryan, coming to sit next to

him on the bed.    “She’ll be calling you back soon; I know it.” 

 

Colin just shrugged, saying nothing.  Ryan put his arms around his shoulders and

squeezed.  He knew that Colin was thinking of his son as well as his wife…it bothered

Ryan that she hadn’t even had the courtesy to call her husband back when he was going

through such a difficult time.  At least Pat and the kids had been in touch with him, and

had asked how Colin was doing.  He (obviously) hadn’t gone into the details; he’d assured

them that there was absolutely no danger in having Colin staying with him, but because of

the troubles he’d had adjusting to his new condition, they might want to consider an

extended vacation…maybe until school started again for the kids.  Pat had seemed a little

doubtful (or possibly suspicious) at that, but said she would consider it.  She seemed in no

great hurry to return home.  Maybe she was seeing someone where she was.

 

“I guess so,” Colin finally murmured, resting his chin in his hands.  “I’m worried about

Friday.”

 

Ryan wasn’t really prepared for the abrupt change in topic, but he was well aware that 

the upcoming production meeting had been on Colin’s mind.  Colin knew about the

conversations he’d had with Dan and Drew -- none of the particulars, but he’d guessed

what they were about.  Ryan had done his best to assuage his fears…and had told Colin

that there was no way in hell that he’d be kicked off the show, which was something

Colin had been concerned about since he’d changed.  Drew was surprisingly supportive,

as was Greg.  Wayne didn’t seem to care one way or the other.  He hadn’t mentioned

Brad’s apprehension; Ryan hoped he would be over it by the next time he was scheduled

to appear.  It wasn’t like Colin was going to leap on him and bite him.  That was *Ryan’s*

newest favorite thing, and he wasn’t about to share it with anyone.  He’d realized the

other night -- after one of their frenzied feeding/lovemaking episodes -- that he was

nearly as possessive of Colin as Colin was of him.  There were times that he almost wished

that Deb wouldn’t take him back…almost.  It would hurt Colin too much if she didn’t.

 

“Don’t worry,” Ryan assured him.  “The meeting’s going to go fine.  Trust me.”

 

 

*          *          *

 

 

Because of his duties as producer, Ryan always arrived at the studio early for production

meetings.  This time was no different; and this time, of course, Colin was right there with

him.

 

Colin seemed a little agitated since they’d reached the lot.  Ryan assumed that it was just

nerves; well, soon they would put an end to any doubts he might have had about

performing with the others.  He’d encouraged Colin to eat prior to the afternoon meeting,

but he didn’t want to.  Butterflies in the stomach, he’d said.  And maybe it was better that

Colin hadn’t taken any blood from him that day…the collar of his shirt just barely

covered the highest of the bite marks.  If only it was winter -- if he was wearing long

sleeves, Colin could draw from anywhere on his lower arms without giving away what

they were doing.  He wasn’t ashamed of their relationship, but he didn’t want to spring it

on the others this early.  They were still getting used to the idea of Colin needing the

blood in the first place -- he didn’t want to freak them out even more by letting them

know that Colin was drawing it from him.  He had the feeling they could handle the

sexual part of the relationship if it wasn’t so linked to the feeding.

 

As they walked through the halls at ABC towards the conference rooms, Ryan noticed

that Colin’s eyes were darting from side to side curiously, as if searching for something

he couldn’t quite locate.  “What’s the matter?” he asked.

 

“I don’t know…”  He paused, sniffing the air.  “I thought I smelled something…”  He

sniffed again, and his eyes widened.  “Someone else like me.”

 

“Really?” he asked, lowering his voice and looking around too.  “Where?”  There were a

number of people who’d passed by them; no-one was obviously different from what

passed for a normal human. 

 

“I’m not sure,” he replied. “I—”

 

At that instant, one of the intern managers rounded the corner.  She was young, attractive,

and wearing a low-cut blouse.  Rumor had it that she was looking for a way to get on the

fast track to the higher levels of management.  Given her appearance, she’d already

chosen which way she planned to use.

 

At the sight of the two men, she broke into a wide (and in Ryan’s opinion, fake) smile. 

“Hello,” she said, taking a few steps forward.  

 

Colin’s eyebrows went up as he made a nearly imperceptible gesture towards the woman. 

It was her.

 

“And what brings you here on a day you’re not filming?” she asked, taking another step

closer to Ryan.  From this close, he could see that her professionally whitened and

capped teeth were otherwise normal…no fangs, not like Colin had.  A carrier who hadn’t

yet succumb to the disease.

 

Ryan saw Colin’s eyes narrow dangerously.  He took a step forward, placing himself

squarely between the woman and Ryan.  “We’re going to a meeting.  An important

production meeting.”

 

“Oh, isn’t that interesting?” she said.  “Are you going there right now, or can you stay

and chat?  I have a couple of ideas for the some of our shows…”  She put a hand out,

touching Ryan on the arm.

 

Ryan had never seen Colin move that fast.  Almost instantly he was there, his hand

locked around the woman’s wrist.  “Back off,” he said.  It was almost a snarl.

 

“What the hell’s wrong with you, you—  She gasped as she saw his bared teeth.  She

let go of Ryan and stumbled backwards, but Colin was still holding her fast.  “Oh my God,

oh my God,” she whispered, her expression one of sheer terror. 

 

Col…” began Ryan in alarm.  Possessiveness?  Territoriality?  He’d never seen anything

like this, not between two people -- it was more like watching a hyena staring down its

prey before it attacked.  He was shocked at the almost animalistic quality of Colin’s

actions…his eyes were wild, almost like they were when he and Ryan were together…

 

“Please let me go,” she said fearfully .  “Please, Mr. Stiles, make him let me go…”

 

At that, Colin released her, glaring angrily.  “He’s not yours.  You won’t touch him again,”

he ordered.  “You can find someone else when it’s your time.  But not him.  He’s mine.”

 

The woman nodded frantically, then hurried off down the hallway.  Colin made a low

growling sound as she did, watching as she passed from their line of sight.  Only after

that did Colin seem to calm down.  The look on his face had gone from fury, to

satisfaction, and finally to…disbelief?

 

He sagged against the wall, shaking.  “My God, Ryan,” he said in horror.  “What have I

done?”

 

 

*          *          *

 

 

“Colin.  *Colin*,” Ryan said, taking him by the shoulders.  “Colin, listen to me.  It’s OK. 

What she did -- it was wrong.  She shouldn’t have done that.”

 

“She didn’t know,” he whispered, not really listening.  “She didn’t know she’s going to

get it, so she didn’t know not to come so close.”  He stared up at Ryan, shaking his head. 

“She doesn’t know what I know…”

 

“You’re right.  She *doesn’t* know what you know -- she didn’t know all the things

they taught you, like not to approach someone else with the disease if there’s someone

with them, because you don’t know if they’re the other person’s donor or not.  Maintain

a respectful distance until you’re sure.  Don’t invade someone else’s territory or touch

what’s theirs unless you have permission.  She didn’t have permission, Colin.  From

either of us.”

 

Colin still stood there, his face white.  “What if something like that happens onstage?”

 

“It won’t.  Neither of us will  be doing any games with audience members.  You won’t

have to worry about that.”

 

“I have to go apologize…”

 

“No, you don’t.  What she did was inappropriate.  Look, if she was a man and I was a

woman, what she did would have been considered sexual harassment.”  He looked

around; nobody else had been there to see the incident, and no-one was in the hallway

now.  “It’s all right.  The staff here was informed about your medical condition, and they

were all briefed on the proper etiquette…she should have known not to behave like that

around you, just in case.”

 

Colin looked at him as if he was finally starting to hear what he was saying.  “Maybe

she’s starting to feel it.  The decreased impulse control, and the aggression.”

 

“Assertiveness.  Can you tell when it’s going to happen with her?  When she’s going to

actually come down with the disease?”

 

“No,” he replied.  His breathing had returned to normal, and he appeared to have regained

his composure.  “All I can tell is that she’s carrying it.  Not when it’s going to come out.” 

 

Ryan pulled Colin closer to him, wrapping him in a bear hug.  “All right, then.  Meeting

time.  Boring things like scheduling, and which games we’ll be doing, and which guests

to invite.  Nothing out of the ordinary, and nothing like what that woman just did.  You

can send her some flowers or a fruit basket or something if you want to apologize to her. 

Everything’s going to be fine.”

 

Colin shut his eyes.  He really wanted to believe that.

 

 

*          *          *

 

 

Colin was still shaken by what he’d done in the hall, even as the production meeting

started.  He couldn’t get the abject fear in the woman’s eyes out of his mind.  How had 

he been capable of such a thing?  All the woman had done was touch Ryan’s arm and

he’d gone ballistic.  This was the first real time his territoriality had been triggered, and it

scared him.  He’d been afraid of what he might do around Ryan even before they’d begun

their affair, just because of their longtime friendship.  What else might he do if the wrong

person came too close, or got too friendly with Ryan?  Maybe he was a monster after all. 

 

No, no, no.  Ryan *and*  the CDC people had all said that reacting that way was to be

expected.  It was like a new instinct he had, to protect what was his.  It didn’t make him

any less human.  It didn’t.

 

He straightened, trying to focus on what was going on in the meeting.  It had just started. 

Drew, as the host of the show, was presiding; aside from them, there was also Wayne,

Greg, Jeff, Chip, Kathy, and Brad.  He’d noticed that Brad kept stealing glimpses of him,

his eyes quickly moving to stare at nothing when Colin looked back.   He’d had the

feeling that at least one of his co-workers would be doing that; maybe it would be best to

get everything out in the open early, like Drew and Ryan had suggested.  Well, maybe

not *everything*, of course.  He’d never been too keen on letting the details of his

personal life out.  There were some things he’d rather keep private.

 

“OK, guys,” said Drew easily.  “Let’s get started.”

 

There were murmurs of assent from around the table, and Greg helped himself to the

coffee.  “Anybody else want any?”

 

“I’ll take one,” said Ryan.

 

“Me too,” Colin added.  At the multiple sets of raised eyebrows, he chuckled.  “Yes, I can

still drink coffee.”

 

“And pretty much anything else, except tequila.  He still can’t drink that,” said Ryan,

giving him a friendly punch on the arm.  This elicited laughter from everyone; none of

them could forget the time in Vegas when the Canadian had drunk way too much of the

stuff, and had spent the night passed out in the hotel room of an older couple from

Florida.  They’d been very understanding, and Colin had been so grateful (and

embarrassed that he’d shown up in the wrong room) that he’d paid their entire hotel bill. 

 

“Which brings us to something I’m sure everyone is wondering about,” said Drew,

glancing over at Colin to make sure it was all right.  He gave a brief nod.  “Colin, how

are you doing?”

 

“As well as can be expected, I suppose,” he replied offhandedly.

 

“Colin, I want you to know that you’re among friends here,” said Drew.  “We don’t

want you to feel uncomfortable, or self-conscious, or anything like that.  We know

you’re probably feeling like a bug under a microscope right now.”

 

“That’s OK.  I know everyone’s probably very curious,” he replied.

 

“I know I am,” said Brad, not sounding very happy.

 

Ryan glared across the table at Brad, then turned back to Colin.  “You don’t have to

answer anything you don’t want to.”

 

“No, I think it would be easiest if we just got everything out in the open right now, so we

can get it over with.  I really hope that none of you are concerned about working with me;

I’m still pretty harmless.”  He smiled, but didn’t show his teeth.  “And you don’t have to

worry about me getting hungry…I’ve found a very obliging butcher, who also happens to

have the disease, so I’ll always have a big supply of what I need.”  It wasn’t a lie; he just

didn’t say that the majority of his meals were coming from Ryan.

 

“Hey, at least the animal rights activists are loving this…technically, you don’t have to

kill anything to eat,” grinned Greg.  “So, Col, are you planning to get your own cow?”

 

Everyone laughed but Brad.  “I’d say he’s already got his cow,” he said coldly, looking at

Ryan.

 

“What do you mean by that, Brad?” Ryan asked, his voice dropping just a bit.

 

“Nothing.  But I noticed that your shirt’s buttoned all the way up.  It’s a nice, warm

day…why have you got your collar closed?” he asked.  “Is there something you don’t

want us to see?”

 

“Dammit, Brad,” Ryan hissed.  “Since when were you such a fashion plate, to be

worried about what other people wear?”

 

“Other people I don’t care about -- just you.  You’ve got someone staying with you  

who needs blood to live, someone who wasn’t feeling very happy until he came back to

your house.  Now everything’s just hunky-dory.  You sure he’s getting his meals from

the butcher shop?”

 

Ryan’s eyes flashed angrily.  “Brad,” he said, his voice a low growl.

 

“Ryan, you don’t have to—” Colin began, but the other man was too angry to hold his

tongue.  Colin leaned back, resigned.  He’d known this would come out eventually, he

just hadn’t expected it to be today.

 

“You really wanna see, Brad?  Do you?” Ryan challenged.

 

“Yes, I do.”

 

“All right then.”  And he began undoing his collar.  All eyes in the room turned to him;

except Colin, who was looking down at the table.  As he undid the lowest button, he

pulled down the fabric, exposing his skin.  The marks on his neck were clearly visible

and were unmistakably bite wounds.  “Satisfied?” he asked, as if daring him or the others

to comment.

 

“*Dude*…” said Greg, peering at him intently.  He didn’t seem repulsed; merely

interested.  Drew and the others couldn’t help but look too -- they’d never seen anyone

who’d been bitten.

 

Brad, even though he’d been the one to confront Ryan, seemed stunned that his

suspicions were actually true.  “I can’t believe it,” he said.  “Ryan, what’s the matter with

you?  Is he making you do this?”

 

“Of course not,” he retorted.  “It was my idea.”

 

He stared at Ryan in utter disbelief.  “You’re actually letting him drink your blood?  For

God’s sake, why?”

 

Ryan looked at Colin, seated beside him, and smiled warmly.  “Because he’s my oldest

and my best friend, and I love him,” he said simply.

 

Colin felt himself almost blushing…he hadn’t been able to manage a decent one since

he’d changed.  Something about the thinness of his blood now.  It didn’t matter; he was

gazing at Ryan so fondly that his feelings were obvious to anyone who was looking.  And

everyone was.

 

“Well I think it’s great,” said Greg, looking in confusion at Brad.  “What’s your problem,

man?”

 

“Don’t you know what goes on with them, when they drink?”

 

“Is that any of your business?” Greg asked.

 

“You’re actually saying you’re OK with this?  Knowing how they get when they take

blood, and knowing that he’s doing it to Ryan?”

 

“I think it’s up to Ryan to decide if it’s OK or not,” said Drew.  “I thought you were over

this.”

 

“How *do* they get when they take blood?” asked Wayne quietly, who had been

watching the whole interchange with the others. 

 

Brad opened his mouth to speak, but Colin beat him to it.  “We get like animals.  Isn’t

that what you were going to say, Brad?” he asked bitterly.  “That we’re like mindless

animals when we feed?  That we’re uncontrollable, and we can’t be trusted not to hurt

someone, even the people closest to us?”

 

Brad frowned.  “That’s not what I meant…”

 

Ryan looked like he wanted to leap over the table and crack Brad in the jaw.  “Then what

*did* you mean?” he demanded.

 

“That you’re letting your feelings for Colin cloud your judgment -- you’re using this as a

way to get him into your bed, and you could end up dead because of it.”  His last words

came out just above a whisper, his fear obvious.  He was afraid that Ryan would be

killed, like what almost happened to those people in Boston or the man in Indiana. 

 

Ryan’s mouth fell open, but no words came out.  It was Colin who spoke next.  “It’s not

like that, Brad,” he said softly, the anger draining away.  “We’re not doing this because

of anything that wasn’t there before.  Maybe it took this to bring us here, but we would

have ended up together eventually, I think.  And I would never hurt Ryan, not for

anything.  He means everything to me.  He did even before this.”

 

Ryan’s eyes were shining, and he looked at Colin as if he was the only person in the

room.  “Really?  Even before this?” he asked.

 

Colin nodded, a smile spreading over his face.  “Even before.”

 

Ryan took him in his arms and hugged him fiercely, then kissed him.  Colin felt like he

was melting.  He returned the kiss, his hands coming up to stroke Ryan’s back.

 

After a few moments, Drew cleared his throat noisily.  To tell the truth, he’d always

figured that Ryan and Colin would end up together; he just hadn’t expected it to happen

in such a bizarre way.  “OK, now that everything’s cleared up -- and if the saccharine

twins here could come down to Earth --  we can get back to business and get this meeting

over with so we can all be home at a decent hour tonight.  Is that all right with everyone?”

 Drew asked, a hint of sarcasm in his voice.  Ryan and Colin hastily broke apart and sat

down; Brad, thoroughly chastened, also returned to his chair. 

 

Greg just took another swig of his coffee and shook his head.  “Man, only in L.A.

 

 

*          *          *

 

 

The rest of the meeting went by uneventfully.  It seemed that Brad’s concern for Ryan

had been the source of all his misgivings; he, as well as Drew, had known for some time

how Ryan felt about Colin, and he’d been worried that Colin might somehow be able to

coerce him (or force him) into supplying his meals.  Ryan had assured them that it hadn’t

been that way at all -- that Colin had initially been reluctant, until he’d persuaded him

that it was really what he wanted.  They’d also talked about Colin’s condition itself. 

There was the speculation that sporadic outbreaks of the disease had led to the many

vampire legends from around the world.  The need for blood, the aversion to strong light,

the fact that they were damned hard to kill -- but not immortal, as the legends had it. 

Colin would age just like any other person, even though his body could take a lot more

physical damage than a normal human.  The ringleader of the lab break-in had been shot

twice and it hadn’t even phased him; they supposed that the traditional ways to kill

vampires (by beheading, fire, or the old standby of a stake through the heart) would

probably work.  Greg pointed out, however, that these methods would pretty much kill

anyone.  This led to a discussion of things *not* to do, things that might trigger a

negative reaction from Colin…they all doubted that anyone there would be making a

move on Ryan anytime soon!  Kathy looked a little disappointed that Colin had chosen

Ryan and not her.  Neither man mentioned that he could have any number of donors

(and that he would be equally possessive of all of them)…it might give her ideas.  There

were plenty of curious people out there who might want to know what a vampire’s bite

felt like.  By the way Greg was looking at him, he was one of them.

 

In addition to this discussion, the group also talked about the upcoming taping sessions. 

They all agreed that the best thing to do would be to issue a short press release about

Colin’s condition.  It would be better for the public to find out this way, rather than for it

to look like they were hiding something.  Because the first time Colin opened his mouth

onstage, everyone would know anyway.  Jeff had come up with a good idea, though,

about something that might help Colin while he was onstage.  Knowing that the bright

overhead lights would hurt the other man’s eyes, he’d suggested having some dark

contact lenses made that would block out some of the light.  Colin was used to contacts;

he’d worn regular ones while performing for years, although he hadn’t needed them or

his glasses since coming down with the disease (his vision was now 20/20).  He thanked

Jeff for the brilliant idea.  He wished he’d thought of it himself.

 

Now it was evening and they were back home, in bed.  Colin’s spirits were much higher

now -- it was clear to Ryan that he was experiencing that exhilarated, ‘invincible’ feeling

that his kind felt when they were very happy.  They’d made love soon after they’d gotten

home…Ryan had learned that when Colin was hungry, it was best to let him take the

lead.  There was always time for slow lovemaking later, when Colin had drank his fill

and he could concentrate on his lover more fully.  Ryan loved the feeling of his partner’s

body next to his, and loved it whenever Colin’s teeth (or any other parts) were inside him. 

His own parts inside of Colin also made for a very pleasurable experience.  Positionally,

they’d been through pretty much every permutation except for one -- because of his teeth,

there was no way that Colin could take Ryan’s erection into his mouth the same way

Ryan could do to his.  Ryan didn’t care.  He more than made up for it with what did with

his lips and tongue…like he was doing now.  He sighed blissfully.  He loved not always

having to be one to make the first move.  This relationship was unlike any Ryan had ever

been in, and it was definitely the most satisfying.  He planned to tell Pat fairly soon…it

would let both of them get on with their lives.  No more pretending that they each really

wanted to be with the other.  He was with the one he’d wanted to be with for years, but

had always been too afraid to approach directly…although he’d dropped enough hints

during that time to make it obvious to Drew, Brad, and probably their entire television

audience.  That ignorant woman at the studio should have known it too, if she was as big

a fan as she’d insinuated.  What she had done still riled him.  Hopefully nothing like that

would ever happen again, although Colin had said that if a normal person had done the

same thing, he wouldn’t have gotten nearly as angry.  The possessiveness went off the

scale if the ‘trespasser’ was another vamp.

 

Colin was busily teasing him with his mouth, his own hands caressing Colin’s shoulders,

when something suddenly dawned on him. 

 

“Colin,” he gasped, trying to concentrate on something other than the physical sensations

assailing him.  “Colin, I know what the territoriality’s for.  I know why you have it, and

why it’s worse against someone else with the disease.”

 

Colin stopped what he was doing and looked up.  “What are you talking about?” he

asked.  “It’s an instinct, a goddamned terrible instinct -- what could it possibly be *for*?”

 

Ryan grinned excitedly and leaned forward.  “Colin, it’s not what you think it is.  It’s not

because you can’t control yourself, or because you’re some kind of monster.  It’s to

protect the *donors*.”

 

“What do you mean?” he asked, not understanding..

 

“Just listen to me, OK?  Way back when, when the disease first evolved, it was at a time

when the world was a lot more dangerous than it is now.  Different tribes invading each

other, people killing each other for nothing…”

 

“Have you watched the news lately?  That sounds exactly like today,” Colin replied

dourly.

 

“Yes, but today you usually don’t have the local warlords wiping out their neighboring

tribes like it’s a perfectly normal thing to do.  Most people don’t live under the constant

threat of violence, like it was when the disease first appeared.”

 

“I’m still not following you,” he confessed.

 

“Colin, what’s the worst thing that could happen to a vampire?  One with a longtime

donor?”

 

He blinked.  “Losing the donor,” he replied, not even having to think about it.  “To lose

your partner, someone you love—”

 

“Someone you *obviously* love.  If other people in our situation are anything like *us*,

it’s pretty clear to everyone around them how they feel about each other.  It would have

been the same for people hundreds or even thousands of years ago.  Now imagine if they  

had enemies, especially ones with the disease -- or imagine someone with the disease

who was starving.  They could easily kill the other person’s partner, a normal human,

because they’re so much stronger than we are.  That’s why the territoriality is so strong

against other vamps.  You instinctively know how easily we can be hurt, especially by

others of your kind, and you want to protect us.”

 

Colin looked at him in wonder.  He’d never thought about it that way, that the part of

himself that he was afraid of might actually have something good in it.  It made a sort

of sense, if it was true.

 

 “I don’t know if you’re right, Ryan…but it’s definitely something to think about,” he

said.  He smiled, and reached out to touch Ryan’s cheek. 

 

“Colin, have I told you lately how much I love you?” he asked, placing his hand over

Colin’s.

 

“Not for the past few hours, no.” 

 

“Then let me show you.”

 

Colin shivered, willingly offering himself up to his friend’s ministrations.  It was at times

like this that neither of them thought about Colin’s condition, or any of the troubles that it

brought with it.  For now, there was only the experience.  And the love.

 

“*Mine*,” Ryan pronounced, as if to lay a claim on Colin as strong as Colin’s was on

him.

 

His lover smiled again, a sweet, almost shy smile.  “I think I was always yours.”

 

 

*          *          *

 

 

Colin paced back and forth nervously as he and the others waited backstage for their

signal to go on.  Drew was out there warming up the crowd -- Colin had been concerned

for a while that there might not *be* a crowd tonight, since it was their first new taping

session.  The first one since they’d announced to the world what Colin was.

 

“Relax,” said Ryan, coming up behind him and rubbing his shoulders.  Normally Ryan’s

scent alone was enough to make his tension level drop, but tonight was different.

Tonight was the night that he would find out if he would be accepted, or if his career

was over.  

 

Colin leaned back into the comforting touch.  Over the past few weeks, he’d come to

realize how much he loved being with Ryan, and how thankful he was that the other man

had insisted on staying in his life.  The others had been great too…Wayne and Greg, who

were on with them tonight; Drew, who’d been supportive from the beginning; even Brad,

who’d finally overcome his concerns and was looking forward to his next time on the

show.  But these were his friends, people he’d known for years.  What about the people

on the outside?  There was still a lot of prejudice out there -- his kind wasn’t exactly

welcomed with open arms. *Anywhere.*  The press release had been issued a few weeks

ago; by tonight, everyone in the audience would have already heard what happened to

him.  Not that they were going to hide it; they just didn’t know if it would be mentioned

in passing or if it would be spoken about freely.  They’d agreed that they would play it by

ear tonight, basing their actions on how the audience responded.  He hoped they would

respond well.  He didn’t know what he would do if he had to give all this up.

 

“If this doesn’t work out tonight,” said Colin carefully.  “I want you to know—”

 

“Never mind that,” Ryan interrupted, nudging him forward as he heard their cue.  “We’re

on.” 

 

And with that, they bounded out on stage.

 

“Good evening everybody and welcome to Whose Line Is It Anyway -- on tonight’s

show…”

 

“The eyes have it…Greg Proops.”

 

“Check out that ass…Wayne Brady.”

 

“He gives necking a whole new meaning…Colin Mochrie.”

 

“And…did you see the size of those feet?  Ryan Stiles.”

 

The audience applauded as each name was read, but their enthusiasm seemed to increase

when Colin’s name was announced.  The decibel level had definitely gone up, and there

were a few whoops and whistles mixed in.

 

“I’m Drew Carey, your host -- let’s come on down and have some fun!”

 

Drew did his customary walk down the stairs to his desk  The crowd seemed very upbeat.

“Welcome to Whose Line Is It Anyway, the show where everything’s made up and the

points don’t matter.  That’s right, the points are like a jockey’s uniform to Ryan -- they

just don’t matter.”

 

There was laughter from the crowd.  Drew seemed to sense their good mood; somehow

he was always able to tell what an audience wanted, and how far he could go with them. 

“Before we start tonight, I’d like to welcome back Colin Mochrie.  Colin was feeling a bit

under the weather, as I’m sure you’ve all heard…”

 

There was some excitement at that statement, but everyone still seemed pretty positive. 

Drew flashed a look to Colin, who nodded briefly.  He decided to go for it.  All or

nothing, Colin thought, mentally crossing his fingers.

 

“But he’s feeling much better now, since he’s started that new diet.  Hey Col, I hear that

this thing cured your astigmatism and your lower-back pain.  Do you think it’ll bring your

hair back too?”

 

Although his heart was racing, Colin tried to act as normal as possible.  He shook his

head good-naturedly, as he usually did when the bald jokes started.  “Not according to

the doctors,” he said, trying to sound as sad as he could.  “That’s a genetic thing, not a

disease.”

 

The crowd “Awwwwed”.  Drew chuckled and waved one of his cards at Colin.  “But see? 

He *did* ask them about it.”

 

“It was my only hope,” he said, giving the crowd his best puppy-dog look.  They ate it up

andawwwed” again.  Colin was astounded.  Did they really not care?

 

“And by the way, folks, there’s no need to worry about any of tonight’s performers --

they all ate before the show, and none of them are hungry.  Yet.”

 

Colin made a face at Drew, then smiled sweetly, showing his teeth.  The crowd

responded by whistling and cheering wildly; from all appearances, they loved it. 

 

Colin was dumbfounded, and leaned over towards his lover.  “Ryan…?” he whispered

in confusion.  Ryan grinned, then nudged him again, encouraging him to turn his eyes to

the audience so he could see how they really felt about him.

 

At first Colin thought there must be something wrong with his new contacts -- he just

couldn’t believe what he was seeing.  He didn’t think anyone would do anything more

than tolerate him…what else could he expect, the way he was now?  But somehow

they were doing more than that.  They were acting like everything was OK.  He didn’t

want to get his hopes up too much, just in case, but his relief must have shown on his

face.  Ryan reached over and gave him a friendly pat on the arm, and he finally, *finally*

started to relax. 

 

Wayne laughed as Drew stuck out his tongue at Colin.  “Hey, you think you might wanna

bite Drew, after the show?”

 

“Jeez, do you want him to get cholesterol poisoning?” Ryan replied, shaking his head. 

 

“Hey, it’s not *that* high,” Drew shot back, laughing.

 

“Sure it’s not,” said Ryan, nodding in an exaggerated fashion.

 

Drew straightened up and exhaled, as if to imply that he was mortally offended. 

Hmmph,” he said.  “Now, on to our first game, Party Quirks.  Greg here is the host of

a party, and all the others are guests at the party…”

 

 

*          *          *

 

 

“I can’t believe it.  I just can’t believe it.  They didn’t care at all.”  Colin was beaming; he

looked like he was on top of the world.  It had been hours since the taping ended and he

was still on Cloud 9.

 

“Judging by that warm reception, the only thing you’ll have to be afraid of is me trying to

crack you up onstage,” Ryan chuckled.  Even though he’d steadfastly reassured Colin

whenever he’d been depressed or uneasy, he was still very, very grateful that things had

worked out as well as they did.  “I told you that everything was going to be all right, Col. 

You should’ve believed me.” 

 

“But I didn’t think that -- I don’t know -- I didn’t think things would be the same as they

were before.”

 

“Well, not exactly the same,” Ryan pointed out.  “Before, you never got a standing

ovation just for showing up.”  He paused thoughtfully.  “Come to think of it, I’ve never

gotten a standing ovation, just for showing up or otherwise.  You should be proud of

yourself.  Everyone still loves you.”

 

“Especially you?” he teased, poking Ryan with his elbow.

 

“Especially me,” Ryan said with a grin.  “God, I don’t know what the future’s going to be

like with the two of us together, but if it’s anything like tonight…I don’t think we have

anything to worry about.”

 

“I hope so,” Colin said, settling down alongside his lover.  He sighed contentedly.  It had

been a long day, and he was more than ready for a good night’s sleep.  He was just about

to put an arm around Ryan when his cell phone rang. 

 

“Better get that,” said Ryan.  “It might be your agent, with yet another TV show.”

 

Laughing, Colin picked up his phone.  “Hello?” he said.

 

There was a pause.  During that short span of time, the look on Colin’s face had gone

from easy humor to surprise, then to trepidation.  He put his hand over the receiver. 

“It’s Luke,” he whispered. 

 

Ryan’s eyebrows shot up.  Neither Colin’s wife nor his son had made any attempt to

contact him in over a month.  They didn’t even know what -- if anything -- Luke had

been told about his father.  “What’s he saying?” Ryan mouthed to him.

 

Colin listened for a few moments; and Ryan watched as his expression, which had been

so worried only moments before, now shifted to one of immense relief.  He almost

looked like he was going to cry, but not because he was unhappy.  Far from it.

 

Ryan prodded him again.  “What’s he saying?”

 

Colin smiled at him, his eyes bright, and covered the receiver once more.  “It’s OK. 

He wants to talk.”

 

Ryan linked his hand with Colin’s and snuggled closer, offering all the support he could

without saying a word.  He hoped this would go well.  He didn’t know what the future

would bring, but he would be there at Colin’s side through it all.  That was the only thing

that mattered.  They were together; and together, there was nothing they couldn’t face.

 

 

 

 

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