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Drew's POV again.
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I wish I could tell him how I
feel. I'm not sure how he would
react though. He might leave, and never talk to me again. Then
again,
he could feel the same. I doubt it though; no one could ever love
me.
So, I stared at him. I always did. It was like the only time I
felt
safe, when I was looking at him. When he was on stage, I could be
free to love him then. But only then. No other time. Greg came up
to
me and asked why I wasn't at the party. I told him I was busy, he
didn't believe me. I figured he wouldn't. But, Greg is just the
type of
person who knows. I wish he knew whom I loved, and then Greg
could
tell him and I wouldn't have to worry about it. But, Greg didn't
know, so I was out of luck there. I was sitting there depressed.
My
mind had slipped back into the thoughts of last night. How lonely
I
had felt, how lonely I was. I realized something then, I was all
alone in this world. It pained me, so deeply. I was sitting in my
office. I said quietly "Does anybody love me??"
I do." I heard a soft voice
from the doorway. I looked up and
saw the object of my affection.
"But...what about
Wayne?" I said, biting my lip.
"Hey, I have enough love to
go around. Wayne wouldn't mind...we
have a very open relationship. He wouldn't mind at all. I'm
positive
about it. We are about to break up anyway. He found this new guy,
who
loves him a lot. I was a rebound for him, after he broke up with
his
last boyfriend. Just like he was a rebound from me divorcing my
wife.
So, I love you."
"Really?"
"Yes, I wouldn't tell you
this if it wasn't true. I couldn't
lie to someone I love so much." I smiled, and he smiled
back. I knew
that now, I could be happy. I didn't have to hide looking at him.
I
had him now and he was mine. I love him so much. I knew that now
my
nights wouldn't be lonely. I would have someone to go to sleep
by,
and know for certain he'd be there in the morning.