Lifeblood
Joy and pain reside In my head. A vicious mixture, A toxic brew of Emotional turmoil. My life goes on day After day, and my Sphere of knowledge Grows. But the more I think I know, the more I Find I have to learn. A puzzle that is never Complete, endless pieces Side by side, joined by Experience. I place another jigsaw Fragment down with the Others, and the picture Is no more clear than It was at the beginning, When I knew nothing but Fear and love. The two ultimate Polar opposites -- North and South on the Magnetic emotional map. Day and night, Happiness and blight, Life and death. The question is which Is which? I seem to love Fear yet fear Love. Am I perverse, or Am I simply human? Doesn't everyone Feel the same wide-eyed Rush when scared? The same giddy doubt When free-falling in Love? I feel myself changing As my life molds me into Something I thought I'd Never be. How much control do I Have over this metamorph? Am I simply a caterpillar Cocooned by fate -- waiting To be set free? And if so, will I be a Beautiful butterfly soaring With wings of satin, Or a paperwhite moth Plain as the color Of boredom? What will become of Me as I grow old and Reflect on the years I've left behind? Will I still have my Friends, or will they Have tired of my senility? Will I still have my Compassion, or will it Be slowly whittled away? Will I still have my Dreams, or will I wake To find them dying? But, most of all, After all is said And done, After the change is Complete, will I still Be me? Home