Poetry
Most people who know me know that I write a lot of peotry and songs in my spare time. It's a great way for me to express myself when things are going on in my head that are confusing or difficult.  So here are just a few I figured I'd share...
"Penalties Will Come"
"No More Suffering"
For every rose there is a thorn. For every cloud there is a storm. For every new life, someone else dies. For every secret a deeper one lies.
  For every day, there comes a night. For every bit of darkness there is some light. For everything sweet there is some sour. For every minute their comes an hour.
  For every cry there comes a moan, For every time you leave I feel alone. For every target there is a shot, For every time I look happy I'm really not.
                          -9/2/02
Not enough Alcohol, not enough drugs. Not enough loving and not enough hugs. Not enoguh of anything to heal my pain,Not enough of anything to keep me sane.
  To many posers, to many preps. Way to many programs with way to many steps. To many vitamins to keep me alive, to many secrets hiding inside.
  The right amount of sunshine, the irght amount of care. Right amount of praying and knowing someones there. The right amount of friends to help me through the day. The right amount of Confidence and knowing it'll be okay.
                -8/15/02
"New World"
Blind my eyes from this world of hate, Lay my body down upon a sea of love. Open my ears and let me hear the silence from the world above.
  Hide me from this shallow earth. Let the light shimmer across my skin, help clear away all of my open heart's sin.
  Let the waves crash and meet the sky. Help me see the world from a differnet view, Inspire me to help other's feel peace too.
  Don't let me see the death which surrounds, Open my eyes and make me listen to the humble dove. Absourb my soul and take me to the world above.
                                             -2/10/03
"Teen Society"
Such a want to live a life that's free, but no one will let me just be me. All of their insults are so degrading, everyones wrapped up in how everyone else is behaving. The teenage society is so confusing, the lies and the gossip are all too consuming.
   The looks and the whispers float through the air, it's too much pain for anyone to bare. The cruelty of others and the way they judge us...With all the betrayel who's left to trust? The rude comments, the insults, the looks and the stairs. You try to survive but it seems like there's no one who cares.
            -12/20/02
"Empty Conclusion"
A drowning heart and empty eyes, No one left to sympathize.
  A tear struck face, a crying moan, No one here it's me alone.
  Trembling lips, cold hands shaking, Alone you left my heart breaking.
  An empty room, echoeing yells, a thousand secrets left to tell.
  Left alone not a single kiss, in my life you don't excist.
  A tightened hand, screaming mind, as usual it's me being left behind. 
Broken  glass, a picture of you, dreams i once had won't come true.
  A shattered life, soul remains cold, all of the lies begin to unfold.
  A shooting star, the blackened sky, through all of the pain I'll never cry.
                                           -9/3/03
 
"What I'll never say"
Make a wish on a shooting star tonight, waiting for my heart to choose a path that's right. I'm breaking beneath the surface into a thoughsand pieces, hoping for what will never cease to excist.
  Ever since the end of the beginning and the beginning of the end I've been rehearsing this part in life's play that I'll continue to pretend to be.
  It's not easy being this happy little beam of sunshine.Smiling through these everlasting tears, putting aside my stress and all of my fear.
  To look behind the cardboard me, you'd be so shocked and terrified of what you would see. All of the smiles and all of the laughter. If you' paid more attention to the real me you'd know it was more than just love i was after.
  It's too late now to change what you've done, this time ther's no brightness surrounding my sun. I'm still here though, truthfully there's nothing that anyone can do.
  So I breathe every breath and shut my eyes and pray. But my heart will remain closed, because these are the things I'll never say.
                                               -6/1/03