Numbing Pain Saline stains Crimson dreams Uncertain where my existence is taking me Following so obliviously Scared to open my eyes Living in my fantasy with reality  Surprised at the shaky uncertain sound in my voice Biting at the regret Guilt stricken truth that only I feel Wonder where I am? I don’t know Wonder why I am? I don’t know Wonder how I am? Do you even care? Forgotten over time Hidden by a smile Constantly haunted by the ghost of my deception Blinded in the face Scratching against the wind Synapse failing Forgetting how to feel How to be Brain washed with the compultion Blurred in with the burden Numbing the pain in my fingers Sealed with your bliss Avoiding the monster and crushing the demons with your kiss.