x.xFebruary 29th, 2004x.x
10:24AM

The last day of February. This month always feels so long, even though its to shortest. I want to do something today. But we're painting. Infact theyre painting now without me. Its this delicate light green. I wish it was more faded. But its cool. If it ends up looking like shit, I'll cry. And then I'll just cover the wall with posters and magazines... all over again...
I should normally be sleeping, and I dont know why I'm up. I guess I was hoping to catch Mitch online. *nods* But its too early, haha, I'm never on this early. I'm listening to Mexico by Incubus and my hair is a mess. I just finished reading this Stephen King story about this clockwork monkey and everytime it smashes those little cymbal things, someone dies. Its kind of weird cause for like the first ten pages, its like, kay, its a monkey, laaaame. But yeah. Anyways. Im bored. So Im going now.

x.xFebruary 28th, 2004x.x
7:04PM

Hey. Tonights plans fell through. Dont you just hate when that happens. And my parents are having some friends over and they brought their son Thomas. So now I have to babysit, in my own house, all night! I should just lock myself in my bathroom and cry. How horrible. I miss Mitch. Why did he have to have hockey tonight. Bah.

We primed my bedroom today. Tomorrow we're going to paint it. Its this faded green kind of color that I love. Im gonna scan up the little stick thingy with the color on it and put it up. As soon as I get the motivation to go upstairs.

x.xFebruary 27th, 2004x.x
8:35PM

Hi. Im so bored today. Movie plans got cancelled, but we rescheduled something else. I worked on getting the stoopid boarder off my room. God. Its so annoying and sticky as hell. But I should be able to get it off tomorrowish. We might start painting then, I dun know, it depends. And I think I dislike easy mac now. Its just. So gross. I can't take it anymore. Ack.

x.xFebruary 26th, 2004x.x
10:12PM

I love Mitch.

*ahem* Now that thats partially out of my system. Hi. Today was so cool. I had like. A major brain boost. I was doing really good in science and family studies and got everything done. Except I sucked ass in French because we were busy tanning ourselves in the windows. And my back was like burning hot, and I think I burned a bit. Oh well. I really doubt it. Its not like you can do much coloringness through a sheet of glass. So pfft.
Today I did guitar lessons with Melissa. We gossiped and hung out and played guitar. And it was ever so cool. Whoo. Anyways Im thinking, that I'm done here, and I'm totally psyched for tomorrow night. LOTR. A second time. yesyes. Well Im done here. BAI!

x.xFebruary 25th, 2004x.x
8:44PM

Hey, Im updating past 5PM on a school night. How rad is that. Then again I had half an hour of English homework on this Shrewsbury Town Whatever team thing that I don't care much for at all. Oh well, its done. Today in class we looked at this site, MartinLutherKing.org and it was all strange, the "dirt" on Luther's life. So we put the url for the site into AllTheWeb.com and clicked on the link that said who made the site. It was a lot of coding, but it kept mentioning StormFront.org so we checked it out. Its like this big page on white supremacy. I just checked it out on my own time. And as I so eloquently put it, It makes me want to rip off my skin and piss on it, thinking that there's people out there that are trying to make themselves better than other people just because of the way they came out of the womb. I mean, religious disagreements make more sense than this. Its not like you have any say in the color of your skin, and people who try to tear us up into minorities and give us reasons to want to choake our unborn children aren't doing a damn thing at all for the useful production of humanity. I wrote up a lovely letter expressing my opinions:

You make me so sick that I want to rip my skin off and piss on it, knowing that theres people out there that try to make themselves better than anyone else. It doesn't matter what your skin color is, and if you think youre just defending yourself from persecution by putting bullshit on the internet about Martin Luther King, then youre not any better than the people who persecute you. Its people like you who tear us apart by putting us all into minorities over stupid things over the way we were born, its not like anyone has a choice on the color of their skin, and if you're going to think that the color of someone's skin has any reflection on the person that they are inside, then you seriously have some issues. Get some help.

But as it turns out, you have to register and agree not to shit on the bullshitters before you can have an opinion.

x.xFebruary 24th, 2004x.x
4:07PM

Hi. I just got home. And I have a bowl of popcorn. Oi, how happy that makes me. Tonight is youth group, but I dont know if I'm going or not. Mom might be taking me out to go get paint and wallpaper for my room. Once its all done I'll take pics. If I can find where I left my digital camera. hehe.
Today was pretty aimless. I went to Choir, despite my brill plans to quit. I figured I'd give it some more thought before I quit for good. Today we sang some songs that didn't suck as bad as that "Steam Heat" song that makes me want to choake my unborn children. And Micheala thinks its weird that I can sing all these low notes in Choir really well, but she has difficulty getting them without bending her knees and sweeping her arm out infront of her. Hahaha, I should be a Tenor or something. Except all the Tenors and Basses are men. Hahaha. And in English I was scribbling quotes down on paper. like.

"I lost my virginity. Can I have yours instead?" ~me.
"Its not called 'tree hugging,' its called Ethical Consumerism." ~Mr. Bennett.
"Is this anything like the time you bought a hamster, named it Virginity, and lost it?"~ Eric Foreman from that 70s show.

x.xFebruary 21st, 2004x.x
1:36PM

Saturday! Sheesh. My fourth day in a row off and its only Saturday. God I love this. Except I keep getting mucho mucho spam in my email account lately. Like those stupid attempts at viruses that dont, and never have, succeeded in doing jackshit to my computer. I'm completely unfazed by them. If it looks suspicious, fuck throwing it away man. I open it. I dont care. I hate this computer anyway. Its gross and disgusting and my freak of a brother sits infront of it for hours every day. It sickens me. I wish I had my own computer. That way I wouldn't have to sit in my room and write everything on a damn type writer. The "r" key and the "h" key stick, and you have to stop typing and flick the little key back into place before you can keep typing. Its just annoying, really.

Micheala had her party last night. For a while I was worried that the plow wouldn't show up and I wouldn't be able to get out of the driveway, but phew, this tractor came around and cleared us up around 3:00 Friday. Micheala's party was awesome and we went to Burger Hill for the first time in my life. Its really freaking steep and even harder to climb when theres like three feet of snow on the ground. I only went down like three times, and then we all just sat at the bottom and talked about random things. We stayed up until like 4:30 that night and I woke up around 8:30 because Erica was making noises in her sleep. Aparently I kept hitting her. I tell you, I'm a violent sleeper. Hahaha. Oh, and I tried to subject them all to Monty Python but they found it boring. (*gasp!* boring?!) Oh well. Micheala was interested, so we might watch it again sometime. We didn't even get to the part with the killer rabbit. Man thats like a frickin milestone, it is. <3

Anyways Im out now. Enjoy your Saturday. love

x.xFebruary 19th, 2004x.x
12:54PM

Maaajor snowday today! I havent seen this much snow in ages. I can practically walk over the cars in my driveway. I almost want to go play in the snow. But I dont think I could open the door. DUDE! I could jump out my window and into the snow bank! Man that would be awesome. Except I dont know if I could get back in the house again. Yeah. Well anyways. Im off to check my ednet email account and see if I got any mail. Whoo. love.

x.xFebruary 18th, 2004x.x
1:55PM

Hi. Im writing again. Because my MSN icon did something amusing. It inverted. I dont know why. But it looks pretty.

weird.

11:06AM

Hi. I'm trying to get this post up fast, so if anyone at school hits my site at recess, they'll know why Im not there today. *Sticks her tongue out* But I'm only kidding myself. Hehe. My site doesn't get _that_ many hits. At all. and the reason Im not at school today, is that Im sick. So pfft. Anyway.
I added two new poems today. One of them I wrote on Monday night, and its called Siren Summer. Its so flirtatious and pretty and it makes me delirious, just thinking about summer. God I miss summer. *dies* and I put up a new poem by Mat Rufiange. Its called Living Lies (not to be confused with the already existing poem in the archives called Dialing Lies). And I remind once again, if you have poetry you'd like to be seen up here, then go right ahead and send me your work.

And on a topic change, youth group last night. ^_^ We had to play this game where we had to find Rob and shake his hand. He was outside on the sidewalk. So we all got out coats and went out, and walked right past him, and started running. We caught up with Dustin and Kevin and they went off to Tim Hortons. Then we just kinda walked around Kentville for a bit. Kentvilles so... bizarre. Everything is so tight and close together with those dark alleys. When we came back to the building, they'd locked us out, so we made another round. Micheala went back with Dustin and Kevin, but Ashley and Erica and I went to the hockey arena. I wonder if Jeff was playing. But it was another team practicing, even if Jeff had a game (which I doubt) it would have been over by the time we got there. So we sat around, and whenever one of the players would skate near where we were sitting (we were the only people watching), we'd start talking loudly about our lives as prostitutes. Hahaha. <3 Anyways Im out. love

x.xFebruary 17th, 2004x.x
4:35PM

Hi. Im in an awesome mood. Im sitting here, dancing and singing in my chair. Just because I feel like it. Today was cool. Except I have major homework. Pfft. Oh well. I have youth group tonight. And Mitch says he'll call me after nine. <3 rah. I have to move the video on my video camera onto a tape so we can watch it at Michealas party on Friday. I brought the camcorder to school and whoo, it was good fun. Man. we're such freaks. But its cool. So Im gonna run away, and eat crackers now. <3. love.

x.xFebruary 16th, 2004x.x
7:27PM

Happy Birfday, Micheala!

x.xFebruary 14th, 2004x.x
9:53PM

Hi. Im babysitting. And this is a kickass computer. I tell you, its hard to get on WindowsXP without a log on, but its not that hard with those handy dandy password hints. Im just hoping there isn`t a keystroker on this... uh oh. I think the baby`s crying. ... or maybe not. Its cool here, theres definitely enough food, but Ive eaten so much junk today that I refuse to eat anything more until tomorrow. Tomorrow I`ll just eat lettuce or something to make up for all of this. Anyways, I feel really bad about being on the computer now, so Im gonna log off and erase these files from the history. And hope that they dont know much about cookies... uh, bye.

x.xFebruary 13th, 2004x.x
7:44PM

Sorry about the lack of updates in the last weekish time. Schools been occupying. I was really nervous about the dance for a long time, because I was going to ask this guy to dance. I mean, REALLY nervous. But all for nothing, he wasn't there. But that doesn't mean we didn't have fun. Except I learned a very valulable lesson:

Never, ever drink more than half a bottle of pop and then dance to Jump Around by House of Pain.

*shakes her head* Lesson learned.
Well it wasn't all bad. They had these awesome druggish strobe lights that makes you feel like youre seriously on crack, man its freaking awesome. I mean, its not like I've never seen strobe lights before, but its just, not in a place with that much noise and people... oh fun. And then on the last song, Micheala, Meghan and I were all singing dramatically that O-Town song, "All Or Nothing". Heh. Amusing. And then when I got tired of my pop, I delighted in spraying it all across the bathroom. And you know whats cool? When you get paper towel totally soggy and wet and then throw it at bathroom walls, they totally stick. Buahaha.
Well I'm out. <3

x.xFebruary 8th, 2004x.x
11:19AM

And now it's Sunday. *yawns widely* Heh, I'm slowly working myself back into my rut of laziness. For example, last night I watched a movie until 1:00 with a bag of chips, and this morning, I woke up, finished the movie and finished the bag of chips, all without leaving the comfort of my bed. The fat will catch up to me someday.
Well I dont have anything major to put up here. No one's online, I dont have any emails... so yeah. I guess today'll be a lot like yesterday.

x.xFebruary 7th, 2004x.x
7:30PM

I've been looking up seventies stuff all day, and I found some severely hilarious shit. So I'm sharing with you. <3 enjoy.

Disturbing Children's Books of the Seventies The kids of the 70s got to see and hear a lot of things that are verboten in today's hypersensitive and politically correct culture.
77 Ways To Smoke Grass In '70s High School A head's guide to Seventies "high" school.
The 22 Rules of Pot Etiquette by Kevin Pickford. "Don't bogart that joint, my friend" -- the do's and don'ts of blowing reefer.
Recipe for Better Crocked Brownies The special Brownies. ^_~

x.xFebruary 7th, 2004x.x
1:28PM

Hey. Today I found myself looking at my site statistics. I used to be very concerned with how many hits I got in a month, and was always interested in making them higher. But ever since I got the new layout, I killed my main page and lost like 3000 hits. So now I just dont care anymore. hehe. Last night I went skating at Ericas house. Theres a kickass pond behind her house. it was her, Micheala and me. We skated for a while, and then we went inside and watched TV and looked at all these models. Its hilarious, the way they had their hair in these sickly looking bobs like right above their foreheads and their faces were all ... washed out looking. So that they'd look intense... or elsewise, just really ugly. And the guy models! Their legs are *so* incredibly scrawny! Its impossible. But yeah, good fun. Anyway, todays my boring day. All I've done is sit around, play guitar and draw little pictures of what my dream room design would be. Anyways. Im off now. <3

x.xFebruary 6th, 2004x.x
4:32PM

Hii. Its finally Friday. Even though it feels like... Wednesday. My weekend is going to be pretty boring. I guess I should try to make it better than last weekend anyway, which basically sucked on about fifteen different levels. But I'm getting a bit tired of the walls in my room, so I'm considering maybe going off and painting it. I want to completely re vamp it, and make it all seventies. But modernized. You know? Like, some stuff from the seventies was totally tacky. But I'll just get all the good stuff that I can modernize up a bit. Whoo hoo. Anyways. I think I'm done here. <3

x.xFebruary 5th, 2004x.x
4:40PM

"Please join actors from THE O.C. at the ROCK THE VOTE AWARDS after-party.
Saturday, February 7th. 11:30 PM - 2:00 AM
Featuring performances by: the Pussycat Dolls, DJ AM, Kinky, and Rooney.
Purchase tickets for $25 at GrooveTickets.com
Hollywood Palladium / 6215 Sunset Blvd / Hollywood, CA 90028
Must be 21+ to enter."

Oh god. Times when I totally wish that I was older. Aaah that would be kickass, meeting the cast from the OC! And listening to Rooney live! Ah. And while I'm dreaming, I'd like a pony....

I put up two new poems today. They're called Dialing Lies and January 17th. Theyre both from some time in January, and I particularly like the second poem better. But the first one was good, too, so I thought it deserved a mention on the site. Anyways... enjoy.

x.xFebruary 4th, 2004x.x
2:55PM

Snow day today! Despite the fact that the weather is beautiful. The sun is shining and the sky is blue. I was woken up by the phone ringing brutally just inches next to my head by the woman across the street. I babysat for her today, an easy twenty bucks. Maybe I'll go out to Econo tonight. They have some Blink182 patches that I want to get my fingers on. I saw this Led Zeppelin incense, how sweet ass is that?! So maybe I'll pick something up tonight. I dunno. Man last night was Youth Group. The guy I like wasn't there, and neither was Erica. Erica was apparently at home making stir fry. Yum. hehe. Micheala elected me to do some acoustic songs at this little romantic couples evening that the youth group is planning on putting on for fundraising. Which totally nerves me. Me! Performing! Ah. Frightening. But Cool. anyways Im out now. <3

x.xFebruary 3rd, 2004x.x
4:35PM

Second day of the Second term, worked out much better. I brought my guitar to school today and this queer ass poser came in and was asking us "What the fuck are you retards doing". Shes one of Joey's audience, so if you ask me, she should just go off to a quiet room and shake her head in shame. Well Im bored. And tonight I have Youth Group. <3 Yay. I hate the little getting to know you kind of games that they play, though. I guess they're not always that bad. I dont know. I just wish they'd go easy on me, but its not like its school or anything, and I dont have to go. So I should be enjoying it, I guess. The companys definitely not bad, though. ^_~ And by the way, I found this cool 70s site, called Stuck in the 70s. Im using parts of it for inspiration on how I should redo my room. Whoo whoo.

Im bored. Heres my lipgloss. Whoo.

x.xFebruary 2nd, 2004x.x
5:10PM

Hi. Supper's on the table so Im gonna make this as quick as possible. Last months updates and pictures and messages have all been put off to the Archives section, or more specifically, January 2004. Well, the second term begins today, and I'm thinking that with this five hours of Jeffs clan per day (save for the one period I get of FST once every two days) that last term's gym courses were looking a lot prettier. Plus, Comeau seems to be every bit as bad as my brother's been telling me, and even though I'm severely resentful that my mom got my brother a job at the Co-op (and hes working there right now), I think I might look forward to following in Davids tracks of Rebellion. Oh well. My rebellion is in more.. eh. Creative doses.

Heres what I did last night.

My pretty druggy looking nails. They look like those capsules with one half pink and one half blue. I <3 them. I didn't have any blue nailpolish so I put blue foodcoloring in my pearl colored nailpolish. Hehe Im so innovative. Well... suppers still waiting... so yes. Bye!

~Crissi