July 28th, 2005
1:56PM

I want to be a dinosaur that grows really big when you put me in water.

I am amazed at Heath Perry, because he's amazing at piano, how did he just learn piano, I know people who've been playing for YEARS and can't manage that, what the hell. Someday he's going to be amazing, and well known, like Coldplay. I don't per se actually like Coldplay, but some people do, in fact, many many people do.

would you like some bacardi with your tea, or some tea with your bacardi? your last day...

July 26th, 2005
1:46PM

okay, for some reason my computer clock was a day off. so I had no idea what day it was... sigh.

I walked to the store today and only got honked at once, yeeey.

July 25th, 2005
10:47AM

I reupdated the special thanks page today. mom left on a road trip and I kinda wish that I had gone because I'm probably not going to do anything productive in the time she's gone anyway, but I have things to not to and people to miss, so I'm going to hop right to that, right now.

actually I'm going to eat yogurt and bananas, put some lemon juice in my hair and go rot by the pool. (and try not to tan... argh.)

12:23AM

aaah! I am BACK! BACK from the lake. yey. good weekend indeed, happy forever, heart heart yey.

two new posts to the guestbook, so thank you for finally being nice and responsive and actually signing it, yey to Mat and John. And no, Mat, I promise I wont melt that Zeppelin record... atleast... not on purpose, I dont know, I am prone to disaster.

so i'm going to run away and read scary stephen king novels because they make my stomach feel scared, love love.

July 19th, 2005
5:20PM

show last night! it was pretty hectic and insane, but all in all it was a good night. The Rescue are an amazing band, Daniel bought me their ceedee, I am happy, happier than dinosaurs and robots.

we went to the beach yesterday. which was quite pleasing as well. we went to aylesford and got lost and had to ask for directions twice. the first person lied to us. bitch. but aylesford brings back memories of day camp so it was nice.

last night I slept in my storage room because I was too lazy to clean my room and take all the stuff off my bed.

I PUT UP A NEW SONG TODAY. "GRAMMATICAL ERRORS." I also did some minor changes to the save september part of the site. anyway. listen to the new song now! or, uh, read the lyrics. Whatever you prefer...

July 18th, 2005
12:04PM

I check the guestbook every day but nobody makes new posts. it makes me a little sad you know.

I'm playing first tonight. only four songs. because I'm first there probably wont be a whole lot of people there. which is okay really. I guess.

anyway I have to go learn how to use one of those pickups that you stick in acoustic guitars. because dads not here to show me. so, here's hoping that I dont make the whole thing explode, rah rah.

12:09AM

got back from the cottage tonight! hilights:
- there is a chipmunk who sits on the dumptruck (it's a flower pot) in the garden and natters loudly if no one feeds him sunflower seeds directly to his mouth. he also once ran inside the cottage.
- i kayaked over rocks, and they were scary, and some guy in a motor boat made waves and half drowned me.
- mom got drunk and said that if I played guitar she would buy me a skirt for this wedding I am attending next month.
- mom gave me two margaritas.
- it is increasingly difficult to succeed at tetris while drinking.
- I shoved a stick in a hornets nest thinking it was dead. oh, oh, I was wrong.
- people at the boyscout camp nailed a board over my political grafiti so I pulled it off and broke it in two. and then I wrote more stuff on the walls.
- I fell asleep on the deck for two hours, I think I have anemia and so I am going for blood tests.
- show tomorrow night and I am nervous like hell.

July 13th, 2005
6:33PM

today I painted my room! my storage room. and actually I just primed it. I still don't know what color I want it yet. I'm gonna go to home hardware and buy some mistinted paint or something. its cheaper that way.

while my mother waters plants, my father loads his gun.

je vous aime.

(and they splashed into the deep blue sea! oh it was a wonderful splash.)

12:05AM

whoo, this is like the exact time last night that I was on the computer. sweet. I'm listening to terrible rap music. I made fun poems today with words in church newsletters. and daniel threw things at my window cause i didn't know he was outside. and i drank tea and ate not one but TWO pieces of fruit today. yeey. in conclusion my stomach is still hungry and so maybe I'm going to go have bread and watch lame infomercials on teevee. or maybe that daily show, if its on tonight.

i'm glad to be home. so glad. sigh! <3

July 12th, 2005
12:04AM

hey, turns out dad fixed the computer, yeeeeeyyy. all is well.

planes are tight, I wanna be a traveller.

July 11th, 2005
1:27AM (Ont. time)

sooo this could be my last post on here. I have received word that my home computer has FRIED - the motherboard, to be precise. This makes me sad to a crazy extent because this means that I must seek employment.

I finished packing my things tonight. I'm sad because I've come to love waking up to the sounds of arguing... or atleast, I've made peace with it. I'm happier now... I think I must do this again next summer. I love these people.

we watched lilo and stitch tonight, I cried, because its sad, and I was sad, because of the leaving thing.

sigh, when I sigh it makes my stomach cramp up.

anyway, I'm gonna go watch the hunchback of notre dame. then i'm going to write another letter to the boy (sigh! misssssssss him so much) and finish decorating .... um, something. its a secret. you can't know.

and for now, goodbye. i love you all. I will update this when I get a computer, maybe in August or something.

AW SHIT, what the fuck am I going to make a resumé with, now that I have no computer. okay fuck. add "writing a resume" to my list of things to do before 3AM tonight.

peace out, a-town.

July 8th, 2005
1:21PM (Ont. time)

woo, just hit a thousand. <3

1:12PM (Ont. time)

whaaaah I am AMAZED! I've been looking at my artist ranking on myspace, and I'm near the top of all of the lists for my categories (Emo, Acoustic, and Alternative) in Nova Scotia. I think I might break a thousand plays today. Maaan! So PLEASED! I love you all, all of you people. so happy.

July 7th, 2005
10:29PM (Ont. time)

Still in Ontario for another four days. I'm making this post on my uncle's computer in the basement. It's 10:30 here but it feels much later, probably because my internal clock is stuck on atlantic time, and insists that it's 11:30. I'm not even at home and yet I'm still waiting for the phone to ring. But I guess that's fine... patience is a virtue.

I watched Oliver and Company tonight. Now I want to buy a small orange cat and name it Oliver and pamper it, pamper it like crazy. aaaw with those big dark eyes...

taylor's party is tomorrow night. I'm on a quest to buy converse shoes but I haven't found any that are overly enticing.

fire hydrants here are blue and yellow. all licence plates start with the letter A.

5:55PM (Ont. time)

gosh, I miss him.

July 4th, 2005
9:40AM

I just did some updates to the Save September song. I put up lyrics for "Catch Fire (for the sake of love)", and I uploaded it. So feel free to listen to it.

i'm still all tingly and hurty in my chest. rar, so nervous.

ps, thats just a shadow under my collarbone, what what!

9:25AM

Happy Independence Day, or whatever it is. it's not my national holiday, but hoo rah for all you americans out there. <3

today is my last day. Well, okay, the end of my last day, plus extra? The first day of vacation? We leave home in about half an hour and the plane leaves in about three hours, give or take ten minutes. I'm just so scared! There's so many freaking processes! I need ID, and I need my little boarding pass and codes and numbers and calling cards and baaah! and what if I go to the wrong spot? or get really confused and accidently miss my plane? Or what if they think I have something suspicious in security and hold me back? sheesh, I definitely inherited my dad's neurotic tendencies. I'm sure it'll be fine... yeesh.

anyway let me describe how nervous I am. well. I can't eat, because the mere idea of ingesting anything makes my stomach hurt. I have this weird burning sensation down my chest and my palms are sweaty and I feel all weird and tingly. in conclusion, I believe I am dying.

ps, mom says I cant get my nose done in Ontario, but then again, the age for it is like 16, so I could probably just get it done anyway, nah nah nah.

July 3rd, 2005
4:15PM

aaah! So, today is my last day before vacation. I am incredibly nervous about flying on a plane alone. I keep thinking about what sort of things I'm allowed to bring on the plane. I was going to bring this bag I made, but its covered in pins, and I guess those could serve as weapons if I decided to stab someone. I dont think I could actually kill anyone with a "Full Tilt" pin, but I guess I could really try hard if I had to.

I watched Secret Window today; I forgot that I had that movie. It's pretty morbid, yeesh. It served as good amusement whilst waiting by the phone. my not-quite-so-favorite pass time.

in conclusion, my stomach piercing hurts, I have packed everything away in suitcases, and I am incredibly bored because to do anything amusing means to unpack, and I don't want to forget anything vital.

July 2nd, 2005
8:32PM

woo woo, I just finished yet another sewing project. sheesh, I love wasting my mom's old fabric. the problem is, I've been putting off eating food because I just don't damned know what to make. I wish mom was here to make me food, good food, that doesn't make me feel gross and greasy afterwards. I guess I could throw some frozen vegetables in a pot or something.

mom says I can get my nose pierced, everyone, talk me out of it. I'm allergic to metal anyway.

uhhh in conclusion, I really dont have anything important to say. I thought I did, but then again, I also once thought there was an Apple Juice Fairy who filled my glass with apple juice at night.

all of a sudden I smell pot.

1:14PM

Woo woo, happy belated Canada day. I missed the fireworks. I spent the night before in Dartmouth at the April Wine concert with my dad, my friend Jack, and his dad. Hilights:

- group of drunk chicks standing in front of us, waving around cigarettes (almost burned my dad a few times) and beer cans.
- one blonde drunk chick kept talking to my dad, eep eep eep.
- lead singer/guitarist looks really intense when he solos.
- I will never go anywhere without sane women or backup for extended amounts of time.
- pee soaked toilet paper; they should segregate bathrooms by gender, too many drunk men with bad aim.
- the band "Never" could actually become quite mainstream some day; the lead guitarist guy did an acoustic emoish song at the end of their set (they played first) and I sat down in front and listened. sigh sigh.
- the band "snake eye" was kinda tacky, but named after some guys penis.

and today I have decided that new minas is creepy and gross for these reasons.

- car with two guys honked and waved at me. they looked like they listened to rap.
- older guy in van almost ran me over at the convenience store, then he smiled creepishly at me.
- old guy in a pick up truck honked repeatedly until I looked at him so he could grin and wave at me.
- car of three guys pulled over. guy gets out and says "heeey". I asked if I knew him, and he said, "no, but oh well!" so I walked quickly away. They yelled something after me, I didn't catch it, but I thought I heard something about 'strangers.'

in conclusion, new minas is small and dirty and full of old men and creeps.