So many dreams of you...
x.xMay 31st, 2004x.x
1:46PM

The very last day of May! I wish I could say that June is in the air, but today it feels all gross and cold like April. its been like this for a while.
This will probably be my last post of the month. I`ll update eventually, again, when I remember too. This Friday I`m going on a Sciences Humaines trip to Saint Anne University to visit the campus and get the whole french-speaking experience. It should be alright. I think it`ll be fun. Me and Carey want to get a big cooler full of food and chips and snacks and coolers. Like the drink kind of coolers. Can you just walk into the Co-op and buy some of those? Hm I`ll have to ask. My parents probably wont want me to buy them but ha, as if I care. Today we had a big shoe box project due in English and the stupid thing is that I forgot to do this big write up with it, so I just did it like fifteen minutes ago. I figure, Mr. Bennett will probably take off some marks for the lateness but I need to get it in. Ugh, I worked so hard on it and then I forgot the actual damn report. Stupid Crissi, so Stupid.

The Semi Formal Dance is on Thursday! The last Horton dance of the school year that I`ll actually be able to go to (seeing as prom is grade 12s only. ha). I have to write up an invite form sometime. All the guys around here are all, uggh oh no, now I have to ask someone, now I have to wear something nice, oh gripe moan complain. Ha. guys are amusing. Anyways Im bored here and I hate the shitty accents on this computer so I`m gonna log off now. Love. <3

x.xMay 30th, 2004x.x
9:43AM

...duuude. Right now this update is almost exactly 72 hours after my last one. Whooa. I havent been on the net at home since like Tuesday. I'm not grounded or anything, its just not fun anymore. I'd rather be on the phone than on the net. *shrugs*

This weekend is/was the Apple Blossom Festival. Really, there's only three main things for me: Rockfest (Thursday, May 27th), the Grand Street Parade (Saturday, May 29th, 2004)and the fireworks. Rockfest was pretty good, but I wasn't actually there much. I was with Tommy, and we spent much of the time at Chads house (who lives like, 60 seconds away walking distance from the ballfield where they had Rockfest). A lot of stuff happened... and a lot of people got busted. I didn't even drink anything, man. I'm disappointed in me. Ha... kidding.
The fireworks were supposed to be Friday night but they were cancelled because of nasty weather. Saturday was the parade. It wasn't bad, but it was SO cold. Everyone was all bundled up in blankets and jackets and umbrellas (it was raining on and off). After the parade, I hung around Kentville for a while with Tommy and that night I saw the fireworks in Kentville for pretty much the first time in my life. My parents say they've taken me when I was little, but whats the point in doing stuff like that, because you never remember those things when you're older.

Today I was checking my hordes of email (oh yeah, 4 emails, two of which I sent myself and the other two were mailing lists, ha I know, I have no friends *tear*) and I found some interesting Sum 41 news. I was looking through and I found this ever-so-amusing CD that I've been meaning on buying. Let me intro you the pic:

It's got a ton of good bands on it. I think I heard about it in Spin Magazine. Anyways, thats not even the best part of my news. The best part would be that...

TBS is releasing a new album in July!

...aaaaaaah! Finally! I was streaming some of their new songs off the net today, and it seems like they *really* have some good stuff prepared. If you want to check the details on the new Album, "Where You Want To Be" (hits stores July 27th, 2004) then by all means, Click Here.

x.xMay 27th, 2004x.x
9:44AM

Its first period on Thursday and I have a test next period that I'm not looking forward to. In Science. I tried to study last night but I guess I must have been stressed out and I just couldn't think for the whole night. You have no idea how frustrating it is to not be able to think the night before a test. Ugh. And then I took out my old diaries and read the entries from this exact month last year, and it was pretty depressing. So that didn't much help my mental state, either. Ha.

Well tonight is Rock Fest. I'm also really nervous right now because I'm going to Grand Pre after school today to do an interview. I highly doubt I will get the job, but atleast I can. I dont know. Try. Cause I never do anything with my summers.

so yeah. Rockfest. I'm sure that there'll be much interesting things to say after its all done. I wonder if there's going to be any more weed in the cotton candy again this year? Haha. Good times. <3

x.xMay 22nd, 2004x.x
8:24PM

Finally back home! We went on an exchange program with the kids from Queen Charlotte Intermediate School in Charlottetown, PEI from Wednesday, May 19th to Saturday, May 22nd (today). So we're finally back. And I captured the whole thing on video. If you went on a trip and would like a copy of the tape, please email me at delerious_me@msn.com at 5$ a copy.

I took a journal of it too! So now you can read it all, I spent pretty much the last hour typing the whole damn thing up. So take a read and see all the interesting things we did (breaking tvs, pissing on the bathroom wall (maybe?), coffee house gigs, buying condoms and drawing third eyebrows...). Click Here to Read! I'm so happy to be able to show you my journal, I wrote it all for you people, seriously. So I'd love for you to read it. Also, if you'd like you can visit the site of the band that played at the coffeehouse gig on Thursday night. They're called Alive In Your Eyes.

And as I mentioned. At Dooly's (you can actually get into Dooly's in PEI) they have machines in the women's bathroom where you can buy condoms. I bought one for a laugh as a memento.

x.xMay 20th, 2004x.x
11:20AM

Hey. Oh my god, I'm updating from a museum computer in PEI. I'm not supposed to be back until Saturday but I have my connections. I broke the TV in here. Bahahaha!

x.xMay 15th, 2004x.x
10:35PM

I lost my damned lip gloss yet again. Rage! But oh well, it was almost done anyway. I'll just go buy a new one once I find enough money hidden in my room. Bah. I bet I have a jar of pennies somewhere. I think I might have accidently dropped it out of my hoodie at the movie theatre (you wouldn't believe how many times I do that, haha). Chad, Tommy and I went to the theatre last night. We were supposed to see Troy, but it was all old out. I can't even describe to you my severe disappointment. i would have sat down and cried if I could. Haha. Kidding. But I really want to see Orlando Bloom and Troy and Greeks and Trojans and that freakin wooden horse! Raaar. Well we saw Van Helsing instead. It was alright, but we walked in after the movie had already started twenty minutes ago. I didn't care, cause it was the longest running movie that we could get into, and yeah. It wasnt so bad, except there were these three vampire chicks that were severely fucknutted and quite lesbianish. It was just strange.
Anyways, the sun is shining a beautiful 36 degrees (I'm not too sure what the shade is like) and I already have my sunscreen on, so I think I'm gonna go outside now. <3

x.xMay 14th, 2004x.x
9:49AM

It's still first period and we just finished a family studies test. Ha, and when I walked out into the hall and into the lab, I was walking behind Plaid Shirt Boy, and *gasp*! He wasn't wearing that hideous trucker hat. But thats probably just cause he's in class.
Today I think I'm going to Tommys house afterschool, and then we're gonna go see Troy. Whoo! I still haven't finished reading the book about the whole, Trojan War thing, so blah. Hmm, only twenty minutes left until Second period, and I can get out of it cause the big finale of the Horton Idol thing is going on in the performance centre and the top ten are all gonna do kareoke. Which isn't really as fun as random people doing kareoke, and I dont even know how Maddison and Tristan are gonna use a kareoke machine when all they do is rap. But atleast it's better than doing my science, which I'm pretty much done anyway.

x.xMay 13th, 2004x.x
4:23PM

Day Three of having dreadlocks and I'm still loving them to death. Yesterday I put them up in pigtails and it looked fuckin awesome. Dreadlocks are so much fun.
Today on Horton Idol, they had performances by Tristan, Maddison (as if I know how to spell his name right, ppft) and Jill. High School spin-offs of crappy TV shows are only interesting when the two main guys, Tristan and Maddison, turn the competition into a rap battle. That was yesterday, and that was fucking interesting. I think Jill's gonna win, cause she can actually sing. And today Maddison's earphones were dangling out of his pocket and he was walking all over them onstage. Ha.

x.xMay 11th, 2004x.x
7:44PM

Hey, I'm not supposed to be on the net but I am anyway. Cause I just wanted to be stoopid and talk about how I was bored today so I dreaded my hair and shoved beads in it. The beads fell out (some of em) but I'm keeping the dreads for a little while. Tommy wants me to keep em in until Thursday so he can see them but I dont think I'll want to keep them in that long. (It could get gross.)Here's a beautiful example of what I look like with my dreads in.

x.xMay 10th, 2004x.x
4:25PM

raah school today was slowish. We have this gay little Horton Idol thing going on where people sing acapella in the cafeteria infront of everyone and a pannel of judges. Some of the people embarassed me. I mean, they make me feel sad cause I know they must know what people are thinking of them even as theyre singing and it makes me embarassed for them. With them. Ah. I dunno.
I'm listening to Flashlight Brown as I type and thinking about tomorrow. I'm going to meet Tommy at the halfpipe afterschool and he seems to think he's going to teach me how to skateboard. Ha. Infront of like, what, fourty people I dont know, some of whom could be like, professional? Ack! An embarassment waiting to happen. Maybe I can convince him to just show off the whole time. Even though thats not very fun for me. Hmm, yeah that only occurs to me now. Either way, I'll end up being embarassed and standing alone watching him show off, or trying to skateboard and being thoroughly embarassed. What a dilemma! (OH excellent use of vocab there.)
Erica got her nose pierced over the weekend. It looks really cool. But I was just thinking what if you were sick and you sneezed and it flew out? Or if you like snorfed (come on, you know what I'm talking about, you people inhaling your snot like theres no tomorrow) and you accidently inhaled it or something. That would kind of suck. Anyways I'm done being sickening. If you want to be grossed out more. Go to Happy Tree Friends.com. Its sick.

x.xMay 8th, 2004x.x
12:53PM

Happy Birthday Evan! Everyone go wish Evan a happy birfday. ^_^
I woke up feeling crappy cause everytime I visit my grandparents (where I am now) they make me sleep on the floor. We forgot the air mattress so I've been sleeping on hard sofa cushions. You can't roll over at all or you fall off and I'm longer than the cushions themselves. So I woke up feeling sore in my back, neck and shoulders and despite the severe pain my bed was giving me, I didn't want to get up because I was too sad and lonely and bored and didn't have anything to do anyway.
So I made breakfast (a grilled cheese that I burned, I always seem to burn them when I'm unhappy) and then took the acoustic outside and sat in the grass and played. Its really nice outside but kinda cold. The grass is long and pretty and theres no nasty grubs living in it (atleast I didn't see any... fortunately). I was playing Hallelujah and singing along and vaguely wondering if anyone was hearing me play. *shrugs*
My grandfather called me inside to look at something he'd dragged out of the crawl space in the basement. Last night I'd asked him if he had an old record player he wasn't using, and he had said no, but then remembered something. He showed me this AWESOME freaking beautiful chunk of wood. Its like an entertainment stand with compartments for records or a plant or whatever randomity you can throw in there with two big speakers on the side and a record player/8 track player/radio ontop. And everything works! Its all in perfect condition, the wood isn't chipped or hurting or anything and it's all pretty big, about the legnth of my toybox at home and a little higher. Its so cool. I can't wait to drag it home and play all my records.

x.xMay 7th, 2004x.x
7:23PM

Ack, I'm so bored. I'm at my grandparents house in Bridgewater for the weekend. Gasp, yes, the whole weekend. Maybe if I complain enough, they'll let us go home early on Sunday instead of late-ishly. I'm severely bored so I'm thinking I'm gonna go back to playing depressing songs on guitar.

9:40AM
Hey. Today is my day off. I went to bed early last night. I was at Tommys all day. I came home, watched the OC a second time and bawled my eyes out a second time and then was so tired from sobbing hysterically that I fell asleep. I woke up in the morning and I think I must have had a million dreams about Tommy cause it was a shock to wake up and have him not be there (for some strange reason). So I hid under the blankets for half an hour and listened to everyone downstairs getting ready for school and work and came down after mom and Dave were gone.
Theres this one song on the OC on the Season Finale that I knew from Meghan constantly playing it, but it wasn't the same, it was done on guitar. I seemed to find it severely wicked, so I looked up the tab by Jeff Buckley and I've been learning it. It's an amazing guitar part and I'm thrilled to say I can actually play most of what I've looked at. Its so severely beautiful.

I'm adding two new links to the Links section. One of them is GumBlondes.com. Its kinda slutty, but its these portraits done by a Canadian called Jason Kronenwald and all of his work is done with pre-chewed bubblegum. It's amazing the stuff you can do with it. The other link is the link to the page previously mentioned below.

x.xMay 6th, 2004x.x
9:30AM

Hey! I'm updating from the English lab. Who watched the Season Finale of the OC last night? I bawled my eyes out when Marissa said "I love you" to Ryan when they were dancing and then he didn't say anything back. I cried basically nonstop from then until the end of the episode. They were playing that song, "Hallelujah" and I was like hey, I know this song! And I was sobbing my face off. It was so sad. Ryan left Marissa to go have Theresa's baby, Marissa started drinking, the parents were crying and Seth ran away. It was sad. T_T

Today we finished this English Project that I've been busting my ass on. Its about the Pop Culture in Old Man and the Sea (A book by Ernest Hemingway, published in 1952). If you'd like to take a look at my first attempt at ever making a website with Dreamweaver MX (and having no bloody clue how to use it, heh heh), by all means, click here.

x.xMay 4th, 2004x.x
4:31PM

Hey I know this is my second post today but I'm too lazy to make it obvious to you. It should be evident when it says "May 4th." I just thought I'd come back and show you this awesome pic of this guitar pick (a pic of a pick! ha..... oh I suck.) that Cale made in tech ed and gave to me. <3 I kinda wish I'd taken tech ed cause it seems pretty cool, but I dont know. See, I love free stuff. ... like free guitar picks.

Ah fucking yes. By the way, those are Doritos in the background. I found three bags of Doritos in the cupboard; must be my lucky day. But Doritos leave little marks on the scanner that never come off. oi.

Erica, Micheala and I were on the computers at lunch and we found a picture of Kurt Cobain's Suicide Note when we were looking at the leftovers of my friend Namori's website. We couldn't read it, so we tried to find it written up somewhere in basic text, and we found a copy presented by Courtney Love, with little opinions and commentaries lightly sprinkled throughout. For example:

"He's such an asshole. I want you all to say 'asshole' really loud."

"Well, Kurt, so fucking what -- then don't be a rock star you asshole."

But by far the best part of Courtney's works was right at the end before she finished:

"I'm laying in our bed, and I'm really sorry. And I feel the same way you do. I'm really sorry you guys. I don't know what I could have done. I wish I'd been here. I wish I hadn't listened to other people, but I did.
Every night I've been sleeping with his mother, and I wake up in the morning and think it's him because his body's sort of the same. "

Such a way with words, huh Courtney? Oh god it was hilarious. We were laughing so hard infront of the monitor.

x.xMay 4th, 2004x.x
1:32PM

Its lunchtime and I'm on the school computers. (Not the teachers computer this time, rah. I'm not really allowed to do that.) I've been working on this webpage project thingy that we have to do for English. But now that all of my typing is done, theres nothing left for me to do because we dont have Dreamweaver MX on these computers. *stab stab*
The weathers all sick and grey again. It was like that yesterday and the day before. Tommy came over on Sunday... after my little rage of loneliness. *points down to the previous entry sheepishly* Yeah. I blame it on PMS. Bahaha.

Now that my dad's put the record player in the basement, I've been playing all of my records pretty much every time I'm down there. And theres this one album that I got by a group caled "Bread" and its actualy not bad. <3

x.xMay 2nd, 2004x.x
what the fuck does it matter what time it is.

Its grey and disgusting today. Which basically explains my mood. Maybe its warm, I dont know, I haven't gone outside. I was planning on meeting someone up at EMS but unfortunately that someone seems to have for-fucking-gotten. I'm bored and I dont feel like writing this. bye.

x.xMay 1st, 2004x.x
2:26PM

Hey! Today is Saturday! And a beautiful day to start off the month of May. Mom woke me up around 8:00 and we went out for breakfast at Tim Hortons. (God, they make awesome croissants.) Then we walked around the mall for a bit (I swear my mom has a sixth sense that blares flashing lights in her head whenever there's a sale on within five miles of where she's standing.)
I dragged my mom off to Econo and we spent half an hour sitting on the floor flipping through stacks and stacks of records. I came out with another seven records, only two of which will be put up on my walls, but I'm actually going to listen to them first. Dad took out the record player in the basement so I'm all set.
Dollarama has the coolest sandals. Fuck paying twenty bucks for something you'll wear for two months. I love my sandals.

Bahaha I'm wearing them right now. They're so pretty. And last night I spent an hour making this fabulous guitar string bracelet. (I know you want one. ^_~)