Today it feels like summer's breathing on my cheek...
x.xJune 29th, 2004x.x
7:13PM

Hey people! Today was a weirdly weathered day. It went from nice to shit to rain to nice again. Welcome to Nova Scotia, haha.

Had to take a first aid course today up at the park. I wasn't too enthralled about it. I recognized this girl who was in grade 12 there. She's working at the park this summer. So is Greg Burton, apparently. He wasn't there for the first aid course so I'm assuming that he already has it. Greg's working as part of the crew of puppeteers... I think so anyway, cause his name is on my schedule. Whatever. Anyways, I'm kind of apprehensive because I still don't know anyone personally at all, and none of them know me. Maybe they recognize the face from around school, but I knew Jen (The girl I recognized from grade 12) seems pretty tight with that guy she's always hanging around with. Seeing as she's the only girl in the group other than me, I hope she doesn't you know... ditch me entirely. I guess I'll just have to be a little more outgoing. God I hate people, theyre so confusing. Haha. Actually no I dont mean that. I just hate being so damn shy sometimes. Fuck it.

Oh hey, I updated the MSN Blobs page. Enjoy.

x.xJune 25th, 2004x.x
8:57PM

Happy birfday to Meghan and Cassie. They both had bdays yesterday. Yeeeep.

You know, I had every intention last year of scanning all my PEI pictures and putting them up on the site. I still havent done it, and all the pictures are like sticky tacked all over the corners of my walls. They look cool though so I dont know. Maybe I'll consider scanning em sometime when the hits are getting low. Or if someone of the street randomly yells at me to update my goddamn pictures. Whatever.

Today was the last day of school at NKEC. Only a few people noticed that I don't actually go to NKEC. I think I was sort of hoping Mitch would be there, so he could see how fabulously hot I am, and how much he's missing out on. Ha. Actually, I just wanted him to see how genuinely happy I am with Tommy. Mitch seems to have thought I was going out with Tommy to get back at him. What a fucking.... forget it, I'm not going to go there on a public website.

Going to the cottage this weekend. Not too thrilled about it. Hoping there's a long distance phone plan...

x.xJune 23rd, 2004x.x
2:38PM

Whoa, Tomorrow is Meghan's birthday. I wonder if she's having a party? I'll call her tomorrow. Yeah I'm too lazy today. Think today is a Wednesday... Tomorrow I'm going Frenchys shopping with Dad and mom's taking me to Curves with her tomorrow night so I can see what its like. This summer I'm going to go to Curves with Mom, because she'll be driving me to/from work and she likes to go to Curves sometimes before or after work. So it makes sense that I be dragged along. Today's kind of grey, I'm thinking I might skateboard. I got some shoes last night, they're not really fancy like Vans or anything all male skater, but they're a womens skate shoe and theyre pretty. haha. And Fat. My Fat Skate Shoes. Love it. Aaah So tired. I hope Meghan doesnt have a party this weekend cause I'm out of town. And again with next weekend, too. Going up to the cottage.
Today I made a plan of all the courses I'm taking for the next three years at school. Think I was supposed to do that in May, haha, I'm very lazzzy.

x.xJune 19th, 2004x.x
1:01PM

Today it's raining in Fredericton so I can't go skateboarding. I'm kind of wondering if I should be leaving my skateboard outside when it's raning like this but it's under the thingy so it's not raining on it. I wish it would stop. Plus we don't have a ton of money right now so we can't really go out in town and buy things unless I want to mooch money off my aunt, and I'm not entirely comfortable doing that, even though everyone in my family knows I'm a super huge money mooch to them. So I'm stuck inside these paper thin walls with two kids screaming a language I don't understand. God I wish I was home.

I added a little counter to the very bottom of this, the main page. Just scrollllll down past all the entries. Its kind of time consuming so I don't blame you if you don't scroll, I'll just sit here and die, die with my bruises and my rage for the rain

x.xJune 18th, 2004x.x
8:21PM

PS the special thanks is updated too now. and the kids are crying upstairs, grr I dont think I can take two days of this. I'm gonna go skateboard or something

6:53PM
Good old Fredericton. I'm sitting two feet infront of a speaker loudly pounding a french version of the third Lord Of The Rings movie and the two kids are watching the movie. William's only like, eeh 3 at the most, and he's freakin watching this movie. He was whining and saying "J'ai peur!" A couple minutes ago so Zacharie (he's like 6) was consoling him and telling him that it was only a movie and the things on the tv couldn't come out of the screen and he shushed. haha so not a kids movie. I skateboarded in the street twice today. These kids were biking so I like left cause I dont want to embarass myself infront of people. And then I fell off the second time and landed on my ass (oh grace). It was amusing.

x.xJune 17th, 2004x.x
8:35PM

I'm not supposed to be on long here either cause once again I have to study. I'm only online to get some notes for my English exam tomorrow, but I'm very easily distracted with MSN, updating the site, and downloading Trapt songs on WinMX. (And singing along, not to mention.) I went swimming today and skateboarded twice. I always start out by the pool, cause no one can see because of the fence and I can practice turning and stuff while moving so that I can grab out for the pool if I loose my balance. Then I hopped the fence and boarded a bit around the driveway cause both cars are out (my parents are at work). (Still.) (Rage.) (How will I ever get mom to buy me those skate shoes if she's not home? Roar.) I need to burn a CD tonight. I was looking for a list of songs from this Tony Hawk video game that someone sent me like eons ago, and I found this amusing little blob I wrote a while ago about the song "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls. It's the song that Tommy really likes and he used to listen to a while ago.

"You know this song will always remind me of you,
But please don't sing along
I can't bear to think of you
when I know you're thinking of her...."

11:06AM
Oh this'll have to be rather short ish because I have to study. I have an FST exam in less than two hours and I haven't even started studying, I'm still not dressed yet and I think I need a shower. Maybe I'll just go swimming. Jump in the pool and get out, I dont know. The weathers nice anyway so it should be cool.
This weekend I'm going off to Fredericton, and I'm bring the skateboard, whoo. They finally paved the roads, and my aunt lives in the middle of the woods practically so no one will have to watch me embarass myself. Ha I so don't know how to do anything. Anyways i'm done now. Enjoy the summery days, people. God I've never felt happier, even with these stupid exams on my back. I'm taking a first aid course in two weeks for my summer job. It's at the park, so I'll be meeting all the people I'll end up working with. Which is good. Just imagine. "Oh hi, what school do you go to?" Horton. "Horton? Where's that, I've never heard of that university before." Oh, its a highschool. I'm in grade nine. Yeah! Whoo!

x.xJune 15th, 2004x.x
4:32PM

Hey! Oh man I've been on the computer forever. My shoulders hurt from sitting hunched over like this in my chair. I was typing another one of those crazy diary letters to myself and its like ten pages long sitting in the printer tray. I have to remember to swipe it if someone comes down and remember to hide it in my room cause I'll die horribly if anyone reads a line of it.
My weekend was pretty good. I went to the Drive In on Saturday night and saw Shrek 2 with Tommy. We spent Sunday walking around Kentville and he taught me a little bit about skateboarding. I'm going to buy Jeff's old skateboard off of him for 25$. A lot of people think thats stupid but lets look at it this way, folks:
a. I *am* stupid.
b. It's not like I'll ever be doing anything hardcore that would actually involve a good, sturdy board incase of breakage.
c. It'll look used so people wont be able to scream "poser!" at me if they see me walking around with it.

I added a new drawing to the Sketches. A few of you may have seen it already. its this wicked eye exploding with spiders that I drew in a DayQuil NyQuil phase in second period on Monday. Its all Paranoia. So enjoy.

x.xJune 13th, 2004x.x
10:47AM

Whoooo today feels like summer! Oh dance dance happy happy joy joy. The sky is shades of blue outside my window and when I wake up those little zigzag lines are all over my curtains from the light going through the blinds. Last night I went to the drive in with Tommy and we saw Shrek 2. I love the drive in, it makes me think of summer. Everything feels like summer today. I'm so unbelievably happy that it seems a shame to waste it all sitting around studying. I'm listening to Heavy by Zuckerbaby (thanks a million times for sending me it, Sam! Aaaah I love that song). Well I'm killing my computer right now, so I'm gonna... run away and join the circus. And then study science. God I hate science.

x.xJune 9th, 2004x.x
1:57PM

Im updating from school again. The shitty french keyboards. I can see out the windows in the classroom and it looks really warm outside. I think I was planning on going outside and playing my piccolo at lunchtime but I started typing this thingy on the computer and it turned out to be like... eeh seven pages long. We had a stupid little Science test and I got 10 out of 10 on it... rar no one cares anyway. Haha. Jeff and Sam are sitting next to me and the radio is playing. They keep saying something about thunderstorms. I looooove thunderstorms. Kinda sucks though cause I guess maybe I wont be able to talk on the phone much tonight if its gonna be all evil assed tonight. Anyway I think people have stopped reading over my shoulder so I'll continue the writing of that big seven page long thingy. its kind of personal and I dont want anyone else reading it.

x.xJune 7th, 2004x.x
4:14PM

Well today was a shitty day. It's raining horrible outside. I'm thinking I might go sit outside in the rain for a while and cry. It seems appropriate. With my mood.
Everyone's so fucking immature. Everyone's making such a big deal out of Satuday night at Sainte Anne and I wish people would grow the fuck up. You want to know the truth? I slept on the floor, goddamnit, me and Carey and Kaitlyn in Ben and Cale's room. So if you've been sitting around on your pampered ass while you gossip in, I dont know, a bathroom or something while you reapply your purple eyeshadow, then you can shut the right fucking hell up. There's nothing to talk about. Okay? So you can stop assuming! God I HATE when people do that! I can't even walk down the hall without someone yelling out, "Heeey, Crissi, have a good weekend?" Cause then I have to hassle them about what theyve heard and who they heard it from. My GOD people! Grow the FUCK up! I was walking up the stairs with Carey and this Devon kid's all, why are you hanging out with that Cochrane kid, what a loser. And I was like. I walked slowly back to him, looked at him, said, "Fuck you" and walked away. I suddenly hate him. Hope you burn, bitch.

x.xJune 2nd, 2004x.x
4:16PM

Welcome to June! The weather's finally going to get better. (Eeeh we hope, anyway.) Today was a trying day for me. My hamster died this morning. I was looking in my dresser for some panties and I realized that there was no movement in the hamster cage. So I cried into my underwear drawer for a while until I mustered the confidence to go downstairs and sob at the kitchen table in my pajamas with my hair a mess and hugging my teddy bear. I'm stressed and sad. I have a big problem with my mom that we're not talking about and I'm thinking tonight I might confront her about it because its like a big festering (oh nice use of vocab) wound and its not really helping the big stressload on me right now with exams in two weeks. Anyways Im out. In Pace Requiescat, Buttermilk. (Rat.) <3