URGGGGGHHH... lately i've been sooooo tired .. iono wuts the matter with me. i juss wanna go home and relax.. i feel like i haven't been doing enough in school. i know i could be doing better if i tried harder.. but i find myself just not doing enough... i have an essay to do and i juss fell so comeltely drained... this is gunna b a looong looong year... cuz i dun get wuts the matter with me.. it's like nothing makes me happy...
sumtimes i wonder if imma b alone forever... it seems like it a lot of the time .. i think i've just gone numb... for sum reason i juss can't let anyone in.. it's not that i don't want to.. it's just that everytime sum1 gets close.. i run... cuz i'm scared.. i dun feel ready.. i dunno wuts wrong with me... i guess lately i 've been to emotional and sad sumtimes i guess...theres juss too much ryte now.. i need a break from the world.. so i can fidn out wut i want... and why i am the way i am and.... juss STUFF... gosh i wish i didn't think so much.... but i guess this is how i've always been..i wonder if it'll ever change....:o( |
