| :: BEING TWENTY-SOMETHING :: They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get hot and scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you are. You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basic. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all. You are beinging to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself juding a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaires in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scarced and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you cry and cling on the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. The stupid ones plateau, the smart ones rise. You get your heartbroken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You wonder what the hell is wrong with you. We are making a lot of mistakes, but helping one other learn from them. We will piss one another off, and laugh at the end of a conversation that started with angry words. We are in our best of times and our worst of time, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole things out. We are friends, and in 10 years we will be friends who have figured out where we fit in this world. So don't be anxious about tomorrow, live one day at a time. |