I stand here, naked, bare. Thinkin' of the words I hear
All the horror of the world, dropped on my shoulders, is what I fear.
I look through my two eyes, see the pain of all ya' lies.
Read all the way between the lines, the fine print and all the signs
Can't understand the mentions' of my mind, twisted and burnt out told I'm blind. 
Never seein' the outside world for free, everything comes with a small fee.
Mental ill comes in a pill. Small and pink, easy fill. 
'Lows you to stop all this pain! Gives you somethin' when it's no-ones gain

You should'a watched me crawl, and knock myself against the wall.
Watch me sink as I'm swallowed below the waves.
I cannot take this anymore. Maybe I can find an alternate route out.

The pain of this world is unbearable, everyone here is edible.
Minds are controlled by the media, don't wanna' believe it at all
Cheatin' death a thousand times, on the corner, drugs they buy
What the fuck is goin' on? This all makes me wanna' die! 

You should'a watched me crawl, and knock myself against the wall.
Watch me sink as I'm swallowed below the waves.
I cannot take this anymore. Maybe I can find an alternate route out.

You weren't there for me. I almost died, acted like you didn't see!
Why did you seem to never care? Your lies! Your lies, they hurt me.
You never loved me, this world! I just cannot believe! I've got to leave!

You should'a watched me crawl, and knock myself against the wall.
Watch me sink as I'm swallowed below the waves.
I cannot take this anymore. Maybe...
You should'a watched me crawl, and knock myself against the wall.
Watch me sink as I'm swallowed below the waves.
I cannot take this anymore. Maybe I can find an alternate route out. 



9mm From Freedom/Don't Go

How much longer do I have to wait before I decease.
Just abate my life this very moment.
In a world of rancid nature.
Cancers grow upon everything that I witness.
The turmoil that is around me;
The violence that I see;
The constant killing sprees;
The pain to succumb is all I plea.

Reach out; be lost; suffer from albatross; Nowhere to hide; no shelter to reside.
No one to take me under their wing to keep me safer.

How will I go on?/Is death the only solution?

Severed from all that I've gone through.
Severed from all of life.
Severed from warmth/
Severed from guilt/
Severed from nature/
Severed from trust/
Severed from lust/
Severed from love/
Severed from belief/
Severed from all that would secure me....

How will I go on?/Is death the only solution?!!
-----------------------------------------------
Despendency controls your life.
You just emphisize on everything that is depressing.
See out into the world and view it's glory.
Reach out into the world and caress it's beauty.
Come out and play.
Escape from your melancholy;
I'll break your fall.
Just do not go....

Reach out; be found; get up from the ground.  Protecting you; sheltering you.
Keeping you under my wing.

Go on.



Tears

You say that everything is going to be okay.
But we both know that you are going away.
Why don't stop with your lies?
Don't you see how it hurts me inside?
You just will not stop until we are through.
I am not whose wrong; we both know it's you.

Seal all of my orifices;
Asphyxiate and move on.
Suffocate all of our souls
with your decimating succubi rituals.

Pining away once again!
Pining away once again!

You sneak around, like it just isn't anything.
I see all of the lies, running right through your head.
You just will not stop, until you see me bleed.
You just will not stop, until you see me dead.

You come home to rest that merciless mind of yours.
Forgetting what horrible events you caused to even occur.
Only forget the ones who don't follow you.
Only give a damn about the ones who seem to praise you.
Only destroying the lives of souls that exist with you.
But everyday, you seem to care even less.

Can you not see what you have done to me?
Why can you not sense the tears trickling down my face?
I cannot live with you and your apathy.
Why must you lacerate my dignity?

Let me loose from your arbitrary;
Set me free of this bullshit.
Keeping me in your clutches;
Keeping light out from the crevices.

Being forsaken once again!
Being forsaken once again!

When will you find out that you kill?
Don't even spread a drop of blood at your will. (raising up and staring in your merciless eyes.)
I hope that one day you will understand,
What it's like to be decieved again and again. (falling down; stabbing me as I stared in your eyes.)
Pining away once again.
Pining away once again. 
Pining away once again! 
Pining away once again!!!

Restless...) You sneak around, like it just isn't anything.
I see the lies, running right through your head.
(Respect...) You just will not stop, until you see me bleed.
You just will not stop, until you see me dead.
(Restless...) You sneak around, like it just isn't anything.
I see the lies, running right through your head.
(Respect...) You just will not stop, until you see me bleed.
You just will not stop, until you see me dead.
(Tears trickling down my face.)
(I hope to see yourself another way)



...dreams...

Wake up
C'mon over, pinch me and I'll
Wake up
Sooner or later it'll 
Add up
And then I'll just be waitin' here for me
Hello
How are you today in the
Shadow?
The shadow of a doubt but I'll pinch'ya
And you'll be starin' at your pillow

Dream. Dream my little one. The world does't love you anymore. Horror.
Sleep. Sleep those calm little dreams. Though they'll be gone by four. I know it hurts.
'Joy for now though the world isn't well. Give it some soup and crackers...
But it just died and went to hell!

Welcome.
The dream is beckoning
Louder
Then it ever had ever again.
Shut up! 
This noise is deafening!
Shut up! 
It killed all to the left'a'me
Dying!
The world collapses!
Lightening!
I can see it at the end!
Hello!
It's open and I don't like it at all

Dream. Dream my little one. The world doesn't love you anymore. Horror.
Sleep. Sleep those calm little dreams. Though they'll be gone by four. I know it hurts.
'Joy for now though the world isn't well. Give it some soup and crackers...
But it just died and went to hell.

Why? Peace gone
Why? Peace gone
Why? Peace gone
Why? Peace gone
Why? I woke up

I don't like this. It shall crush my spirit.
Tell the children, tell they must fear it
You woke me from a perfect dream
One where things were as they seemed.
You said I was all right
You said I was all right
You said...I...was...woken up...
I was...woken from my dream...



EvErgrEEn

See the trees reach for the sky.
See their evergreen luster in the light.
See the children laughing and playing.
See the neighbors politely greet each other.

Witness all the love inside this world.
Society has proven itself.
Look at what cimcumabulates us.

See the falling leaves plummet from the sky.
See the spectrum of colors in the light.
See the children playing with one another.
See the neighbors silently greet each other.

Witness all that is inside this world.
Society has shown itself.
Look at what cimcumabulates us.

See the wasting trees reach the dusty sky.
See the toxic green leaves in the blood red light.
See the children isolate themselves.
See the neighbors ogle each other.

Witness all that happens inside this world.
Society has revealed itself.
Notice what cimcumabulates us?

See the decaying trees writhe at the sky.
See the bareness in the dark.
See the lupus attack the bleeding children.
See the neighbors hate and murder within the venue.

Witness all the horrors inside this world.
Society has poisoned itself.
Hide from the encompassing terror.

What have we done?
He has forsaken me.
What have we done?
He has forsaken us...



2(23)Onward

Don't fucking tread on me!

A wannabe deity; aiming towards blasphemy.
How can this world contain your enormity?
Corrupting the world everyday with your supposed breakthroughs
but I can see right through you!
Create; tear apart; recombine; put in a heart.
If only you realized the results from the start!
A double helix twisted has done a lot to me
and we cannot survive from your cupidity! 

Destroy my God;
Stealing a divine position.
Replace my God;
Wear a crown of thorns over your head. 
Playing as God;
You succeed but then chaos erupts!
And I can see what your sardonic mind has done!

Megalomaniacal;  keep the fuck away from me!

Haven't you had enough fun?
Making soldiers, and the war has only begun
to hold on to bitter existence.
What do you mean "save the world"?  Isn't that just past tense?
Detrimental to our lives.
How else are we going to strive?
Enough with the genetics issue
I'm tired of you putting us under the knife!

Destroy my God;
Stealing a divine position.
Replace my God;
Wear a crown of thorns over your head.
Playing as God;
You succeed but then chaos erupts!
And I can see what your sardonic mind has done!

Life used to be so sacred
but money's on your mind;  it's becoming sacrilegious.
Playing God is like playing a game in your opinion.



The Hurting Game

I asked
You told
Me things that I thought were true but now
I know
You don't
You lied to me about all those things
You said
You would
Stand by me, never hurt me enough
I trust-
ed you…
The way you always told me to

But now I know those things you said were wrong
You lied straight to my face and now I never know
What to believe…my mind is all fucked up. 
My head isn't screwed on tight enough
I thought I was okay but I was dumb
Give me one more chance? No, no, no more.

I thought
You would
Never do those things…but now your caught
Red hand…
Hurt lies.
Would you ever care if i died?
How would
I know
I can't see past those lies of yours
I am
Dead now
My heart exploded and blew my brains out

But now I know those things you said were wrong
You lied straight to my face and now I never know
What to believe…my mind is all fucked up. 
My head isn't screwed on tight enough
I thought I was okay but I was dumb
Give me one more chance? No, no, no more.

No more…no more…no more…no more…no more…
I don't think so...i don't…think so….no more…no more…no use…I'm gone…now.

But now I know those things you said were wrong
You lied straight to my face and now I never know
What to believe…my mind is all fucked up. 
My head isn't screwed on tight enough
I thought I was okay but I was dumb
Give me one more chance? No, no, no more.



Fallen

Time ticks away every moment.  
Time ticks and echoes inside your head. 
Time goes by and the sounds of 10000s of fallen ones shrieks in my head.  
The sight of 10000s perishing burned into my head. 

Time ticks away and shatters existence.  
It's only time until you fall.  

They call themselves martyrs but all they are motherfuckers!

Everything in this world is falling apart
Wish I could go in line…back where it all starts
I do not like this it is crushing
I do not want a piece of it, no, no.
The world crumbles down to the floor.
Tumbles humans to the core.
Wish my head were screwed on tighter.
If not tight enough.

Why must, you kamikaze?
Why must, you kamikaze?
Why must, you try and take away parts of me!

The ground explodes, shatterin' glass. Takin' away all of cold
Fire rushes through the room, dust and smoke tells of doom.
The ground is taken away; there is no more life to spare.
You pray to god, last testament, tellin' him it's not fuckin' fair.

Why must, you kamikaze?
Why must, you kamikaze?
Why must, you try and take away parts of me!

Dust, as thick as wood, why have you done this?
People screaming, children crying, fire raging, what have we done!
Fire spreading, fire burning, fire fueling, the torment in my soul!

Why must, you kamikaze?
Why must, you kamikaze?
Why must, you try and take away parts of me!
Why must you fuckin' kamikaze?
Why must you fuckin' kamikaze?
Why must you fuckin' try and take away a piece of me!



Shall Stay:One Man

I'm just one man
One manaquin for you to play with and pose
My mind isn't my head; it's somewhere no one knows

But I'm just one man
One manic depressant for you to make fun of
Call me names, one day I'll snap, then my true colors'll show!

But you can't take this good thing from me!
It shall stay! It shall stay! It shall stay! It shall stay!
But you may instead just take me away!
Away from this place! My head, it shall lay,
On the concrete floor of your building's burn out
It shall stay, it's the way, it shall be.

I'm just one man!
One manner, which you discard
Who the fuck cares of it at all, it's just one more scar

I'm just one man
One mantle where you place your photos
Of the good days but now they're gone.

Just one man can't do this...
Just one man cannot do this alone.
This great destruction of our civilization...the way things have turned out...
Just one man can't do this...
Just one man!

But you can't take this good thing from me!
It shall stay! It shall stay! It shall stay! It shall stay!
But you may instead just take me away!
Away from this place! My head, it shall lay,
On the concrete floor of your building's burn out
It shall stay, it's the way, it shall be.
It shall stay! It shall stay! It shall stay! It shall stay! It shall stay...
The way things have always been.



Bernishnacouf

I’ve been thinkin’ about you lately, baby…
Thinkin’ of why we’re not the same
I’ve been thinkin’ about you lately, baby…
Wonderin’ just why the end ever came

And I ask myself why
Why it all came down with tears
And I ask God why
Can’t always cry enough to die…too soon

I’ve been thinkin’ of everyone but myself, lately
And it’s driving me totally crazy
The way I’ve been thinkin’ of you lately
And my life has gone nowhere fast
I’ve been wondering, for the past year
Why you turned things around like you did
Smack me down, till I hit the ground
Then still kick me as I limp on the floor

And I ask myself why
Why it all came down with tears
And I ask god why
Can’t I cry enough to die…too soon for answers
Too late for the question of why

I tell myself a million times to just move on
How is it that when you like where you are
Those around you make your mind grow dim
It’ll always seem the worst when you grow far
Stay here, never fear, the worst has yet to come
Live and learn, it’s your turn…
Just don’t make the same mistake…again!

I ask myself…WHY!
(when it all comes down to the tears)
And I ask god…WHY!
(can’t cry enough…can’t cry no more)
Then it’s too soon for the answers
When you come to early
Too late for the answer…
When the question isn’t there…



Kennel

See - look at my kennel;
In the corner of a damp cellar.
Living dwell in a confined space;
Bowls of food to keep me alive...

See - look at my life.
Condemned in a cage of decadence.
Can't see the light outside.
Alone in my Lilliputian shelter.

See -  my imagination.
My only friends whisper and scream in my head.
I made them all myself.
Along with my cage of decaying!

RELEASE ME
FREE ME OF MY CAGE
RELEASE ME
FREE ME OF MY...

Desperate for freedom.
Desperate and mortal.
In a mind-driven vortex.
Living in a cold damp abyss!
Imploring for releasement.
Beseeching for my life!
Blistered and insanity driven.
A ticket to release..me!

RELEASE ME OF MY CAGE!
FREE ME OF MY CAGE
RELEASE ME OF MY CAGE!
FREE ME OF MY...PAIN...RAGE...SKIN...left forlorn... 



All Tied Up

It’s been seven days
Since I gave up myself
Then I think consciously
Wonder what’s makin’ these dreams

I do not despair
Keep in the state of mind here
When everything else disappears
Then you got nothing left to fear (I see here…)

Time is of the essence
When you don’t know when you are
I think back of the time
When I was taught to fly
But it’s been days
Ever since I’ve been unseen now
Every time I look up at the clouds
Silence in my heart is unfound (Crowd seems unsound…)

I’ve told myself a million times, round these words just to come back, start again
I’ve told you what makes me go insane, round to round, back them down
Blink; let it all settle in, let it go dim, and then it’s all tied up…
In you…I sold my soul…burn

It’s been several days now
Since I have breathed a life long breath
I lay still in my bed staring at the walls
And think of nothing at all (let it all fall, to the wall, it all calls)
My eyes have not blinked for the count of days that you may
My eyes have turned the color that appears when you bleed
My mind is full of nothing because it has become all tied up
Then my heart gives up and passed along the many (in my bed, said again, fall asleep, sad but free)
I’ve told myself a million times, round these words just to come back, start again
I’ve told you what makes me go insane, round to round, back them down
Blink; let it all settle in, let it go dim, and then it’s all tied up…
In you…I sold my soul…burnt…I sold myself for you to tell me that
I’ve told myself a million times, round these words just to come back, start again
I’ve told you what makes me go insane, round to round, back them down
Blink; let it all settle in, let it go dim, and then it’s all tied up…
My mind’s all tied up…
My heart’s all tied up…
It’s all fuckin’ tied up…
Within you…



Basic Ebonics

Hey yo', what's the dilio?
HEY YO'!  WHAT's the diLIo?
Yo' biznitch, I be askin' you here?
HEY BIZNITCH! Why can't I ask you right here?
All in the hazy...
...but all in my hizzy...
Watcha' really WANT!
Wicca wacca wocca, WATCHA' REALLY....want?

Why hey bitch, you be trippin'.
Ho' bitch (sleaz-a), you be trippin'!
Gotta' bitch slap you before I take your money!
GONNA' gansta' rap before I TAKE YOUR MONEY!
(May I have your attention please....)
(I would like to declare, that the shit is now officially tight)

On yo' knees, (craka' please) ice be blindin' you bitches
Gonna leave yo body up in stitches! (cash money...)
I-AM-gonna' be blingin' you! (typos)
I-AM-gonna' be....(shit, I forgot my place) (more typos)

HOO-HA!
Take this money, take this money!
Outta' my way, take this money!
Take this money, take this money!
Outta' my way, take this MONEY!

What are you really saying?
I cannot decrypt your wicked text.
How do I know what you are feeling
   if you always act this way?
(give it up, you're trendy)

HOLLA!

(whoop whoop)
BLING BLING!  (dee dee, dee - deedeedeedee dee)
True dat young'n, I'll be stompin' your cat!  (what the hell?)
Holla back you stupid bitch!  Shotguns are firin'
Hear the siren?  That shows how death-defying,
How audacious I are. (no, 'am' jackass!)
How I be trippin' on my grammar skills.
The errors that I be spittin' to get me bills.
The motha-humpin' ghetto!  Da' bronx.. (or is it Queens?)
Well, anyway, I be keepin' it real!!!
(just admit you're from South Dakota you wannabe)

PLAYA'S AND BALLA'S
ALL YOU HATERS DON'T WANNA TAKE IT, HONEY  (I'm lost)
NO THIS IS NOT THE PROJECTS.
HIZZY! No, this is NOT THE PROJECTS!
(can't you tell from my ridiculous name)

Hey you, get out of my grill dawg.
HEY YOU!  get out oF MY GRILL DAWG!
Shit, I outta grill Yo ASS!
Shizzay!  BURN YO' ASS!

(wait, don't you cook hamburgers on grills, dog?) 

Why the Hell didn't you take this money? (shiznit)

I cannot comprehend what you are shouting.
I cannot tell what you're believing or doubting.
I cannot hear the meaning
With there rhyming dictionaries and slang to keep them acquired.
Get your greedy lustful hands off of me.
I do nto buy into your needs.
Some may be "keepin' it real" but you're
   so damn faulty (you wannabe).

DON'T CALL ME WHITE!
DON'T CALL ME WHITE!

(Okay, fine, I'm white as Hell.  Big deal.)



//Fear

You won't find your salvation
underneath your bed...
There's only dreadful solitude
when you cover your eyes, it's still in your head!

Only you and yourself
hiding away
Silence only shouts out
and drives you insane
Get out from under your bed
from the cover of darkness that stowes you away
Only fear would bring you down
push you on the ground
Only fear would shut your eyes
and whisper as you whimper away!
(Face your fear!)
Only a puppet on a string
for letting it all get to you
Only in a torniquet to
cut off your bravery
Only another drone
with a hand stuck up your back
Only another...
cowardice to take you away
Only another...
trapped under your own weight!

FACE YOUR FEAR!
Get out and end it all
No more hiding to only suffer
No more time to be frightened and suffer!

Trapped in myself...  trapped in myself...  trapped in myself...  trapped in myself...  trapped in... 
MYSELF!
Blood on the walls is not enough!
Blood from yourself is over the line!
Blood and honor  is what you want!
Blood and scars on your wrists are only an obstacle!

All of this pain is meaningless
Pain is only a distraction
Distractions are only  a trap
Traps only attack
Attacks are always lethal
Lethal as mental
Mental as cerebral
Cerebral and serial
Serial to blood lust
Blood lust only attracts the masochists
Masochists are only masons of flesh
Flesh only holds you in
Held in to feel afraid
Afraid to hide away
Hide away from all this pain...
Pain is once again, once again....
ONCE AGAIN!
FACE YOUR FEAR!

FACE YOUR FEAR!
Get out and end it all
No more hiding to only suffer
No more time to be frightened and suffer!
On your knees
Crawling...pathetically
Get up off the floor!
Get them out of your head!
NOW!...



Moments to Savour

I just want to hold myself in the moment
Just to connect the dots and tell myself why
I have chosen to stand for just one more moment
'Till someone out there tells me "why"
One more thing that isn't conclusive
One more step until I can touch the sky
After then I'll feel like I can fly
I just wanna' die

Dieing, I'm flying, the air is cold beneath my shoulders
And I don't feel nothing at all
Dieing, I'm crying, my tears are laughing at me
They all sprinkle the flowers below my grave

Swimming up onto the shore, the air
Tells that danger is near
Crying enough for dieing,
My tears start to reappear
My eyes start to close
Telling that nothingness is now here
Why does it have to be so hard?
When will life be fuckin' near!

Dieing, I'm flying, the air is cold beneath my shoulders
And I don't feel nothing at all
Dieing, I'm crying, my tears are laughing at me
I sprinkle the flowers below my grave

I tell myself how to stay alive
I tell myself that it's okay, but that's just one big lie
I tell myself how to stay alive
I'd tell myself one day, but it's over now

Dieing, I'm flying, the air is cold beneath my shoulders
And I don't feel nothing at all
Dieing, I'm crying, my tears are laughing at me
I sprinkle the flowers below my grave…grave…grave
Fall.



untitled

like an everlasting dream
i keep falling
and im not getting anywhere
like a stone
im in one spot
until something throws me away into the distance
and i got cought inside your storm
i run for cover

drowning,
in these thoughts.
Running,
to get away from you.
Drowning,
in my secrets.

everything i stand for
you wanna throw out.
you cant change me
so stop tryin to.
this place inide my head
does it exist?

drowning,
in these thoughts.
Running,
to get away from you.
Drowning,
in my secrets.

running along the rivers side
as the sun is blazing.
evrything is flashing beore my eyes
a real 3d world
and you make evrything look and feel
two-dimensional
what the hell is with you?

drowning,
in these thoughts.
Running,
to get away from you.
Drowning,
in my secrets.

drowning,
in these thoughts.
Running,
to get away from you.
Drowning,
in my secrets.