The Big Bang
		By Standing
	(Adam and Jason; Jason narrates) March 7, 2002 There’s a twitch and then tightness. Overwhelming, ferocious, so pounding and ultimate that i can't breathe. All over my body there's just tight. If i wanted to move, i wouldn't be able to; muscles are locked, skin is numb and slowing becoming nonexistent. There’s nothing to feel and nothing for me to feel it with, I’m folding up ... you're safe and warm and home and I’m frozen. Catatonic. Grimacing in the wake of an explosion. You coax me back into the realm of consciousness with drifting fingers. My chest heaves with the air I’ve been holding and then I’m panting so hard i start to get dizzy ... or maybe that's just what your smell of sweat and musk and ecstasy do to me. You smell so fucking good when you're inside me. Either way, my vision is blinking in and out as I’m trying so desperately to focus on your face above me. I think i might start to hyperventilate soon and you're trying hard to calm me down with soft, warming lips. it's been so long, we're always apart for so long and then all i do is dream and when it's real it's so beautiful that i can't fucking handle it. we're not moving - i can't move - and my whole body is shaking, like I’m sobbing when I’m really not. The emotion is too far in for me to even be able to convey. You just make me need you so much. My heart begins to slow down as i abandon my body and allow your mouth to claim it piece by piece. Everything is so soft; the world is made out of pillows. i wish i could wrap my mind around it but when i try i just end up spinning, so I’ll let you try and explain it someday. I’ll let you try and explain how you change the entire world when you're here with me. Sweat trickles down my temples, which faintly strikes me as amusing, as I’ve done little more than lay here while you insist on rocking my world by just breathing into my ear. Your voice is low and scratchy, dancing over my skin in the sweetest words I’ve ever heard. We lie there idly, quiet, unmoving. Soaking each other up into our bodies as i wait for my muscles to unwrap themselves from my bones. As i finally begin to believe that i might be able to respond to what you've been doing to me, the world tips onto its side and falls over; you moved. You’re moving, you're shifting, you're swaying, you're pumping and I’m bursting. There’s red hot fire and a sheath of black velvet over my eyes and I’m gasping, writhing, grunting and wailing. You’re moving fast, you want it bad, you need it to end. I feel your body ripping to shreds over me. Falling apart piece by piece, you allow the need to sweep your blood. Hard, fast, blinding, and panicked, you're filling me up and emptying out so quickly that the whole room is moving in your rhythm. I’m attacked by four walls, a floor, a ceiling, and you all pounding into my body at the same time while I’m trying fruitlessly to keep my grip on sanity. There’s a war in the bedroom as i feel everything begin to slip away. My voice is suddenly all around us, panting screaming crying yelling and manic. Everything is happening at once; lights flash and blind me, thunder pounds and deafens my ears. Your lips cover my mouth and suck the very breath from my lungs until i begin to suffocate with the overwhelming desire that fills me up when you're over me like this. The floor shakes and your body quakes and your back arches and you brutalize me with exquisite tenderness. My hips jerk out and sheets wind around my fists and we gasp in unison as everything goes silent and dark.