Cholent's Poemz

This lead-laced lavender paint
can’t hide the heart-break
it wishes to ward off
behind these walls.
The primer is contaminated with crimson specs
and the glossy finish will succumb to the shadows
that creep in the corners
and flow along the hard-wood floor.
The plaster pasted over the holes won’t hold
back these broken dreams.
They’ll seep out through the sealant in the upstairs bathroom
and tear through the tiles in the form of our tears.
That slash in your flesh won’t make it all better.
No emotion can escape through that.
Sentiment can only shirk through a sorrowful sigh
or a heated argument among lost lovers.
These feelings of rage amass all around us
as we go about your dreadful days.
We attempt to cover it with a false sense of comfort
by changing the slightest aspect of our surroundings.
But, still, we must face our fear and learn to love
that which we once did hate.
That is the secret of survival.

... I give you life but I can't live it for you
I can teach you things but I can't make you learn them
I can show you the way to life but I can't live it for you.
I can give you a home when you need protection from life itself...

The first beauty I've seen at my birth,
A beauty outmatching the gem of the sea,
Holding me close as I walk traverse the Earth.
A warm source of light to lookout over the shadows on the sea.

And as I grow with the love that you feed unto me.
Tender kisses U bestow to me as I play my life away.
Drifting far from the comfort you presented to me.
The rose of our relationship slowly withers away day by day.

...Come, sit here with me, let me dry the teardrops you have on thy cheeks.
Give to thee love and care you deserves.
Who could have changed your eyes with tears of pain?
Let me show your beauty only I can see in that eyes of thee...

Mother, its time for me to go face my world.
I seek thy blessings to assist me find my way on the road.
Awaiting the wind to carry with it thy touch of concern to my door.
And, graciously will I open the door you longed to guide on.

Whisper to thee sweet words you long to perceive.
Thank you for all the lessons you have bestowed to my being.
Thy long lost son you now hold tight in thy arms.
Happy tears to fall out of the eyes of thy mother.

Some final words before I sign off...
I pray to God to hold you dear in His Heart.
To shower you evermore with the beauty all mothers should have.
And to say I'm proud to have a mother like thee and me as you'r dearest son.

When I see you feeling so empty
I just want to hold you close to me
Wipe those tears of fear from your eyes
Wishing you knew your own beauty

Its clear to me that you're hurting
A thought that tortures me inside
I long to take away your pain
But that request has been denied

I'll stand by your side forever
Till death tears me away from you
I'd never leave you willingly
My love will always remain true

Give me your sorrow, pain, and fear
I'll gladly bear them in your stead
One like you does not deserve them
In sympathy my own heart bled

Listen to me and please believe
You're beautiful as none can be
Incalcuable in your worth
Yet you give of yourself freely

Be strong and know that you are loved
Your trust I could never betray
I'd hold you close assuring you
I promise it will be okay

I depend on you always, for you to take care of me.
I count on you to ease my fears
when I see things that frighten me.
No matter where you go,
or what you say or what you do.
I will always follow,
I am the child within the person that is you.

You knew me once,
remember our childhood days?
I think you have forgotten me,
I can't find many adults who play.
I know that life is hard,
and things don't always go right
but please remember that I am here,
and I still get scared at night.
So every once in awhile,
please take the time to see
look at your reflection in the mirror,
and take a look at me.

It may be hard to find me at first,
but I assure that once you do,
you'll remember all the times we shared,
and accept that I am part of you.

Don't forget about me when things go bad,
instead let me help you those times when you are sad.
I may just be a kid, but I've seen all that you do.
I'm the child within, I'll be with you our whole life through.

So when you go about your busy days,
and find those times when things are to hard to bear.
Just take a deep breath and look in the mirror,
and focus on the child within who is always there.