Food

I no longer have food issues. I love food and food loves me. I am not fat and Im proud of myself for thinking that. But if I ever catch you making fun of someone for having some sort of food disorder, Ill kill you. Thats all.

I always used to read all the articles about anorexia and laugh, because they always said how you turn to dieting when you feel like you can't control your life. I used to laugh because I thought that was the opposite from why I stopped eating. But then I caught myself recently, and I realized that the second I'm stressed, I immediately turn to my food intake. I caught myself looking in the miror and thinking 'I need to go on a diet'. Then I thought about it, and came up with that I really didn't have a legit reason to diet. I was stressed and subconciously, I felt like the only thing I could have control over in my life. I can control how much food I put in my mouth, and how much stays there. They really don't lie I guess.

Our Dirty Little Secret

It pisses me off that I'm not a pretty or thin as everyone else. It drives me fucking insane. And I hate that I even think that I need to be, and I hate that you sit there and tell me how cute my incredibly thin friend are, and I am never included in that category because I'm just me, and I'm always the one everyone goes to when they want to hook up with one of my friends. I'm just the go between. I'm nothing to you.

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Last Updated 11.5.03