| I don't know what to do, but I wish I did. I'm stuck, and for once, I cannot come up with anything that I could do to find out what I want to find out. Maybe that's because I can't solve my own problems. I've talked to a million different people, and they all basically tell me the same things, but I can't believe them. For some reason, I can't be all that optimistic about this. I want to believe everything you're saying soo bad. I want to just do what everyone is telling me. That would be so much easier than beating myself up about this. I don't want to wait anymore. I want everything to happen right now. I really hate this, but I guess it'll all work itself out in the end. I sure hope so. ...and that's fine when it's all cake and butterflies, but what if he doesn't feel the same way? |
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| I always second guess myself. I can't take multiple choice tests, because I'll sit for an hour trying to guess which ones are wrong. But it doesn't stop there. If someone tells me something good, I sit there and second guess it to the point where I think he only called to tell me I was icky. No one would call someone to tell them that they were icky. Except in my head, it all works out like that. Its crazy. |
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| The Relationship Theory By Chris and Fiona |
| HolidayRocks27: lol - i want an actuall relationship where i hang out with a girl and have fun and maybe if we really like each other we make out or whatever but i don't want some gay 8th grade thing where i gotta be all 'will you go out with me' and stuff. problem is, if you don't do that - girls think your just using em as a fuck friend and you don't care about em or whatever HolidayRocks27: i just don't think that at our age we're so immature as people thta we can't make a mutual agreement not to fuck around with other people and that we like each other alot (we being me and whatever girl) HolidayRocks27: anyway - the problemn with all that is, if i DON'T say 'gee i really like you will you go out with me' - all immature like, then the girl thinks i just wanna use her to 'get some' ya know? Yellow Fiona 68: can i put you in my head and carry you around? i think the whole 'will you go out with me' is so stupid. i wanna date and have fun and maybe make out or whatever, but even if its exclusively with one guy, thats fine by me, i just hate the whole 'will you go out with me HolidayRocks27: yeah i know HolidayRocks27: i mean - if you like someone and you're dating and stuff, you know better than to go making out with other people Yellow Fiona 68: exactly. HolidayRocks27: you don't need all the "will you go out with me, now you're mine' shit Yellow Fiona 68: lol 'now your mine. i own you. grrr.' lol HolidayRocks27: lol right Yellow Fiona 68: but on the other side of it, it is nice to say 'ya my boyfriend said blah blah blah' or whatever, but if youve been doing the dating thing for long enough, it should be just assumed or something HolidayRocks27: yeah i know HolidayRocks27: eventually i think that if you've been hanging out and talking (and kissing) for long enough then it's just sort of a mutual agreement that, 'yeah, she's my girlfriend' |
| "What if your fears and dreams existed in the same place? What if to get to heaven you had to brave hell? What if everything you've ever wanted, cost you everything you've ever achieved? Would you still go there?" |
| I have a not-so-secret crush on a guy named Brandon. I like him a lot. I wish he would call. |
| You know what sucks? That if you date someone now (in high school) what is the likelyhood of you staying with that person for longer than your high school years? If you meet someone incredible, its like you will inevitably lose them. I wish I could just bottle people up and save them for later. Like when I'm 23 and ready for that. |
| My mom said 'Well I dont agree with how Kate's mom raises children'. She said 'raises'! Like were chickens or something!' |
| I dont like to delete things on my webpage because I feel like everything I write here is meaningful in some sort of way, even if it hurts more than anything. So this whole Brandon thing-I dont think he likes me at all, but Im going to pretend like Im not upset about it. Im going to pretend like I dont care, and take this gracefully. But I have to tell you, this kinda hurts. |
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