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I was in the Light Rail Transit heading back home. Outside the train was heavily rain. I was sitting on the cool metal bench with air-conditional above me. Quietly and comfortably seated. Rain dropped on the window, trying very hard to get inside the train but failed. I could not see the outside world clearly as the rain blocked the view. There were people who I don't know them, seated quietly opposite me, beside me. There were people standing, leaning on the wall. All of them looked very tired, no smile and joy shown on their face. I was very peaceful, quiet and calm.
Whenever the train stopped at a station, there were people getting out and getting in the train, mostly with an umbrella. Water was dripping from the umbrella; wet the floor and the clothes of people around it. Nobody notice, nobody care, nobody mind, nobody bother to know. But, I do.
Everybody is moving towards the same direction, living a similar life style, looking for the same objective, having the similar desires. Like a standard formula, a city folk have to learn and follow. Nobody has ever question the application of this formula, as everybody believe this the best formula they have right now, which is better than last time. Those who not following this formula will be treated as inferior, incomplete, sick, weird, anti-social, alien, etc. Unfortunately, I'm on this opposition side.
I'm single, alone but not lonely. I can find pleasure everywhere, anytime as I want. I don't want to leave any empty page in any of the chapters of my life. Life is beautiful and has lot more for me to discover, to experience, to learn, to appreciate. With a peaceful and lovely heart I have, I can do a lot of things not only to benefit myself but others, people around me, even to the extent of all mankind. I'm not a leader of a country but myself. I want to be my very own self. Unique, down-to-earth, honest, humble, cheerful, friendly, fight for truth, simple, that make me special and you can't find another me in other part of this world.
Even though sometimes I feel sad, however nobody will notice, as I definitely will cheer up myself with something. I love myself. I would give everything the best to myself. I'm like a bird flying freely in the sky. I might most properly die if someone takes away freedom from me. Freedom is as important as my life. I belong to nobody. I welcome everybody to be my friend but not a dictator who want to dominate my world.
I would like to hear the sound when the rays touch down on earth; I would like to see the air slip from my hand; I would like to feel the growth of nature; I would like to touch the light from stars in the sky ...
There are a lot more things to do, to experience, to discover, to learn, to give, to share and to appreciate. I rather to be alone, if there is nobody would like to understand me. I'm just fine to be alone. Don't have to worry about me, as I'm like a bird, I will find my way home, and I can find my way to happiness.
Life is like a diary. It depends on how much things you write down everyday. A diary is meaningful if it is full of writings, not all the empty pages or telling the same things everyday. I want my diary to be meaningful with lots of writings, telling the different story everyday, keep all the beautiful memories in life, definitely no empty pages. I want to see the world, and I want to ensure every page of my diary full of colourful writings. |
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