My Poetry

Here is a page that most of you have wanted me to have for awhile, but I finally am getting enough guts to post my poetry on the web. Some of them have been published, that I am proud of, but most of all, I am actually Proud of every single word that is on this page, because they are my true feelings. You may understand some, you may not. Some may scare you, but it's how life goes. I hope you enjoy the following words.


WHY?

Why did you come here?
Why did you care?
Why did you think,
I’d never be there?

Why do I love you?
Why do I care?
Why do I know,
You’ll never be there?

Why don’t you love me?
Why don’t you care?
Why don’t you know,
You’ll never be there?

Why do you love me?
Why do you care?
Why do you think,
You’ll always be there?

Why did you love her?
Why did you care?
Why didn’t you know,
She’d never be there?

Why do you hate me?
Why don’t you care?
Why don’t you know,
I’ll always be there?

Why don’t I love you,
Why don’t I care?
Why don’t I think,
You’ll always be there?

You know I love you,
You know I care.
You know for a fact,
I’ll always be there.



LOVE

What is Love?
Love is Beautiful.
Love is for everyone.
Love is happiness.
Love is not everlasting for all.
Love is pain.
Love is sorrow.
Love is something some people can’t have.
Love is only a feelings.
Love can’t save lives.
Love isn’t a joke.
Love is commitment.
Love is living only for others.
Love is false.
Love is fake.
Love is not allowed in life because no one knows what Love is.



PRETTY

Who is Pretty?
Everyone, but some is more than skin deep.
Others don’t see it though.
Because they only look skin deep.
Being pretty isn’t everything.
You need to be real,
Before you can be pretty enough to matter anywhere.
THIS IS NOT A WORLD TO BE UGLY IN,
BECAUSE YOU GET NOWHERE.
BUT WHO IS PRETTY?
NO ONE.



TEARS

Why do people cry?
To release stress, pain, sorrow.
To get things.
Why do I cry?
I don’t.
Why?
What reason is there?
No one cares enough to worry about me. Only themselves.
Why aren’t you loved?
Love. What is love?
I’ve never known love to know if I’ve been loved or not.
People tell me they love me, but do they?
Why do they lie to me.
That makes me cry, but no one knows.
You have to hold all in or else you are a baby and no one will
love thee anymore even though they never have.
Why are you so angry at all?
Why? Because they deserve it.
They lead you on then drop you so fast you would think you were fire.
You aren’t good enough for them, for anyone, so why care anymore?
Why not just leave?
They would only pretend to miss you.
No one cares.
The only worry they care about is themselves.
Who do you love?
I love all, but most of all, I love GOD.
Do you.
Yes, I may not show it, but deep down I know I love GOD more than anything else.
Why?
Because he made me who I am.
He created our world even though he knew it would be destroyed because he loves all.
And the way he shows love is through friends and family.
So, does GOD love thee in return?
Of course, but you don’t see it as easily as others.
You only feel hatred now because of pain and suffering, even though yours isn’t to bad.
But yes, it is a little bad.
Why not just end your life?
Scared of going to HELL.
Scared it will hurt.
Scared to DIE.
I wouldn’t like to give ANYONE the pleasure of my absence from this world.
That is why I don’t kill myself and cry.



THE MEANING OF LOVE TO ME

Laughter
Opposite
Vulnerability
Envy



THE MEANING OF HATE TO ME

Hurt
Anger
Testy
Envy



LOST AND FOUND LOVE

Walking on this long deserted road,
I think about all my lost love.
It brings me sorrow and pain,
But then I think about new love.
And all the happiness to come.
While thinking about new love,
You name comes to mind,
And I get a silly grin on my face.
And think about the day,
I’ll finally get to meet you.



FOLLOW YOUR HEART

Rumors are rumors,
Lies are lies,
Only believe,
What’s inside.....



TRUTH

Look beyond features,
And into the heart.
That’s the only place,
You’ll find truth.



TRUE FRIENDS

Slow are the times,
When you are looking for love.
You stumble around,
Unaware that what you are looking for,
Is all around you.
Until one day,
The haziness leaves your eyes,
And a smile is brought to your face.
You may not have found that “special someone,”
But you’ve found the love you’ve been searching for,
In your friends.



CHILDHOOD MEMORIES

Walking on a long deserted path,
Thinking about my childhood memories,
I was reminded of my first love.
How his kisses made my toes tingle,
And each time he’d brush up against me accidentally,
My pulse would race.
About a year ago,
We went our separate ways.
But God seems to have another plan on his mind.
Because he brought him back in my life.
His kisses still make my toes tingle,
And my pulse races when we touch.
Oh how sweet childhood memories are.



THROUGH THE WALL

You came into my life,
Never slowing down,
You moved right past my wall,
And into my heart.
You were there,
Through good times and bad times.
Until one day,
When you walked out of my life,
As quickly as you came in.
You’ll never know how much you meant to me.
And how much you opened me up.
Thank you



THE POWER BEHIND A HUG

Reassuring words,
A pat on the back.
You’ve helped me become me.
You’ve taught me how
To endure the hard times.
Hold your head high,
Don’t look back.
But most of all,
You’ve given me your endless love.
And I thank you for that,
Because I wouldn’t be here,
If it weren’t for your hugs.



ANOTHER YEAR

Another year gone by,
More memories in your heart.
Not all good,
But not all bad.
You treasure the sweet ones,
And grow stronger with the painful ones.
21 years of love and hardship,
Have made you who you are.
You’re thankful for the past,
And anticipating the future.



BROKEN HEARTS

Wind chimes,
Blowing in the wind,
Broke the silence on that dreadful night.
There was a gun shot,
Then a baby began to wail.
We rushed inside,
Hoping we weren’t to late,
But disaster had already struck.
There was blood everywhere,
And when we rounded the corner,
There lay the body of my only love.
If only we would have come sooner,
He’d still be alive.
But then again,
We’ve talked him out of it many times before.
Finally he is at peace,
But he left behind many broken hearts.
Love Always and GoodBye.



GOODBYE

There’s a feeling,
Deep in my heart,
That I’ve lost someone,
I’m always going to Love.
That person is still in my life,
But the special friendship we had,
Has changed.



THERE FOR ME

I closed my eyes,
And took a deep breath.
Today was the day,
I’d finally learn to ride a bike.
You gave me many words of encouragement,
And a pat on the back.
I gripped the handle bars,
With you at my back.
I started to pedal and yelled “Let Go,”
But down I went.
You wiped my tears,
And put me back on the bike.
After many more falls,
And many more tears,
You were applauding me,
For making it up the block.
You’ve been there for me,
Through all my falls off the bike.,
You’ve wiped my tears,
And gave me good advice.
I’m 19 now and still falling off my bike,
But you’re always there to help me back on.
Thank You Dad!



TRUE LOVE

True love only comes once in a lifetime,
I thought you were my one true love,
But then you left.
And I met someone else.
This person makes me laugh,
Almost like you did,
But he understands me better,
And can look beyond my past mistakes,
Unlike you could.
He’s always there for me,
To wipe my tears,
Or put a smile on my face.
I miss you at times,
But I realize we weren’t meant to be,
But I’ll always treasure what we had,
And I thank you for teaching me,
About first love.
I just thought I’d tell you,
I’ll always love you deep down,
But I’ve finally found my one true love.



DON’T BE AFRAID TO WAIT

I closed my eyes,
And a wonderful image appeared.
There you were,
Smiling down on me.
The love shining brightly in your eyes.
You got down on one knee,
And pulled a ring from your pocket,
And asked for my hand in marriage.
I looked you in the eye,
And fought back tears.
I slowly swallowed,
And opened my mouth,
And as I said my answer,
Your smile faded.
As a tear fell from your eye,
I apologized for not being clear.
When I said I loved you,
I forgot to tell you I needed more time.
If you truly love me,
Please be patient.
Let’s take it slow,
And communicate better.
You wiped my tear,
And gave me a hug.
And told me you’d wait,
A lifetime for me.
25 years have past,
And that memory is still very vivid.
As I open my eyes,
My husband walks in,
Smiling at me with so much love in his eyes.
I look at him and say,
“Thanks for waiting.”



WISHES DO COME TRUE

To be in your loving embrace,
To have your loving eyes search mine,
Is a lifetime wish coming true.
Everyone is always searching,
Looking everywhere for real love,
But I’ve finally found it with you.
Some may say it’s not meant to be,
But I’ll fight to the very end,
To prove to them that it is.
I love you now,
And I’ll love you forever.



SAD ENDINGS

Dark are the colors in my world now.
Not long ago,
My life was full of color.
But then,
I lost someone who means the world to me.
I thought they’d always be there for me,
And I for them.
Until one day,
When I wasn’t there for them,
And their live quickly came to an end.
I’m all alone now,
And my life is coming to an end to.
I’m trying to fight the darkness,
But I keep thinking about how I failed them.
And the darkness swallows me up.
Good Bye to all and I’m sorry.



LOVE FOREVER

You will never know,
How much I love you.
You will never see,
The love in my eyes.
You will never feel,
The sadness in my heart.
Because you will never be here again.
You don’t know how much I miss you.
So I’ve decided to join you.
Then hopefully,
You’ll know how much I love you.
You’ll see the love in my eyes.
And you’ll be there,
To help me with the sadness in my heart.



MORE THAN WORDS

Your eyes are so blue,
I’m reminded of the calming flowing waters,
That runs quietly between your heart and mine.
There is so much love to be shown,
That is still yet to come in our lives.
We’ve been together 3 years now,
But there is still so much more,
I want to share with you.
While you stare into my brown eyes,
You can see them shining,
With so much love for you,
You finally believe,
Eyes can tell you more than words can.
And that is how I know you love me,
And you know I love you.



SILENT LOVE

To see your smiling face,
To see the sine in your eyes,
Let’s me know you care.
I don’t need to hear the words,
Because they show strongly,
When you look at me.
When you hold me in your arms,
Or even hold my hand,
I can feel the love through your touch.
When your lips touch mine,
My heart soars.
Because there is so much love coming through.
When we are apart,
I can still feel you with me.
Because you have a large part of my heart.
Thanks for showing me,
How wonderful it is to be loved.



MEMORIES

Waves crashing against the rocks breaks the silence.
And you are slowly brought back to reality.
As you look down from the cliff,
You begin to wonder why you almost jumped.
As your mind slowly comes back to focus,
You remember all your sorrows and begin to cry.
But there is something pushing at the back of your mind.
You realize it’s the memories of your life that were fun.
And you begin to realize,
There are many more to come.
Some may not always be fun,
But none are worth dying over.
As you turn away from the water,
You are able to smile and leave your sadness there.
Because your “special” friend,
Is waiting at the end of the path,
To help you make better memories.



DON’T KNOW THE WORDS

I have a little problem,
That I don’t know what to say.
I have messed up big time,
And need to make it right.
But I don’t think it’s possible.
I wish just saying I’m sorry would work,
But that doesn’t change the fact,
That I messed up.
Not only did I endanger myself,
But I endangered you also.
If we both have the strength and love,
We can make it through this.
I truly am sorry for doing this to you.
And I just want you to know,
I’ll understand totally,
If this is to hard to work out.
I love you and respect your decision.



SWEET DREAMS

As the clock struck midnight,
And all were asleep,
I was lying in my bed,
Dreaming of you.
The image of your face,
Kept flashing through my mind.
Next came the memory of your kisses,
Which always seemed to make my heart skip a beat.
As I hugged my pillow,
Close to my body,
I was reminded of your hugs,
And how they always seem to make everything alright.
As the night went on,
I kept dreaming of you.
And as the clock struck 6,
I awoke with a smile on my face.
Because whether you were with me or not,
I always know you’ll be there for me.



WANDERING SOULS

As the water lightly trickles through the stream,
And the birds begin their lovely singing,
The doe lifts her head and looks around.
She senses the peace and enjoyment surround her.
As the day goes on,
The doe makes her way through the forest,
Only to be abruptly stopped,
As a bullet hits her right in the chest.
The last thing she hears is,
“Wow, will you look at the beauty.”
And all is lost to her ears.
And her soul is left,
To enjoy what her body could not.



LIFE VERSES DEATH

Death is welcome,
In more ways than one.
To slit the wrists,
Overdose on drugs,
Taking a bullet,
Or hanging yourself.
But life is eve more welcome.
You are very loved,
Have a successful job,
And feel great about your life.
So close the door to your doubts,
And open your heart for all.



TREASURED MEMORIES

As I lay there trying to sleep,
A wonderful flashback captures my attention.
Sleep is forgotten and the memory of you takes its place.
Your laughter, your smile, and your tears,
Are the first things I remember.
Your smile first drew me to you,
Your laughter always caused me to laugh harder,
And your tears were the last thing that I remember,
When you said goodbye.
As tears fall down my face,
Sleep finally came with you on my mind.
I dreamed of our good and bad times,
And how we got through them.
And as I awoke the next morning,
You were fresh on my mind.
Not only because I dreamed of you last night,
But because today was the last time I’d see you.
Your soul is gone,
But your body is not.
I already miss your smile,
And hate my tears.



STRONG WORDS

As sadness envelopes me,
I hold a razor to my wrist,
And make the first cut.
The first cut is not deep enough,
So I start to make a second one,
The phone rings.
As I say hello,
The words,
“I Love You,”
Come from the other end.
As I hear these words,
I can not believe what I was trying to do.
How could I think of leaving behind,
This wonderful person that loves me.
And as I burst into tears,
And put the razor away,
I tell him thank you.
I was having my doubts,
And almost ended my life.
But knowing I’m loved,
And having you by my side,
I realize,
I can make it through,
What hard times I’m having.
As we say our good nights,
He says “I Love You” again,
And slowly my sadness leaves,
And I’m able to say,
“I Love You” back.



TROUBLED TIMES

My mind is jumbled,
My thoughts are twisted,
And my heart aches.
Why is life so challenging.
While debating whether life is worth all this confusion,
You walk into my life.
You look beyond my problems,
And my many scars of life,
And see the real me.
You see the scared innocent person,
That is hiding behind a make believe smile,
And help my smile become real.
You help me realize,
How to overcome the challenge to life,
And how to live more freely.
Thank you for everything.



PROBLEMS

I have a problem,
But no where to turn.
I have a lot to say,
But no one to say it to.
I have someone I love,
But no one to love me.
I have a sadness,
Deep in my heart,
That will not go away.
I want to share it,
But have no one to share it with.
It is getting to be to much,
So I must say good-bye.
I need someone to love,
Someone to hold me when I cry,
Bring me up when I’m down,
And help me through my troubled times.
I have a problem that has ended,
Because my problem ended my life.



SPECIAL ONE

Everyone has someone special in their lives,
You are that special one in my life.
You are there to bring me up,
Put a smile on my face when there are only tears,
Make me laugh when I only want to scream.
You may doubt whether or not you are there for me,
But in my eyes and heart,
I believe you are.



OVERCOMING MISTAKES

I know I’ve done wrong.
But everyone makes mistakes.
Mine are repeated mistakes,
That I should learn from,
But somehow,
I can’t get beyond them.
They are haunting my every waking moment,
And now haunting my dreams.
My thoughts are becoming more depressed.
I’m trying to overcome my fear of losing my life,
But it’s a no win fight.
Please don’t give up on me.
Please don’t turn away.
Because one of these days,
All will be well,
And I will be happy again.



FRIENDSHIP

You welcomed me into your life,
Without knowing who I was.
You gave me time you didn’t have to spare.
You trusted me with your most loving children.
You lent me your ear,
When you were having problems of your own.
As you get to know me,
You now welcome me with open arms.
I have grown to love you,
Like the best friend,
I’ve always dreamed of having.
Thank you Michella



NOT MEANT TO BE

As the tears in my eyes,
Fall down my face,
And my heart,
Slowly breaks in two.
I watch you,
Walk away forever.
I see your smiling face,
As you kiss your bride.
There was a time,
That would have been me.
But sadly,
It was not meant to be.



THERE WAS A TIME

There was a time,
I knew real love,
I now know,
Sorrow and hardship.
There was a time,
I was never alone,
I had someone,
To hold me while I fell asleep,
But now,
I just cry myself to sleep.
There was a time,
I had someone,
To share my dreams with,
Now my dreams have faded away.
There was a time,
I knew real love,
But there are gone from my life,
And can not return.



GOODBYE FOREVER

As my heart slowly breaks,
And tears fall down my face,
I can only stand,
And watch you walk away.
I know it’s not goodbye forever,
But the warmth and security
Will never be the same.
I have the good memories
Which I’ll treasure deep in my heart.
While the bad memories,
Will make me stronger.
I know it’s not goodbye forever,
But I feel like I’ve lost,
My best friend for good.
You may have given up,
But I’ll always love you.



SOME THINGS HAPPEN

Some things happen
That we can not change,
It happened for a reason,
And it has to be accepted,
No matter how much it hurts.
Some things happen,
That we can not change,
They can make you stronger,
If you allow it,
Or it will make you even weaker.
Some things happen,
That you can not change,
But you’ll be loved forever,
No matter what happens.



SORROW

As time slowly passes,
And you fade from my memory,
I begin to feel a deep emptiness in my heart.
I try not to ponder,
On my prolonged sadness,
But there is a constant tugging,
That won’t go away.
As the years pass,
And I slip away from reality,
All I can focus on,
Is the deep emptiness,
That surrounds me,
Night and day.
As I draw my last breath of air,
I see your face,
Peering down at me,
And finally,
My loneliness leaves.



ONCE KNOWING

I once had someone to love,
But now,
They are gone.
I once had someone to hold me,
But now,
They are holding someone else.
I once had someone who made me laugh,
But now,
They only make me cry.
I once knew true happiness,
But now,
I only know sadness.
I once knew I was pretty,
But now,
I feel so ugly.
I once knew what it felt like to be in love,
But now,
I only know what it feels like to be truly alone.



NOT GOOD ENOUGH

There was someone,
Very important in my life.
But I did something wrong,
And now they are gone.
I was not pretty enough,
I was not perfect enough,
I had a mind of my own,
And was not afraid to speak up.
I was to forgiving,
And not understanding enough.
And because I am the way I am,
I have lost a very important person in my life,
Whom I will love always and forever.



NOWHERE TO TURN

I hold my fear,
Deep inside.
I can not tell anyone,
For I am not alive.
I am a wandering soul,
Lost on this lonely earth.
I need some help,
Calming my mind,
So I can make it up to heaven.
But I have nowhere to turn.



SLOW DEATH
Loneliness rules my life,
Confusion is all I know.
There was a time,
I knew real happiness,
But it’s been so long ago,
I’m beginning to forget it.
If you were to look at my heart,
All you would see is broken pieces.
Even if you tried,
You could not get it put back together.
There is nothing,
That could mend it right.
It hurts to live with a broken heart,
That breaks even more every day,
And as it slowly kills me,
Feelings can not be felt,
And the only thing living,
Is my body.



DEATH

Sadness overcomes me,
And I take a razor to my wrist.
And I make the first cut.
It is very deep,
And bleeding dark red blood..
It’s oozing everywhere,
And will not stop.
But I still make the second cut.
This one is even deeper,
And my vision is beginning to fade.
I make the third cut,
And all is dark to me.
I am now bleeding to death.
All my life flashes before my eyes,
And all my pain leaves my heart,
And only loneliness is there.
I draw my last breath,
And think,
What did I do so wrong.
Why was I so sad.
Why was I not thin enough.
Why was I not pretty enough.
Why was I so wrong for guys.
And my eyes close forever,
And I think and care no more.



TO MUCH WRONG

I am so alone,
In this deep cold world,
That I’ve become invisible to all.
When I’m in a large crowd,
Everyone just looks right through me.
It hurts to know,
That no one cares anymore.
There was a time,
I felt so loved.
But that time is no longer here.
I no longer do anything good enough,
For people to care for me anymore.
I am in this deep lonely hole,
That gets smaller every passing moment,
And it’s taking my life,
Slowly and very painfully.
As I’m slowly dying,
The pain in my heart,
Brings tears to my eyes,
And I can only think about,
What all I have done wrong.
So I pick up the gun,
And end my forever saddened life.



I WISH

I wish I could be held,
Just one last time.
I wish I could be kissed,
Just one last time.
I wish I could hear your voice,
Just one last time.
I wish I could see you,
Just one last time.
I wish you could love me,
For the rest of our lives.
I wish you could care for me,
For the rest of our lives.
I wish you could kiss me,
For the rest of our lives.
I wish you could hold me,
For the rest of our lives.
I wish I could be with you,
For the rest of our lives.



SUICIDE

As I start my bath,
And sit and watch the water rise,
I think about my life,
And how much I want out.
I walk into the kitchen,
And grab a knife.
I walked back into the bathroom,
With the knife and a glass of water.
I open the medicine cabinet,
And pull out a bottle.
I pop all the pills into my mouth,
And take a swig of water.
I turn off the bath water,
And slowly undress.
I step into the tub,
And sit down.
I wash my hair,
And shave my legs.
Then just sit and soak.
While soaking,
I grab the knife,
And slit my wrists.
As I watch myself bleed,
I begin to feel the pills take effect.
All the pain and sorrow,
Is slowly leaving.
And finally,
I’m gone from this world.



DON’T GIVE UP

Light fades away,
As I close my eyes.
The pain overcomes all other feelings,
And I begin to cry.
I am all alone,
On this large lonely world.
I have no where to go,
And no one to trust.
I have two choices.
Stay and fight,
Or quit and die.
If I fight,
There will be much more pain.
But if I quit,
I’ll never know how my life went.
I’ll never get married.
I’ll never have kids.
I’ll never grow old.
I’ll never be happy.
So instead of quitting,
I’m gonna keep on fighting.



LEAVING LOVE FOREVER

The last words,
That I said to you,
Before you went away were,
I Love You.
Two years pass,
And you’re back in town.
The first words,
You said to me,
When we crossed paths were,
I’ve missed you.
Three months later,
You’re leaving town again.
But this time,
I’m finally going with you.
But as the plane goes down,
Both our last words were,
I Love You and Goodbye.



WORDS
Some people,
Come into your life,
And quickly go.
The impact,
Of their friendship to you,
Has changed your life forever.
Words can mean a lot,
But they are just words.
Friends get over it,
Not the whole pain,
But enough to realize,
They still have a friend.



THERE IS A PURPOSE
When death overcomes all thoughts,
And all emotions are gone,
You begin to give up on life.
You begin to doubt your own existence,
And wonder why God even put you here.
My life has become meaningless,
And I am about to give up.
I've hurt all the care for me,
And I'm tired of trying to be perfect.
I'm a bitch right to the heart,
And it has ruined my life.
If there were an easy way out,
I would take it in a heartbeat,
But all ways are painful.
Not only for me,
But for my family also.
When death overcomes all thoughts,
And all emotions are gone,
You begin to give up on life.
Yiou doubt and wonder,
Until you finally begin to realize,
You do have a purpose.



THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

The look in my eyes,
Is pure confusion.
The feeling in my heart,
Has to be wrong.
I have butterflies,
In my stomach,
Whenever you walk into the room.
If only my mind wasn’t so jumbled,
I would know what to do.
If you knew what was growing,
In my mind and heart for you,
I don’t think you’d want me around.
I’m not in love,
But I have major feelings for you.
You make me feel special,
Like no one else can.
You make me feel like I belong in life,
Like no one else can.
You make me feel pretty,
Even though I doubt,
Like no one else can.
You make me realize,
Being myself and very unique,
Isn’t a fault,
But a good quality.



MY MOMMY
You are the most caring person.
You are always there,
Whether I’m up or down.
You are there to,
Wipe my tears and give me a hug,
Or there to laugh with my happiness.
You always have the right answer,
No matter what the question.
When I do wrong,
You are there to help me realize.
When I do right,
You are there to share my joy.
I would never ask for anyone else,
To be there while I grew up,
Because God bave me the best person,
To fill that spot.
I would not trade you for the world.
You’re the best mom anyone could ask for,
And I’m glad you’re my Mommy.
Happy Mother’s Day



FAREWELL TO ALL
I need to get away,
From all my problems.
I need to get out,
Of this whole world.
There is pain,
Surrounding my whole heart,
That keeps getting more painful,
Each passing moment.
When I get out,
I will not be missed.
I am not noticed as it is.
I am not pretty enough.
I am not thin enough.
I am not stupid enough.
I have a mind of my own.
I am to much of a bitch.
So this is my goodbye to all,
Farewell and Fuck Off.



WISHES
I wish I could,
Change the world.
I wish I could,
Change myself.
I wish I could,
Start over.
I wish I could,
Get away from all.
I wish I could,
Die but I can’t kill myself.
I wish I were,
Prettier and more likable,
But I’m to much of a bitch.
I wish I could,
Be happy,
But life won’t allow it.
I wish and wish,
But they never come true,
So, I’m done wishing.



WANTING NO MORE
I want to tell the world,
To go fuck off.
But not everyone,
Has pissed me off.
I want to tell all,
To leave me the hell alone,
But not everyone,
Has done anything to me.
I want to tell people,
To quit being,
So damn annoying.
But not everyone,
Is annoying.
I want to much out of life,
Which I will never get.
So I want no more,
And I’m out of here.



FEELINGS

Sorrow is just a feeling,
That you can make go away.
Love is a feeling,
That you can not control.
It creeps up on you,
Totally out of the blue.
Once you’re in love,
It’s hook, line, and sinker.
You’ll always love that person,
Even if you go your own separate ways.
That person has made,
A major impact on your life,
And there is no way to forget them.
It can be friendship love,
Or True Love.
Either one,
Is not bad to feel.
There can be pain,
But sorrow is just a feeling,
That you can make go away.
Love can not be controlled.



TRUTHFULNESS

I was told,
I was a liar.
I could not,
Be trusted.
What am I suppose to think,
How am I suppose to act.
He wants to get rid of me,
Why does he doubt?
Why am I so wrong?
Why am I so horrible?
I Love him so much.
I would never do anything,
To hurt him on purpose.
I wish he could believe that.
I Love Aaron H. Cox,
With all my heart.
I know he thinks,
I have no heart,
But it’s all directed at him.



I HOPE YOU FEEL THE SAME

When our eyes met,
Across that crowded room,
My heart was yours,
Since that moment.
When your lips,
First touched mine,
I knew,
I’d lost my heart to you alone.
When I first,
Woke up in your arms,
I knew,
I wanted to wake up like that forever.
When the words,
“I Love You”
Slipped threw my lips,
I knew,
I’d only be saying it to you,
For the rest of my life.
I hope,
You feel the same.



FEAR OF THE HEART

I hold this fear,
Deep in my heart,
That one day,
You’ll walk out of my life.
It may be soon,
Or 30 years from now.
But this fear,
Seems to be ruling my life.
It’s not that I doubt,
I’ve just been hurt,
So much in the past.
You’ve done nothing,
To make me fear this.
It’s just an uncontrollable feeling,
That I’m fighting everyday.
I Love You,
With all my heart,
Now and forever.



CONFUSION

There is confusion,
Surrounding my whole mind.
Wrong has been done,
But if I make it right,
I could jeopardize my future.
But if I don’t make it right,
My future will be jeopardized.
There’s a right and wrong,
Everywhere in life.
Some you can correct,
Some you can not.
This one can be corrected,
But someone’s life,
Will probably come to an end.
It could be mine,
Or someone else’s.
It’s my choice to make,
But confusion,
Has overruled my mind.



WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE

When you love someone,
Nothing else matters.
When you love someone,
You only want them.
When you love someone,
You would do anything for them.
When you love someone,
Like I Love You,
You become the happiest person ever.



TRUE FEELINGS

When you look in my heart,
You will find,
I am in love.
It’s not fake,
It’s not false,
It is very real.
I want to be,
With him forever.
For I am happy,
And these,
Are my true feelings.



TIME TO SAY GOODBYE

There is a feeling,
Ruling my heart.
Saddening my soul,
Every moment of the day.
I try to fight it,
But there is no way to win.
I had this feeling,
For far to long.
It has ruined my life.
And I feel,
It is time to go.
For all to know,
It’s time to say goodbye.



GONE IN A SECOND

Why is it,
When life is going so well,
Everything seems,
To fall apart,
Right before your eyes.
You seem,
To have,
Everything you want,
Then you lose,
The ones closest to you?



TRUST IN MARRIAGE

Marriage means forever,
Or does it?
You have temptation,
Lust and betrayal.
Temptation haunts everyone,
Lust tempts all,
But betrayal is the worst.
Betrayal breaks all,
It can’t be hidden.
And it hurts the worst.
What outdoes these all,
Is trust.
You have to trust,
Or you’ll get nowhere in life.
If you can’t trust your spouse,
Who can you trust.



AARON H. COX

I’m tired of broken promises.
I’m tired of being accused.
I do No wrong to you,
But you say I do No right.
I didn’t cheat,
You did.
I didn’t lie,
You did.
I love you more than you’ll ever know,
But you doubt.
I’ve never doubted,
I never broke a promise.
I never hurt you,
Like you hurt me.
But I don’t care,
I do,
I do love you,
Always and forever.



SMOKE ALL DAY

You sit and smoke,
Smoke all day.
And just watch,
The time pass away.
All around you,
People come and go.
Doing their things,
In your eyes so slow.
The people who care,
Watch you fade.
As you sit and smoke,
Smoke all day.
Time has passed,
All people are gone.
No one is left,
So you sit and smoke,
Smoke all day.
You’re out of weed,
You’re out of life,
All people that cared,
Have walked out of your life.
You sit alone,
And watch the time,
And wonder,
What you did wrong.



STANDING THERE

He was standing there,
Just like he always does.
Standing there,
Just staring.
His thoughts are far away,
Way before my time.
Pondering on his past,
On what he always wanted.
There was a time,
His life was so perfect,
He had all he wanted.
But in an instant,
It was gone.
His happiness,
His sorrow,
His memories,
All in his eyes.
He looks at me,
But only sees beyond.
To what his life,
Should have been.
He says he’s happy,
And in love with me.
But he just stand there,
Just like he always does.



MEMORIES OF THE HEART

Deep in the heart,
Of a troubled soul,
Is memories,
Of a time long ago.
Memories that won’t go away,
That taunt at them,
Day after day.
You’d think,
These memories are bad,
But they are of happy,
And wonderful times.
But deep in the heart,
Of a troubled soul,
Any memory,
Could break it.



LOVING THOUGHTS FOR YOU ON VALENTINE’S DAY

Cupid may be a myth,
But somehow his arrow,
Struck me when I met you.
Because now,
You hold my heart,
In the palm of your hands.
You keep me warm and loved.
When your lips touch mind,
You bring a smile to my face.
You make everyday special to me.
I wish I could show you,
How much I Love You.
Happy Valentine’s Day



LOST

When times get sad,
You sit and think,
Wondering what can be done,
Or what you did wrong.
Nothing ever seems,
To go right in your life,
You feel,
All you can do is fail.
You lost your job,
You lost you love,
You lost your will to live,
You lost all sanity.
But then you realize,
This is just a hurdle in life,
A maze,
You’ve gotten lost in.
You realize,
You can conquer that hurdle,
Find the end of the maze,
And find your life again.



WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG

What have I done wrong,
To deserve a life like this.
A life filled with sadness,
Was not my dream.
A life filled with loss,
Was not my destiny.
A life filled with confusion,
Was not my goal.
A life filled with happiness,
Was my dream.
A life filled with love,
Was my destiny.
A life filled with understanding,
Was my goal.
So what have I done wrong,
To deserve a life like this.



I’M SAD

I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let me leave you.
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let me stop loving you.
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let me walk out of your life.
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let me let you go.
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let me leave you forever.
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Stopped loving me.
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let yourself love someone else.
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let me say goodbye.
To everyone and to all,
I’m sad,
Now that you,
Let me walk out of my own life.



LOST WITHOUT HIM

Sorrow fills my heart,
Tears fill my eyes.
Confusion fills my mind,
And I feel lost.
Someone special,
Is gone from my life,
No where to be found.
They are not gone,
From the world.
Just to far gone,
In my world.
I feel completely lost,
Without them in my life.
I thought it was meant to be,
But I was wrong.
Sorrow fills my heart,
Tears fill my eyes.
Confusion fills my mind,
And I know,
I am lost without him.



I MISS YOU

I miss your smile,
I miss your laugh.
I miss your hugs,
It’s very tough.
I miss your touch,
I miss your love.
I miss being with you,
I hate not being loved.
I miss your smell,
I miss the sight,
I miss the feel,
Of being held tight.
I miss you so very much,
I want you back,
And to feel your touch.
I want to be held,
Every night.
And to wake up,
With you in sight.
I made a mistake,
I can not change.
So I’ll try to be strong,
And kill the flame,
Burning always in my heart.



NEVER GIVE UP

When life seems low,
And you have no where to go.
Don’t be afraid,
Never give up.
You may feel discouraged,
But you have a path,
That you walk along.
The path may be twisted,
And you may stumble on a stone.
But never give up,
Be strong and you will get through it.
When life seems low,
And you have no where to go.
Don’t be afraid,
Never give up.



WHAT YOU ARE TO PEOPLE

Everyone starts out,
As a tiny seed.
But with love and encouragement,
You blossom into a beautiful person.
Each time you smile,
You brighten someone’s day.
Don’t every change,
And always remember,
I Love You



TOGETHER AGAIN

There’s someone special,
In my life.
That I wish I could hold,
Every night.
He means the world to me,
But has his doubts.
If only he could trust again.
Then he’d realize,
How much I love him.
We’ve been together,
We’ve been apart.
But each time I leave,
It breaks our hearts.
He lives far away,
But very close.
I wish I could,
Just reach out,
And touch him.
But instead,
I have to gaze at his picture.
I can hear his voice,
But it tears at me,
To know we can’t be together.
But one day,
We will become one,
And never be sad again.



SITTING HERE

Sitting here,
At a lonely truck stop,
Feeling so alone,
As time passes by.
Wondering,
Where my happiness went.
I’m sitting here,
Pondering on where I went wrong.
I’m thinking of my past,
And what I should,
Have done different.



WHAT I MISS

I miss the happiness,
I miss the tears.
I miss the hugs,
I miss the jeers.
I miss the smell,
I miss the touch.
I miss the laughs,
I miss the fun.
I miss the cuddling,
I miss the fights.
I miss making up,
I miss you.



TRUE THOUGHTS

My heart beats wildly,
And my pulse races,
But you always,
Put a smile on my face.
Flowers grow,
And flowers die.
But my feelings,
For you,
Are so very true.



I HATE TO...

I hate to breathe,
I hate to see.
I hate to hear,
I hate to think.
I hate to talk,
I hate to be accused.
I hate to be taken for granted,
I hate to like.
I hate to love,
I hate to live.
I hate to be me.



MISSING OUT

I’ve missed out,
On so much in life.
I always walk away,
At the best times.
When everyone else is smiling,
I just seem to frown.
When God was,
Handing out happiness,
I was in the wrong line.
I’ve missed the good,
And seen the bad.
I’ve loved,
But never been loved.
I may have missed out,
On so much in life.
And I may have always walked away,
At the best times,
But I can’t give up.
I’ll just keep on missing,
Even if it means losing myself.



HAPPY FATHERS DAY

To be a good dad,
You don’t have to;
But me everything I want,
Say yes all the time,
Not yell at me when I’ve done wrong,
Shower me with all your attention.
I’d just like you to be there when;
I’ve scraped my knee,
Fell out of a tree.
Wrecked my bike,
Drank too much.
Got a broken heart,
To give me a hug just because you wanted to.
But most of all,
When I need to heart,
Those 3 words,
I Love You.
I love you very much dad.
I know I’ve hardly ever shown it,
But you mean the world to me.



TO BE TOGETHER AGAIN

We shared a special moment,
That hurt us,
But I don’t regret.
I thought it would push you away,
But we’ve only gotten closer.
We used to never be friends,
But now,
You seem like my only friend.
You’re there at times,
When I need to talk.
But when I really need you,
I only find an empty spot.
I know we’re not together,
But we both want to be.
You don’t want to hurt,
And I don’t want to be hurt.
We’re so alike in so many ways,
It seems like destiny,
Wants us to be together.
We’ve tried it once,
Why not try it twice.
I’ll be good to you,
You know I will.
Why won’t you,
Give it another chance.
I know you’re scared,
But so am I.
I’ll be true to you,
So I won’t break your heart.
Just give me one reason,
Why we should part.



TOO TIRED

I’m tired of being sad,
I’m tired of being unhappy.
I’m tired of not being able to laugh,
I’m tired of not being able to cry.
I’m tired of my broken heart,
I’m tired of not being loved,
I’m tired of not being hugged.
I feel too tired to move on,
So I’ll quit singing my song.



MY HEART

I have this hole,
Growing in my heart.
All feelings,
Are slowly dripping,
From my heart.
My heart is,
So empty.
It’s turning to stone.
I begin to wonder,
If I even have,
A heart anymore.



HAPPY MOMENT

The sun shines,
The flowers grow.
The grass is green,
And the skies are blue.
I love you with all my heart,
And you make my life happy.



EMPTY FEELINGS

My life feels so empty,
Even though so much is going on.
There is so much action,
But I feel so alone.
I’m tired of people,
Just coming and going.
I’m tired of empty promises.
Being taken for granted,
Is getting very painful.
I’m tired of trying,
When no one else will.



ALONE

I am alone,
In this crazy world.
My emotions are strung tight,
And about ready to snap.
Loneliness has become my only friend.
I have no where to go,
And no one to trust.
That’s how I know,
I am alone,
In this crazy world.



NEVER KNOWING

Love to a person,
Can be sweet.
But love to a person,
That’s never felt love,
Can be feared.
But if you never try to love,
You’ll never know true happiness.



PAST LOVE

To miss someone,
That you hold,
Dear to your heart,
Feels like unbearable torture.
You have the need,
To see them,
To hold them,
To kiss them,
But most of all,
To love them.
To be with someone,
That you love dearly,
But not truly with them,
Becomes a silent challenge.
You have to fight your feelings,
And go against your heart.
So you won’t get hurt.
You have to see them,
In love with someone else.
Even while they are getting hurt.
Knowing you can do nothing about it.
To be in love,
But yet have no one to hold,
Is the price you have to pay,
When you’ve messed up in the past.



CHOICES

To love you,
As much as I do,
Breaks my heart,
More each day.
To be with you,
But not really with you,
Saddens my soul,
Faster each moment I see you.
It’s good to see you happy again,
But it’s only on the outside.
You can hide it all you want,
But I see the pain and sorrow in your eyes.
You have a choice to make,
That only you can decide.
You have to be true to yourself,
But most of all to your heart.



WHERE HAVE YOU GONE

There’s a twinkle,
In your eye.
A bounce,
In your step.
And happiness,
In your smile.
But where has it all gone.
You seem so sad now.
The person who used to be there,
Has slowly disappeared.
You walk around,
As if in a daze.
Your smile has become a frown.
The light in your eyes,
Has faded away.
What has become,
Out of all this.
A once truly happy person,
Has become so very grim.



WHAT’S GOING ON

So many memories,
Running through my mind.
My thoughts are all jumbled,
And I’m wondering,
“What’s going on?”
My insides are like jelly,
And my knees feel weak.
My hands are always shaking,
And I stumble on my feet.
The world taunts at me,
As if it knows something I don’t.
The earth turns,
Right under my feet.
Sending my soul,
On a violent ride.
My heart is confused,
And I can’t tell what I’m feeling.
I just want my memories,
To quit coming back.



TO GO ON

When someone dear,
Leaves us forever,
We are forever saddened.
We don't know how to react.
Should we cry all the time,
Or hide our sorrows.
Sometimes we feel,
That we can't even live without them.
We feel like just giving up,
That we have no reason to go on.
But we need to realize,
They wouldn't want us to quit.
They'd want us to mourn,
But then go on.



FIRST TIMES

You've been in my life,
For awhile now.
I've loved you,
Since the moment,
I first felt your embrace.
I knew I was lost to you,
The first time I felt,
Your lips touch mind.
I've been falling in a downward spiral,
Since the first time,
You said those special words to me.
I've been floating through the heavens,
Since the first time,
We shared that unforgettable moment.
You will never know,
How much I care for you.
But I hope you too,
Will always remember our first times.



WHAT IT'S LIKE

To look into your eyes,
Is like seeing the stars in the sky.
To feel your touch,
Is like feeling,
The sprinkle of rain for the first time.
To hear your voice,
Is like taking your first breath.
To have your lips touch mine,
Is like watching fireworks,
Go off for the first time.
To wake up
With you next to me,
Is like knowing true happiness.
To realize this will never happen again,
Is like dying over and over again.



REMEMBERING

When I close my eyes,
I can remember,
The way you look
The way you smell
The way you touch
The way you kiss
The way you hug
The way you cry
The way you laugh
But most of all,
The way you love.
Remembering you,
Has kept me going,
For so long.
Remembering what we had,
Has always put a smile on my face.
Remembering how we were,
Has always made my heart skip a beat.
Remembering us has always,
Made butterflies flutter around in my stomach.
I never knew,
What real love was,
Until it was too late.
But atleast I still can remember,
What it was like.



WHY DO I FEEL

Why do I feel,
Like giving up?
Why do I feel,
Like such a failure?
Why do I feel,
Like no one loves me?
Why do I feel,
Like crying all the time?
Why do I feel,
Like I have a broken heart?
If these are my feelings,
Why do I feel,



LAST GOODBYE’S

You’re being called home,
To where the ones you love,
Have already gone.
You’re leaving behind,
Many loved ones,
Who hold you dear to their hearts.
We are all asking ourselves,
Why God is taking you from us so early in life.
Asking ourselves why you have to go,
With so much unfulfilled and unfinished.
But then we realize,
You’re time here is done.
You have fulfilled what you need to do.
You have finished what you needed to get done.
You have given out,
All the love you can give.
And you have received,
All that you needed to.
We feel it’s unfair,
Because we all have so much more to show you.
But we need to realize,
We can send all our love,
Up to you in heaven.
We are all angry, hurt, sad, but yet happy,
Because you will finally be with,
Your family and friends again.
We may not be able,
To tell our problems and fears right to you.
And we may not be able,
To hug you when we want.
But we know you’ll be watching down on us.
Receiving what we are sending you in our prayers.
We’re going to miss you,
So very much.
But we’ll always remember,
They way you laughed, cried, smelled,
Looked, hugged, joked around,
But most of all,
The way you showed how much you loved us.
We’ll always hold you,
Dear in our hearts and prayers.
But we really just want you to know,
How much we care and love you.



MY FEELINGS FOR YOU

You bring joy and happiness,
To my life.
When you’re around,
Nothing else seems to matter.
You bring me up,
When I’m down.
Put a smile on my face,
Replacing my frown.
My eyes have never twinkled,
Until you made me laugh.
When things are going wrong,
Just being in your embrace,
Makes everything all right.
Just to be near you,
Puts me at ease!
When I look my worse,
You give that look that tells me,
In your eyes I’m beautiful.
I love falling asleep,
With you by my side.
And waking up,
Being held tight.
I’m finding myself
Losing something I’m scared to lose again,
But with you,
It seems to be alright.
So please give me the chance,
To prove to you how I feel.
But I’ll leave,
The final decision in your hands.



ALWAYS NEED TO BE

As the moon rises,
And the stars come out.
My breath seems lost,
And my heart skips a beat.
I look into your eyes,
Everything else disappears,
As your lips touch mind.
There is a gentle breeze,
That stirs the leave,
That have wound themselves,
Around our feet.
You hold me in your arms,
As if I’ll break,
Whispering loving words,
Making me feel safe.
You hug me close,
Putting me at ease,
And say those 3 words to me.
I look at you,
Looking at me,
Knowing this is where
I’ll always need to be.



WHAT I MISS
I miss the feel,
Of your lips on my lips.
I miss the feel,
Of your hand in mine.
I miss the way,
My heart seemed to skip a beart,
Whenever you walked in.
I miss the way I blushed,
When you gave me,
That certain look.
I miss the way,
You used to hold me close,
When we slept.
I miss the sound of your voice,
When you'd tell me,
That you love me.
I miss the sight of you,
When you'd wipe my tears away.
I miss you.



HOW YOU'VE BEEN
We have laughed,
And I have cried.
You've been strong,
And helped me along.
You've been there,
When I needed you most.
You never turned away,
Only gave me a hug,
And said those special words.
You always put me first in your life,
Making me feel so important,
Even after a silly fight.
Whene everyone else,
Has gone away,
You've always been there,
Like you're here to stay.
You have become,
So special to me.
I just wish there was a way,
I could make you see.



I hope you have enjoyed this page, because it took a lot of time and effort, and a lot of heart to make this....All these poems are originals, none are fake!! They are all also copywrited by Stephanie Schonhardt, I have all rights to them, and if you would like to post them on your page, or print them, I advice you ask my permission first, because you could get in trouble for the use of my poetry without my knowledge...You can mail me at starlightlover01@yahoo.com Have a good day!! :-) Last updated on: August 5, 2002