I am a full-fleshed human being - NOT a machine. I have emotions and the ability to think. I don't have a switch for you to play around with doing as you please. I woke up around 7 o'clock this morning lying in bed and thinking. And it's not the first time I've been thinking these things. If I rethink what I already did just now for the purpose of typing this out, it may not be so good because it would be like "spinning around the tip of the cow's horns". But, on the other hand, expressing my thoughts in words is better than keeping it in my mind all the time.

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After more than half hour later.. (08:16), my mom is up, she comes in and turns on the light. I can't think of anything now cuz I probably already fried my mind this morning, and besides I want to go to bed. We shall resume another time...