**YOUNGSTER-2000**
IS HERE!!!!
and it comes in the form of a 17 yr. old kid, called Craig!
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it begins....
Hello people, how are yas all doin, well I hope yer just fine and dandy as I am, now.
It all begins on a cold lonely night, when my sister is locked up in a cupboard or something, and my parents feel the need to go at it, one thing leads to another, screaming leads to squirting, squirting leads to ME!, well the start of me anyways.
9 months inside the bitch, listening to it all, the world outside the womb, that terrible world of men screaming at women, and women screaming at men, it was all too much for me at that age. It was set out, I was to become a faggot, and that's what I done.
And so the nine months were up, mum went into labour and after a 27 hour labour (I was a miserable bastard - and really wanted to be difficult) - I popped, or squeezed out, hehehehe, and my life began!
THE GAY LIFE - Coming Out!
It all started with the turning of 16, what a number, what a memory, what a.... lie! - how do I put it, erm... Mum, Dad.... the thing is I am a erm..... I'm g... glad to be your son, I'm a faggot! but don't get mad, because it was the therapist that YOU sent me to and YOU paid for that told me to tell you, so technically, it's YOUR fault.... right?
The shock lasted about 1 second, in the next second all my stuff was in big black bags, had a broken nose and was in the street sobbing, it all happens so quick when your kicked out, I can barely remember it really, but that's my coming out! - I moved in with my now ex, and lived there until it blew over, now the family are fine - god my mum even shops at Logo and Etam for me, fuck sake, but she loves it, not that I'm complaining! - Dad is still a bit weary, but then again, why should he be, he probs feel threatened when I bring my older friends home, in case they fancy him - Yeah right, as if!
THE GAY LIFE - First Love
At 13, untouched by any man, boy or otherwise anything male, I knew it was the way I was. My sister was a great help, bringing home all her friends, mostly male (she was good with the boys, though not a slut). One of them stood out in that crowd, he was not a friend, more like a friends brother who tagged along, he was special, gorgeous and I knew he was right. One day when my sis was out the backdoor with her mates, I was watching tell yin the living room. He came i, sat beside me and told me that he fancied me, now at 13 this kind of thing was unknown to me, but it was good. I knew that at least. At that moment he leaned forward and kissed me, I practically shit myself, fuck knows what was going on, but the only thing I knew was, I didn't want him to stop doing it. His name was David, he was 2 years older than me, he was a god!
We started a relationship together, unknown to anyone else, secret meetings, great sex and over all, my gay life. 2 years it lasted, love hit us both in a hard way and I knew it was a love that would last forever. Or not..
I had just turned 15 in November, he had just turned 17 in January. 4 Days after his birthday, I was at his flat after a night out, he went to local petrol station to get some Coke or whatever the hell he was gonna get. As he was on his way, he took the back road over the Glenburn Braes and a Truck heading in his direction, with the driver asleep at the wheel swerved at hit his car head first. David was taken to the Royal Alexandria Hospital in Paisley, he died shortly after. This love, the only true love up until this point in my life, was ended, by sleep, the uncaring bastard, I suppose I cant blame him, he must have been tired, but its a loss, I'd rather not go through again
R.I.P. David, whos body rests in Woodlands Crematorium, Paisley
Jan 14th 1982 - Jan 17th 1999
Moving On!
It took me 10 months to go back on the scene and about 11 months before I looked at anyone else. That's when he came along....
His name was Bobby Hunter, a young cute guy from Dundee, he changed my life. There he was just dancing next to me on the stage, upstairs in Bennets on a Saturday night. He wore a black shirt and black trousers, just plain. The only thing was the side of his eye which caught the side of mine. I had saw him about 3 weeks in a row before I even thought of saying anything to him, or not really. I went up to him and gave him a note saying "Call Me - Craig" with my number on it. He did call about a month later, god he must have been dead interested, but yes he called. We spoke on the telephone for about 2 months, then he told me he was moving to Linwood, which is just 5 mins from where I stay. YYYYEEEEEAAAHHHHHHHAAAAAAHHHHHHHH, I was ecstatic. He asked me to meet up with him, I said yes, 3 weeks later me and Bobby both shared the house in Linwood. Life was great, me and Bobby, that's how it was, that's how we both wanted it to stay. My life was his, his life was mine, we were inseparable. No one and nothing else mattered to us, as long as we had each other, and we lived. Bobby and I became the best of friends, doing everything together, going everywhere together, and in all, it became too much, in the end we hated each other, I had to leave.
I stayed in one day, while he was at work, cleaning and tidying, but at the same time packing ALL of my things, placing them in bags and then in our wardrobe. I called my father to arrange for him to collect me at about 7.30pm. Bobby came home around 6.30pm, I made him his dinner, at about 7.20pm I went in the room and took all of the bags, placed them in the hall. Went in the living room and sat beside him and said "I'm away to my mums, see ya later" not letting on anything. Went out to the hall, picked up my stuff, and left, got in my dads car and the tears were not unknown, I died when I left him.
Bobby went in the room and noticed all of my stuff gone, and a note, lying on the bed which I had written previously. I got a call from him about an hour later, asking me to come back, I replied no.
Me and Bobby are now good friends and will continue to be for eternity, I love him with all my heart, more than I should really, but that's life.
If I ever got a chance with Bobby again, I would do it all differently, and change a lot of things about "us", but I know now that this will never be accomplished and I will never get him back. but just in case you ever read this Bobby:
I Love you with all my heart, more than you will ever or have ever known, you are that special someone who I will ALWAYS have time for. Luv, true, always and forever, Craig xxx
New Love - True And Forever
The only person in my life now that deserves the best and true mention is my boyfriend Alan Moore. Me and Alan had split up over differences but I have had a long think and I am tying again. The truth is, the differences was only in my case. I split with Alan because he was moving to Aberdeen and I didn't want to have to lose someone again, so I called the shots, pretty selfish huh. And the other reason, he's the only person who has actually loved me since David died, and to tell you the truth I got scared and ran away. I couldn't be happier that me and Alan are back together and love him with all my heart, I hope and he feels the same, yet I know he does. Alan is the best thing that could have happened to anyone, and thank god he's happened to me. They say there is a genuine guy waiting out there for you to find, well I'm sorry guys, I found him, and I'm not willing to give him up for the world, the truth is, I don't want to lose him. I wouldn't trade you for anyone Alan, and I know this now, I love you with all my heart and will forever. Lets hope this lasts my lifetime and yours Alan. Love Always and Forever Craig xxx
I have now decided to move to Aberdeen with Alan, I will be leaving Paisley and Glasgow, the scene and all my freinds and family behind, awwwwwww, miss them all, but i have made my mind up. I will be moving to Aberdeen about Nov 15th, so as of then, I'll see you around!! I'll be holding a leaving party, I think maybe in Sadie Frosts pub, not really sure yet, but I'll inform you all nearer the time!, until then, happy chatting!!
UNITE THE NEW GAY CHILDREN OF THIS MILLENNIUM
they need to be taught, just as I did!
© 2000 C. Chalmers esq. Inc. Violation Act 1987 - 2000