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Thanks for visiting the new and final home for my online journal. I know I've changed the location and layout quite a few times, but much the rest of this site, it changes with my life. This page is where I will post my thoughts, and news about my life. It will also be my source of communication between myself and those I will soon be leaving behind in the states.

March 04, 2005:

"Destination anywhere, so far gone I'm almost there. Can't you see I can't deny? I'm outtie like I'm on fire." Amazing lyrcis that none of you will recognize because I have an old soul, and submit not to the modernization of music fads. For anyone that cares to know, that was Def Leppard's "Demolition Man", (off their album "Euphoria"), a great album for lovers of classic rock... well what used to be rock anyway. That is the song I am currently rocking to as I type this next entry into my online journal. It's kinda amazing that I have never actually sat down to fully appreciate this online journal... IT'S BLOODY ONLINE! lol. I can only imagine how many random visit I have gotten to this so-called website and had people wondering what canibus plant I am smoking to come up with these rants. lol. I assure you loyal reader, I am not on any illegal substance... unless love is illegal, and if that's the case then I'm screwed. lol

So what's new? Not much really, nothing entirely major anyway. Life has been good the past couple of days, with a few minor quirks here and there. I'm learning to deal with a few universal truths, the major one being that what goes around... inevitably comes around. I've also come to the realization that I owe some people a few apology's.. and they shall receive them not in an email, nor in a phone call; these apology's will be delivered in the form of actions taken to redeem myself in their eyes. Normally I would not give a rats ass what someone thinks about me, but there are just some times in life when you have to buck up buddy and swallow that pride. When all else fails, I can try to do my best to prove certain people wrong by showing them my rise to ascension. I'm getting back on track, and shall never allow anyone to knock me down anymore. "I won't make promises, that I can't keep. I won't make promises that I don't mean." (Def Leppard, "Promises")

Like Tarzan zooming on vine with his willy hanging out... I'm in full swing. Since I am a full 3 months ahead of schedule on "13", I decided to hold off on that and work on "DST", which is currently being proofread for quality assurance. *wink* The final pieces have finally come into place, and I owe a great deal to Michelle for this final piece. Without her help I would not have been able to finish the ending to this, my most anticipated story to date. Nine years in the making, the first draft to DST is finally complete. The hardest part has finally been done, and now all I need to do is transport it all from brain to paper... or in this case... digital characters on your monitor. Normally I would continue working on it until its so perfect I can't stand to read it myself. lol. But I decided to just finish it off. Bunni and Angela both told me that I shouldn't care what anyone else thinks so long as I think it is good... and vice versa. Complex, I know, but then again when am I not? (Rhetoical question Angela, so please do not respond) I currently have no due date for DST, mostly cause I am already behind schedule by... oh.... five years or so. lol. Oh well, as Lesley would say, "Its all good", indeed it is sugah, indeedy it is. So, as my neighbors would say, much love to my homies for having my back. Pinky, Bunni, War, Sparrow, Moo, Sparky, Nickle halla at your boy.

Witness the predominant imaginative intellect, that is me. Cast aside your insipid views, and embrace the madness.

Peace out

February 28, 2005:

lol, what can I say? Life sure has a way of shitting on you sometimes don't it? Oh well, life goes on, oh blah dee, oh blah dah. lol. Things are alright for the most part, no huge complaints, just some minor ... pitfalls. Nothing I won't eventually rise out of, stronger than when I first fell in. Like Conan once said (The barbarian not the latenight talk show host) "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger."

Well as far as stories go, I'm finishing up with "13", before schedule for once. lol. YAY ME! This is the first time I will actually complete an entire story from stem to stern, all I need to do is make some revisions when I am done, and all will be sorted. (As Lez would say) My deadline to have everything done by April is clocking down, so I need to get as much done as possible before then. As for my July deadline, that is just a delay, assuming I make it that long to reach this second deadline. Hopefully i'll have as much done as possible so I can have the main stories completed before then. Arrangement are being made for alternative authors to take my place in the event happens to keep me from completing them myself. Don't worry, I'll have it done one way or another.

Nothing else to report so I'll end this now. Blessed be. ~ Jase

February 22, 2005:

Nothing really going on. The swelling has finally started to go down somewhat, which is great! I can't wait til I can finally downsize my bar, this one is a pain in the butt. Atleast with a smaller bar I won't feel like I have a huge piece of metal in my mouth... which is exactly what I have anyway. lol. I'll keep you all posted on that.

The stories are coming along nicely. I'm almost done with "13", which to be honest with you, I had trashed a long time ago. I wasn't really feeling Hank as a character until recent events changed my outlook on life. I think I just needed a commonality between his pain and my own, and I finally found the bridge to connect us both. I also found the bridge between "13" and "Moth plated Bullets", which will be the sequel to Hanks adventures. If you think you know what's going on in the story, I wouldn't count on it. The best is yet to come, along with a nice plot twist. Thats all i'm saying about that. :-P

Well I'll write more later. Peace for now.

February 21, 2005:

Its been a couple of days since I last posted an entry, so I guess I should update you all on the comings and goings of my life. For the most part, things have been good, no complaints or rantings. I've been working the past few weeks, which I am very grateful for since I really need the money. I have to say, it sure does feel good to actually be making some money again, it's been a while since I was able to say so. Yes I had my comp job, but that sucked, atleast this is constant. With each dollar I earn I get closer to Scotland, and thats the best and most unobstructed goal anyone can possibly have. Its nice to have a motivation in my life again without the fear of it being taken away. Helps alot.

I've been working hard on my stories during my freetime, since I may not be able to work on them for a while coming soon. I'm not too concerned with it all though, for the most part I am just going with the flow. I'll keep you all posted.

At the moment I am alittle discombobulated so I'll probably end this now. So many things happening at once, its hard to keep sane. lol. But as my therapist says, "One day at a time."

Take care, Blessed be.

February 09, 2005:

Life is changing in a huge way for me, which shouldn't be no surprise to those I have been in contact with regularly. I met a wonderful woman whom I can not say enough about. She's opened new door to both my life and my heart, some that I thought were closed off for good. New horizons and possibilities have come clear, and I intend on making her as happy as she makes me. Though this must mean I will be leaving my home, my heart will always be here with those I love and care about. And those of you glad to be rid of me, beware, I am like a bad itch that only gets worse with each scratch. Though I am leaving to the land of Scots, my roots shall remain buried deep with U.S soil, especially in that small corner of Texas where my son sleeps at night.

I hope you all like the new layouts. I am working on new ones all the time, as well as a few I have found online. I tell ya what, geocities is great but they don't make using HTML easy at all. With each new layout I import onto here, it usually takes a few hours simply getting it to work properly on here. *Kicks Yahoo!* Oh well, at least it is a learning experience. Visit the sites located below for interesting web design and hosting information.

I guess I didn't have time to tell you all earlier, but I am going back to class soon, March to be exact. By the time I leave for Scotland I will be completely A+ certified, which I hope will help me find a job if Lesley and I decide on my staying there. If not, I'm sure they have floors to sweep, crap to clean, and windows to shine. I'll find something. So yeah, YAY for me going back to school.

Well I've bored you all enough for now. I'll write more later. Take care, blessed be, and remember, all you need is love.