The Most Desperate Situation I Have Been In

Written By: Zehra Nasirali
Date: 10^th February, 1997

Even thought I am only fourteen years of age, at times I feel that I have been through all the desperate situations in life than there ever could be. But as time passes, I realize that either I am going though one or I have just gone though a desperate situation.

One of the experienced situations that I went though two years ago sure made me understand something.

I had fallen sick for more than a month. I was weak, felt anemic and at that moment I felt like I was on my deathbed. But obviously I wasn’t. I missed all my midterm exams, eight of them, and for that I was very upset and wanted to do my exams or I might have lost my position in class. Fortunately, and unfortunately, I missed my exams. It took me long to accept that it had really happened. However, this was not the desperate situation I had been through. It was the next term that put me in a desperate situation. During my term exams I had thought and embedded in my mind that I was to fall sick. I had already accepted that I would miss my exams. Why? This was because of my last term experience. Even though I wasn’t, I was mentally determined that I was sick. I told my mom that I wasn’t going to do my exams because I was sick. My mom said and encouraged me that I wasn’t sick and was going to do my exams. Because I was a nervous wreck, I couldn’t study. I had already told myself that under any circumstances, I wasn’t going to school. Less did I know, my mom woke me in the morning and refused to believe me. She thought I had conjured up an excuse and was trying to refrain from writing exams. As nervous and scared as I was for going to school and writing an exam that I hadn’t even touched the book for, I was trapped and had no way out of it.

Now came my moment of desperation. As a result of my mental though, I tried to fake an illness, but the news had already spread to my teachers about me being a nervous wreck because I hadn’t studied. Unfortunately, I had no one on my side except for my true friends who gave me support and held me up.

The clock ticked aloud leaving half an hour to revise before the actual exams. My heart thudded and pounded. I lost control of myself and began to cry. My friends were strong for me and told me that it was natural to cry in my position. After I gained control, my friend filled me up on some of the basic and important facts and before I knew it, I was calmly writing my geography exam. Surprisingly, I was one of the first one to finish writing the exam and achieved a grade of A-! I was happy and proud of myself. It was all due to my friends.

I learnt form the experience that whatever you have your mind set on, you are bound to make it come true or sternly believe in it and that is a mental thing!

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