For some, it means eternal sorrow. Often being sad, simply because sorrow exists. Fae can experience joy in a reckless, pure and admirable manner, but for many, underneath there lies a constant sadness. Sometimes fae cry for all the sorrow in the world. Being fae means emotions rule you, they aren't just "things", they are a part of you. Snapping out of a mood is not easy, if posible at all. It means a constant longing for something and somewhere you can't describe, remember, locate or identify. It means you are used to being misunderstood. It means that people who at first say they like you for your uniqueness will soon become frustrated by it and continuously abandon you. It means being alone.

Often being fae means you feel the weight of the dying earth on your shoulders, you feel helpless to save it. You see it dying before your eyes and wonder why most do nothing to stop it, especially when they know. Living in a world that depends on ways that dammage the earth is painful and infuriating.

Being fae means that what makes most people happy does not make you happy, and what makes you happy seems odd to others who don't understand. Perhaps even crazy. You can take an inordinate amount of joy in small things and spend hours pondering philosophies, behaviour, the immaterial, the way the world works and turning simple things into complex things, facts into abstracts and vice-versa. Passion is in everything that you (willfully) do. Passion is a part of you that cannot be escaped or ignored. Passion is what you are. You cannot cut it away from yourself without cutting away at your soul.

It's not something you can describe, but you can feel it. You don't have to be "psychic", have "magical powers", you don't have to have memories of a magical fairy land, be someone important, have a talent with plants and gardening, you don't have to have had a life long interest in fairies and having wings, be a vegetarian, or have seen and talked to fairies.

I said before that being fae brings crushing responsibility. This is your responsibility: Don't give in. Don't give in to the banality that is so rampant and relentlessly pulls at your fae soul. Don't allow yourself to be convinced that you need help because of the way you are, to be put on drugs that numb your nature, and be called "crazy", "demented" and "unsound of mind" like it's a bad thing. Don't be convinced that you need to be something you are not. Don't deny your nature and what you are; at least not to yourself.

Simply not feeling "normal" or like you don't fit in does not make you fae. If those were the only "criteria", then thousands and thousands of people would think they were fae, and many would be calling themselves "fae" in their teenage and high school years and deciding they weren't fae any more sometime later after they exit their awkward period. It's not just feeling different from your peers, but more of not belonging in this world. Nor does just having a playful personality, artistic side, or love of nature and animals make you fae. Humans have a right to be that too. Some people think that being fae seems fun, or like something that will make you "special". Being fae doesn't make you special. Just different. Being fae is not a status symbol or rank. It's just what you are. It's a heritage. Being fae does not make you "better" than others just as being Canadian, American, Irish, Scottish, Italian, Native American, African American, Swedish, German, Christian, Jewish, Pagan or Bhuddist does not make you better than others who aren't. It is simply what you are.

Human or fae, you will be most happy when you do not deny your own nature and pretend to be something you are not.

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