Miriam Hourani 27th Nov. 2000

Angel

I live my life in an ocean, where the waves hide my face of pain, which is the only realit.
The bark of my sacred tree now twists the purity of my soul and crushed my heart in its branches.
The saviour of the deep brought some beautiful sea shells to my door.
I did not notice and crushed them whole.
I found a pearl on the rock and gazed at it magical face so much, that my eyes strained.
I looked no more and swam towards the surface. 
I saw the sacred twisting tree, stuck down by lightning and crushed into green rays of water below.
I saw someone passing through the current around me.
I think i found an angel. He said he loved me and that his love was like no other.
What a lie ! Why didnt my waves keep him away.
Once without a reason he said he wouldnt be my angel anymore.
This was long after all I'd ever believed in my life, which this angel tried to have me deny, was really true.
The depths are the only security. His silky pure white wings then became deep dark charcoal embers.
My heart was torn so bad that if he'd struck me with an arrow it wouldn't have hurt more.
I abandoned him for safety of my own heart.
He returned to his arrid, cloudy world where he should have stayed in the first place.
The sea creatures are my only friends now.
The fish whisper to me songs of assurance, and the strange echo of the dolphins is my nighty lullaby.
The creatures of the deep know not how to lie.
Thats why i live my life in an ocean, so i can swim away from the soul- crushing thieves.
WHAT WAS AN ANGEL DOING IN AN OCEAN ANYWAYS ???