Not so standard Disclaimer or...the Darkscribes disclaimer

I do not own anything of eva or that of Gainax...or any of the other lil things I ste...borrow from

If you're reading this from anyplace other than DS or AH I say to you hunt down those vile thieving dogs and give them what for!! ...or tell me

hope ya like.

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Kaji: 'I'll get Katsuragi for making a fool out of me just watch' Sir.

Gendo: Yes

Kozo: We're kinda busy now Kaji.

Kaji: I know that sir but you need to be told of something

Gendo: What.

Kaji: Movies.

Kozo: Wow Kaji we never new people made movies, not get out.

Kaji: I mean about us, serious breach of security and of employee's

Gendo: Go on.

Kaji: They mainly involve your son and other female employee's and tell of what's going on, what they're not supposed to know.

Gendo: Are you saying they set my son up with the women of NERV?

Kaji smirks: Yes sir, some of them are even graphic in nature.

Kozo: Bout time.

Kaji: WHAT!

Gendo: Do you think that 75% of those hired by NERV are beutiful women by accident?

Kaji: I don't follow.

Gendo: I may seem like a bastard..mainly because after what I've done to my son I have no right to enter his life...messed it up enough, but we still need him.

Kozo: So he hired people that Shinji would either like or like him...kinda parenting from the side-lines...he is so much like his son it's kinda scary.

Kaji: Oh Kami-sama no...

Gendo: Is that tape you have their evidence?

Kaji: Yeah.

Kozo: Well I'm bored, put it in, lets see how your son is with the ladies.

Gendo: One day I'd like to just go up to him and say "Hey son, lets play catch." Just to see the look on his face.

Kozo: I bet he'd think it a trick and run.

Kaji: Or he'd have a heartattack and die on the spot 'puts tape in'

Gendo: What does this one feature?

Kaji: 'My God, the commander isn't a total bastard after all!' Don't really know.

Gendo: And Kaji, if you tell anybody what you have learned today, we will be forced to kill you.

Kozo: We can't have SEELE or anybody else knowing that Gendo here is really a 'good' guy, we need that aura of fear and dread to keep things working right.

Kaji: I am so screwed. 'hits play'

(MST starts, look for the >>>)

This is not a WAFF. I call it romance. A friend of mine called it dark. We agreed on calling it a dark romance ^_~

>>>Kozo: Kinda like you and Yui.

>>>Gendo: Only thing dark about that is what I did after the incident.

So read and enjoy.. but you were warned.

Obsession

Daddy!

Shinji turned his head to left and smiled warmly at his daughter, who was bouncing on the balls of her feet. Yes, Eve?

>>>Gendo: I'm a grandfather!

>>>Kozo: Eve, wonder if he’ll have a son named Adam!

She walked into his office with Asuka.

>>>Gendo: So the 2nd is the mother of my grandchild, I must give her a >>>raise.

>>>Kaji: Sir, this is only a movie.

I just saw grandpa in the Rasa Sector! She panted out. She was out of breath for a reason unknown to her father. She was also excited because she had been waiting for the commander for over an hour. Can I go and meet him down stairs?

>>>Kozo: He’s the commander now?

>>>Gendo: Following in my footsteps, how odd of him.

The young second commander shook his head no. You know not. She frowned then sighed out Why? as she slumped her shoulders. Because you know the rules. Shinji answered wrlhen returned his gaze to his work. I don’t want to risk something happening to you. You know that NERV is a dangerous place.

>>>Kaji: Thought the only thing dangerous about this place was the >>>personel?

>>>Kozo: Ask the former Doctor Akagi about that.

She sighed heavily. In her opinion, her dad was too over protective. I’m ten years old, dad! I’m hardly a baby. Anyway, I was born here... Shinji quickly raised his head and blinked. You’re ten already?

>>>Gendo: Wonder what he looked like at ten.

>>>Kozo: Maybe you shouldn’t have dumped him at your wife’s brothers >>>home.

>>>Kaji: And change diapers on that desk of yours.

Yep! She giggled, already forgetting their almost argument. He narrowed his eyes playfully as so did Asuka. She gave a sheepish blush as she looked back from her mama and her dad. Well almost.

>>>Gendo: Ah good the child is learning to lie at an early age.

>>>Kaji: Can never learn soon enough.

He shook his head. I can’t believe it. You’re already a preteen. He gave an awed looked at red haired woman. Asuka gave Shinji a loving smile. Eve giggled. Pretty soon I’m going to want to borrow your car. Shinji gave a warm smile, but no other response.

>>>Kozo: Can you drive?

>>>Gendo: Um..no, Yui did all the driving.

>>>Kozo: That’s why you sleep in the room next to you’re office.

Before Asuka could comment, the secretary announced on the speaker. Commander Ikari is here, sir.

Both Shinji and Asuka tensed up. The youngest Ikari zipped out the door and ran toward her grandfather.

>>>Kaji: Somethings up, he’s actually happy to see you.

>>>Gendo: How is this work of fiction a threat again?

Shinji slowly got up, walked around his large marble desk, and went to greet his father. Over the years, the two had developed a civil relationship. A close relationship would never be between them, but for Eve’s and for his wife, they pretended.

>>>Kozo: Better than the wanted desire to smash you flat.

>>>Gendo: Sometimes I think I’d be more worried about what Yui would >>>do to me than him.

Shinji walked outside his office door just in time to see his daughter jump into Gendo’s waiting arms. There was only a slight strain that showed on his father’s face, and Shinji wondered where his father got all the strength to carry the little girl all the time.

>>>Kaji: You work out sir?

>>>Gendo: No, had surgery, I have robotic arms.

>>>Kaji: WHAT!

>>>Kozo: You are way to tense Kaji, that was a joke.

Are we going to visit grandma! Eve squealed excitedly.

The commander nodded.

>>>Gendo: Grand…ma, YUI!

>>>Kaji : He’s…crying.

>>>Kozo: The thought of his wife being alive, you figure it out.

She raised her brow and pressed her forehead against his. Then we go and get my pony?!

Gendo’s chuckled softly and nodded. He rarely spoke, only when he deemed it necessary, and only to Eve when it wasn’t. She looked and acted so much like Yui.

>>>Gendo: Get my phone, I want grandchildren like that one now!

>>>Kaji: Well all the children and the major and doctor are at the Katsuragi

>>> apartment now.

>>>Gendo paled: With all the Mass Production Eva’s?

>>>Kozo: Rei has changed the dummy plug abit hasn’t she.

>>>Gendo: I think we should call them in later….

Shinji took a deep breath, shook his head no, and swallowed hard before he spoke. No Eve, you are not getting a pony. You don’t even take care of the turtle you *had* to have.

But... The little girl’s chin started to quiver.

>>>Gendo: Wonder how he would deal with explaining death to a child.

>>>Kozo: Blaim you most likely.

>>>Kaji: Or himself.

But nothing. Asuka said sternly. She was the one who took care of that stinky reptile, and she did not want to take care of a stinky horse as well.

Gendo glared at the woman and said in a voice that sounded like warmed over ice. *I* said she could have one.

>>>Kozo: Guess you don’t like the 2nd.

>>>Gendo: Do you, kids got one bad attitude.

>>>Kaji: Got that right.

Asuka snorted and looked away from her loving father.

After the commander’s words, there was a very tense silence. Dark blue eyes glared at tinted glasses until one looked away. It was Shinji who relented. It was always Shinji that relented.

>>>Gendo: I’m glad for that.

>>>Kozo: Have you ever considered contacts?

The boy now man turned away from his daughter and father, and walked back into his office. A low growl of Fine was all he said before he disappeared behind the closed door.

Eve bit her bottom lip. This was what happened almost every time she asked for something. Well, it happened every time she asked her Grandfather to get her something.

>>>Kaji: Guess you help make a happy family.

>>>Gendo: I will not tolerate insubordination.

>>>Kozo: But a pony?

 Unlike her father, he never said no to her. No matter what she was asking for. However, her requests would, for some reason, always anger her dad.

>>>Kozo: And Mrs. Ikari their didn’t seem to happy.

>>>Gendo: What do I really care, I have a nice grandauther and my boy actually talks to me.

That’s why she never let him know what she wanted. Mama said that grandpa didn’t do things for her dad when he was little, so he doesn’t want him to try and make penance by spoiling her. But Eve knew that her daddy’s dislike for her to have stuff stemmed from something deeper.

>>>Kaji: The fact he had jack and shit as a kid?

>>>Gendo: I have a trust fund for him

>>>Kozo: You spent that.

>>>Gendo: Still a little left, he never asked anyway.

>>>Kaji: He’s sooner eat his plug-suit than talk to you.

>>>Gendo: His loss.

 She just didn’t know what. It was almost like he didn’t want her to have anything, and if it wasn’t for her mama and granddad she wouldn’t .

Eve wiggled out of her grandfather’s grasp and guiltily looked up. I’ll be right back.. ok? She gave him a worried look.

Gendo took a deep breath as he stared into her violet eyes, then nodded.

>>>Kozo: Violet, what one of them has violet eyes?

>>>Gendo: Neither.

 He knew why she was afraid. She was afraid that she pushed her dad away.

Eve tip toed back into her fathers office. She saw him standing by and staring at the back wall with his hands clasped behind his back.

Daddy?

He didn’t turn toward her. I’m not upset. So do not worry yourself.

>>>Kaji: Sir, your son seems to have a stick wedged up his ass.

>>>Kozo: Who do you think put it there.

She swallowed hard. She could tell by her father’s tone that he was lying. I don’t need a pony. She reluctantly sighed.

Shinji chuckled softly. His daughter sounded like that statement was worse than pulling teeth.

>>>Kaji: What is it with little girls and ponies?

>>>Gendo: Rei demanded 2 of them.

>>>Kozo: We still have the NERV stables out in Kyoto he he.

He gave one last glance at the hidden crack in the wall before he turned toward his little girl.

>>>Kozo: He has you’re office.

>>>Gendo: The secret room.. this isn’t good.

>>>Kaji: Huh?

 He opened up his arms and she ran into his waiting embrace.

She cried out as she ran to him. I’m sorry, daddy!

Shinji looked down at his daughter as she sought comfort and forgiveness in his strong arms. Shh... there’s nothing to be sorry about.

>>>Gendo: Save biblical destruction and death.

She rubbed her tears away on his shirt then looked up at him. Behind his glasses, she couldn’t see his eyes, but she could tell by the way his lips were pressed in a melancholy frown that she did something which made him sad.

>>>Kaji: What doesn’t make that boy sad.

>>>Gendo: Kozo, you know what, I could get to like this movie concept. maybe we should fund a few of them.

His heart clenched when she wiped away her tears like that. It reminded him of how his love does it....did it.

>>>Kaji: Um..did it?

>>>Gendo: I think we’re about to find out what the director ment by DARK.

Shinji brushed the rest of her tears away and whispered with forced love. I don’t mind if you have a pony...I-I’m sorry I got upset.

It’s because of mother, huh? The little girl frowned a bit.

>>>Kaji: Asuka..anybody that asks him something he’ll do it.

>>>Kozo: You know that from expecience.

>>>Gendo: Why is he SO weak.

Shinji didn’t respond right off. He hated when Eve called his wife ‘mother.’ She blamed her mother making him sad all the time. She blamed her for....

>>>Kozo: Remind me what colors on the color wheel make violet.

>>>Kaji: Red and blue I think.

>>>Gendo: Well.. she has always kinda liked the boy.

>>>Kaji: You mean..Rei..but isn’t she?

>>>Gendo: She’s as closely related to him as you are, I don’t rember Yui having red eyes and blue hear. Do you sensei?

>>>Kozo: Don’t call me that, and no.

The commander is waiting. Informed the secretary's voice over the intercom.

The little girl stiffened and gave an expectant look up at her dad.

Go.. He commanded. Have fun.

The little girl nodded and ran toward the door.

Shinji pressed his lips in a thin line as he watched the girl leave. He slowly shook his head. Ten years.

>>>Kaji: He aged well.

>>>Gendo: Why didn’t I, I looked eighty!

>>>Kozo: I bet I’m dead.

Ten long years.

Shinji had feigned surprise, but he knew how long it had been since Eve’s birthday. Not only did he know exactly how many years it had been, he knew how many days it had been. He knew how many hours it had been, and if he would glance at his watch, he would know how many seconds had passed as well. He knew_ all_ to _well.

>>>Kozo: Guess he didn’t want kids either.

>>>Gendo: She said she was on the PILL!

With an irritated breath, he returned his gaze to the back wall. He walked to it slowly, then pressed a code that revealed a hidden door. He was so focused on going into that hidden room that didn’t notice when Asuka slipped into to his office.

>>>Gendo: That’s why doors have locks.

>>>Kaji: Sir, what is this about a secret room?

>>>Kozo: Nothing important.

Her jaw fell slightly ajar as the door started to close behind him. Quickly, she padded across the room and stopped the door before it closed completely. Through a tiny crack, she quizzically watched her truest love.

>>>Kaji: When did that happen?

>>>Gendo: When she met him, her selection wasn’t based on skill alone.

>>>Kaji: And the others?

>>>Kozo: Take a guess.

>>>Kaji: I never had a chance.

~~~

Shinji walked deeper into the room. The small space was illuminated only by a faint orange glow. The glow came from a large cylinder tube type tank.

>>>Kozo: Guess the dummy plug still works.

Gomen, my love... The 2nd commander whispered lovingly. I’m sorry that I did not visit you yesterday. He rested his palm against the cool, curved glass. I had pressing business to attend to....I think I may have found away to bring you back to me...

>>>Kozo: I’d say he is more like you than before.

>>>Gendo: Nothing escapes the clutches of the Ikari’s.

>>>Kozo: Rember when Yui went into the sewer for that 10yen coin.

>>>Gendo: Took her 2 hours to get it back.

Sleeping crimson eyes snapped open to the familiar voice and a warm smile that mirrored the face that was gazing lovingly at her, graced her angelic lips. Rei floated down to be at eye level with him and gently placed her hand on the glass, against his.

>>>Kaji: So..Rei lives in the tube?

>>>Gendo: Guess so she never really liked it before but who knows.

 She tilted her head to the side and smiled until her eyes became rainbow shapes.

In awe, Shinji took off his tinted glasses and gazed at his one and only love. She was so beautiful. Rei looked even more lovely than the day she...

>>>Gendo: We’ll that’s new, when did she learn to do that?

>>>Kozo: How did the director know about this stuff?

He shook that memory out of his thoughts. He was not going to let it ruin this. The former 3rd child started to take off his clothes. Then quickly turned his gaze away when she started to mimic his actions.

>>>Gendo: Graphic is right, I don’t think I want to see my son do THAT.

>>>Kozo: Kaji, what else have you seen in these things?

>>>Kaji: To much to recall.

 It hurt so much to be slapped with the reality that her loving smiles and gestures were mere mimics of his own. He shook that thought out of his head.... for he couldn’t bare to except that harsh reality.

>>>Kozo: Another Ikari trait, not excepting reality.

>>>Gendo: There is to a tooth fairy.

>>>Kozo: Now there is after you made one.

>>>Kaji: ‘Those two are idiots!’

Once he was undressed, he took a quick shower in disinfectant.

Shinji knew that he should stop coming to her. To stop talking to her He knew that he should...let... her body die... but.. he couldn’t. He couldn’t find it in himself to let go. To let *her* go. Not in life, and not in death.

>>>Gendo: My son needs psyciatric help.

>>>Kozo: I rember somebody with a container of LCL he used to sleep with.

>>>Kaji: Sir, maybe you should have a check up.

 She was his reason to wake up every morning. Rei was his reason why he kept living. He wanted to be with her again, and he knew that if he took his own life that they would be eternally separated, for he would be punished.

>>>Gendo: Um..why? we don’t believe in the catholic traditions.

>>>Kaji: Maybe he took them up?

<if I would have known that Eve‘s birth would make you like this...>

>>>Gendo: Ah, so the child is Rei’s, makes a bit of sense.

>>>Kaji: Then why is he married to Asuka?

>>>Gendo: How would I know?

He blinked his tears and that thought away as well. He knew that he shouldn’t think like that anymore. He knew exactly what he would have done if he knew. It was wrong to even think about it... Since, he could not change the past... no matter how much he already tried or how much he was secretly still trying.

>>>Kaji: If he could do that, why not stop 2nd impact?

>>>Kozo: What would be the fun in that?

Doused in the disinfectant, then in distilled water,

>>>Kozo: He’s a mixed drink now.

>>>Gendo: A very poor tasting one.

 Shinji walked up the ladder that led to the top of the tank. He opened it up and slowly lowered himself in. He didn’t want to hurt Rei by bumping into her.

>>>Kaji: Then why is he getting inside in the first place?

>>>Kozo: That boy seems disturbed.

The blue haired angel looked up at him in wonder, of what he was doing. It was the same innocent expression she always gave him every time he came to her in this fashion. And he came often, almost everyday.

>>>Gendo: Is that a pun?

>>>Kozo: Dear Kami-sama I hope not.

Shinji allowed his lungs to be filled with LCL and he floated down to his wife. I love you. He soulfully assured as he embraced her.

>>>Kaji: Two wives?

>>>Gendo: Why not, kid may die any day now, live it up.

>>>Kozo: But you wouldn’t

>>>Gendo: The day I die is the day the world ends.

No words, but her mouth mimicked the words back to him as she gently wrapped her arms around him.

>>>Gendo: So Rei is now a mirror?

>>>Kozo: Wonder what happened to the others.

Shinji ran his fingers through her silky blue locks, tilted her head to the side and kissed her soft lips.

>>>Gendo: Remind me to make a few back-ups and..increase security on all >>>of those kids.

~~~~

Asuka felt her stomach turn. She couldn’t believe that he... that he... that *she*... that Rei was.... wasn‘t....

>>>Kozo: Now that’s a sight, Asuka at a loss for words.

>>>Gendo does his typical smirk: Interesting.

 The second child fought off the urge to vomit... to scream , to cry, to... confront him!! The sight before her was the absolute most disgusting thing she had ever seen in her life. REI WAS DEAD!!!!

>>>Kaji: She seemed…kinda alive..so only part necrophilia?

>>>Kozo: If I hadn’t seen much worse, I’d be just as sick as she is.

She died during childbirth and there was Shinji, kissing and ... lustfully embracing his dead wife! Asuka couldn’t believe it... Somehow he had managed to preserve Rei’s body after all these years.

>>>Gendo: Be surprised what a tank and DNA can do, a lot of peoples DNA and angel DNA to be exact.

>>>Kozo: You do know you’re still a sick man.

>>>Gendo: Only partly.

Asuka wanted to storm in there. To stop what was going on, but her body wouldn’t comply and unfortunately, she could tell by the way Shinji counteracted Rei’s mimicking gestures that this was not the first time he had come to her.

>>>Kaji: I bet she flips out.

>>>Gendo: I’ll need a new son.

She could tell that this was not the first time he was going to .. make.. love...

The red headed woman shook her head savagely. She was NOT seeing this!!!

>>>Kozo: Delussional now.

>>>Kaji: Don’t blaim her.

Rei was DEAD!! The former second child had gone to Rei’s funeral *and* cremation. For ten years, she has been taking care of Rei’s daughter as her own!

>>>Gendo: I thought the 2nd dispised children.

>>>Kozo: People change I suppose.

Inwardly, she bitterly laughed. Eve looked like an identical copy of the late first child. The only difference being the child’s light brown hair, brilliant violet eyes and her bubbly nature.

>>>Gendo: So…she’s exactly like my wife.

>>>Kozo: Late-wife.

>>>Gendo: You know she’s in Unit-01.

>>>Kaji: If Shinji found out, bet he’d bring mothers day cards in the plug >>>with him

But everything else was the same. Asuka would be lying if she said that she didn’t hate the child’s face. For it was the face that Shinji worshiped like a goddess and his father as well.

>>>Kaji: But he won’t get her anything….

>>>Kozo: What can you expect when he had such a shitty father.

>>>Gendo: I’ll remind you I am your commander.

>>>Kozo: So?

She fought a good fight to keep him though, but in the end... she lost. Asuka refused to go to their wedding, or even speak to them after the first 4 years of their marriage. It wasn’t until Rei got pregnant did she talk to either one of them again.

>>>Gendo: Took him four years to get a child?

>>>Kaji: He is skittish when it comes to the act of creating a child, and >>>that’s actually a good thing.

>>>Kozo: Really?

>>>Kaji: He’s have at least 3-4 by now if he didn’t.

>>>Gendo: Maybe I should have hired more men.

 However, she only talked to Rei once. And that one time, it was the blue haired angel who initiated it. What Rei told her chilled her to her soul. She was told to

Take care of Shinji when I am gone.

>>>Kozo: Should have said to ‘flush’ the toilet too.

>>>Gendo: That is a poor statement.

When Rei died, Asuka knew that the first child was already aware that by having a child, it would cause her own death. It wasn’t a natural birth in the least. Rei was never supposed to have children, Shinji knew that when he married her, but after all his friends started having kids, he started wanting one of his own. He didn’t cheat on Rei, or even threaten to leave

>>>Kaji: No shit Sherlock, if he loved her why would he?

>>>Gendo: There are adoption agencies.

>>>Kaji: To bad he didn’t think.

, instead he asked her to have a child by way of the A.E.

It wasn’t until after Eve’s birth and Rei’s death did Asuka find out who Rei was... what she was. She took the news hard, for she couldn’t believe that Shinji would actually chose to be with her blue haired rival, knowing that he was related to her!

>>>Gendo: Maybe because he’s not.

>>>Kozo: One or two genetic similarities scares people?

>>>Gendo: Hell with those people, Rei’s not my wife, if she was I’d freak >>>out, all weird, just keeps asking about Shinji…

Asuka didn’t know the whole story, but Misato told her that Rei got upset when Shinji suggested cloning a child. The only time in their entire marriage did Rei get upset with Shinji. She *yelled* at him for trying to play God.

>>>Kozo: that’s rich!

>>>Gendo: Play God…hmm..where have we heard and seen that before.

>>>Kozo looks around the room: I have no idea.

 She rejected his desire and told him that just because his father was able to clone her, that doesn’t mean that it was right. Or even that it would work. But in the end, she relented and they cloned Eve into life. Rei even allowed him to convince her to have a uterus created and implanted in her body and have a natural childbirth.

>>>Kaji: Boy makes a lot of demands in this movie.

>>>Kozo: How unlike him.

>>>Kaji: It be more likely Rei asked if she could.

>>>Gendo: She just played house so damn much as a kid!!!

Like the late first child predicted, Eve was still born.

>>>Kaji: Thats a good thing right?

>>>Kozo: No, that means the baby is dead.

>>>Kaji: No she said it was 'still born' that means she had it.

>>>Gendo: Read a text book for a change.

She was not dead, just still. The child had no soul. Man could play God and create a body, but man was not God, for he could not make a soul.

>>>Kozo: Philosophers would have a field day with that question.

>>>Gendo: Do all of them even believe in souls?

 The child was dead but the angelic side of her, allowed her body to remain alive as long as she was in LCL. Rei knew this would happen. That’s why she gave birth in a tank of LCL.

>>>Kaji: Keep the cleaning to a minimum.

Shinji cried out to the heavens as he cradled his still born, baby girl in his arms.

>>>Gendo: Is their an LCL tank large enough for him to do that?

>>>Kozo: Just the main one.

>>>Kaji: Wonder how the other Rei's reacted.

His sorrow helped Rei make her decision. She knew how much he wanted this child. So she prayed, and traded her soul, for a soul for her child.

When the child started to cry with life, Shinji loving gazed at his wife, then started to cry again.

>>>Gendo: He flips emotions so quickly.

>>>Kozo: Yeah, guess he takes after Yui, you just have regret and anger.

>>>Gendo: Tis true.

This time with even more fervor. This was not what he wanted!! He would have never asked for a child, if he knew that it was going to take the life of his beloved wife!!

>>>Kaji: Guess he wasn't paying attention to her then.

>>>Kozo: Heaven knows she all but said straight out that would happen.

 He cried out to God to bring Rei back. To bring her back to him and take back the soul of the child.... but it was too late.

>>>Kaji: Remind you of anybody?

>>>Gendo: I thought if he went in she'd come back out...damn Katsuragi for brining him back instead.

Rei denied him nothing.. even if it meant her own life. It was his fault...He gazed at his crying child and narrowed his eyes viciously. No.... it was Eve’s fault!

>>>Kaji: And the blaim game begins.

>>>Gendo: Its never 'his' fault is it.

 She took his beloved wife away from him because her life was the reason for Rei’s death.

That’s when Shinji changed. His heart became as cold as ice; even more so than his fathers.

>>>Gendo: I don't believe that!

>>>Kozo: Agreed, nobody is colder than you, need to raise the heat of whatever room you're in.

He hid his sorrow behind tinted glasses and became a slave to his job. He searched for a way to bring Rei back, even if it would cause the 4th impact.

>>>Kaji: 4th?

>>>Gendo: Fire up the Eva's get Eve a plug suit were going into double

>>>overtime.

He didn’t care. He only cared about Rei and reuniting with her again. Shinji’s whole house turned into a shrine to his dead wife. Everything in his place remained in the exact same place as it was on the day of her death. EVERYTHING in there IS the SAME place!!

>>>Gendo: Who would do such a silly thing..yeah..yeah..

>>>Kozo: And thats not Yui's coffee cup sitting on the table..the same place >>>it was 14 years ago.

>>>Gendo: NO! its...my extra.

That was also when Asuka decided to take care of Eve. Shinji had, at first, hated Eve with a sadistic passion

>>>Gendo: And why shouldn't he?

>>>Kaji: Maybe because he asked for a child?

 and Asuka was certain that he probably would have allowed the child to die by neglect. Until *now*, she couldn’t believe or understand how Shinji could turn his back on his own child.

>>>Kozo: How could anybody due such a terrible thing, ne Gendo?

>>>Gendo: Sometimes you really piss me off.

 He used to be so adamant that he wasn’t going to be like his father, but when he was given with the same cards of fate that his father was dealt.... he actually turned into something worse then Gendo ever could be.

>>>Gendo: They just don't know the extent of my bastardness.

>>>Kaji: Could anybody?

>>>Gendo: Sensei here.

>>>Kozo: He really is an odd man, total bastard on one side, big coward on >>>the other.

It took 2 years after Rei died, did he relent into having a funeral for her. It was forced on him by his father. It was on that same day they finally held a funeral for his mother as well. Both of the Ikari men were forced to come to terms with the death of their wives. But did they?

>>>Gendo: I'd sooner eat the LCL that she turned into!

>>>Kozo: That why you kept all the scrap from the armour casing to Unit-O1

Asuka now doubted it. Gendo may have stopped wearing his tinted glasses,

>>>Kaji: Ew...you can actually see your eyes...so empty.

>>>Gendo: I have a medical condition.

but Unit 01 was the only Eva that was kept in perfect condition and now.. Shinji...

The former second child looked away when the 2nd commander started to make love to the body of his wife deceased wife and spoke a loving mantra of I love you...I will always love you...

>>>Kaji: Beats "I will not run away"

>>>Kozo: Your son appears just as sick as you in this.

>>>Gendo: Guess I taught him well.

>>>Kaji: No...this is just a warped reality.

They’re crazy...both of them.. She stifled back a sob and slowly left to room. What could she do? Even if she confronted him, she doubted it would stop him from worshiping Rei... or... going to Rei to claim her dead body.

>>>Kozo: Is she still a tax right off?

>>>Gendo: Nerv needs to save money somehow.

In a daze, Asuka walked to her own office, locked the door behind her, and silently wept. She cried because she knew that for over 15 years she had wasted her time on him.

>>>Kozo: Well were all just wasting time till we die anyway.

>>>Kaji: You sure are a downer.

She allowed herself to fall into the same damn hole Ritsuko was in. She raised Eve because she hoped that by doing so, Shinji would eventually see her as the child saw her. The perfect mother and a good wife.

>>>Kaji: A...perfect..mother..guess age hasn't altered her self-esteem.

>>>Kozo: Or over self approval.

>>>Gendo: Pilot Sohryu...Dr. Akagi...maybe.

 She *thought* Shinji was finally coming around. He was nicer to Eve.... even nicer to her. He didn’t even protest to the little girl calling her mama anymore. Well not verbally, his teeth did clench every time he heard it, but he no longer voiced his displeasure.

>>>Kaji: He just looks like he's chewing glass.

Mostly because it was Eve’s choice to address her like that. Asuka smiled slightly at that thought. She raised Rei’s child like her own daughter. She loved Eve like her own daughter.

>>>Kaji: Well she never will allow herself to have a kid.

>>>Gendo: So she is living vicariously through her half-husbands child?

>>>Kozo: Appears so.

She had to. Shinji *was* worse than his father. He was so bad that even Gendo had to stepped up and finally become a father figure to someone.

>>>Kozo: If your son saw this he'd weep.

>>>Kaji: Not a father to him but his kid..bet he'd through himself in traffic.

But why did she waist so many years on such a weak little boy? Maybe because he wasn’t that weak little boy anymore. Rei’s love had change him for the better made him confident and happy. Her death changed him for the worst.

>>>Kaji: Love sucks if you look at all the bad stuff.

>>>Gendo: Thats why I just look at women like objects now.

>>>Kozo: And that also explains why everybody hates you.

But it was his cool stoic nature that Asuka now found so attractive. He was cold, and he carried himself like a controlled ticking time bomb. Bottled fury always rang in his voice, and complete self confidence was always in his movements. He was in short... a bastard.

>>>Kozo: He is his fathers son.

>>>Gendo: I would have done it better.

>>>Kaji: More clones?

>>>Gendo: Maybe in 15 years they could make exact clones..and not what we have now.

>>>Kaji: Bet Shinji'd be glad for the lack of tech. he's not dating his mother..

Asuka covered her face with her hands and cried. She had no idea how long. Hours most likely, because Eve came bursting through her door.

Mama...? The little girl gently put her hand on the woman’s shoulder. What’s wrong?

>>>Kaji: Her husband is a necrophiliac.

>>>Kozo: He's like his father now?

>>>Gendo:He has children.

Asuka quickly wiped away her tears and sniffed out. Nothing baby... She looked around the small office and asked. How did you get in?

>>>Kozo: Guess the 2nd doesn't realize her office has a door.

>>>Gendo: Or how to lock them.

The little brown haired girl pointed at the door. There stood Shinji, tall, proud, and cruel, with nothing about him looking out of the ordinary except his neatly combed damp hair.

>>>Gendo: I'd have had my hair dried.

>>>Kozo: The perfect cover-up.

He stared at her with an impassive glare.

Asuka quickly turned her face away from him. She didn’t know if she could look at him without disgust, but she wasn’t sure if she was disgusted because of what she saw him doing or because she could tell that he didn’t care about whatever was bothering her.

>>>Kaji: Its a talent I learned too, she gets bothered over everything!

>>>Kozo: Example.

>>>Kaji: She complained that her boat cabin's window had to face the sun.

I got a white pony! The girl squealed.

Asuka looked up at the child and smiled warmly. That’s very nice. Did you tell your grandfather thank you?

>>>Kozo: Ponies...what would you do with it?

>>>Gendo: Train it to hunt smaller animals.

>>>Kaji: Well that takes care of feedings.

Eve nodded with child like enthusiasm. I’ve named her snowball

>>>Kaji: I wonder if...

>>>Gendo/Kozo: WE don't care much for that knowledge.

 because granddad said that’s what she reminds him of snow. Granddad said that some parts of the world still has snow! And one day when I get a little older, he’s was going to take me to see it! Just me and him!

>>>Kozo: You're going to sell her into the white slave trade.

>>>Gendo: How else will I pay for a horse without embessling from NERV.

As the child rambled on, Asuka maintained a forced warm smile. Eve was so happy, she didn’t want to change that. However, inwardly her stomach was turning to ice. As the years went on, the 1st commander was making himself more and more apart of Eve’s life.

>>>Kaji: Why sir?

>>>Gendo: If I get to the kid, I get to the parents of course.

 At first, it amazed her how nice the commander was to her rivals child, but now she knew the reason. It was because Eve reminded him of Yui.

>>>Gendo: You know...

>>>Kaji: I doubt they'd have a child to make you happy sir.

>>>Kozo: And pregnant pilots will be a problem.

 Eve looked more like Yui than Rei, and for that reason Asuka would extensively question the child, in private, every time Gendo took Eve out alone. She wanted to make sure that Gendo never forgot that Eve is his *grandchild* and not his late wife.

>>>Gendo: Why does everybody think I'm a petophile?

>>>Kozo: Because you spend so much time with pilot Ayanami.

>>>Gendo: Not by choice anymore...since my son got here..

>>>Kaji: Well you said thats part of the selection process.

 She wanted to make sure that Gendo never did to Eve what he would do to Rei.

In truth, Asuka wanted to limit Gendo’s visits with Eve, but she knew that she had no right to do so. She only had the right of a mother.

>>>Kozo: And a mother can't really keep her child safe from perverts can >>>she.

>>>Gendo: Ap-parently not..he he he.

>>>Kaji: That was not funny sir.

 But she wasn’t Eve’s legal mother. Moreover, she knew that if it was even rumored that she desired to keep Gendo away, the 1st commander would take Eve away from her completely, and Shinji wouldn’t care. He didn’t care who Eve lived with, as long as it wasn’t him.

>>>Kaji: You put alot of fear into that boy about children.

>>>Gendo: Do you think children are NICE, crying, crapping..you name it!

 So Asuka kept her mouth shut. She had to, because other than her, no one would be there to protect the little girl if the commander ever tried to.....

>>>Kaji: Ew...

Asuka shook that thought out of her head. There was no evidence to prove her suspicions about the commander’s motives.

>>>Kozo: Never is, until you act.

>>>Gendo: Stealth is a good thing.

Shinji quickly grew tired of his child’s seemingly endless banter. Behind his tinted glass, he rolled his eyes, then turned on his heals to leave.

Eve didn’t notice her father‘s departure.

>>>Gendo: Put the mute on that kid has a REALLY high pitched voice.

>>>Kaji: No, its funny to see you putting your fingers in your ears.

>>>Kozo: I agree.

 This was what he usually did after someone would bring her to him. He told her that he was a very busy man and he didn’t have the time to have his work disturbed. So almost immediately after she was brought to him, he would take her to her mama.

>>>Kaji: Ditch ditch ditch.

>>>Kozo: So THATS why you visited me so often when he was young!

Asuka looked away from her child, and toward the girl’s father as he fluidly walked away from her office. Her heart broke to see him leave. She loved him so much, she wished that he would return just some of it.

>>>Kozo: Dr. Akagi used to be like that...but lately.

>>>Gendo: Odd...wonder why.

>>>Kaji: 'I should tell them..but I'll save that till the end.'

She wished that he would_ let_ Rei_ go...

Before she could stop herself she called out. Shinji!

The 2nd commander stopped, not facing her.

Asuka bit her bottom lip. She wasn’t sure why she called him,

>>>Kaji: The demons made her do it?

>>>Gendo: Get the exsorsism kit.

 she only knew that she didn’t want him to leave. Even after she witnessed him making love to Rei’s dead body,

>>>Kozo: Didn't really look dead...just divode of a soul.

>>>Gendo: I see no difference, picture the late dr. Akagi.

>>>Kaji: You two are sick.

 she didn’t want him to leave. I-I wanted to know if you wanted to come to our house for dinner? <please say yes>

Eve’s eyes widened hopefully. Her father never spent time with them outside of NERV.

A simple No was his answer before he continued to walk away from them.

>>>Kaji: Way to break a daughters heart.

>>>Kozo: And a wife..wait, he doesn't live with his wife?

>>>Kaji: I feel this isn't something people should see.

*********************

3 months later

Shinji walked into his secret room. For the first time in 10 years, he was actually happy.

>>>Kaji: So...when he's...he's not happy?

>>>Gendo: Looked happy at the time.

>>>Kozo: I think we're missing something important.

My love!

Rei’s crimson eyes snapped open once she heard the familiar voice, and she mirrored his extreme happiness in her smiles.

>>>Gendo: To..happy...face..'shielding his eyes.'

>>>Kozo: That kid just doesn't look right being happy.

>>>Kaji: Either of them.

Her gentle smile made him happier. He quickly shed his clothes and rushed to the shower.

The angel pressed her hands and forehead against the curve glass as she curiously watched him disinfect his body.

>>>Kaji: Um...thought she could only mirror his actions.

>>>Kozo: That would make a few things difficult to do..and he look way past

>>>eager.

>>>Gendo: 'shutting his eyes' I feel sick seeing my son like that.

Shinji was excited as he watched her watch him. She looked so angelically beautiful and perfect. Her body was still youthful and perfectly crafted. One wouldn’t even be able to tell that she had a child or was even old enough to have a 10 year old child.

>>>Kaji: Being dead helps with that.

>>>Kozo: And being stuck in a tube filled with angel blood.

 Though her body was alive, it stopped aging the day she died.

>>>Gendo/Kozo/Kaji: NO!

After he finished with his shower, Shinji sprinted up the steps, only stumbling twice, and quickly yet carefully lowered himself into the tank.

Rei watched him and embraced him as he embraced her.

>>>Kaji: And this doesn't freak him out?

>>>Kozo: I am 'freaked' out.

Shinji gave her an intense open mouth kiss then pulled back so he could see her face. I found a way to bring you back to me! He ignored her mimicking oral gestures and continued.

>>>Gendo: I wonder how he did that.

>>>Kozo: No, you can't get Yui like that.

>>>Gendo: Damn.

This was going to be the last time she did such things. After so many years of searching, delving in black magic and Holy Scriptures, and failed attempts to summon her soul,

>>>Gendo: Black magic..never thought about that.

>>>Kozo: Maybe because its stupid?

>>>Kaji: Probly some book he bought at that Barns&Noble place.

he finally found what he was searching for. He finally found a way to bring her back.

Your soul... He happily and lightly kissed her lips. You traded it... but I found away to bring you back!!

>>>Kaji: And all it will cost is HIS soul, what a deal.

>>>Kozo: She dies..then he dies getting her back..then she dies getting him >>>back..and so on for all eternity.

>>>Gendo: Nerv has a future after all.

He kissed her again then pulled back and smiled at her lovely face.

Rei smiled happily even though she had no rational thought to decipher what he was telling to her.

>>>Kozo: Or thought at all.

Soon my love... We will be together again.... Shinji breathed out through the LCL right before he passionately kissed her and wrapped her slender legs around his waist.

>>>Kozo: Well at least we don't have to watch "that."

>>>Gendo: I don't think even I could stomach that.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hours later, but only a few minutes after Shinji left his secret room, did his secretary announce. Dr. Sohryu is waiting to see you sir.

>>>Kaji: So...she finally took Akagi's place.

>>>Kozo: No, her mother didn't have sex with Shinji, she can only be a close

>>> parody.

Shinji smirked as he took his seat in his oversized chair. Send her in.

A few moments later, Asuka walked into his office. You wanted to see me?

>>>Kaji: No, she just set up an apointment to skip out on it.

Her hope was clearly audible. She hoped that he*wanted * to see her.

Shinji noticed her tone but chose to ignore it. Actually, I wanted to see Eve. It is 1600 hours. I thought she would be with you.

>>>Kozo: If he puts her in Unit-00 and tries to...

>>>Gendo: You know that didn't work...damn Katsuragi.

Although heart broken, she hid it well. Eve is with your father.

Ahh... The man pressed his lips together and shook his head knowingly. They are often together. After his words, he visually ignored her presence and returned to his work You are dismissed, Doctor. .

>>>Gendo: Get out.

>>>Kozo: Thats about the same thing as what he said.

She didn’t leave right off. Instead she asked him a question. Shinji... don’t you think it is odd that your father spends so much time with Eve?

Without looking up, the 2nd commander smirked darkly and innocently suggested. Maybe she reminds him of someone.

>>>Kaji: And this whole thing reminds me of something.

>>>Gendo: I am what...50, 60 in this?

>>>Kozo: And you like the lil girls.

<why you son of a b*tch!> Asuka narrowed her eyes and yelled. You knew didn’t you?!.. You knew that he sees your mother in Eve!!

>>>Kozo: How would he know, Shinji probly can't rember Yui.

>>>Gendo: Thats his own problem.

Shinji knew what she was insinuating. He shifted and innocent gaze to her. You’re over reacting.

Like hell I am! Asuka spat out in pure disgust then continued in a tone that was laced with a sick satisfaction. Ritsuko told me about him! About him and *Rei*! And how he would have *sex* with her and pretend she was Yui!

>>>Gendo: Thats news to me.

>>>Kozo: You..don't do you..I'd have to have you arrested.

>>>Gendo: I have the doctor for that sort of thing...

>>>Kaji: Not anymore you don't.

>>>Gendo: What!?!

Enough! Shinji roared through grit and slammed his palms against his marble desk top. With inhuman speed,

>>>Gendo: He took Adam from me?

>>>Kaji: No, you still have both hands.

he stood up and closed the distance between the two and grabbed her by her throat.

Asuka eyes widened in shock. She never knew he could move so quickly. She put a desperate clasp on her loves hand as she tried to pry it loose.

>>>Kozo: Now who's the obsessed one?

>>>Kaji: I think both of them are.

Shinji put more pressure on his grasp and growled. I *never* want to hear you say that again!

The woman choked out Its...true... and... you know it...

>>>Gendo: Now I feel ill.

>>>Kozo: Told you their were rumors about that.

>>>Kaji: Yeah..wonder how they got started too..

>>>Kozo: No, I didn't do it in the hope Gendo would get fired and I'd get the >>>possition and get to have Yui for myself....oops..

>>>Gendo: We'll talk later.

Shinji tightened his grip. I said _SHUT_ UP!!

Her knees started to feel weak, and the outer part of her vision grayed, but she continued. You’re going....to let... She winced when he tightened his grip once again. She could tell that he was going to kill her, but still he continued. What...about.. Eve?

>>>Kaji: Does she have to ask?

What about her? Was Shinji’s cruel response.

His callous words infuriated the former pilot. With the last of her strength, she kneed him in the groin. Hard.

>>>Gendo: Thats why 'I' where a cup to work.

>>>Kozo: Not that first week.

>>>Gendo: Don't remind me.

Groaning in pain, the 2nd commander slumped to the ground. Asuka fell to the floor with him but quickly scrambled to her feet.

She rubbed and soothed her bruised neck and yelled. You don’t even care!! He could be f*cking molesting her, and you don’t even care!!

>>>Gendo: Does everybody see me as a child molester?

>>>Kozo: Its not my fault about that web-site.

>>>Kaji: Do you two even like each other?

Shinji curled up in a ball as saliva tricked out of his mouth. He was in so_ much_ pain. He had forgotten how strong his former roommate was. He forgot how much pain she could cause him.

>>>Kaji: Not an easy thing to forget.

>>>Kozo: I find it hard for him to forget, we have video tape servalence and..

Yaro! In anger, Asuka kicked him then she kicked him again and again. You don’t deserve to be her father!! You don’t deserve her love! She kicked again, then said something she knew would hurt him Rei would hate you if she knew how you treated Eve!

>>>Kozo: She knows how to use pressure points well.

>>>Gendo: Does have a point.

More than the blows to his body, Asuka’s declaration about his beloved wife hurt him.

Rei gave up her life so YOU could have a child!! She kicked him again.

Shinji stopped trying to protect his body, and used his hands to cover his ears. He didn’t want to hear the truth that she was telling him.

>>>Gendo: Run...run..run..doesn't he get tired of that?

The former second child scowled and bent down and pried his hands off the sides of his face and yelled. YOU’RE the one who KILLED Rei not EVE!! YOU!!!!

>>>Kozo: If that was you, she'd be dead by now.

>>>Gendo: Nobody makes me feel guilty about my stupidity and lives.

The 2nd commander started to whimper and cry as he shook his head no and tried to hide his face.

But yet,.. you blame your child!! She grabbed his hair and made him face her. Eve didn’t ask to be born, Shinji!!! She didn’t ask for Rei to die!

>>>Kaji: Never know..maybe she did.

>>>Kozo: Now that would be odd.

>>>Gendo: Would explain her childhood drawings about skeletons.

 Rage consumed her insides when she felt his damp hair, for she knew exactly why it was so. She’s DEAD, Shinji!!! Rei’s DEAD!! You’ve got to let her go!!

>>>Kaji: With that mirror action she needs to let go too.

>>>Kozo: Don't remind me.

NEVER!! He hit her hands away and started to scramble to his feet.

He didn’t get far because Asuka knocked him back down and straddled his waist. She’s DEAD, Shinji, but Eve’s alive! She grabbed the sides of his face and kissed him. When she pulled back to stare into his shocked face, she breathed out.

>>>Gendo: That shut him up.

>>>Kaji: She always has to have some interior motive.

 And I’m alive!! And I love you! I’ve always loved you!

When she tried to kiss him again, Shinji pushed her off of him, quickly got to his feet, and yelled. I’m married, Asuka!! You know that!

>>>Kaji: To her.

>>>Kozo: And a dead woman.

Asuka shook her head no, making her hair fan around her face. She’s dead! You‘re not married anymore! Then shrilled. You need to let go!

>>>Gendo: Just say hows your mother to her and see who needs to "let go".

Shinji savagely wiped his mouth and his tears away, then spat out cruelly. I wouldn’t expect *you* to understand...You have no idea what it means to love someone! You couldn’t possibly understand what it means to love someone so much you can feel them in your blood!!

>>>Kaji: Inject LCL?

>>>Kozo: He only did it once..got really sick too.

 You don‘t understand...

From her sitting position she glared up at him and interrupted. Understand what?!! Your need to f*ck a corpse?!!

>>>Kaji: You knew she couldn't keep it a secret for long.

>>>Gendo: Ah, the stupidity of youth.

She slapped her hands over her mouth. She didn’t mean to let him know that she knew.

Only a flash of surprise graced his face before he composed himself and cruelly smirked. So that’s what this is about. He laughed mockingly. You’re jealous...

>>>Kaji: He should know that by saying that he just sealed his own grave.

>>>Gendo: Why hasn't the secrurity system killed her by now?

The woman scrambled to her feet, closed the distance between them and tried to slap him. Shinji caught her wrist and glared daggers at her. Futilely, she tried to break his grasp as she yelled.

I don’t understand?!! YOU don‘t understand!... You don‘t understand that I *do* love you! For over fifteen years, I‘ve loved and lived for you.... That everything I do.. I do for you.

>>>Kaji: Sounds like a very old song.

>>>Kozo: 15 years of labors of love.

>>>Gendo: She really has no life.

 *You* don’t understand that I would do anything for you...If you would only give me the chance...

>>>Gendo: Thought that be the first thing he did.

>>>Kozo: He's not you.

Shinji‘s eyes widened, and he pointed to himself. You ...you love me?..... *You* have no idea what love is!

>>>Kaji: She has obsession down though.

 He laughed bitterly. The only person who has ever loved me was Rei....Why?

>>>Gendo: Thats whay I want to know, the dummy plug is worthless now!

I have no idea, but SHE loved me....ME!! The little weak baka

>>>Kozo: Is that reverse psycology?

 who no one gave a damn about,

>>>Gendo: We give a damn aboutyou as if you die we die.

but everyone one needed!!! He insanely glared up toward the ceiling and screamed. SHE LOVED ME!

>>>Kozo: And died.

He stared at the ceiling as if it held to secrets to the universe. Silent tears streamed out his eyes and he whispered out desperately. Rei was the only one whoever meant it... when she told me she loved me......

>>>Kaji: I wish that was true.

>>>Kozo: What are you hiding?

>>>Kaji: I have a report coming.

Tears streamed out of Asuka’s eyes as she observed how fragile Shinji still was.

>>>Gendo: Told you I was still better than him.

 That’s when she came to the conclusion that Shinji held onto Rei’s memory because inside, he was still that same little boy who was desperate for affection

>>>Kaji: Gets plenty now.

>>>Kozo: If you were a good father..as screw it.

 I love you, Shinji... more than Rei ever could!

>>>Kozo: Considering she's a lump of flesh now, thats easy.

>>>Gendo: She's not a  lump..just in a tube.

With an angry jolt, Shinji returned his gaze to her. Don’t you *ever* compare yourself to her! EVER!

>>>Kaji: The only comparision I can think of is chromosomes.

>>>Kozo: Those two are polor, absolute opposites.

His voice became a sadistic growl. You have no clue to the depths of Rei’s love! He put a bone crushing grasp on her wrist and continued. You say you love me *more* than Rei ever could?

>>>Gendo: He really needs a hearing aid.

Asuka cried out in pain when his grasp increased in pressure.

He screamed insanely. Would you die for me, Asuka?!!...Would you still love me if I rejected you *after* you killed yourself for me?!...

>>>Kozo: Would she know?

>>>Kaji: Bet she's see it in hell.

 Would you *kill* every_ single_ person on this f*cking planet for me?!....Would you destroy the whole world just so that no one else could hurt me...

>>>Kozo: Sounds like somebody has been reading from the book of

>>>Gendo Ikari.

>>>Gendo: It is a good plan.

So I won‘t be in pain anymore?! Hmm?..... Would you give me the world back; even though, I rejected your gift and *you,* AGAIN!

>>>Kaji: Seems like somebody is insane.

Would your love allow you change the out come of the 3rd impact; even though, it could have been your own death!!...Would you... would you still love me after all that, Asuka!!! Would you?!!

>>>Gendo: Would you, could you, won't you join the dance.

Asuka could hear her bones in her wrist cracking under Shinji’s grasp.

>>>Kozo: She has super hearing I take it.

 In pain, the second child cried out. What are you talking about?!..

>>>Gendo: My evil plan to save the world.

 She tried her best to embrace him with her free hand. She wanted to calm him down, but he hit her hand away. No one destroyed the world, Shinji. ....There is no such thing as a 3rd impact

>>>Gendo: So nieve, thats why I love kids.

>>>Kaji: Thought you hated them.

>>>Gendo: I love to toy with them.

,..... Shinji... you‘re confused....Rei never destroyed the world! She reached out to caress his face and wipe away his tears. Let me help you...Let me love you!

Asuka.... Shinji quickly turned his face to the side to avoid her touch.

>>>Kaji: Bet he's afraid of kooties.

>>>Kozo: I have to agree.

He did not look in the least bit appreciative to her words or gestures . Why can’t you respect that I’m married...and that I love Rei, MY WIFE!!

>>>Kozo: You know the girl in the glass tube.

>>>Kaji: That is a mirror of my actions.

He hit her hand away when she tried to touch him again.

She shook her head no and sobbed out. Shinji...

He interrupted. You say you love me?... If you knew *anything* about love, you would know that I will always be loyal to Rei.

>>>Gendo: Even if its pointless.

>>>Kozo: Seems like you.

....That I *don’t* want to be with you! Not_ now_. Not _ever....and nothing you *do* or *say* will change that.

>>>Kaji: I bet she could change that.

>>>Kozo: Take her a few minutes.

His words destroyed her, so she did what came natural to her when she became emotionally hurt. She tried to smack him with the other hand.

>>>Kaji: Asuka is still herself though.

>>>Gendo: Such violence, no wonder she's the best fighter.

He caught it and roughly let her go, making fall to the floor. He shook his head, as to scorn her use of physical violence. Same ol Asuka.

>>>Gendo: Habits die hard.

>>>Kozo: Yes, Mr. buying b-day cards for my dead wife.

The red haired woman swallowed back her tears and cupped her face in her hands. After about a minute, she asked defeated tone. May I ask.... what you wanted with Eve?

>>>Kaji: He wants to make her life just as screwed up as his?

>>>Gendo: We need more pilots anyway.

Shinji wiped away the rest of his tears with the back of his hand and answered coolly. Not that it’s any of your business... but I have a little job for her.

>>>Kozo: Would you call that little?

>>>Gendo: Not asking for anything other than world saving.

A chill ran through her spine and her head whipped up. A-a a job?

>>>Kaji: Did he stutter?

He didn’t bother to repeat his answer.

What is this job? She asked worriedly. She wasn’t sure why, but she knew this job would put Eve in danger. When he didn’t answer, she asked again this time more sternly.

>>>Gendo: Being in change means not having to explain my..I mean his

>>> plan.

It doesn’t concern you. He answered icily as he finished composing himself and walked coolly to his desks.

Like hell it does! Asuka yelled and stood up defiantly. I’m her mother!

>>>Kaji: Think she'd learn he'd sooner dance naked for her than

>>> allow her to claim to be Eve's mother.

No. Shinji commented as he sat in his plush chair. You’re her guardian. Let’s not forget your place.

>>>Gendo: Last.

>>>Kozo: 2nd to last, Eve is last.

My PLACE! She sputtered. I’ve raised that child as if she were my own since she was born!

>>>Kaji: Guess thats the only way she'd have a child, why not get close

>>> to the man you love by caring for the first wife's child.

The 2nd commander sighed in a bored fashion. Bring Eve by my office tomorrow. This is not a request. It is a comma-.

Tomorrow?!! Asuka raked her hand through her short auburn hair. A while ago she had cut it like Rei’s in hopes to attract Shinji.

>>>Kaji: Who's obsessed again?

>>>Kozo: I'm willing to bet both of them.

 Do you even know what tomorrow is?

>>>Gendo: The day after today.

He answered in a controlled growl. Of course I do....It’s the day Rei

The woman interrupted. Its Eve’s birthday!!

>>>Gendo: Death-Birth..something is missing, doesn't sound right.

>>>Kozo: Re-play that last part.

Shinji grit his teeth and responded. I suppose it is that as well.

The red haired woman narrowed her eyes angrily and yelled. All you can think about is your damn precious Rei!!! Rei’s DEAD, but Eve’s alive!!!

>>>Kaji: Well not techincally.

>>>Kozo: Just in a big tank of LCL and with no soul.

 She got up and stomped toward his desk. I don’t care that by some god defying reason, her body can still move, she’s not alive

>>>Gendo: Looked like it to me.

>>>Kaji: You have an odd way of defining life.

 ,Shinji....but Eve is....And you should spend tomorrow with her and celebrate her BIRTHDAY with us...*her*...

>>>Kaji: Their is that sense of self for her.

at least once! And not because you have some *job* for her to do!!

Her words fell on deaf ears.

>>>Gendo: I knew that SDAT would make him deaf.

The second commander clasped his fingers together and asked. Is that all?

He smirked at her flabbergasted expression. Then you know your orders. I will be expecting her at 1500 hours.

>>>Gendo: And if she's not, you'll die.

>>>Kozo: You just won't tolerate people not bending to your will.

>>>Gendo: Should I?

The former second child cringed. Shinji looked so much like his father. Then she realized something. You really don’t care do you?.... She shook her head in disbelief. You’re no better than him.

>>>Gendo: But I don't have the weaknesses he has!

>>>Kozo: You're proud of that?

>>>Gendo: I've worked hard on my image.

Shinji sat back and made himself comfortable in his plush chair. Perhaps... you’re right, and I am no better than him... He smirked darkly. Then again...Perhaps I’m worse.

>>>Gendo: I'd eat you ALIVE!

>>>Kaji: I have no doubt of that.

>>>Kozo: He actually is a canable you know.

>>>Kaji: WHAT!

>>>Gendo: Have to get rid of the bodies somehow.

Asuka felt like ice shot through her veins, and she backed up in fear and disgust. When she pressed against the door and was about to flee, he called.

Oh and Asuka...

>>>Gendo: If he's me, he'll tell her to meet him at the usual time.

>>>Kozo: Do you know how pissed Akagi looks after you say that to her?

>>>Gendo: I don't pay attention.

She shivered when he said her name, for his hate for her was clearly audible.

Her reaction pleased him, and he continued as he pulled something out of his top desk drawer. My father never molested my wife...I know this for a fact, because Rei was a virgin when I married her.

>>>Gendo: SEE! I told you!

>>>Kozo/Kaji: We know 'but slander is fun.'

His eyes narrowed evilly and he pointed a gun at her. So It would be in your best interest to never repeat that lie again.

>>>Gendo: I love that gun.

>>>Kozo: But its a fake.

>>>Gendo: So its only a water gun, nobody else knows.

Asuka eyed the gun fearfully as her hand fluttered to her now bruised neck and her other hand soothed her fractured wrist. Both were proof that Shinji knew her words were true,

>>>Gendo: THEY ARE NOT!

>>>Kozo: Oh why do people keep thinking that. 'smirks'

but she nodded in agreement anyway.

He gave her a warm smile and nodded as he lowered his weapon. I’m glad we have an understanding...

>>>Gendo: I can delude myself as much as I want and you don't say anything, feel nice.

>>>Kaji: Do you know how wrong that sounded?

Asuka couldn’t help herself from smiling back at him. His smile... she lived and would willing die for that smile. She cursed herself for not appreciating it when she was younger.

>>>Kaji: Why curse herself, she already was, Angels and her mother.

>>>Kozo: Why not just add more pain.

 When he meant it, and would freely give it to her in hopes for a little kindness. Kindness she never bestowed on him until it was too late.

>>>Kaji: Sucks to be her.

Asuka was utterly in love with the young 2nd commander. She unfortunately realized this after the first child confessed her feelings of love to him.

>>>Kozo: So the Shinji-500 ended with Rei as the winner.

>>>Gendo: Wonder who's last name they took.

 After that Shinji was Rei’s devout follower and placed the blue haired girl on a pedestal as if she were a goddess.

>>>Gendo: More like half angel.

>>>Kozo: Angel/goddess still roughly the same.

Asuka knew that she could never compete with Rei when it came to Shinji’s affections, but she tried anyway.

>>>Kaji: And failed missirable.

>>>Kozo: Why do people always realize important things to late?

>>>Gendo: Because I forgot what happend to the late Miss Akagi.

The worst of it was that she still had hope that he would one day love her back. Even though, she knew that he would have killed her just now if she didn’t comply with his denial. She still loved him

>>>Kozo: She's just as sick as him.

>>>Gendo: Thats my boy.

; even though, over the past three months, she came to realize that Shinji was insane. Insanely obsessed with his dead wife.

>>>Gendo: Nothing wrong with that.

>>>Kozo: Oh sure nothing at all...and nothing wrong with trying to kill the >>>whole planet.

 He was no better off than his father. But... she was no better off, than either of them as well, and she knew it.

>>>Kaji: A bunch of sorry S.O.B.'s

>>>Kozo: Did I die in this?

When Asuka walked out of the office, she headed for the employee garage. She was going to the commander’s place and get her *daughter*.

>>>Kaji: She just won't let it sink in will she.

>>>Gendo: Ikari men just have that effect on the ladies.

Just because Shinji didn’t care, didn’t mean she was going to turn a blind eye to the abuse.

>>>Gendo: WHAT ABUSE!

~~~~

Gendo and Eve walked into the commander’s condo.

I need to take a shower. Ikari groaned as he pinched his shirt and smelled it.

>>>Kozo: That better be the only reason you're touching that shirt.

>>>Gendo: I hope so too.

The little girl giggled, covering her mouth with one hand and pointing with the other. Yes, grandpa you do! You’re stinky!

>>>Kaji/Kozo: Agreed, when was the last time you showered?

>>>Gendo:......12 years ago.

>>>Kozo: You haven't showered since Yui's death..you are sad.

So are you, little lady! He laughed, sat down and took off his riding boots. Horses stink!

>>>Kozo: Rember Rei's horses stank up the entire Geo-front.

>>>Gendo: Thats why they had their 'accident'

>>>Kozo: We still have bottles of glue laying around.

Eve sat on the floor in front of him and started taking off her boots too. Yeah they do, but they sure are fun to ride!

Gendo presses his lips together and forced a smile. He didn’t agree. He hated riding those foul smelling beast.

>>>Gendo: But its fun to beat them.

>>>Kaji: Cruelty to animals?

 He only did it to be with Eve. She loved riding just as much as Yui used to love it.

>>>Kozo: Oh God this is about to get worse isn't it.

>>>Kaji: I'm afraid to watch.

Unfortunately, he never made time to ride with Yui.

Granddad, can I take a bath instead of taking a shower? She gave him her best puppy dog face. She knew that he always said no to that request.

>>>Gendo: Me saying yes to a request..I must be sick.

>>>Kozo: That is the sound of nobody disagreeing with you.

 The only bathtub was in his bedroom, and no one used it, because grandma was the last to use it. She understood why he felt so protective over it.

>>>Kaji: It made of gold?

>>>Kozo: No, just odd feelings.

>>>Gendo: NOBODY CAN TOUCH IT!

 It was the same reason why her daddy doesn’t allow anything to be touched in his apartment. They wanted to preserve the memory of their wives who died.

>>>Kaji: Perceptive kid.

>>>Kozo: If the current children were, things would be so much easier.

 But she would ask any way. Just in case he said yes. It was the only thing he denied her.

Though the man gave no facial expression, his heart both soared and broke when she made that face. She looked and acted so much like his beloved wife. Too much so.

>>>Kozo: You are so screwed if you touch that kid.

>>>Kaji: Think Asuka will kill him?

>>>Kozo: Its in her psyc profile.

 He nodded, giving her permission and got up to take a shower in the spare bathroom.

Even though she asked, she expected him to say no. He always said no. So, Eve was completely surprised when he said yes. The little girl quickly got up and ran to her grandfathers bedroom and private bath before he changed his mind.

>>>Kaji: Or thought about joining her.

>>>Kozo: You have a disturbed mind.

Gendo knew why he allowed Eve to use the Yui’s bath. Part of him, a large part, was starting to believe that Eve *was* Yui incarnate.

>>>Kozo: I can see the papers now, Commander of Nerv arrested for..

>>>Gendo: I wouldn't get arrested.

>>>Kaji: So you've thought about it.

>>>Gendo: Of course not, just saying I can do whatever the hell I want.

 Everything Yui loved, Eve loved. The two had the same sense of humor and they even laughed the same. Too many similarities to ignore, and unlike Rei, who only shared his beloved wife’s face,

>>>Gendo: But I don't rember Yui having red eyes or blue hair...and I've

>>> never saw Yui at age 14.

>>>Kozo: I always thought Shinji looked alot like Yui.

Eve shared the same personality as well.

Gendo sighed as he shed his clothes. He decided to take a cold shower. He knew that he was going to have to stop spending time with Eve and allowing her to visit his place. It was too much temptation to...

>>>Kaji: Do a sick act.

>>>Kozo: Make others want to wretch.

>>>Gendo: Use that time to make my son do more work for me.

She’s my grandchild. Not Yui! Gendo raked his soapy hands through his hair. She’s my granddaughter! He was determined not to do to Eve what he used to do to Rei.

>>>Kaji: It appears in this movie you were a petophile.

>>>Gendo: Thats just plan sick, Rei's..nothing like my  beloved.

>>>Kozo: You cried you're eyes out the first time you talked to her.

>>>Gendo: It was just to depressing.

The first child was about the same age when he started having ‘relations’ with her. Like his grandchild, Rei was so trusting, even after her first death.

>>>Kozo: Think Asuka will try to kill her too?

>>>Gendo: She'd really be like the late doctor then.

Actually, after her first death, Rei became dependant on Gendo and only trusted him.

>>>Gendo: I wish...until my son came...now its just Shinji-this-Shinji-that!

>>>Kozo: Does somebody feel neglected.

>>>Kaji: 'smirks' Ah poor baby.

 Unless ordered to talk to others, she only talked to him. She was scared of others, afraid that they would kill her for talking.

>>>Kaji: Can't blaim her.

>>>Gendo: We lost about 50 of them as she pissed everybody off.

 So only in the privacy from others, she *was* still a happy trusting little girl until.... that first time.

>>>Kozo: That mental image will cause me nightmares for a LONG time.

>>>Kaji: Now I need a drink.

Rei had exhibited all the tale-tale signs of an abused child, but no one *cared* to notice them.

>>>Kaji: Maybe we should ask her.

>>>Kozo: Maybe.

>>>Gendo: You two are carring this to far!

Ritsuko noticed. Misato had her suspicions. But no one cared enough about Rei to put an end to it. No one cared about the first child, and Rei knew it.

>>>Kaji: Then why not kill herself, life would suck so much.

>>>Kozo:What would be the point, just get another body.

>>>Kaji: So thats what hell is like.

So as the years of abuse continued, the young angel became withdrawn from the rest of the world. Her only *friend* was Gendo, and he betrayed her trust almost everyday.

>>>Kaji: With friends like that who needs ennima's.

>>>Kozo: Did you have to say that, my nightmares just got worse.

It wasn’t until Shinji tried to get to know her did she question her ‘relationship’ with the commander. It wasn’t until after her third reawakening, did she no longer allow her body to be used as a substitute wife.

>>>Kaji: Guess thier is a reason for Rei loving Shinji in this movie.

>>>Gendo: That being?

>>>Kozo: Do you have to ask?

I’m sorry, Rei. The commander truly was. Even when he claimed the child’s body, he was soulfully sorry. He knew that what he was doing was wrong, but he was so grief stricken and... Rei’s face looked enough like Yui‘s.... He just wanted to be with Yui again.

>>>Kaji: No excuse, should show this to your son.

>>>Gendo: I'll make sure you're in the office when he stops on it then.

>>>Kaji: Maybe its best to spare them fromt this movie.

>>>Kozo: Why did you pick this one again?

As Gendo washed his body, he allowed his tears to freely fall from his blue eyes. The tears were for his son’s deceased wife.

>>>Gendo: I'd never cry for that son of mine.

>>>Kaji: We know.

>>>Kozo: You..crying...thats rich,you don't have tear-ducts.

 Gendo was ashamed of himself because, she forgave him. Even after all those years of abuse, Rei forgave him. She truly was an angel.

>>>Kaji: Then why didn't she destroy most of the city.

>>>Gendo: Because she's one of the angels that screw with my sons head.

>>>Kaji: Ah one of those types.

 But he never forgive himself. For too many years and too many times he took her for his own selfish needs.

After he finished bathing and was adorned in a plush robe, Gendo walked into his bedroom and quickly went to retrieve his clothes before he went back into the spare bedroom to get dressed.

>>>Kaji: This...won't be good.

>>>Kozo: So..he convenently forgot his grand-daughter was taking a bath.

Geni-chan is that you?

The commander stiffened at the bedroom door. All the color drained from his face. Only his wife ever called him Geni-chan. Why? Because she wanted to make his pet name unique.

>>>Gendo: And she refused to call me Kami.

>>>Kaji: You really do have a complex.

Something only for them, and it was. He never told another soul about that knick name. So how in the world did Eve know it... if she wasn’t...

She’s not Yui. She’s my grandchild Gendo kept repeating that sentence like a mantra.

>>>Kaji: Thats where Shinji-kun got that trait.

>>>Gendo: Damn child taking my bit.

 He was trying to squash his hope and focus on the reality. He could hear the water sloshing around in the bath and the gentle slapping of tiny wet feet on a smooth marble floor.

>>>Kozo: You are so perverted

The little girl popped her head out of the bathroom door and giggled. I though it was you!

>>>Kaji: Who else could it be? it is his house.

>>>Gendo: I keep several other people chained to the walls.

Gendo didn’t turn to face her, but he took a deep breath and breathed out. Why did you call me that?

>>>Kozo:Because God thinks you need punishment.

She tilted her head to the side as she put a tighter wrap of the towel around her torso, and walked into the room and giggled. I dunno.. you just look like a Geni-chan.

>>>Kaji: And another step forward and I'll crush your spine.

The commander felt sick with hope. That was exactly what Yui said so many years ago. She walked over to the dresser and picked up a little box.

Is this for me? She asked sweetly.

>>>Kaji: It better not be.

>>>Kozo: YOu know we can indite you for this.

>>>Gendo: Its fake!

The commander didn’t turn around, but he knew what she was asking and he nodded.

Thanks! She ran over to him and hugged him from behind.

Gendo’s body immediately felt like he was dipped in fire. His back arched uncomfortably as he gasped at her touch.

>>>Kozo: So little girls DO turn you on.

>>>Gendo: I think you're choice in movies is lacking Kaji.

She quickly let him go; even though, she didn’t notice his tense disposition. She walked over to her late grandmother’s vanity and sat on the cushioned pedestal chair as if she owned it. She squealed excitedly. Geni-chan, can you help me put them on?

>>>Kaji: I think he's more conserend with taking something off.

>>>Kozo: Now I know why I disliked you so much when we first met.

Slowly, he turned to face her. <too much temptation> She looked so much like Yui. Too much. I don’t think so.

>>>Kaji: Thank Kami-sama.

>>>Kozo: Thought you never saw Yui that young.

>>>Gendo: I didn't..but the resemblance is uncanny.

 He reluctantly whispered out.

Eve turned to face him and poked out her bottom lip. Her near red, violet eyes pleaded for help. But I don’t know how to put them on. Remember how much trouble I had at the eye doctor’s?

>>>Gendo: Women..helpless.

>>>Kaji: Helpless my ass, they have us to do the work for them!

>>>Kozo: Crafty.

His face looked pained as he tried to keep his resolve to say no.

Pleeeaaase

In a sigh, the commander slowly padded across the room and toward the vanity.

Eve giggled and wiggled in her seat as she tore open the package. It was a pair of contacts. Dark blue like her granddad’s and her father’s eyes, so she was told.

>>>Kaji: Colored contacts look so fake.

>>>Kozo: She really wants her fathers attention...seems familiar.

 She’d never seen her fathers eyes, for he always kept them hidden behind dark tinted glasses. Once, she asked her granddad why he always wore them. He said that her father wore them to hide his sadness from the world.

>>>Kaji: Like his voice and body language doesn't tell that.

>>>Kozo: He gives out an air of depression.

 He even told her that he used to wear glasses very similar to her father’s for the exact same reason. She didn’t believe him though. She couldn’t imagine her grandfather hiding behind tinted glasses.

>>>Kozo: Can you even see well in those, the HQ is really dark.

>>>Gendo: I can see fine.

>>>Kozo: Or that may be why you're always sitting.

Gendo retrieved the cleaning and saline solution from his counter then kneeled beside Eve. Do you remember how to prepare them?

>>>Kozo: You better be refering to the contacts.

>>>Kaji: This will be the worst thing I've seen if he's not.

Eve nodded vigorously as she began to prepare her contacts. She was so excited.

The commander was nervous. He was wringing his clothes in his hands. He did not want to see her in those contacts. It was hard enough the first time, at the doctors office when she was putting on the trial pair.

>>>Kaji: Do they make color trial contacts?

>>>Kozo: Guess they do now.

She looked exactly like Yui.

>>>Gendo: Only about 10 years younger.

Only because there where others in the room did he control his unnatural urges.

I’m ready! She chimed as she tilted her head back and opened her eyes wide.

Gendo took the contact and balanced it on the tip of his finger, but before he put it on her eye he asked Are you sure want to wear these?

>>>Kaji: No, she wants to be blind for her whole life.

>>>Kozo: Considering the consiquences I would perfer blindness.

Uh huh! She slightly nodded.

But... Gendo sighed. But you have your mothers eyes. Are you sure you want to hide them?

>>>Gendo: Who's her mother then, never saw violet eyes.

The little girl balled her tiny hands on her lap then bowed her head down and stared at them intensely. After many minutes she answered No... I don’t want to hide them... I love that they are similar to hers

>>>Kaji: Even though she's never seen them or her.

.. I wish they were exactly the same as hers... then.. maybe.. daddy would like me... because I would look more like her.

>>>Kozo: Then it would be him thats about to ..ew.

>>>Gendo: You don't know...that..I....I mean he...

Eve.. <that’s not why Shinji treats you like he does...I know. I did the same to him>

The girl looked at her grandfather, so many emotions shimmered in her violet eyes. So much hurt and anger. She turned her gaze to the mirror and yelled.

>>>Kaji: Like father like daughter.

>>>Gendo: Guess she'll grow up hating him.

But he’ll never like me! Because I don’t look like her! I’ll never look like her! I will never be as beautiful as her! She grabbed a fistful of her brown hair. Because my hair is the wrong color! My eyes are the wrong color! My skin is not pale enough!...And ...because of that.. daddy hates me!

>>>Gendo: Remind me, has she even seen Rei?

>>>Kaji: As a lifeless shell yes, alive no.

>>>Kozo: And again no pictures.

>>>Gendo: I thought so...kids a psycic.

That’s not true, Eve.... You look just like your mother. He mentally added. <and your grandmother... he hates you because he blames you... just as I blamed him for Yui‘s death>

>>>Kozo: Why, Unit-01 did it.

>>>Gendo: But she did it for him..and once he was born she never payed me enough attention.

>>>Kaji: You're starved for attention.

She ignored him and continued. But mama thinks I look *too* much like her! She thinks my eyes are too much like hers! Tears started to stream out of those exotic eyes. She hates my mother...and she wants me to hate her too....but... I don’t...

>>>Kaji: Because you don't know her maybe?

>>>Kozo: No, she wants the child to help her gain favor with Shinji.

>>>Gendo: Using a child as a pawn, thats a great way to do things.

She wiped away her tears and titled her head back. But she’s nicer to me...than him.... so for her...I will hide the only thing I did inherit from my mother. She sat there with her head tilted back and stared at him. Eve could tell that her grandfather wasn’t going to put them in, so she begged in a sobbing whisper. Please Geni-chan...just put them in.

>>>Kaji: And like any man....

>>>Gendo: I'll do it.

Reluctantly, Gendo complied.

>>>Kozo: And you're the commander and chief of Nerv.

~~~~~~~~~~~`

In another part of the up scale apartment building, one Dr Sohryu was stepping out of the elevator and was storming down the hall toward the Eldest Ikari’s house.

>>>Kaji: Once she see's her in the towel...

>>>Gendo: I hope I have a gun on me.

~~~~~~~~~

Eve blinked her now dark blue eyes and stared into the mirror. She really didn’t like her new look and her tears started streaming down her cheeks again.

>>>Kozo: That will not help improve how this looks.

Gendo stared at her in awe. Now she really did look exactly like Yui. He slowly started to get up. He had to get out of there, and get out of there *now*! He would have made it too, if she didn’t turn to face him and sob out...

Geni-chan

>>>Kaji: What little girl calls her grandpa chan?

Gendo froze. He couldn‘t think or breath as she stared into his eyes. Yes Yu- He shook his head no and corrected. Yes, Eve?

>>>Kozo: You  are so screwed.

>>>Gendo: Why did you have to use that word?

She turned in her seat to face. Do you think my mother would...be disappointed in me for hiding my eyes?

>>>Gendo: No, she nevers about such things.

Staring into her now blue eyes, the commander shook his head no. Unknowingly, his eyes started to water up as he remembered how understanding and forgiving Rei was.

>>>Kozo: You don't plan on using that knowledge for some personal gain?

>>>Kaji: Rei forgiving, Shinji's cheek doesn't agree.

She tightened her towel and leaned forward. Are you sure?

He nodded.

She gave him a forced smile then asked. Do you think mama will think I’m pretty... now that I don‘t have my mother’s eyes anymore?

>>>Kaji: Asuka won't allow anybody to be pretty, well more than her that is.

Eve... The commander breathed out. You were always beautiful....

She blushed and sniffed out. For real?

>>>Gendo: This just gets worse and worse.

>>>Kozo: If we mass produce this, think I'd be made commander?

>>>Kaji: No, Asuka, Shinji, and Rei would kill you.

She really didn’t believe him. She had heard that she was ugly so many times from her mama, that she suffered from low self esteem.

>>>Kaji: And she claimed to be a perfect mother.

>>>Kozo: A health does of low-selfesteem for her 'daughter'.

 To everyone who knew her, she seemed cheerful and confident. But inwardly, she was a tortured little girl. She was abnormally smart, but she kept that to herself. She also knew that her family was dysfunctional. VERY dysfunctional.

>>>Gendo: What family isn't?

>>>Kaji: I think they should add Ikari to the dictionary as the apitomy of it.

 She knew her father hated her, but she didn’t understand why. No one would tell her. Instead, they pretended that he did care for her and was just too busy. Too busy to be a father to her.

>>>Gendo: Running Nerv doesn't allow for children.

>>>Kozo: But midnight visits to the 'doctor' is?

>>>Gendo: Um...yes?

>>>Kozo: Right.

 She knew that her mama hated her because she was Rei’s child, but loved her because she was Shinji’s. And her grandfather... as of late, he was becoming weird.

>>>Kaji: The understatement of the year.

>>>Kozo: But how far down with the weird limbo bar go?

 He would stare at her with a longing that she did not understand. However, it was a longing that strangely comforted her. He seemed to be the only one who liked her. Who truly wanted to be around her.

>>>Gendo: See, I'm a good grandfather.

>>>Kaji: YOU WANT TO SLEEP WITH HER!!!

Gendo nodded to her question as he gently wiped away her tears. He wanted to flee, but he couldn’t. For some reason, he couldn’t tear his eyes away from her, and for this reason his own tears started to stream down his cheeks.

What’s wrong?

>>>Kaji: She opend a can of worms their!

>>>Kozo: To many things to state them all.

Eve cried out as she used her tiny hands to mimic his actions and wipe away his tears.

I’ve got to.. His words died in his mouth, and his breath caught in his throat when she leaned her face closer to him.

There faces mere inches apart. Geni-chan?

>>>Kaji: You know its about this time when Asuka usually makes an

>>>entrance.

>>>Gendo: You've tried to seduce children?

>>>Kaji: No, Misato...she just flipped.

He closed his eyes and guiltily relished their closeness when she pressed her forehead against his. It was an innocent gesture, something they always did to force out a confession or compliance.

>>>Kozo: I wonder why it works on you.

>>>Gendo: Shut up old man.

 But what Eve didn’t know was that it was the same gesture that Yui and Gendo used to do for the exact same reasons. Through out the years, he was able to keep it innocent, but now.. .with her eyes blue and her looking *exactly* like his late wife... Gendo knew in his heart that he lost the battle.

>>>Kozo: I can now officially say this has went to far for my taste.

>>>Gendo/Kaji: Agreed.

The child quirked a brow curiously as she waited for her grandfather to confess. Then she smiled when he looked up at her and into her eyes. There was something strange about they way he looked at her, it made her feel... uncomfortable, so she pulled back.

>>>Kaji: RUN EVE RUN!

>>>Kozo: She's in the lions den.

>>>Kaji: Well Asuka is a lion killer so..maybe she'll get out in one piece.

Eve.. Gendo breathed out as he timidly caressed the little girl’s face with one hand. With the other, he gently held both of her hands in his large one an rested them on her lap.

>>>Kaji: Can I puke now?

Before she could even answer, he leaned forward and placed a gentle kiss on her tender lips. Eve’s eyes snapped wide open and she tried to pull back. This was wrong! She didn’t want this!

>>>Kozo: Nobody ever does, thats what makes it wrong.

>>>Gendo: I want to destroy all these tapes...now.

Gendo could feel her pulling away, and he slid his had around the back of her head and matched her movements so she couldn‘t break the kiss.

Eve tried to turn her head, but couldn’t because he held her too tightly. The girl’s eyes grew even wider when she felt his tongue push against her tightly pressed lips.

>>>Kaji: If the children ever saw this.

>>>Kozo: I'd be in command.

>>>Kaji: And there would be a big blood smear on some Eva's feet.

With all her might, she futilely tried to pull away from him. She wished that she could use her hands, but he held them in a tight grip. She was stuck. So she did the only thing she could do. She pressed her lips even tighter together, rejecting his tongue’s entrance and moaned out her protest as tears flowed down her cheeks.

>>>Kozo: Guess her life has gone from bad to worse...some grandfather.

>>>Kaji: I didn't think he could make a worse grandfather that a father but...

>>>Gendo: I am not..repeat not a child molester.

That’s when Gendo finally pulled back. Guilty and ashamed, he stared into the girl’s eyes.

Eve stared back in shock for about ten seconds before she started to cry hysterically and demanded to know Why?!

>>>Kaji: Because in his sick mind you reminded him of his wife?

>>>Kozo: He's natrually a sick man.

>>>Gendo: I'm lonely?

>>>Kaji/Kozo: NO EXCUSE!

Why did he do it? Why did he betray her trust?

Gendo who was on his knees, looked away from her and slumped over and sobbed into his hands as he cried out a mantra of I’m so sorry!

>>>Kaji: If she forgives him...

>>>Kozo: She just lost her soal.

The little girl, blinked, then slowly ceased her own tears when she noticed her grandfathers sullen disposition. She apprehensively raised one of her now freed hands and brushed her fingers against her bruised lips. Slowly, very slowly, she slid off the chair and sat on her knees beside him.

>>>Kaji: She lost her chance to run.

>>>Gendo: I look so pathetic!

Gendo cringed when he felt her place her tiny hand against his back and caress it in a forced comforting movement.

It’s ok. She whispered lovingly. When he didn’t stop crying, Eve leaned over and whispered those comforting words in his ear. It’s ok my Geni-chan.....you just frightened me... Remember...this is the same thing that happened the first time you kissed me...

>>>Kaji: THE SAME AS THE FIRST TIME!

>>>Kozo: I think the pilots should see this..and the media.

>>>Gendo: How much to buy your silence?

>>>Kaji: You can scrap the plans for unit 05, you'll need the money.

Gendo stopped crying instantly. His head wiped up and he stared into her blue eyes. An adult-like knowing smirk graced the little girl’s face. A facial expression that the late Yui gave him often,

>>>Kozo: Rember that part "late"

>>>Gendo: I can forget.

>>>Kozo: Not when it comes to ...this.

and one that Eve had never done. The commander’s eyes widened in fear, love, hope, wonder and SHOCK. He was shocked stiffed. To the point to where he couldn’t speak. Then she blinked again. Gendo noticed the not so subtle change. Eve went from looking exactly like his wife to a frightened grandchild that had been betrayed by her grandfather.

>>>Kaji: What is it with old men and young children.

>>>Gendo: Yeah, you've been looking around the playgrounds old man?

>>>Kozo: Yes, looking for people to hid from you.

Eve’s eyes widened fearfully as she wondered how she got on the floor. No more words exchanged between them as she scurried to her feet and ran out of the room.

>>>Kaji: I can picture Asuka's face when she hears about this.

>>>Gendo: No matter, I have time to prepair it seems.

Gendo started crying again. He wasn’t sure if what had just transpired between them was truth or just another one of his obsessive desires for Yui to come back to him.

>>>Kaji/Kozo: The latter.

He shook his head as he cried onto his hands. It had to have been his imagination...because he had never kissed Eve before...and the only one who ever reacted like that was...

>>>Kaji: Somebody we don't  want to know.

>>>Kozo: Or think about.

>>>Gendo: How did this thing get made without my knowledge.

~DING DONG~

Eve quickly ran to the front door and opened it up.

Mama!

Asuka frowned. The fact that her daughter was crying and only adorned in a loosely wrapped towel did not sit well with her.

>>>Kaji: At least she still has the towel.

Nor did the fact that she now had BLUE EYES and she looked EXACTLY like the huge @$$ painted mural of YUI on the main wall of the living room.

>>>Kozo: How did you afford that picture again?

>>>Gendo: I'd rather not discuss that.

Without a word, the former second child reached into her purse and pulled out a .45 Glock, cocked it, and stormed into the house.

>>>Kozo: What was that about time?

>>>Gendo: How did she get that into my house?

>>>Kaji: She knows what she's doing.

 When Eve tried to follow her, Asuka screamed.

Stay there, Eve!! What I‘m going to do is only going to take a minute! She turned the hall corner and stormed toward the master bedroom.

What she found infuriated her! Gendo was on his knees his forehead pressed against the floor and he was crying guiltily into his hands.

>>>Kaji: I give her 2 sentences before she kills you.

>>>Gendo: I think I'll get out, I have a knack for it.

He was dressed only in a robe and like Eve, he looked like he was freshly bathed. Freshly bathed? Her trained eyes caught sight of a trail of Eve’s clothes leading to the bathroom. YUI’S bathroom. Then with a slight shift of her gaze, she saw the commander’s clothes. They were balled and twisted beside the chair of Yui’s vanity.

>>>Kozo: Did Yui have one of those?

>>>Gendo: I..don't rember.

Contact solutions, now accompanied the religiously undisturbed, and consecrated, mementoes of the late great Yui.

>>>Gendo: Got the great part down.

>>>Kaji: Great at messing with the world.

That was all the proof the woman needed to confirm her suspicion about their relationship. Asuka’s scowl deepened as she brought her gun up and pointed at the commander’ back. She commanded in a yell.

Turn the f*ck around!!

>>>Kaji: One sentence.

>>>Kozo: And a nice command it is.

Obediently, Gendo turned to face her. He didn’t even bother to wipe away the tears that admitted the guilt of his crime. He was not afraid as he sat on the floor and looked into the barrel of her gun.

>>>Gendo: Why, I've done it before.

>>>Kozo: But you seem to be soiling yourself now.

 Relieved and grateful, those were the emotions he felt. It was about time someone had the balls to kill him.

>>>Kaji: Bet that would scare Shinji-kun.

>>>Kozo: The only one with the 'balls' was a woman?

>>>Kaji: No Asuka with them.

He welcomed death because it would finally bring him to Yui. He tried with all his might to bring her back to him, but he failed. He wanted to die all these years. He wanted to die, rather than be forced to live without her.

>>>Gendo: But I'd miss out on toying with people.

>>>Kaji: Obsessesed person number 3

 But fate was against him. So he lived. Suicide was not an option for him because he feared that his soul would be punished for that choice.

>>>Kaji: Like it won't be for all the other nasty stuff you've done.

>>>Gendo: Tis true.

 He wasn’t worried about the punishment he would receive for all the crimes he had committed. Why? Because God was forgiving and he had repented for them.

>>>Kozo: SURE..you live in a HUGE house and attempt to rape your granddaughter.

Just as he had repented for his crime against his grandchild. Gendo knew that suicide was a sin that he could not repent. So he lived and waited for death, so that he could go to heaven and live out eternity with his beloved wife. Finally ... death had come for him.... beautiful and unforgiving Death.... and her name was Asuka.

>>>Kaji: I feel bad for Shinji, he'd so much like to do it.

>>>Gendo: He doesn't have the balls.

>>>Kaji: You'd be surprized.

Asuka felt ill as she watched a pleased smile tug at the corners of his lips. She was furious that he did not fear her, or fear what she was going to do to him. He should have been begging for her to spare his life. Crying out in hopes that she understood his reasons. But no. He just sat there.. .and waited... for her to kill him. It was almost like.... he wanted her too.

She’s not Yui! She screamed.

>>>Kaji: Sentence 2, now SHOOT!

>>>Gendo: I'd never allow such an act, I'd have put a hole in her head.

In a hoarse whisper, he answered. I know.

His answer enraged her. If he knew that Eve was not... then that meant he didn’t care! Just like he didn’t care when he molested Rei. He didn’t care that Eve was barely 10! He didn’t care that she was his biological GRANDDAUGHTER!

>>>Kaji: He's uncaring we get it, get on with it.

>>>Kozo: Its a movie, needs to be dragged on.

He only cared about himself; it was all about the *physical* need. The physical need to be with *that* face! That FACE!!! The face she hated above all others! Rei’s face, Yui’s face and .. Eve’s face. That damned face that had all the Ikari men under a spell of absolute devotion!!

>>>Kaji: Maybe she hasn't heard of genetics?

>>>Kozo: How can she stand Shinji-kun then, he looks alot like Yui.

>>>Gendo: Damn weak DNA of mine..he should look like ME!

<I hate you.. >A mental growl of hate was spat out in the woman’s mind as she put a tighter grip on the trigger. <I hate you and I won’t let you have......>

>>>Kaji: DID I CALL IT OR WHAT!

>>>Gendo: You seem to enjoy that to much, put him under observation.

>>>Kozo: Done.

~~~~

Eve was sitting on the couch, waiting for her mama when the loud and distinct sound of a gun shot rang through her ears. She immediately jumped up and ran toward her grandfathers bedroom. When she turned the hall corner, she saw her mama standing in the bedroom doorway with her arm out and prepared to pull the trigger of her gun again.

<I won’t let you have HIM!> Asuka’s finished her mental proclamation of hate.

>>>Gendo: Him...I don't remeber ever doing anything to a him.

>>>Kozo: Maybe thats what she means.

 However it wasn’t toward Gendo, the molester of her child. It was toward Rei, the captor of Shinji’s heart. HER Shinji!! Asuka pulled the trigger again. Envisioning that the man was her rival.

>>>Kozo: So she's snapped too.

>>>Kaji: Why not visit the 'room' and shoot the real thing?

>>>Gendo: Its easier to make believe.

Eve’s screamed.

On reflex, Asuka spun around and pointed her gun at the screaming child.

The little girl was crying hysterically. How could you?! Eve ignored that fact that a weapon was pointed at her and ran past her guardian and into the room.

>>>Gendo: You point the barrel at what you want to die and pull.

>>>Kaji: You missed something.

Asuka shifted her direction to follow the girl but never lowered her gun. That face... she hated that face.

>>>Gendo: Maybe cosmetic sergury?

Eve fell to her knees and cradled her grandfather’s head in her lap, leaned over and cried over him. Why?! Why did you let her take you from me?!.... She repeated her words like a mantra as a flood of suppressed memories flooded her mind.

>>>Gendo: She was Yui incarnet.

>>>Kaji: No..you're just having dillusions again.

>>>Gendo: I can hear whatever voices I want to!

Shut up!! Asuka was confused by Eve’s actions and waved her gun threateningly. He was hurting you! What did you expect me to do!!

Eve’s adamantly shook her head no as she continued to sob her mantra.

Yes_he was!

>>>Kozo: Actually, he didn't get the chance thank God.

He loves me... The child cried. He would never hurt me....and ..I love hi-

>>>Kaji: Ok, now that is just beyond sick.

I said _SHUT_ UP!! Asuka interrupted venomously.

Eve ignored her command and cried out hysterically to the dieing man, Please don’t leave me!... She scooted closer to him, then in a futile attempt to stop the bleeding and save his life, she quickly placed her tiny hands over the bloodied bullet wounds on his chest. Please don’t leave me... Not after everything I did.....

>>>Kozo: Will somebody explain what is happening?

>>>Kaji: Nothing that can really happen.

>>>Gendo: I'm dieing! thats not in the schedule!

Asuka’s stared at the distraught *adult* expression on the child’s face as she tried to save her grandfather’s life.

With pained effort, Gendo forced his eyes to focus on the girl above him.

Eve continued to sob out. Please... please Geni-chan... please don’t ....you can’t die on me... Not now.... Her eyes were blurred by tears, but she refused to wipe them away. She need to use her hands to plug up his wounds.

>>>Kaji: Ah electrocution!

>>>Kozo: That is one thing she can plug into him..another would be more >>>bullets.

>>>Gendo: And you claim friendship.

 She sighed deeply, looked up at the familiar ceiling and cried out in defeat. Not now....Now that I remember.... who I am.....Not now...after everything I did.... to come back to you...

Asuka froze.

As so did Gendo.

>>>Kaji: Did he finally die?

>>>Kozo: Ah so Yui tricked Rei into this..and..well failed.

>>>Gendo: Not like my wife to fail.

>>>Kozo: She failed to sync right.

>>>Gendo: There was that.

Eve looked back down at the man whose head rested on her lap and stared at him with an adults love and devotion. Her tears splashed against his cheeks as she cried in a broken voice. Please... my love... don’t die on me now!

>>>Kozo: I get it! split personalities created by the desires of both

>>> father and son, if she was with Shinji she'd behave like Rei.

>>>Gendo: Why to burst my bubble.

In a labored movement, he raised his bloodied hand and tenderly cupped her cheek. Eve leaned into his touch. I knew it was you... He breathed out lovingly I always knew...

>>>Kaji: Thats why he tried to force himself on you.

>>>Kozo:So which one was the real one?

>>>Kaji: Does it matter?

She cried harder and nodded against his touch. I’m sorry.. I had forgotten..

It’s ok...

>>>Kozo:You died.

He whispered lovingly despite the pain of dying and knowing that in death he was going to be without his beloved wife again.

She leaned forward into a tender, heart-wrenching kiss ,and whispered against his lips. I’m...so.. sorry before she deepened the loving gesture. Their final kiss.

>>>Kaji: If that wasn't a ten year old I wouldn't find it so disgusting.

>>>Gendo: I have to agree.

Tears streamed out the corners of Gendo’s eyes as he died. Tears of sadness and of joy. Joy because she finally came back to him. After waiting for over 24 years, she had finally came back to him. The sadness was in that fact that he allowed himself to die that day.

>>>Kaji: Life is a bitch that way.

>>>Kozo: I so love irony.

>>>Gendo: What is God's problem with me!

 The day she was truly returned to him. It’s okay... He breathed out against her lips and then in one last labored breath he confessed. I love you

His arm fell limp to the floor.

>>>Kozo: I knew it, when you die you'll just take FOREVER!

I love you too my... Geni-chan Eve’s body racked with sobs as she cried against his mouth.

Eve, she was the young daughter of Rei and Shinji. Rei, she was the daughter of Lillith, an angel and the mother of all Lillum, and Yui. Yui, she was Gendo’s wife and Shinji’s mother.

>>>Kaji: Did I ask for the Ikari family tree?

>>>Gendo: But its so full of history.

 So Eve, the daughter of Rei, who was the daughter of Yui, was in fact.... Yui. How did the daughter give birth to the mother?

>>>Gendo: Time paradox?

>>>Kozo: Odd plot twist?

>>>Kaji: Something to make the movie last a bit longer?

The eldest Mrs.'s Ikari had petitioned the maker for a second chance at life once she heard that Rei was going to trade her soul for a soul for her unborn child.

>>>Kaji: So its a democracy in Heaven?

>>>Gendo: I wonder how many signatures she needed for that.

>>>Kozo: Aren't we forgetting something, who's soul is in Unit-01?

Since the child was a clone, a clone that did not have the makers permission to be created, the child had *no soul*. The child was a vessel. An empty vessel like the Eva’s. And like the Eva’s, this vessel needed a soul to function.

>>>Kozo: So unit-01 is useless now?

 However, souls weren’t easy to come by.

>>>Kaji: So what DO they have up in heaven, if not souls?

 They had to be given permission to go back to the land of the living by the maker and only the maker.

>>>Kozo: Just as power hungry as you Gendo.

Yui was denied a second chance at life, but that didn’t stop her. She had to get back. She had to get back to *him*. Yui felt that she deserved a second chance because she taken to soon. and she was put in her own personal hell inside the Eva.

>>>Kaji: THAT MAKES NO SENSE!

>>>Kozo: So she's in heaven AND in the Eva at the same time....

>>>Gendo: I don't care, she wants to come back to me!

>>>Kaji: I see obsessed person number 4.

 To be able to see her love, and not be able to interact with him, it wasn’t fair and she wanted another chance at life with him!

From the confines of the Eva, Yui would watch how Gendo manipulated everyone around him just so that he could get her back. She knew what he did, and she didn’t care.

>>>Kozo: Ah love, what else can make you forget the sensless slaughter of

>>> innocence.

She loved him even more for it. She was the same, for she wanted the 3rd impact to occur.

>>>Kaji: Then why protect Shinji?

>>>Kozo: She seems to care even less about him than you do.

>>>Gendo: My wife and I are very similar.

She wanted to be free and she knew that only Shinji could free her. She learned of that when Rei tried to synch with her. Yui had heard Rei’s divine inner thoughts and felt the girl’s emotions.

>>>Kaji: Or lack their-of.

>>>Kozo: Like feeling a void.

 So even before the first child knew it herself, Yui knew that Rei was going to give the gift of the third impact to Shinji. So from that moment on, Yui refused to synch with anyone other than her son.

>>>Gendo: She's just as ruthless as me.

>>>Kaji: His life gets worse and worse.

 She was going to make sure that Shinji fulfilled his role. She was going to make sure that Shinji ensured the enactment of the 3rd impact even if it cost him his life or the lives of everyone around him.

>>>Kaji: You two played chess to much.

>>>Gendo: They say that their are other pieces but all I see are pawns.

But how did she get back? Yui tricked some poor soul, the chosen soul, into giving her their rebirth rights. She had to do it. She had to get back to her truest of love. Her only love. Her obsession, Gendo.

>>>Kozo: Is obession genetic?

>>>Kaji: It does run in the family, wonder about Rei.

When Eve deepened the kiss on the lips of her dead grandfather, Asuka felt sick and shrilled. What the hell is wrong with this family?!!

>>>Kaji: Like dead people?

>>>Gendo: Well doesn't this just look bad.

 She marched over to the girl, grabbed her upper arm and jerked her to her feet.

A little more than startled, Eve glared up at the woman. Leave me alone! She tried to pull her arm out of her guardians grasp as she yelled. Just leave us alone!

>>>Kaji: If she askes for a tank of LCL..

>>>Kozo: Right next to her mother/daughter.

Once freed, the child fell onto her knees and possessively latched onto the body of the commander.

Asuka barred her teeth and dragged the girl, who was kicking and screaming, out of the room and out of the apartment. When they got into the elevator Asuka was tired of the girls behavior and pointed her gun at the child

I said shut up!

>>>Kaji: Well thats one way to do it.

>>>Gendo: She will be demoted for killing that child.

>>>Kozo: But not you?

>>>Gendo: No, she will be killed for that.

>>>Kaji: Ah, demoted and killed in the same day.

The child who was wrapped only in a towel that was covered in blood, ignored the woman and cried freely. As she cried, Yui cursed fate! Fate took her away from Gendo so many years ago. It foiled every plan they both orchestrated to get back together.

>>>Kaji: Maybe they should take the hint!

>>>Gendo: Never, fate be damned.

>>>Kaji: Its the other way around.

 Then, after so many years , when they truly got back together fate killed him. How cruel it was to allow her to remember... the day he died.

>>>Kozo: It was just ten minutes ago but...

>>>Kaji: Ah memories.

 To allow her to truly come back to him, the day he was taken away from her!

Eve/Yui slid down against the elevator wall, wrapped her arm around her knees and cried harder.

>>>Gendo: Is that even possible, the elevator is shaking.

 She wanted to die. Kill herself so she won’t have to endure the many years of life without him, but she couldn’t, not if she wanted to ever get back to him.

>>>Kaji: Are we seeing a theme of wanted suicide?

>>>Kozo: She honestly believes you're going to heaven?

>>>Gendo: Well..she always was an optimist.

Asuka savagely raked her hand through her hair. She was stressed, to say the least. She had just killed the commander of NERV. She might as well have killed the Emperor of Japan.

>>>Kaji: Well...she's back in the past but the concept is their.

>>>Gendo: Japan is a democracy.

Although in the worlds eyes, the commander was much more important. No one knew the truth behind anything concerning the angels.

>>>Gendo: So how does that make me important?

 They only knew, or they believed, that they came to destroy humans and that they were heartless creatures that the Eva’s destroyed. Eva’s that were built and commanded under Gendo Ikari.

>>>Kaji: Misato will be pissed at that comment.

>>>Gendo: I'm busy, can't expect me to do EVERYTHING.

The legendary savior of the world.

Asuka knew that she was as good as dead for killing him, no matter what the reasons were. She glared at the crying child then narrowed her eyes. <this is YOUR fault!>

>>>Kaji: Their is the next step in the blaim game.

>>>Kozo: Why not just use a dart board to tell who did it.

She reached back and slapped the crying child. I said SHUT UP!!

Eve cradled the now sore side of her face but didn’t stop crying.

>>>Gendo: That will not help matters.

 Thus in turn making her guardian even more angry. Instinctively, the child curled up into a ball. She need to protect as much of her body as possible. She knew what was going to happen next, this wasn’t the first time her mama had gotten angry with her.

>>>Kaji: Is that Yui or Eve?

>>>Kozo: Does it matter, this beating is for the text books.

>>>Gendo: Perfect parenting.

For her mama had and infamous temper.

Asuka began to attack the child with a barrage of hard open hand, sometimes close handed slaps.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It was late by the time Shinji made it to his apartment, about a quarter past 12am. This wasn’t an unusual for him though, he often came home late and left extremely earlier. It hurt to much

>>>Kaji: To be kneed in the family jewels?

to be home and be surrounded by so many memories of Rei. But he felt that he had to come home, because he was afraid that he would one day accept her death, that the pain of being without her, may lessen, or that he would one day forget her.

>>>Kaji: And you can't have that, lessen the pain, for shame!

>>>Kozo: How would being home bring any memories, not like Rei owns >>>anything.

All of those fears where unacceptable in his opinion.

However, that night was different, on his doormat was a small figure, laid curled up in a fetal position.

>>>Gendo: A stray cat.

>>>Kaji: One of those kids from the starving countries Eva made.

Eve?

The girl slowly began to sit up and she looked up at her father. Shinji immediately noticed the bloodied towel she was wrapped in, and the bruises on her face.

>>>Kaji: Like looking into a mirror of the past for him.

>>>Gendo: She beat him like that?

>>>Kaji: Occationally.

How did you get here? He asked as he stood in front of her. Towering over her with dispassionate eyes.

The young girl, who was really his mother, looked away from him. She didn’t answer his question instead started crying and sobbed out. Gendo is dead!

>>>Kozo: And she expects a responce?

>>>Kaji: I bet he dances a gig.

Hmm. That’s all he said. Nothing more.

Eve’s gaze whipped up toward him and she spat out. He was your father! Don’t you even care?!

With a dead pan expression, Shinji answered. No, no I don‘t.

>>>Gendo: I'd be lying if I said I didn't expect that, still stings.

>>>Kozo: You know you don't care.

Yui couldn’t believe her son.

Shinji narrowed his eyes at his daughter. Why are you here?

A-Asuka...she killed him. She was no longer calling the woman mama.

>>>Kaji: This Yui/Eve stuff is confusing, who's really talking?

>>>Kozo: I don't really care.

He nodded. He figured as much. It seemed that the former second child was on a war path against the Ikari family. She attacked him, and from the looks of Eve’s face and body, she attacked the girl too.

>>>Gendo: How else do you stop a soul swapping wife from crying?

 So of course she would kill is father. <hell, she might even kill me> With that in mind Shinji asked the child. How did you get here?

>>>Kaji: She drove a car.

>>>Gendo: Unit-01 carried her.

Staring at her father, Eve slowly started to stand up. I-I don’t know.

The second commander quirked a brow. You don’t know?

She shook her head. I kinda just appeared here...ma-..Asuka was punishing me...

>>>Kozo: So punishment means massive beating?

>>>Kaji: Guess so.

He absently rubbed her right eye. It was sore and it burned for she had a deep scratch in her eye when her ‘mama’ used her fingernails to rip out the dark blue lenses from her eyes.

>>>Gendo: Thought she'd like the color.

>>>Kaji: Maybe she wanted the lense for itself.

Shinji knew the way Asuka *punished* even though he never confronted her with it. He didn’t care enough to. However his father did and for the most part, that kept her anger at bay.

>>>Kaji: Or bottled up and stored until a later date.

>>>Kozo: Say a shooting.

He pulled out his key card, swiped it and walked in. As he kicked off his shoes, he gave the child a side profile of his face. Are you coming in?

Cautiously Eve followed. Yui might have awakened with all her old memories, but she still held all the memories and fears of Eve.

>>>Gendo: So...it IS Yui, right?

>>>Kaji: I'm just so lost its not even funny.

 Two lives in one soul, almost like a split personality. She matched Shinji step for step. She even step in the same exact spots he stepped. It was imperative that she did not disrupt ANYTHING.

How long were you waiting for me? The commander asked, only slightly interested.

She answered timidly A couple of hours.

>>>Gendo: Guess it never appealed to her to go into a garage or anything.

He gave no outward response, but inwardly he felt relieved that she was ok. He didn’t live in the safest of neighborhoods. Of course, being second commander, he could afford to move anywhere, even into the nicest sector of Tokyo-3. But he refused to move.

>>>Kaji: So...he lives in that run down shit house?

>>>Kozo: Why did you choose to let her live their anyway?

>>>Gendo: don't know...first add in the paper.

 This was the apartment that he and Rei shared together so many years ago; the building would have to crumble to the ground before he left.

>>>Kaji: Doesn't that mean he should leave then?

>>>Kozo: Some walls are still up..not many.

In this rundown apartment building, he experienced the happiest moments of his life. Even though, at the time, he was also the poorest he had ever been in his life. He and Rei were financially struggling as they tried to live without NERV.

>>>Gendo: What she doesn't eat a thing and its not like my son is Mr.

>>>Possesions.

>>>Kaji: Maybe they changed their tastes?

>>>Gendo: And still lived in Shit Central?

To say they were broke would be the understatement of the millennium. Every thing they owned was either second or third hand, but they were happy. They might have only been able to eat one meal a day, but they were happy.

>>>Kozo: So Rei doubled her eating quota?

 And being happy and being together was all that mattered to them.

It wasn‘t until Shinji thought he wanted a child did they both go back to NERV. It wasn’t only for the money; it was part of the deal they made with the commander. Gendo made them agree to work for NERV again in exchange for a child by use of A.E. Rei knew that the only reason he wanted them back was because he wanted to be around her, so she made sure to stay away from him.

>>>Kozo: That would make marrital relations difficult.

>>>Kaji: Yeah, I'd have to kill my father if he tried to get in my wife's pants.

>>>Kozo: Kaji, that has got to be the dumbest thing you've ever said.

Shinji was oblivious to that fact, until Ritsuko brought it to his attention. It was a few days before Eve was born when she told him.

>>>Gendo: Surprized she could wait that long, normally she just goes out and tells everybody everything she can.

>>>Kozo: Like that time you got drunk?

>>>Kaji: Or got attacked by the dog?

>>>Gendo: I get so pissed at her.

The doctor also told Shinji about his fathers and his wife’s past ‘relationship’ and made suggestive lies that Eve may not really be his daughter and that the commander may have used his own DNA to impregnate his wife.

>>>Kaji: I think she wants Shinji to kill you.

>>>Gendo: She wants everybody to kill me.

That day, the former pilot of unit 01 changed and Ritsuko died that very night. The NERV issued autopsy report wrote her death off as a suicide, caused by self inflicted bullet wounds.

>>>Kozo: Gee..I wonder who knows what cover-up means.

>>>Kaji: Not Shinji, no.

 Eight, fatally, placed, self inflicted bullet wounds. No other investigation followed. However, the true murderer of the doctor is still debated.

>>>Gendo: Doesn't the fact they just said murder prove it wasn't suicide?

>>>Kaji/Kozo: Possible.

Almost half of the NERV personnel believe Shinji did it. The others believe the commander did it. There are those who even think Rei did it, for she desperately tried to keep that part of her past a secret from her husband. She wasn’t pleased when she found out what Ritsuko did.

>>>Gendo: And if its one thing you don't want is Rei mad at you..can't tell if she's telling the truth or not..with that damn tone again.

>>>Kozo: I can still rember " This is the way down right?"

>>>Gendo: Techinally she was right..but a rather sudden drop.

Shinji never *allowed* himself to believe the ‘lies’ Ritsuko told him. He never confronted his wife or his father to find out whether it was true or not. Instead, he pushed it out of his mind because he knew for a fact that Rei was a virgin. He broke her hymen on their wedding night.

>>>Gendo: They really like to replay that scene don't they.

>>>Kaji: Denial works better with repeatition.

He refused to acknowledge the fact that he had married Rei III. So as far as he was concerned, Rei was a virgin....Rei was a virgin....Rei was a virgin... Rei was a VIRGIN!!!!

>>>Kozo: Technacilly she is..but then again she isn't the same Rei.

>>>Kaji: "Like a virgin..touched for the..."

>>>Gendo: Stop signing old songs.

Shinji sighed dejectedly as he continue to try and convince himself of that lie.

Eve looked around the small apartment. It looked as if two people still lived there. She noticed her mother’s clothes draped over the shabby living room furniture and in other various places.

>>>Gendo: What a pig-sty.

>>>Kaji: Must make it hard for him to live NOT picking up a mess.

She remembered being told by her mama that her mother was a very sloppy person. A complete opposite from her dad, who was an infamous anal-retentive. Eve quickly realized that even though the small apartment looked messy, everything was meticulously in place.

Your mother was able to do that....if she felt threatened.

>>>Gendo:Rip a person apart?

>>>Kaji: Make a big mess out of her apartment?

The girl whipped her gaze to her father and asked. Do what?

Teleport. He answered flatly. However, emotionally he was shouting with joy. The information she gave him was exactly what he needed to know.

>>>Kaji: His daughter is a freak.

>>>Kozo: What a proud day for a father.

 He wanted to know if she inherited any of Rei’s divine abilities. Unlike his wife, Eve was created to be more human than angel. If she wasn’t part angel, she would never be able to complete the job he had for. Though he did not outwardly express his emotions, he was pleased.

>>>Kaji: The stick up his butt must have a stick up its butt.

>>>Kozo: And have a few bugs in it.

 Very pleased. Now it would only be a matter of time before he was reunited with his beloved wife again.

He walked into his small bedroom and over to the closet without disturbing the few outfits that belonged to Rei, he pulled out one of his dress shirts, then held it out to his daughter.

>>>Kaji: Bought time they got rid of that towel, that look is making me sick.

>>>Kozo: What look?

>>>Kaji: His 'points at Gendo.'

>>>Gendo: I don't like you implications, mearly a cold.

Hesitantly, Eve took it from him and quickly started to put it on over the towel. However, her mind wasn’t on her actions it was on what her father just told her. She had powers...like her mother. That meant she was an angel too.

>>>Gendo: And that means you must die, sortie the Eva's!

>>>Kozo: Well, if she's a full one.

Also ,her mind seemed to be having a war for control. The soul, that was Yui wanted to remember, but the child which was Eve wanted to forget Yui’s past life, past love and past desires.

>>>Kaji: Should their only be one soul?

>>>Kozo: Thought Yui 'tricked' the other soul out of the body.

>>>Gendo: Yeah, but she can't be as ruthless as me...sharing sucks.

 Yui wanted to get back to Gendo, she wanted to morn for her husband. Eve wanted to try and forget. She wanted to pretend that everything was ok. That’s how she lived her life, pretending everything was ok. Right now, she didn’t want to mourn for her grandfather.

>>>Kozo:  Guess you're not as good a grandfather as you hoped.

>>>Kaji: I think the attempted..

>>>Gendo: Silence, I will not sit here and allow you to mock me, your

>>>Superior.

>>>Kozo: And what a superior you are.

 She didn’t want to remember that her mama beat her again. She didn’t want Yui’s memories! So she forced herself to forget. Eve regained control of her mind *and* what she was going to think about.

Shinji noticed his daughter in trance like state. Impatiently, he waited for her to put the shirt on so he could escort her out of his and Rei’s bedroom. He wasn’t going to risk anything being touched.

>>>Kaji: Thank goodness he's not like you.

>>>Gendo: Maybe he ment the room.

>>>Kaji: I don't know..he's looking at her oddly too.

The towel that was caked in dried blood, slid down her legs and pooled around her feet. Nervously, she picked it up and cradled it against her chest. Her eyes wandered around the small room. Instantly, she could tell which side was her mothers.

>>>Kaji: Is it really that hard, who else could have about nothing and still >>>have a mess.

Rei’s side had messy piles of papers and books all along the wall with some clothes mixed in here and there. Her father’s side was impeccably neat. However, nothing was covered in dust. It was as if her dad kept *everything* clean, but put everything back in its *exact place*.

>>>Kaji: So, the impossible?

>>>Kozo: Not if you take about thirty minutes per shirt.

Eve took a deep breath, she was really afraid to be here. She didn’t understand why she ‘teleported’ here. She didn’t know why she stayed outside his door after she realized where she was. Then she heard it. The almost silent clink of his tinted glassed being placed on the dresser.

>>>Kozo: Another child with super hearing.

>>>Gendo: He should have his glasses oiled.

Slowly and fearfully, she meet his gaze. The child, the Eve part of her, was surprised that his eyes were blue. The Yui part of her was taken back by his eyes as well, but for a different reason. His dark blue eyes seem to pierce her soul, they judged her, hated her and.... decided what he was going to do with her.

>>>Kaji: By that look, I'd say throw her in front of a truck.

>>>Kozo: To many witnesses, He'll just let her stay their until the building >>>falls.

 She was afraid. Afraid of him and afraid....of this apartment.

Are you hungry? He asked dispassionately.

That question took her off guard. The young girl wanted to lie and say no, but at the mention of possibly getting food her stomach growled.

Not waiting for a verbal answer, he accepted her body’s response and walked toward her, purposely making her back up until they were safely out of the bedroom.

>>>Kaji: Just about the time the ceiling fell.

>>>Gendo: Instant food I bet, no room for any cooking gear.

Eve was told to sit at the small dining table and not to move and not to touch anything while Shinji prepared a meal for both of them. To her right, the young girl noticed a powder blue cushion at the end of the low table. She figured that her mother most likely sat there.

>>>Gendo: Why?

>>>Kozo: Its blue.

>>>Gendo: So?

>>>Kaji: Her hair is blue.

>>>Gendo: And that means?

>>>Kozo/Kaji: How should we know?

Part of her wanted to touch it, she just wanted to touch something that belonged to her mother... but she knew better and she kept her hands demurely in her lap.

>>>Kozo: That explains the cuts on her hands.

>>>Kaji: I hate rulers for that reason.

It wasn’t long before Shinji came back with the food. Unlike Rei who could not eat any type of meat, Eve could eat seafood. Shinji brought out two plates and a bowl. He placed a plate of fried fish in front of his daughter and a plate at the end of the table where he sat. However, before he sat down, he placed a bowl of ramen at the end of the table adjacent to him.

>>>Gendo: So he wastes food?

>>>Kaji: No wonder he has no money.

Eve swallowed hard and became very interested in her food. She didn’t want to think about that fact that her father made food for her deceased mother. She didn’t want to wonder if he did this every time he ate a meal at this table. She didn’t want to acknowledge the fact that her father was crazy.

>>>Kaji: She has her denial mojo working.

>>>Kozo: A pro, just like her father.

Before he made himself comfortable in his own spot, Shinji gave melancholy glance at the empty cushion. The meal was quite, uncomfortably quite, and the tension in the room was as thick as mud.

>>>Kaji: If Katsuragi is right, just about every meal is like that.

It was too much for the young girl, she looked up from her plate and sobbed out. I’m sorry daddy... I’m sorry that... because I was born... mother was taken away!

The 2nd commander clenched his jaw angrily,

>>>Kozo: He's the commander now.

>>>Gendo: Its not easy with everybody wanting me do die.

 but did not look up from his plate. He had to fight the urge to say what his heart was screaming; for he was sorry too. Sorry she was ever brought into life, since it cost him his wife.

Receiving the reaction she expected, but not the one she wanted...no needed...Eve began to cry. I know that ... She shook her head. I’m sorry daddy...I wish there was a way I could bring her back to you.... I wish she was still alive so you would be happy... so we all could be happy..

>>>Kaji: That was not the right thing to say.

>>>Gendo: One life for another, fire up the plugs!

>>>Kaji: That child has a death wish.

His dark eyes instantly focused on the girl in front of him, and a sardonic smile tugged at his thin lips. Do you really mean that Eve...because I know of a way.

>>>Kozo: And it will only cost your soul.

>>>Gendo: Don't forget the pain.

Her eyes widened in surprise. A chill ran down her spine as she stared at him. That smile.. it made her even more afraid. Eve roughly wiped some of her tears away and hiccupped out. You do?

>>>Gendo: No! just wanted you to get you're hopes up to DASH them ahah

>>>Kaji: You are the most evil...

Shinji gave a slight nod and smirked as he rested his elbows on the table and interlaced his fingers.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It wasn’t long before Shinji had brought Eve back to NERV. It was well past 2am and the headquarters were quite.

>>>Kaji: Nothing was stirring not even a mouse.

>>>Kozo: Well the sick obsessed husband is stirring.

 Very quite, due to only guards being there at these late hours. The heals of his shoes kinked across the metal floors.

>>>Gendo: My son is a cross dresser!

>>>Kaji: High heels.

Eve’s bare feet made light slapping sounds as she followed her father’s hurried steps. He seemed excited. Happy even. She smiled, pleased to know that she had something to do with her father’s merry disposition.

>>>Gendo:When she learns about her upcoming death will she still be?

>>>Kaji: Won't all that broken glass hurt her feet?

They reached his large office in record time and quickly made their way toward the back wall. The small girl’s eyes widened in surprised when her father pressed the buttons of a hidden key pad, and a secret door slid open.

Come, Eve. Shinji ordered warmly. There is someone you should meet.

>>>Kaji: Its meet your dead mother day at work.

>>>Gendo: Thats Tuesdays.

<someone I should meet?> The girl didn’t know who he was talking about. Why would anyone she should meet be locked away in a secret room. Her mental question was answered almost immediately. Her hand slapped over her mouth and she suppressed a scream, a cry, a shout of fear and joy.

>>>Kozo: Confused again.

>>>Kaji: Just can't make up her mind.

 This was the first time she had ever laid eyes on her.

MOTHER!! The little girl ran over to the large cylinder tank which encased the deceased Rei Ikari.

The woman’s eyes snapped open and she stared curiously at the unfamiliar child in front of her.

>>>Kaji: Eve, this is your life.

>>>Kozo: All 20 remaining minutes of it.

Oh mommy!!! The child sobbed out as she hugged the cool curved glass. She oh so wanted to wrap her hands around the angel inside, but she was stuck on the wrongs side of the glass.

>>>Gendo: Well that can easily be taken care of.

>>>Kaji: Unfortunaly.

When Rei started to mimic her motions by spreading her arms against the glass, the child cried harder. All she saw was her mother trying to hug her; she didn’t know that Rei didn’t have a will of her own.

>>>Kozo: Guess the fact she's nude doesn't bother the girl.

>>>Gendo: And showing sings of were and tair.

>>>Kozo/Kaji: WHERE ARE YOU LOOKING!!

 Eve hugged against the glass tighter and cried out hysterically. I knew you loved me mommy!! I knew it... I love you too!!

That was all Eve ever wanted. To be loved, truly loved, for no other reason than just because it was *her*. Not her likeness. Not because she was someone’s daughter.

>>>Kaji: Well who DOESN'T!!!

>>>Kozo: Eve just asked for the number 1 x-mas gift for all time.

>>>Gendo: And all she needed was a dead clone in a jar.

 Not because they were forced to pretend to. She wanted someone to love her... like her mother must have loved her. Her mother gave up her life so she could live. That was true unconditional love. The type of love that Eve always secretly longed for.

>>>Kaji: Knowing this movie, bet Rei takes up the offer of letting her die

>>> to come back.

>>>Kozo: Eve just has the suckiest life I've heard of...well save Shinji's.

Shinji looked at the two and smiled. Not because the scene was so touching; he smiled because he was so close to getting Rei back. He took off the jacket and started to up button his shirt. While doing so he called out Eve.

Too wrapped up in this emotional reunion, the girl didn’t hear him call her.

>>>Kaji: She'll have a relapse when seeing that and pass out.

>>>Kozo: That girls seen more naked men  than people twice her age.

Shinji called her again with at stern voice that demanded attention. She quickly turned to face him. Her eyes widened fearfully when she noticed that her dad was topless and was undoing his pant. The first thing that flashed across her mind was what her grandfather did to her before he was.....She backed up fearfully.

>>>Gendo: Now that would have been in poor taste.

>>>Kaji: And molesting your wife's dead corpse isn't?

>>>Gendo: I have no problems with it.

I’m not going to hurt you. The 2nd commander assured when he noticed her frightened disposition. The look she gave him told him that she didn’t believe him. Our clothes may carry bacteria that may harm your mother.

>>>Kaji: And...nevermind forget it.

>>>Gendo/Kozo: Thanks

Eve turned and looked at her mom who was staring apathetically at her. She turned back to her father How will it hurt her if we are out here?

>>>Kaji: Ok, she's as dense as her father.

We are going in there to join her.

Eve’s eyes widened.

I thought you wanted for all of us to become a family.? He had his thumbs tucked into the sides of his pants as he stared quizzically at her. I thought you wanted to help me bring her back ....Isn‘t that what you want?

Of course I do daddy! She cried out and quickly started to unbutton the shirt.

>>>Gendo: What unholy use of a trusting child for his own gain..I'M SO >>>PROUD!!

He smirked and pulled down his pants.

When it slid off her shoulder and fell around her ankles. Shinji directed her to the shower. Both showered quickly yet thoroughly . Eve was at first wary of her fathers attention, but quickly got over her fear when she realized that he did not care that she was naked or that he was too.

>>>Kozo: Wonder what Yui thinks of her son.

>>>Gendo: If she see's ME in him I'll have to kill him.

>>>Kaji: That would be the child/mother being attracted to the son.

 She could tell by the way he almost brutally cleaned his skin that their nudity was clearly for her mothers protection, and nothing more.

She still felt uncomfortable though.

>>>Kozo: The aproaching feeling of death?

When they were finished bathing and rinsed off, Shinji lead her up the many steps that lead to the top of the large cylinder tank.

Rei watched them curiously as her husband lowered their daughter in, painstakingly slow. He did not want Rei hurt, with Eve’s decent.

>>>Kaji: First she's a mirror, then she has her own feelings..then mirror.

>>>Kozo: How could she get hurt if he's....with it?

This was the first time Eve had been in LCL since she was born. Instinctively, she tried to hold her breath.

Shinji had lowered himself as well. It was a tight fit with three bodies so he made a more conscious effort not to bump into Rei.

>>>Kaji: Well..not with Eve their.

 Unfortunately, he didn’t give the same respect to his daughter.

Eve had the air, she had been holding in her puff out cheeks, knocked out of her when her father accidentally hit her on the shoulder with his elbow . Oh the pain!! She felt like her arm and her whole left side was paralyzed!!

>>>Kaji: All that from a bump?

>>>Kozo: maybe if that bump was a bullet.

 Because of the pain, she wasn’t even affected when the warm thick liquid rushed in through her nose and mouth an filled her lungs and stomach.

Shinji glanced at his daughter and said. Gomen

>>>Kaji: Guess she's about to die.

>>>Gendo: See, he's weak...saying sorry.

Breathing heavily, she looked up at her dad and nodded. She was in to much pain to do anything else, and she was willing herself not to cry. It took her about 5 minutes before the pain disappeared and for her to regain complete composure. During that time, she watched her father turn to her mom and place gentle kisses on her lips, the tip of her nose, and along her jaw line.

>>>Kaji: So he doesn't think it wrong to ..assult his dead wife while

>>> his daughter is present?

>>>Kozo: Why not have Asuka their in the spectators booth.

 Eve couldn’t help but smile. Her dad looked like he loved her mom so much. He would star into her deep crimson eyes as if he wanted to drown in them. She could tell by his dark blue eyes that he would do anything for her mom, and do *anything* to get her back and she wanted to help him.

>>>Gendo: She missed something their didn't she.

>>>Kaji: Just the part about her needing to die.

>>>Kozo: Guess she doesn't care though.

Eve wanted to be a family with her mom and dad.

Daddy.. She asked happily. How can I help you bring mommy back to us?

>>>Gendo: Go to sleep forever.

>>>Kozo: Never repeat any of this to anybody...for the rest of your life.

Shinji pealed his gaze away from his angelic wife, and smiled at his daughter. All you have to do is call her name.

Huh? Eve was confused.

>>>Kaji: As are the rest of us, but its been that way since this started.

 If all she had do was call her mother’s name, then she could have done that on the other side of the glass, with her clothes on.

>>>Kaji: It wouldn't have fit the mold of oddness.

Shinji could tell she didn’t understand. At the moment, it was probably for the best. He maneuvered Rei so that she was behind him and he floated directly in front of his child.

>>>Kozo: Ah, that aught to finish the complex nicely.

>>>Gendo: Get a nice look at your dead mother.

Eve backed up slightly and found herself pressed against the cool curved glass. She swallowed hard Ummm daddy...I’ll just call mommy’s name right now. She wasn’t sure of his intentions with her.

Do you know her name? He asked innocently as he floated closer to her.

>>>Kaji: Do you even know this is your mother?

>>>Gendo: Because its not, its all a joke..ha ha..isn't it funny?

The child gave her father a frightened confused expression then answered meekly ...Rei.. Ikari? She raised and furrowed her brow in her uncertainty. But she was fairly sure that she was correct.

Shinji shook his head no.

>>>Gendo: So...she changed her name?

>>>Kozo: That or Rei wasn't really the mother.

The girl looked confused and embarrassed, but she tried again. Rei Ayanami?

He shook his head no.

Eve took a deep breath and guessed again ... Lillith? Asuka had told her about both halves of her mother’s DNA.

Shinji shook his head again.

With one more try, the child squeaked out. Lillith-Rei?

>>> Kaji: He is having to much fun with this game.

>>>Kozo: Whats next Rei Langely?

>>>Gendo: Asuka Ayanami.

Shinji sighed and gave her the answer she sought. It’s Kiboo. Her divine name is Kiboo.

>>>Gendo/Kaji/Kozo: Bullshit.

>>>Kaji: And he knows this how?

>>>Kozo: Kiboo and bits and bits and bits.

Upon saying her name, the 2nd commander remembered the discussion he had with her and Kaworu when they revealed their true self to him. It was during the 3rd impact when Rei told him that she was hope and Kaworu admitted to being love.

>>>Kaji: Than wouldn't that make her existance happier?

>>>Kozo: If she's hope...mankind was doomed from the start.

>>>Kaji: Hope is a deadpan pale girl...shoot me now.

Eve’s eyes widened. She never knew. She stiffened again when he floated closer to her.

Are you ready? He asked with a wry smile.

She nodded hesitantly.

He could see fear in her eyes when he asked with false warmth. Do you trust me?

>>>kaji: Lets see...you've hated her since birth, let her almost die...plan to

>>> kill her...and now put her in a tank with her dead mother.

>>>Kozo: She'll say yes.

The logical side of the child screamed NO! Actually ,it screamed HELL NO!!! Something wasn’t right in the way he was looking at her, but she forced herself to nod and say Yes, daddy. I trust you.

>>>Gendo: Children, so easy to use.

>>>Kozo: And really stupid if you think about it.

>>>Gendo: Even better, if they were smart they'd be harder to control.

He smirked, reached out and placed his hand on the top of her head, closed his eyes and started speaking a mantra in a strange language.

>>>Kaji: English.

>>>Kozo: I'd think German.

 She stiffened when he gently ran his hand over her face and rested it under her chin and around her neck. When her father opened his dark blue eyes it shined with the hate that he had always felt toward her.

>>>Kaji: So if he wants to finish be better move his ands before he

>>> strangles her.

 She felt like her blood turned to ice. She wanted to scream out, push him away get out of there.... but it was too late. The last thing she heard was him tell her...

Do not forget to call her name out!

>>>Kozo: Oh, and don't let the pain get to you.

>>>Gendo: If you fail I'll hunt you..wait..guess he can't.

Then it was over. She felt his grip tighten on her neck, and then felt her head turn sharply to the right. The sound of her own neck snapping echoed in her ears. It wasn’t an instant death.

>>>Gendo: Its not fun if its instant.

>>>Kaji: Have to savour the betrayal.

 For there isn’t a such thing as an ‘instant death’ It takes time for the body to slow down and cease functioning.

>>>Kozo: Not if you're shot in the head.

>>>Gendo: Or sucked into an Eva.

So as she waited for her body to die completely, her lifeless carcass sunk to the bottom of the tank.

<At least it wasn’t painful> She solemnly thought to herself.

Physically painful, that is. Her mind was quickly losing rational thought, She was thankful that this last betrayal was the final scar on her already bruise heart and she mentally cried.

<I...thought...he ...wanted us....to be... a family.....>

>>>Kaji: Well if he kills himself they'll be a family of dead people.

>>>Kozo: I see alot of dead people.

>>>Gendo: Only one is FULLY dead.

It took about 20 mores seconds before she lost a vision and 5 seconds after that.. she felt her soul leaving her body.

>>>Kaji: Can you really feel that?

>>>Gendo: Yes.

>>>Kaji/Kozo: O......k.

She was dead. Her father had killed her... and in her death, she now understood the words he had spoken before he committed this grievance act. ... I give you... a soul for a soul... I give you back the soul of my child in exchange for the soul of my wife...... A soul for a soul...let the old deal be broken.....

>>>Kaji: What a nice thing for a sick father to do..

>>>Kozo:Go meet your mother for about 2 seconds then say goodbye.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

As if being murdered by ones father wasn‘t enough, Eve had to deal with a new torment once she appeared in the spiritual realm. It was her alter ego. The original owner of her soul. Yui.

>>>Gendo: Ok...what the hell does that mean?

>>>Kozo: I am so past confused, so..Yui was the original owner even

>>>though she had to trick her way into it..and where did Eve even come >>>from?

>>>Gendo: I don't think it really matters.

After being dormant for so long, Yui was determined to take control. Eve could feel the reign she had on the woman breaking, and the alter soul was fighting to come to the surface.

>>>Kaji: That would be a rude awakening.

>>>Kozo: I'm alive...I'm dead.

The desire of the other woman was to find her husband. Gendo had died not so long ago, so she still had a chance to find him before he wandered too far in the infinite vastness of this realm.

>>>Gendo: She has a one track mind.

>>>Kaji: And what a sick track it is.

Eve was tempted to allow the woman to have control. What did it matter, her father had betrayed her! Why should she help him?! Why should she call out her mothers name for *him*?!! Why should she?!

>>>Gendo: Because she's a dumb kid and will do what she's told.

>>>Kaji: Why would she help a twisted ex-dead wife?

>>>Kozo: Um..either way she goes thats what she's doing.

...... Because she loved him. Even after what he did. She still loved him.

Eve sighed heavily. She was tired. Her life was emotionally painful, and her death not only killed her body, it emotionally killed her as well.

>>>Gendo/Kozo: NO!

>>>Kaji: Thats what death usually does.

 The only comfort she had now *was* her death, and strangely she was glad to be dead. She didn’t want to go back to Asuka, not after that last beating.

>>>Kaji: The sweet taste of perfection.

>>>Kozo: Only she would consider that perfect.

Her grandfather was dead... and her father.... She shook her head. Once she called out her mother’s name, she as going to allow Yui to have control, for all she wanted to do was disappear.

Kiboo!

I AM SHE

>>>Gendo: Good, who are you again?

>>>Kozo: The dog food person. Kiboo and bits......

Eve’s eyes widened when everything around her seemed to brighten. The voice was as vast as the plain she was in, as boisterous as thunder, but also as soft as a whisper.

>>>Kaji: Rei never could agree on a single voice type.

>>>Gendo: That she couldn't.

 It also seemed to sing out in every language imaginable, at the same time. It was completely and utterly divine.

In a frightened whisper, Eve squeaked out. ....M-m-mother?

>>>Kozo: No, its your grandfather and he wants more private time.

>>>Gendo: Hey! you claim to be my friend old man!

Instantly, A blinding white light exploded in front of the child,

>>>Kaji: And her soul was obliterated in it.

 and there stood Rei Ikari. Nude with six majestic wings coming out of her back that looked to be made out of pure energy.

>>>Gendo: Well, been a long time since I've seen that.

>>>Kozo: Rei seems to like to be nude in this movie.

>>>Gendo: Whats with the wings?

Why are you here? The angel asked warmly. It is not your time.

>>>Kaji: Hate to disagree but she is dead so it is her time.

>>>Kozo: How did she miss that one.

The girl looked up at her mother with her tired and weary eyes, but did not answer the question. She didn’t want confess what her father did to her.

Eve didn’t have to speak her answer, Rei knew, the sorrow that was emitting from the child’s soul told her everything she needed to know.

>>>Gendo: Good, now they won't have to discribe it again.

>>>Kaji: Don't think I could handle it a second time.

 The blue haired angel gave the girl a beatific smile, drew her into her arms and embraced the child lovingly.

Eve wrapped her arms around her mother’s slender waist and cried onto her bosom. This was exactly what she needed.

>>>Kozo: Her mothers chest?

>>>Gendo: She has an inferority complex.

 To be loved and to be comforted. It was such a long day....no one cared enough to comfort her. No one cared enough to see past their own pain and look at hers...but her mother did. Her mother loved her.

>>>Kaji: Her mother is a pale six-winged dead angel.

>>>Kozo: Eve knows how to complain really well.

Eve tightened her embrace and rested her palms on her mother back. She was surprised to discover that her mother’s wings were not connected to her body, and that instead of feeling like electricity, they felt like a strong wind current.

>>>Kozo: Guess their goes the idea of using Rei as a power plant.

>>>Gendo: How about a wind generator?

 Eve half-thought she would have received the shock of her life if she touch them.

>>>kaji: Wouldn't it have been shock of her death?

>>>Kozo: Cut the comedy.

She didn’t care though. All she every wanted was someone to hug her and mean it.

Rei gently caressed the child’s face and wiped her tears away. I’m here now She cooed gently. I won’t let anyone harm you anymore.

>>>Gendo: Its her job to hurt her now.

>>>Kozo: NOW FLY DAMN YOU FLY!

The girl nodded appreciatively and cried harder.

Shhh.. I’m here my child... The former first child leaned forward and gave the girl a gentle kiss on her forehead. I will never leave you again.

>>>Kaji: Thats not something she should have said in this movie.

>>>Kozo: Just begging for something to screw up.

Eve put a tighter grip around her mother. Rei‘s, or should I say Kiboo‘s soul.... it was a pure soul, and it radiated Gods love, God’s joy, God’s peace, and God’s Hope. No wonder her father went insane when his wife was taken from him.

>>>Gendo: But Rei is part human.

>>>Kaji: Guess she shed her human part when she died.

>>>Gendo: My boy will be pissed.

 To be away from her was probably like being taken out of the light and the warmth and thrown into a dark, cold, dungeon that was rat infested and disease riddled.

>>>Kaji: Or for Shinji his normal life.

>>>Gendo: Don't forget the pain, you seem to always forget it.

As angry as Eve was with her father, this little meeting with her mother made her understand her dad’s determination to get her back. Eve unconsciously wiped her tears away against her mother’s body.

>>>Kaji: And a healthy does of snot too.

>>>Kozo: Bet Rei wished she had something on now.

Rei gave her child a soft smile because she knew that she would do the same thing on Shinji, the few times she did cry when they were together. Eve must have inherited that from her.

Eve looked up at her mom and said between hiccups. Please forgive, daddy.

>>>Gendo: Why?

>>>Kaji: She's still high on love?

Rei gently brushed the last of the girls tears away. She was not going to make that promise, for she was too angry. Shinji had killed their child.

Rei looked into her daughter’s violet eyes and asked. Why did he do this to you?

>>>Kozo: Guess the denseness is genetic.

>>>Kaji: Rei didn't watch over her child, husband,.....semi-live body.

Eve was about to answer but was interrupted when her mother’s eyes widened fearfully.

Rei felt her body being pulled out of the spiritual realm.

Eve started to cry again when her mom was pulled out their embrace. Ai shiteru , mommy!!

>>>Gendo: And now for more pain. I was getting withdrawl pains.

EVE!! Rei grabbed the child’s hand as she was being pulled away. What is happening?!

>>>Kaji: Wouldn't she know from reading her mind?

Gomen, mommy... The girl sobbed out. I was sent here to call out your name... so you can go back to daddy.

Rei shook her head as tears streamed down her checks. She couldn’t leave yet; she had the help her daughter. She needed to spilt her soul or Eve was going to be a tortured soul.

>>>Kozo: And she's not?

>>>Kaji: Kids been tortured from the moment of creation.

 Eve and her grandmother were like a spilt personality. Yui, who was intertwined with her daughter,

>>>Gendo: So...Rei is intertwined with Yui?

>>>Kozo: Thought it was Eve.

>>>Gendo: Said daughter, not granddaughter.

 would never give up on finding Gendo, and once she found him, and she would find him, it would be an internal battle for control. Yui would want to live out her eternity with her husband.

>>>Kozo: But he's in hell, not heaven.

>>>Gendo: She'll find a way to bring me to heaven.

>>>Kaji: And pollute the place?

 Eve would *not* want that relationship with her grandfather. Rei was going to rectify this, and separate the two, but now.... she didn’t have time.

The former first child whispered out painfully I love you. for it was hurting her to try and stay. She formed and energy ball in her hand and without warning she threw it at the child,

>>>Kaji: Guess utter destruction is a way of seperating them.

>>>Gendo: Well, gone is gone.

 only a second before she vanished. She only hoped that her hasty efforts were sufficient to separate them.

>>>Kozo: But most likely it won't.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Shinji was still in the cylinder tank with his wife. It had been hours since Eve died, but he didn’t doubt that his plan worked.

>>>Kaji: Um..should he be doing that if he expects his wife back?

>>>Kozo: That would be an akward hello.

 Eve was partially divine. So she would be able to say Rei’s true name in the spiritual realm. Lillium couldn’t speak her name, or any of the angel’s true names, in the spiritual realm.

>>>Gendo: So no talking from you then.

>>>Kozo: How is Eve divine?

>>>Gendo: How should I know, I just dumped a bunch of chemicals in the beaker when we started this mess anyway.

So there was no choice, he had to kill Eve in order to get Rei back. I was the only way...

Shinji glanced toward his feet then quickly looked away. The 2nd commander didn’t want to miss his wife’s reawakening, so he left the child slumped at the bottom. Eve was facing him; her neck was twisted in an awkward position and she stared at him with lifeless violet eyes.

>>>Kaji: Guess it would take to much effort to close her eyes.

>>>Gendo: Its a full 2 feet down, she can just stare.

The former third child saw the immediate change when Rei’s eyes became aware of her surrounding and he quickly kissed her.

Rei pushed him back and narrowed her eyes angrily. What have you done?!

>>>Kaji: Become what he hated most?

>>>Kozo: Commited numerous attrocities to man and other.

>>>Gendo: Succeded.

He knew she would react like this; although, he hoped she wouldn’t. He hoped that she would understand... understand that he couldn’t live without her. I had to.. He cried. It was the only way!

Rei shook her head and cried out. You killed our baby!

>>>Gendo: So?

>>>Kozo: Most parents want their child to live.

>>>Gendo: Weak-minded parents.

I had too.... He sobbed and tried to embrace her.

She hit his hands away and shook her head no.

Please...Rei.... He sobbed out as he tried to embrace her again. I am sooooo sorry... He cried harder But please try to understand... I had too....it was the only way... When she hit his hands away from him again, he cupped his hands over his face and sobbed. It was the only way....for us to be together...

>>>Kaji: Well sucks to be him.

>>>Kozo: Guess he knows what the 2nd child felt now.

Rei pushed away from him, kicked her legs and swam up to the top of the tank. She wanted ...no needed to get away from him.

I was just about to follow you... when I found the spell....

>>>Kaji: The sickness spell.

>>>Kozo: Makes even the nicest notions the most vile one concevable.

She stopped her escape and looked back at the weeping man. You would be damned if you committed suicide. You know that.

I know.. He admitted in a broken whisper while nodding. I didn’t care...I just couldn’t bare another day without you anymore..

>>>Kozo: So he'll commit suicide and be seperated for all eternity.

>>>Gendo: He's never been the most inteligent child.

 Remorsefully, he looked up at her and cried out. Rei...I-I love you so much........I’m sorry...I truly am...but I love you...and when I found that spell after I had given up... It was like someone was giving us a second chance... because ...

>>>Gendo: He's an idiot.

>>>Kaji: Just as dumb as his father.

He kept his gaze with her even though he wanted to turn away. His red rimmed, dark blue eyes pleaded with her to understand. Because they knew that ....I can‘t live without you... He began to sob harder. I just can‘t!

>>>Kozo: What would you call that?

>>>Kaji: Sad.

>>>Gendo: Weak, crying like that.

The blue haired woman could seen in his eyes that he meant everything he said and that he was sorry. Truly sorry. However, she wasn’t sure if he was sorry because of what he did, or because she was upset with him.

>>>Kaji: I'd say both.

>>>Gendo: I'd be sorry to have to explain myself.

 Rei stared at him for about a minute and debated whether or not she should forgive him. She looked a little further down and noticed her daughter. Her eyes rolled angrily and she took a deep and angry breath.

>>>Kaji: Being lazy never pays off, 2 minutes stashing the body and...

 She had made her decision, and turned around and was about to lift her self out of the tank. Then she remembered Eve’s words.

Please forgive daddy.

Shinji Rei spoke sternly not bothering to turn around.

She swallowed hard. ....Yes..

I am very upset and disappointed with you. She paused when she heard him wail. She turned slightly and looked at him. Shinji looked as if she just ripped his heart out.

>>>Gendo: That comes later, magic has its price.

>>>Kaji: One soul for another...and Eve's didn't count.

 She knew that he hated for her to be either of those things toward him. She knew that he would gladly turn himself inside out to please her. So for her to say that to him was almost as bad as telling him that she no longer loved him.

>>>Kaji: Say it and lets watch him eat glass.

>>>Gendo: Ah, baby gonna cry some more.

However, she was the same. She would do anything for him; even give up her life if it would make him happy. She *did* give up her life to please him,  numerous of times.

>>>Gendo: But she keeps coming back.

>>>Kozo: Like an undead energizer bunny.

Fearfully, the man asked in a broken sob. D-d-do you still love me?

>>>Kozo: Until she learns about the 'visits.'

Without hesitation she answered Yes. Very much so.

He smiled despite his heartache. Despite the tears that were streaming down out of his eyes and dissolving in the LCL..

In a very similar manner he would do her in his visits with her, Rei allowed herself to float down to him and she wrapped her arms around his neck. Brushing her cheek against his, she whispered in his ear. And I forgive you.....no matter what you do... I will always forgive you.

>>>Gendo: We will see about that.

>>>Kaji: Thats alot to forgive.

She was still utterly upset with him though, but she would keep that to herself. Eve asked her to forgive him, her heart would never stay mad at him, so it was best just let it go now.

Shinji sobbed harder and wrapped his arms around her in a tight embrace. Like always, she was so forgiving. Too forgiving,

>>>Kaji: Keep bitching like that and lets see what happens.

>>>Gendo: I'd kill for Yui to have been that forgiving.

>>>Kozo: You tried that already.

No matter what he did, she forgave him. They hugged and cried onto each other shoulders for about 5 minutes. Rei comforted him with loving reassuring words the whole time.

When Rei pulled back, Shinji panicked, fearing that she changed her mind. His fears were immediately calmed when she gave him a beautiful smile and suggested.

Let’s go home.

>>>Gendo: Whos?

>>>Kaji: I doubt murders are allowed in heaven.

>>>Gendo: I hope they are.

He nodded readily, then remembered. ‘What about Ev-

Rei’s smile fell, and she shook her head no as she place a gentle finger on his lips. Tomorrow. We will worry about Eve’s body tomorrow....there is nothing we can do for her now.

>>>Kaji: She's just as bad as he is!

>>>Kozo: What a mother, just leave the body.

Shinji nodded solemnly while he mentally whispered a prayer for forgiveness for the sin he committed against his child.

Rei could see the sorrow in his eyes. It pleased her that he was repentant and that his heart wasn’t completely stone. Ai shiteru She assured to him softly.

>>>Gendo: If it was, why would he be their?

>>>Kozo: Wasting time.

He breathed out I love you more right before he captured her lips in a sensuous kiss.

Rei melted into the kiss. Shinji was always an excellent kisser, and he seemed to have gotten better over the years. <hmmm> She pulled back from the kiss, forked her brow and stared into his dark blue eyes.

>>>Gendo: Here it is.

>>>Kaji: That or she thinks he's had a mistress.

>>>Gendo: Can't expect a man NOT to have one can you?

>>>Kozo: What did Yui see in you?

Shinji was unsure and afraid that she changed her mind again when she broke the kiss, but understood exactly why she did what she did when he gazed into her crimson eyes. He was embarrassed but not ashamed when he admitted I missed you, Rei-chan... so I would visit you often.

That was all he admitted to doing, but Rei understood completely. She wasn’t disgusted or angered just surprised and..... kind of flattered.

>>>Gendo: I..think I'm going to be sick.

>>>Kaji: So she likes the fact he slept with her dead body.

>>>Gendo: What nasty children.

>>>Kozo: And you helped shape both of them.

 Even though, Shinji was 10 years older, he was still extremely handsome, even more so than when he was younger. Rei was sure that he could have had his choice of women, but he chose to stay faithful to her.

>>>Kozo: Um..couldn't he have done that without the necrophilia?

>>>Gendo: Have your cake and eat it too.

 She slipped her hand in his and suggested again with a beatific smile. Lets go home.

He gave her a toothy smile and nodded as he positioned himself so he could swim ahead of her. I’ll go first and help you out okay!

She nodded with a warm smile and kissed him.

>>>Kaji: Todays been fun, get reborn, my daughter's dead, and my husband liked to sleep with my lifeless shell.

While they kissed Shinji kept his eyes open and watched his wife. Too many years he closed his eyes, because she had no will of her own during their love making. She used to be an expert mime.

>>>Gendo: How could she mimic that? not like women have the same movements as men during it.

>>>Kaji: Its not something I want to think about.

But now...she initiated this kiss and every move was her own .. he didn’t want to miss it. Shinji felt happily lost in love as he stared into her crimson eyes. It seemed that Rei wanted to watch him too. It had also been a long time since she had seen him.

>>>Kaji: Not like being in heaven allowed her the option.

>>>Kozo: Actually it did, what was she doing?

The second commander smiled against her lips; he loved to see her eyes sparkle with life and love. Then....

>>>Kaji: The set up...

Rei’s head leaned to the right and Shinji watched that sparkle fad.

REI!!!!

No response. Her body was lifeless.... sinking...... down.....hitting the bottom... slumping .....by their daughter....

>>>Kozo: And the punch line.

>>>Kaji: Resulting in..I'd like to say a crazed Shinji.

Shinji’s eyes were focused on Rei’s eyes. Her lifeless eyes. They were open like

>>>Kaji: All those late night visits to the tank?

... his gaze momentarily shifted... They were open like Eve’s. Violet and scarlet eyes staring up at him.... Then Shinji noticed the blood.

There was _so_ much_ blood.....Where was it coming from?

>>>Gendo: I'd say the head wound but I'm not a doctor.

>>>Kozo: Well it does seem to be..rather open doesn't it.

>>>Kaji: She's missing half her face.

.... Then something floated in front of him...With a shaking hand, he grabbed it. It was spongy... it was..... muscle...tissue...it was ... brain.... a chuck of brain..? Whose?..

>>>Kaji: What a stupid ass.

>>>Kozo: Lets think, wife is fine then dead..See brain..who's brain could it be, not hers..no.

>>>Kaji: I repeat, stupid ass.

In shock, Shinji looked back at his wife.... How could he have missed it... The whole top portion of the right side of Rei’s head was missing and blood was oozing out of the left side....

Shinji realized he wasn’t breathing. <How?>... Shinji looked to the left, and outside of the glass tank, his answer came.

>>>Kaji: Whats left of the tank, bullets and glass don't really mix.

>>>Gendo: Whats keeping the LCL in that tank?

If I can’t have you.... Asuka frowned with her gun in hand. She can’t either.

NOOOO!!!! DAMN YOU ASUKA!!!

>>>Gendo: God's already done that.

>>>Kaji: Over and over again.

The 2nd commander quickly floated down to his wife, gathering all pieces of tissue matter that was floating out of large creator in her head.

Asuka watched as he franticly tried to stuff all of that destroyed tissue back into the opening.

>>>Kaji: Why?

>>>Kozo: Patch it up and keep her in the tank again?

>>>Kaji: I'd have to kill him myself if he did.

She watched him cry when he realized his efforts were futile. She watched Rei’s blood saturate the tank and turn the LCL from orange to a deep red.

REI!!! Shinji screamed as he embraced his wife. REI, PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME AGAIN!!!

>>>Kaji: The melodrama on this thing must be set to 11 out of 10.

>>>Kozo: But all his crying was for naught she was dead...again.

But it was too late. Rei was gone and it was different this time. The blue haired angel wasn’t just soulless. This time, her body was DEAD and LIFELESS. Asuka had KILLED Rei, just like he killed his daughter.

>>>Kaji: Ashes Ashes we all fall down.

>>>Kozo: Death is a key theme in this.

 Shinji cried against his wife’s shoulder, making her head fall back, spilling out the contents inside.

>>>Gendo: Could use her head as a jar.

>>>Kozo: That would be a conversation piece.

The man screamed a soul-wrenching scream as he once again scrambled to put his wife back together again.

A sadistic smirk played across the former second child’s lips. Rei was dead. Finally. And now she wouldn’t have to share. Shinji was hers, at least in life.

>>>Kaji: So whats next, strap him to a bed and have her way with him?

>>>Kozo: Bout the only thing left to do, they've done everything else.

She knew that the 2nd commander wouldn’t take his own life to follow Rei. She knew this because the Ikari men had a deep-rooted fear that their soul would be punished if they ever committed suicide.

>>>Kaji: But oddly they don't mind killing others.

So they waited for death as they tried to defy the law of heaven and earth and bring their wives back to them. Asuka scowled, for it seemed that both were successful.

>>>Kozo: What little good it did them.

>>>Gendo: I died the moment Yui came back, Rei the same hour she was brought back.

Then she smiled because she knew that they were also too late.

She didn’t know how Shinji resurrected her rival, but Asuka was never a stupid woman. So when she walked into the small hidden room, her eyes focused on the child lying limply at the bottom of the tank. She quickly came to the conclusion that Shinji had tricked Eve into giving up her soul for her mothers.

>>>Gendo: Did you see a trick?

>>>Kozo: No, but I saw a gullible little girl.

>>>Kaji: I see a dead little girl, actually two, Rei's not much older.

That realization sickened her. How could Shinji do this to his own daughter?! And for what?! In Asuka’s opinion, he traded the life of his daughter, for an abomination whose zeal for life could be compared to a doll!

>>>Kaji: Well for the past few years thats what she was.

>>>Kozo: An adult doll.

>>>Gendo: No, they have voices.....what?

>>>Kozo: Its no wonder nobody likes you.

 In her opinion, Rei was a waste of a life and she hated Rei, always did, and always will.

The former second child’s eyes narrowed when her gaze focused away from her thoughts and back to her true love. Shinji was so concerned with Rei that he didn’t realize that he was choking. He was drowning in that tank because Rei’s blood was completely mixed with the LCL.

>>>Kozo: That means nothing, blood's always being mixed with LCL.

>>>Kaji: Shinji's filled his tank up with blood almost every time he's fought.

>>>Kozo: LCL is a form of blood.

>>>Kaji: Good think the pilots don't know that, they'd puke everytime.

 She shook her head no, and aimed her gun at the tank,... at Rei. He was not going to leave her and follow Rei into death. He was going to live!

>>>Kaji: Or she'd kill him.

Shinji screamed when two more bullets found their target in Rei’s body. Instinctively, he embraced his wife to protect her, He intercepted the third shot but it wasn’t a fatal shot. Unfortunately.

>>>Kozo: Thats odd, usually the 2nd has nothing but fatal shots.

>>>Kaji: Unfortunatly Shinji-kun can't run away from her now.

>>>Gendo: This will not be pretty.

Asuka dropped her gun to the floor when a bullet pierced right under Shinji’s shoulder blade. She didn’t mean to hit him. She didn’t want to hurt him. However, her plan worked.

>>>Kaji: He was imobilized and Rei..was a human pin cushion.

The holes created by the four bullets started to crack the glass under the pressure of the LCL. The crystalline crackling sounds, created by the snowflake pattern that was quickly covering the surface of the glass, told her that it wouldn‘t be long before the glass faltered.

>>>Kozo: And ripped Ikari-kun into tiny pieces.

>>>Gendo: Bet she didn't think about that.

 She stepped back when leaks started to spring out in various places, all over the tank. A few seconds later... The tank seemed to explode. Broken glass flew out in every direction.

>>>Kaji: And cut her in just about every major artery.

>>>Kozo: Blood was everywhere.

A flood of bloodied LCL poured out, as so did the three occupants that were inside of the tank.

Shinji never let go of Rei as they were swept out of the tank and onto the glass-strewn floor. He saw his daughter’s body float past him before she stopped further into the room.

>>>Kozo: Thats a depressing bath toy.

>>>Gendo: The dead daughter float toy.

When her skin contacted air, his eyes widened when he noticed what was happening to Eve. He quickly redirected his gaze to his wife. Just as he feared, Rei was experiencing rapid deterioration. He had seen it happen before, when he was fourteen and Ritsuko killed hundreds of Rei’s clones in a jealous rage.

>>>Kaji: The Rei pinyata.

>>>Kozo: More like a wet piece of paper in the wind.

Shinji cried harder when Rei limbs fell from her body and her skin started to melt off her face revealing the muscle underneath. It wasn’t long before that started to fall away too, revealing the white of her bone that was under the muscle.

>>>Kozo: Its an anatomy lesson.

>>>Kaji: And after bone comes....

Watching Rei’s deterioration, Asuka felt her stomach turn The sight before her was absolutely disgusting. She could feel her insides go into reverse, and she bent over and emptied the contents of her stomach on to the LCL soaked floor.

>>>Kaji: Took the bile right from my mouth.

>>>Kozo/Gendo: I'm glad I haven't eaten yet.

 She knew Rei wasn’t human, but she had no idea that her rival’s body would do *that*.

She was so grossed out, and so busy with her own reaction to the scene, she didn’t notice Shinji charging toward to attack. She caught off guard, in her bent over position, when he grabbed her by her short auburn hair and kneed her in the face, making her fall on her back.

>>>Kaji: Her nose always did look a little pointy.

>>>Gendo: That will not be a problem anymore.

 She became momentarily dazed when her head impacted the floor, so she was unprepared when Shinji straddled her waist and began to strangle her.

>>>Kaji: Bet she's happy about the straddled part.

>>>Kozo: If she could breath I bet she'd say she loved him.

I HATE YOU!!! He screamed about 3 octaves higher than his usual voice. I‘M GOING TO KILL YOU!!! I‘M GOING TO F*CKING KILL YOU!!!!!

>>>Gendo: Shinji's a tenor..so he's actually yelling in a female voice?

>>>Kaji: He always did sound like a woman.

Drenched in blood, he looked like something out of a horror movie.

>>>Gendo/Kozo/Kaji: He is.

 Only the whites of his eyes were not stained by Rei’s blood. However, his eyes were stained with hate.

>>>Kaji: Yellow?

Shinji hated Asuka with every fiber of his being and Asuka knew it. That knowledge hurt worse than the increasing pressure on her neck.

Asuka stared at him as she kicked her legs in hopes to knock him off of her and grabbed at his hands to pry them loose.

>>>Kozo: Or push them down.

Shinji shook his head no and increased the pressure. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU’VE DONE!! I HATE YOU!!!

>>>Gendo: I think the attempted murder is enough to prove that.

The outer portion of her vision was starting to blacken. She was close to death. Her hand fell away limply and splashed into the inch deep bloodied LCL. ...I ... forgive ...you she choked out, while tears streamed down her cheeks.

>>>Kaji: For what?

>>>Kozo: Don't look for reason in a mad woman.

F*ck your forgiveness!! Shinji narrowed his eyes sadistically as a thick rivulet of Rei’s blood streamed out of his hair, traveled across his forehead and in between his eyes. I hope you burn in hell!!!

Extremely hurt by his words, the former second child choked out. After you my love and lifted her arm out of he LCL and revealed a sharp, shard piece of glass in her hand.

>>>Kaji: She just played into his hands.

>>>Gendo: He can't kill himself, so let the crazy person do it.

 She didn’t give Shinji the time to react before she plunged it deep into his chest.

The man didn’t even cry out. He just loosened his grip around her neck and gave her an honest smile as his own blood started to trickle out of his mouth.

>>>Kaji: And he died just as he realized he loved Asuka,and she kills herself.

She had punctured not only his lungs but his battered heart as well.

>>>Kozo: So his heart inside his lung?

>>>Kaji: I guess.

He breathed heavily and coughed out blood before he painfully whispered out.

Same ’ol Asuka.

Slowly and with much effort, he scooted off and away from her.

The former second child gasped for air as she rubbed and soothed her neck. She watched him crawl with the last of his strength to lay beside the dismembered carcass of his beloved wife.

>>>Gendo: Not even that much is left.

>>>Kaji: Its better that saying, next to the lump of flesh that used to be his wife's carcass.

 She watched him kiss Rei’s congealed lips, not even caring that his added pressure was tearing more of her flesh away. She heard him painfully whisper out with the last of his breath...

Wait for me my love.... I’m coming...

>>>Kaji: A masocist?

>>>Gendo: Who didn't know that?

>>>Kaji: But at a time like this?

As she remained lying in the shallow pool of bloodied LCL, Asuka’s eyes widened in realization. Shinji had tricked her. Forced her into killing him. He knew her, and he knew that she would always be the ‘same ol Asuka’ the same girl who hated to lose. Whether in love or in a fight.

>>>Kozo: Nothing beats a good death.

>>>Kaji: Or a predictable woman.

 Shinji knew that he could not kill himself, so he attacked her because he knew she would do it for him if he provoked her enough. He was correct. His last words to her rang in her ears Same ’ol Asuka

The same ‘ol f*cking Asuka! And with that realization, all the former second child could to was ... scream.

>>>Kaji: And scream she did!

>>>Gendo: She has a healthy set of lungs.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

About 5 a.m.

Commander Katsuragi practically ran down the long corridors of NERV toward Shinji’s office.

She was on her private jet, flying from Germany to Tokyo-3, then she got the call that the 1st commander of NERV’s Japan branch, was shot and killed in his home.

>>>Kaji: What the hell is she doing in Germany?

>>>Kozo: Over seeing the destruction, thats the next base to go.

 When Misato got the news, she had immediately tired to get in contact with Shinji. But he was neither home or in his office, nor was he picking up his cell phone.

>>>Gendo: I wonder whats keeping his corpse from answering.

 So she tried to get in contact Asuka, but she had the same results. She just hoped that whoever killed the commander did not kill them as well.

She knew that Commander Ikari’s death would be grave news for the world. Gendo, as evil as he may be, was revered as the Savior of the World since he commanded over the Eva project.

>>>Kaji: Nobody cares about the pilots then.

>>>Kozo: They really do all the work but oh well.

>>>Gendo: My evil will never die.

 She snorted bitterly. People would believe anything, no one even questioned whether the lie of the 2nd impact is truth or not. They just took it at face value. Under Gendo’s authority, the pilots names were kept confidential, ensuring that all the credit went to him.

>>>Gendo: And it really helps with the ladies.

>>>Kaji: Is that why you do it?

>>>Gendo: Yui won't mind, I still love her but..I get lonely.

Being Eve’s godmother and 1st commander of the German branch, Misato took leave from her duties and traveled back to Japan to celebrate the girl’s birthday. She wasn’t expecting to come home to...She wasn’t sure what she was coming home to but she was going to find out.

>>>Kaji: And where am I?

>>>Gendo/Kozo: Dead.

>>>Kaji: Are you two planning something?

>>>Gendo: What makes you think that?

The purple haired woman slowed her pace right before she reached the 2nd commanders office. Upon entering, three nameless NERV personnel were already in there waiting for her.

What’s going on? She asked shortly. I thought you told me that Shin-- That 2nd commander Ikari was in here.

>>>Gendo: Pieces of him are their.

>>>Kaji: And pieces of other people.

He is. The smallest of the men answered solemnly and pointed toward the back wall.

Katsuragi gave the man a confused look and then looked at the wall. Her eyes focused on the small crack and her gaze trailed down to where the wall met the floor.

>>>Kozo: She doesn't notice the inch worth of bloody LCL?

Like the others in the room, she noticed the thick reddish liquid that was seeping underneath the base board.

The commander, felt like ice was in her stomach.

>>>Kaji: How many times do I have to tell her to not drink so fast!

She was afraid of what she was going to find on the other side of the wall. Misato took a deep breath and steeled her voice before she asked. What’s going on?

>>>Kozo: Death, murder...post mordem sex.

A dark haired man answered as he gave the tallest man a crow bar. Dr. Sohryu...We heard her screaming behind the wall. She kept screaming something about the 2nd commander’s late wife and how the 2nd commander was hers.

>>>Gendo: Will she make him a trophy?

>>>Kaji: She'll use him like he used Rei.

Katsuragi’s jaw slightly fell ajar and she closed her eyes and mentally prayed <please god no...> She had a bad feeling of what they were going to find behind that wall.

Not knowing the second commander’s code, the tall man pried the hidden door in the wall open.

>>>Gendo: But you can see through the door?

>>>Kaji: Maybe its a glass door.

Bloodied LCL gushed out, soaking his shoes.

Sh*t! The dark haired man screamed as he quickly tiptoed away from the flow of the liquid. He didn’t want his designer shoes ruined.

>>>Kozo: To bad.

>>>Gendo: They suck.

Misato walked over toward the open door and sloshed through the LCL as if she were in a trance. She had to see whether or not her fears were true. She slapped her hand over her mouth and choked back a sob. It was worse than she feared. It was worst that she would have ever imagined.

>>>Kaji: A world with out beer.

>>>Kozo: Her dad's back and not happy.

>>>Gendo: She's my second in command..he he.

Once the shortest man took a look inside the small room. He was so grossed out he immediately left. The other two men were shocked into silence. They couldn’t believe the sight before them.

>>>Kaji: That LCL really makes Mis-chan look good.

>>>Kozo: She's all bloody you simpleton.

The 2nd commander, whose skin was completely stained with blood, lied naked on the floor. Dead. In the far corner, was his daughter. She too was dead as well as nude and stained with blood.

>>>Gendo: Its the dead nude parade.

>>>Kozo: Lets strip Keel and throw him in.

However, her body looked as if had been dead for a while. It looked as if it were rotten and it looked like it was still decomposing in from of them. Then there was another body...or at least body parts, in a congealed pile of limbs. But some of the hair that was still on the skull was ....ice blue. Clearly identifying the body as none other than the late Rei Ikari.

>>>Kaji: Didn't she wonder something was wrong when their was no body as the funeral.

>>>Gendo: Smoking two cigars makes for a convincing urn.

 And last but not least, was Dr. Sohryu. She was almost fully soaked in the tainted LCL and was hunched over Shinji’s chest. She looked to be dead as well.

>>>Kaji: At least she has her cloths on.

Misato stared at the destroyed room and everyone in it, in total shock. Her mind was not accepting the sight before her. Unconsciously, she squeezed the stuff animal in her hand. It was one of the many presents she bought for Eve’s birthday. It was a white stuffed pony, because the little girl loved her real pony so much.

>>>Kaji: Well she did visit the horse once.

>>>Kozo: But how did the major learn of it?

In a broken whisper Misato asked. How did this.. happen?

As if the former second child was trying to answer the silent question, the red haired woman gasped out painfully.

Dropping the toy, a startled Katsuragi quickly ran toward her former charge’s side. Asuka! Asuka. Hold on! I‘ll get you some help!

>>>Gendo: Call the psycatrist stat!

The commander whipped her gaze toward the two remaining men and barked out. Go and get the infirmary doctor. NOW!!

Both men nodded and quickly ran out of the small room to do as she commanded.

She turned back to Asuka, but didn’t move her. She wasn’t sure what happened, and she didn’t want to cause the girl, now woman, any more injuries. Asuka what happened?

>>>Gendo: Please don't have a story recap.

>>>Kaji: It would take more time and stomach power than I have.

With pained effort, the former second child’s eyes fluttered open and she gave her former guardian a glazed over, half-lidded stare. She tried to focus on the woman, who was like both a mother and a sister to her, but her focus was on something else.

>>>Kaji: If she's like Ritsuko, she's looking at Mis-chans rack.

>>>Kozo: I don't think she's that close a parody.

Asuka was so close to death that she could see the other side... the spiritual realm. A smirk tugged at the corners of her mouth. Soon... she would be with him.

>>>Kozo: Satan?

Misato stepped back when the doctor and his assistants rushed into the hidden room with a gurney. They worked quickly and carefully as they picked her up and placed her on her back. The commander almost cried out when she noticed the deep gashes on Asuka’s wrist. The former second child was trying to take her life. But why?

>>>Gendo: She doesn't abide by the no suicide rule.

>>>Kaji: The death quota hasn't been filled yet?

The doctor quickly bandaged both her wrist and connected an I.V. to her arm.

Don’t worry, Asuka... The commander said comfortingly. You’ll be ok now.

>>>Kozo: If by ok you mean deeply scared mentally and physically.

Asuka didn’t hear what the woman said to her. She didn’t even notice the people who were fretting over her to ensure that she lived. What she did notice was that her vision of the nether world was fading away. She narrowed her eyes, to sharpen her focus, as she watched the happenings of what was going on in that majestic spiritual plain. Oh how she wanted to be there too. To be with...

>>>Kaji: Doesn't she worry about how he hates her?

>>>Gendo: Or the fact that she's going to live.

She gasped and her crystal blue eyes widened. She could see him! Her love; he was in heaven adorned in divine robes.

>>>Kaji: Guess killers DO get into heaven..but he's got seven wings.

>>>Kozo: A deamon!

>>>Gendo: What...thought you two knew. my birth name was damien.

Shinji... She called out in a dry whisper.

Shhhh Misato lovingly hushed Asuka as they quickly pushed her, in the gurney, down the winding NERV corridors and toward the infirmary. Save your strength.

Asuka could hear Misato, now, and her view of heaven was quickly disappearing. She strained her eyes and focused. She could still see her truest of loves.

>>>Kozo: She should think some.

>>>Gendo: Not much chance of that now.

 He was laughing and holding his arms out to embrace someone.

Asuka could feel her heart clench with despair. She feared Rei was going to appear in Shinji arms. So she was utterly relieved when.... Eve flew haphazardly into his arms. Yes, she flew, with four wings which looked to be made of pure energy.

>>>Kozo: How quickly they forgive.

>>>Gendo: Or forget.

She was dressed in heavenly robes, and was giggling as she embraced her dad. Then giggled even more when he lovingly tweaked her nose before giving her a bear hug.

>>>Kaji: Well she 'had' four wings..

>>>Kozo: Guess death makes you a good father.

A ghost of a smile graced the former second child’s lips as she watched the loving scene.

Asuka could barely see heaven now, but she could still make out what was happening. Shinji and Eve’s attention was turned toward a figure that appeared in front of them in a blinding white light. The little angel’s wings spread out and flapped until she flew out of her father’s loving grasp.

>>>Gendo: Thats a load of it, those wings don't flap.

The figure, Eve was flying toward, had six massive wings that burned brilliantly with divine energy.

>>>Kozo: In contrast the the dark seven of your...son.

>>>Gendo: How else do you think he could pilot so well.

Shinji was obstructing her view, so Asuka couldn’t see who it was. But after he started to run over toward the figure, Asuka had a clear view of her old rival.

Not even using her wings, Rei hovered in the air with her arms wide open to embrace her husband and child. She looked like the angels of legend, ethereal, benevolent, serene, and utterly beautiful.

>>>Kaji: Utters...Rei's a..a..cow?

>>>Kozo: A pair for each pair of wings?

>>>Kaji: 'closes his eyes' I've saw enough.

Shinji gave his wife a libidinous happy smirk, then gave her a tender kiss where her neck met her shoulder, while Eve gave her mom a not-so-gentle, but very loving kiss on the cheek at the same time.

>>>Gendo: Its touching..its times like this I wish I actually cared about my son.

 The two didn’t stay for long. Eve grabbed her dad’s hand and they ran off happily.

Rei turned slightly and watched her family run off into the vastness of heaven. Then eerily, she turned back around and stared directly at Asuka.

Asuka felt her heart stop.

>>>Kozo: Does this mean what I think it does?

>>>Gendo: Rei is just as cruel as Shinji is in this movie.

Rei gave the woman a beatific smile, then turned and flew effortlessly away to catch up with her family.

Not even a second later, Asuka’s ability to see into the other realm was gone, and she her focus was now on Misato’s worried face. They were now in the infirmary.

It was almost as if *Rei* was allowing her to glimpse inside heaven, so she could see how happy Shinji was, just to punish her.

>>>Kaji: Rei is sadistic.

>>>Gendo: Not very angelic.

 As a way of retribution for killing her. It was almost if Rei *wanted* her to know that he had changed into the loving father Eve both wanted and needed, because of *her* divine love.

>>>Kozo: And Asuka's senseless acts of murder.

>>>Gendo: Alls well that starts off sick and twisted.

It was almost as if Rei allowed her to see the joy she would have *never* been able to bring out in him. Rei was punishing Asuka, as well as making sure she knew that Shinji would never be hers, because Shinji happily belonged to Rei.

>>>Gendo: She has the papers to prove it.

>>>Kaji: Signed, sealed, and delivered.

NO! Asuka didn’t want to except that . Shinji could have loved her if Rei wasn’t always between them. Rei never released her hold on Shinji, not even after her death!

Asuka eyes widen with a sick realization.

>>>Kaji: Her life was dedicated to a sick old man trying to get his wife back.

>>>Gendo: Need I remind you who pays your salery?

She now understood *everything*..... Rei planned this. The first child knew that she would never be able to live out her life with her family. She had to choose. Eve or Death. She choose death, but he wanted Eve. She wanted Shinji. She wanted a family.

>>>Kaji: Miss Ayanami wants alot of things.

>>>Gendo: And she doesn't stop until its hers.

>>>Kaji: I feel sorry for the real Shinji.

 *HER* family, and the only way she would be able the have them_ was_ in _death.

When the Asuka started to scream and call out Shinji’s name, Katsuragi became distressed and quickly sat on the bed and placed a comforting grasp on the woman’s hand.

>>>Kaji: I would have used drugs to sedate her.

>>>Gendo: Quickest way.

It didn’t calm the doctor though, Asuka continue to cry out that it wasn‘t fair, because he was finally *hers* and Rei stole him again. Shinji was supposed to be hers!! He was supposed to be hers....

>>>Kozo: Than why did she kill him?

>>>Kaji: He was hers to do with as she pleased..guess killing him

>>> was something she wanted to do.

The commander stared helplessly at the former second child. She didn’t know what to do. She didn’t know how to help her. All she knew was that her former charge was going to have to be watched, taken care of, and protected... protected from herself.

>>>Kaji: For a very long time.

Its okay.. Misato loving assured. < I promise....I’ll protect you Asuka... I won’t let you harm yourself anymore....> She gently wiped away some of the woman’s tears and whispered. Its going to be ok... its going to be okay.....

>>>Gendo: In what world?

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I still don’t own anything that deals with Evangelion.

See I told ya it wasn’t a WAFF ^_~

Love ya lots I really really do

Kimberly

(end mst)

Gendo: So..what was your point with this Kaji?

Kaji: Um..I wanted to show this to be a security breach.

Kozo: You watch his son do such things...we do have a breach.

Gendo: Kaji, you will need to leave for awhile.

Kaji: How soon?

Gendo: Now?

Kaji: How about after Katsuragi's Christmas party.

Kozo: You have a sick sense of entertainment Kaji, we will allow this but then you'll need to go to Nerv Germany.

Kaji: 'This plan so backfired.'

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mst author notes

well it done..and an odd story it was, hoped you liked it and

if this wasn't enough reading for you my omake is going to make you sick :)

enjoy

welcome to the Zentrodie Doctrine

As some of you may know I am a fanfic writer, and with that comes alot of pressure. Being a fanfic writer has become a dangerous profession lately and some writers are dropping off.  What can be said about this? What can be done? and What is being done? I'd like to address this issue, but let me get off a few ground rules for those who are still reading.

1) This is my opinion. (I will discuss what that means)

2) This is not a flame on authors, styles, or others opinions.

3) As I deal primalily with Evangelion fanfiction, my examples will be odd for those not familiar with the show, you may feel free to swith the name shinji with tenchi, mamoru or any other leading male protagonist, same with the famale lead roles.

With that done, allow me to begin in earnest.

Fanfics have come underfire by just about everybody lately, either by people who claim themselves better than the writer, don't like the work, or simply don't know how to give constructive critisism.

By writing fanfiction, the author is giving his/her opinion or desire for what the show could or should have had in it.  As everybody has their own opinion, not everybody will agree with what the author suggests.  If a reader who favors a Shinji-Rei pairing reads a fic about Shinji-Asuka they tend to flame the story based on their own preferance. Nothing is wrong with that opinion but to hate the story, even if written well, based on it is simply in poor form.

I have read several fics in which the characters are portrayed very poorly, or OOC, and one thing comes to my mind, how did that happen? Maybe that was simply how the writer viewed the show? that is quite possible, we as viewers have different views as well. I try to bear with it or simply stop reading.

The use of AC or SI is something I myself frown upon, but again my opinion.  I would think if an additional character should have been in the show the writers of it would have added them, as for SI, we all like the shows we watch but its a bit much to put are selves in it.  But hey if you want to write a SI, and can do it well, without OOC'ness or simply write a really good story, more power to you.

Now by now you may be asking "Who the hell are you to say anything about how I write, you SUCK as a writer yourself!"  I must admit, as a original fic writer I am fairly bad, but as a MST writer I excel.  And who am I to say this? nobody, you have the right, ne the privilage to believe or blow off any or all of what I have written here.  I have one humble request to ask of you though, follow what I have next.

If you find yourself reading a fic you just don't like or simply hate don't flame pointlessly, do the following.

1) In your review, say what you didn't like about it, calmly. Ex: you didn't use proper grammer and your characterization was flawed. Not, that never happen stop writting you suck!

2) Don't write a review for a fic that features a character pairing you dislike, if you must put yourself into the shoes of one that likes said pairing. Ex: I don't like Rei-Shinji pairings, but you could use a bit more work on development and discription. Not: Asuka-Shinji is the only real couple, Rei's his mom and thats just plain SICK!

3)If you can't think of anything positive about the fic or don't want to give a good review (by good I don't mean saying its good, I following the prior examples) stop reading, hit the back button and leave the fic be to those who do like it.

It may be wishful thinking for people to follow said examples but hey, I'm just asking.  I may sound foolish to state such feelings but it is my opinion. Give credit where credit is due and try not to simply say hateful things for no reason.  If you want those poor writers to improve and possible write a fic you DO like, give them support not flames.

A hopeless romantic

Zentrodie

p.s. this was inspired by reading alot of other peoples reviews and some bored time /\_/\