Journal

Today was disturbingly uneventful...to the extent that I got nothing done school-wise either. Disturbing also because I have yet to make sense for last nights events. Whatever happened to the days of guys who knew the perfect balance between chivalry and forwardness? I need a guy that's gonna wear the pants, and I still don't know whether or not what happened was a date. It doesn't fall into the standard date category: he didn't pay, didn't make any kind of move. The problem is that this guy is probably the type that wouldn't do that anyway. There really needs to be some kind of standards for dating.
At this point I'm not even sure I want it to be a date. I really need someone who is going to be in charge, that I don't have to read into signals--seeing as we've determined in recent months just how completely terrible I am at these things.
Maybe I'm being too fussy. Maybe the guy I want is out of my league. Worse than that, maybe he doesn't exist. I'm waiting for a choir of angels, and I'm getting that really obnoxious band that plays the same two songs over and over and over and over again at Dirty Nelly's on Thursday nights...argh. I hate men.

Last night I went to Irina's to hang out. Tony, John and I watched Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure, which we decided is only funny if you're stoned or saw it when it first came out. Then we watched The Ghost and the Darkness. I love that movie.
Today was an exciting day...got up, did some reading for class. Went back to sleep. Got up. Read some more for class. Watched Ferris Bueller for the 8 billionth time. Used Dryel for the first time (worked okay). Now I'm working on a paper. Dontcha wish you were in me? Still hate men...Hate them even more now that almost everyone I know is in some kind of relationship except me. After I finish this entry I'm checking into how to apply for the nunnery. Oh and am I really the ONLY person on earth who doesn't think that Tom Green is funny? ARGH. Saw more snippets of the producers on Headline News today. Maybe I'll meet some nice Italian Mobster while I'm up there...get married and never come back to Florida again! Of course then I'll have to change my webpage to All that I CAN Leave Behind...and then there's the considerable cost and effort of having Frank and Zoe shipped up north. I'd have to overnight them. Man, I really need to get some sleep/sex/intellectual stimulation. I just need to get.

Another exciting day here in Gainesville. Did a bunch of stuff without getting much of anything done. Went to the mall. Bought a bunch of crap I don't need and can't afford. Had a wonderful dinner with Ryan at Don Pablos. Spent the rest of the evening studying for my Ethics Final with Mike, Christy, Tina, Thomas and Eric. Or should I spent time with them bitching about how much our program sucks and how we all rue the day we entered this program. Now I'm debating working on my novel or finishing my paper. :::insert bitching and moaning about not having a s.o. to procrastinate with. sigh...such is life.

I feel the need to explain the reason why women hate it when their male friends talk about the physical attractiveness of other women in front of them. Unless we are empty-headed or self-absorbed, women read into EVERYTHING anyone else says--especially men! Therefore, if you're talking to me about how hot some other girl is, the subtext in my mind reads as follows.

Guy: Wow, she has a really nice body.
Subtext: man, she is so sexy and you're just one of the guys

Guy: she is so hot, she must work out all the time.
Subtext: man, you need to go to the gym and work off your big fat thighs

And it goes on and on and on.

Just my little anti-men rant of the day. :)

I'm supposed to be working on my last project of the semester right now, but I just can't even think anymore. No anti-men rant today because I really haven't had to deal with any of them. Oh! Except I talked to Eric D. for the first time since my birthday!! I really need to start making a better effort to keep in touch with people. I also need to start working out again...
I've decided that instead of making New Years resolutions I'm going to start making end of the semester resolutions. Look for that somewhere on this page after I get my work done...
I do, however, need to rant about the media...What is UP with this new Tom Green movie?!?! Who goes to see these things? How is it even remotely entertaining? There's gotta be guilty of some crime he can be put away for...
There's this new jello commerical with a little girl that swallows a butterfly...gross...as you can see, I really REALLY don't want to be doing my school work right now.
Still trying to decide what I'm going to do for a vacation between now and summer. I've got 3 weeks off and I know there are 2 very important projects I should be working on. But there's gotta be time for relaxation in there somewhere or I'm gonna go completely insane with the 17 credits I have to take this summer.
Thomas, if and when you read this, I hope you feel better. Poor baby had to have his knee bludgeoned again today.
To everyone else, good luck with finals and SIGN MY DREAMBOOK!!!!

I am officially done with all my work for the semester, now all I have to do is pray that I passed all my classes. Tomorrow I'm going to reward myself by laying out by the pool and then going on another teen court adventure in failed romance.
Went to the debate banquet tonight...it was so weird. Part of the time I felt like I wasn't even there. I went with Dave which was nice. I'm glad he and I are on good terms again. There really wasn't ever any reason for us not to be. We were just being silly and competative.
Dave said tonight that it doesn't feel like we've been in college for four years. At firsr I agreed with him, but then I thought about it for a while. I feel like I have changed so much in the past four years, especially the past year.
He asked me if I missed debate and the team. I do miss debate. I miss the drive I felt for competition. I missed the outlet that came from interpretation. But I wouldn't change my life for anything. I have the most amazing support system now. The friends that I hang out with now are people that I don't have to explain myself to. We just respect each other. And I think that respect is something I was definitely missing with the debate folks--especially over the past year. That and they all smoke entirely too much weed now.