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| April, 15 2003 |
| April, 15 2003: After a lot of thinking I decided to go ahead and let my doctor in Portland Oregon perform a laparoscopic surgery. He had never done one on me before, though I have had two done in the past by previous doctors. He beleived that there may be some scar tissue from the Ovarian Cyst that ruptured around Christmas causing my pain. He wanted to go in and find out for sure. So, I decided to spend my Spring Break Vacation having surgery. You mean other people go to places like Mexico and drink margaritas on the beach? I arrived a few days early in Oregon so that my doctor could do some blood and an ultrasound. Nothing showed up on the ultrasound, but he wanted to proceed anyway since scar tissue doesn't normally show up. We scheduled my surgery for 1:30 on the 15th of April. I was having a lot of mixed emotions about the suregery, because I had allready had two in the past with no results. I was really worried that he would go in there and find nothing at all. This same doctor had allready confirmed the Adenomyosis the previous year when removing uterine polyps, but I couldn't help but have fears and doubts. So even though I was afraid I knew something needed to be done about the pain, so I went in for laparpscp[y #3 from Doctor #3. I prayed that he would find something and be able to help me. The day of my surgery was a little rough and they had to give me Valium to calm me down. My mom had allready planned a business trip in Las Vegas that she couldn't cancel, so she wasn't able to be there for my surgery. This stressed me out, but luckily I had the support of my Grandparents, my soon to be Mother in Law, and my best friend who took the day off of work just to be there for me. I felt so loved, but surgery stresses me out. Once I came out of surgery I was told I was doing ok, but don't remember much from the recovery room. It wasn't until I talked to my family that I really knew what the doctor found. The doctor had explained that there was a non-cancerous tumor on my left ovary that he was able to remove fully. He also found my worst nightmare: Endometriosis. I was having retrograde bleeding (Menstruation backwards through my fallopian tubes and into my abdomen) he said that this alone (basically internal bleeding) was enough to make anyone feel horrible. Yet on top of that I had a tumor and Endometrial Lesions he had to remove on my left side. I've been told I have about 6 tp 12 months until the endometriosis comes back since I am pretty unwilling to try the one drug Synarel that might help get rid of the endometriosis for longer. Before closing me up they put some kind of solution in my abdomen to make sure that scar tissue wasn't going to form right after the surgery (from the stuff he removed with the Co2 Lazer). So I've been walking around with a bloated belly with over 5 lbs of solution that jiggles like a waterbed. My body will absorb it in time, but it may take a while. I am still frustrated by the findings even though I have had the feeling that I also had endometriosis for a long time. My battles have been so hard on me physically, emotionally and very taxing on my relationship with my fiance even though he is wonderful and trys so hard to understand. I am disturbed to know that this surgery will only be a quick fix, and that I may need another one in 6- 12 months before my wedding in the summer of 2004. But my mom always told me everything happens for a reason. So I need to keep that in mind, even though I don't know what the reason is yet. |