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NeriMAn DIStortion

a Boogiepop Phantom/Ranma ½  fanfic by Zorknot

 

DISCLAIMER: Boogiepop Phantom is owned by Kouhei Kadono, Mediaworks, and the Right Stuff International. Ranma ½ is owned by Rumiko Takahashi, Fuji TV, and Kitty Film.

 

~~~~~[BEGIN]~~~~~

NABIKI TENDO-a girl on a mission

 

AKANE TENDO-a girl possessed

 

TOFU ONO-a man searching for himself.

 

~~~~~traffic~~~~~

  You’re dreaming again, but not of anything in particular. Just the city at night, the people walking from one place to another, each with their own purpose, for the most part oblivious to what is going on around them.

 

  Something makes you feel uneasy though. You feel apart from the people somehow, outside looking in...

 

  A voice breaks through the folds of the dream—a girl’s voice...familiar... “The true end is a privilege for those who haven’t been born yet.”

 

  A crowd of people passes by a bench, revealing a man reading a newspaper. You feel drawn to the print of the paper...

 

  “Once a person is born, they will never feel at peace again as life goes on.”

 

  You can read it now, even in the night, even in this dream. A headline reads, “High School Girl Murdered on Her Way Home.” Another reads, “Junior High School Girl Killed. Discovered by Classmate.” Yet another: “Serial Killer Continues Killing Spree!!!”

 

  Suddenly, you are looking at the black spine of a book. The title of it is The Mood of the Slaughterer Changes. The book lowers, revealing the face of the girl who reads from it. The face of Kuonji Ukyo.

 

  Your mother, Tendo Kimiko, wrote that,” she says, looking up.

 

  A profile of a face— Tendo Nabiki’s— replies, “So?

 

~~~~~furinkan koukou~~~~~

 

  You wake with a start above the roof exit of Furinkan High. It’s a very warm day for fall and you couldn’t handle having lunch with all your classmates reminding you about Jonouchi’s disappearance. You came up here for some peace and quiet so you could think, but you didn’t get much sleep last night and you must have dozed off. 

 

  You sit up, looking out across the roof of Furinkan to the city surrounding you. But you are not alone. On the roof below you there are two girls, one with long rich brown hair tied in a pony tail, wearing a boy’s high school uniform with a giant spatula attached to her back and twin bandoliers of smaller versions of the same implement crossing her chest. She is sitting Indian style as she closes a black-covered book and puts it beside her.

 

  The other girl is dressed in dark jeans, heavy boots, and a black leather jacket. Her rich brown hair falls past her shoulders as she looks out across the city leaning on the metal railing.

 

  Just like in your dream, Ukyo and Nabiki are talking on the roof. They don’t seem to have seen you; so you watch them and listen.

 

~~~~~Scene001: Furinkan High School~~~~~

 

  “Don’t you think it’s time to tell me?” Ukyo asks Nabiki. “I know you know something about what happened to Ranma.”

 

  “I told you before,” she replies, still looking at the horizon. “That was...”

 

  “...Boogiepop, I know, you jackass.” Ukyo stands up. “When will you stop with that urban legend? Some people say they’ve seen his ghost...Damn it, Nabiki, I need to know what really happened! But I guess maybe you don’t understand that, Ice Queen.”

 

  Nabiki turns sharply, “You shouldn’t be reading my mother’s book, Ukyo,” she says, a tinge of anger in her voice. “She was a woman obsessed with death. It made her weak.”

 

  “I’m just sick of not knowing what’s going on.”

 

  Nabiki digs in her jacket pocket and pulls out a vial of some clear substance and slams it on the railing. “This is what Ranma and Kodachi were giving to people. You know what it’s called?”

 

  Ukyo shook her head.

 

  Slave.”

 

  Slave? Dorei in Japanese?”

 

  Nabiki nodded. “It controls people’s minds, Ukyo. All those people that disappeared last year? They all took this drug.”

 

  “But... that doesn’t mean...”

 

  “Yes, Kuonji-chan. I’m afraid it does. The Ranma we knew died long before his actual death.”

 

  “So he is dead then...” Ukyo mutters softly, staring at the vial.

 

  “It’s not that simple,” Nabiki says, putting the vial back into her jacket pocket.

 

  “How can it not be simple, Nabiki? Either he’s dead or he isn’t! Which one is it?”

 

  Nabiki took a breath and sighed. “He’s dead as far as you are concerned.”

 

  There is a pause as Ukyo looks down through the grating of the railing at the gym students in their jogging suits. “About a month ago. That was when I last saw Ranma. He was practically attached to Kodachi at the hip. Then both of them disappeared. You had something to do with that, Nabiki, I know.” Ukyo grabbed the railing with both hands. “But...there’s something else. That day, I happened to see his desk. There was something written on it. A list of names, about half were crossed out.. Above it in katakana was the word ‘Problems’.  He had just crossed out your name. Mine was next.”

 

“He would have killed you,” Nabiki nodded.

 

“Why would he kill me? I’m his fiancée! I thought...”

 

“Just let it go,” Nabiki said, “The more you know, the worse it will be for you.”

 

“I really don’t understand why you’re being such an unfeeling bitch about this, Nabiki. Just tell me what happened!”

 

  Nabiki glares at Ukyo for a moment before turning away from her. Her head is down. Her arms are crossed in front of her. “A long time ago,” she says, “I killed my mother.”

 

  “Huh?” Ukyo exclaims, a look of surprised confusion on her face.

 

  “One day, I came home from school and there was my mother, collapsed in the hallway, covered in blood. I was rushing off to call the ambulance when she... ” Nabiki holds her own wrist as she remembers, “she grabbed my arm and said to me: ‘Nabiki, watch close. Don’t turn your eyes away,’ she said... So I...I watched the whole time...until she stopped breathing...until she stopped moving. I was the first one home; so no one else was there. I just stood over her until Daddy came back. That was five years ago. ”

 

  Nabiki whirls back around, “You think I don’t understand? You think I don’t feel? Ranma was like a little brother to me and I watched him kill himself bit by bit. I saw him slipping and I did nothing! Not until too late.” Nabiki’s hand clenches into a fist. “I spent four years of my life numb, watching, trying to pretend I didn’t care...But I do care, Kuonji-chan. I don’t want to see anyone else get killed, and right now that’s liable to happen to anyone who gets close to me. So back off.”

 

  “Listen, Sugar, I can handle myself. A lot better than you can anyway. So you can cut the Kuonji-chan crap too while you’re at it.”

 

  Nabiki gives Ukyo a level, half-lidded gaze. “You might be good at fighting physically, but you need will power. And that’s something you just don’t have.”

 

  “I have plenty will power!”

 

  “You almost killed someone a few days ago at that tournament because you weren’t in control of your emotions.”

 

 “I’m...better now.”

 

  “You originally came here to defeat Ranma and take back your honor, what happened to that plan, huh, Kuonji-chan? Then there was the time you let Shampoo convince you to attack Ranma’s wedding...”

 

  “I...she caught me at a moment of weakness...” Ukyo fiddled with one of her spatulas as she looked away.

 

  “Ukyo, just let it go, okay? It doesn’t matter whether Ranma is dead or not. He’s gone, and he’s not coming back.”

 

  “You know I can’t let it go.”

 

  Nabiki sighs. “If you had any willpower, you’d be able to.”

 

  “How would making you tell me what’s going on mean my will was weak?”

 

  “I said that you’d be able to let it go if you had willpower. Not that you would. You’re not even considering it now. And incidentally you cannot make me do anything. You can only do things to me.”

 

  Ukyo is about to make a retort but then stops herself and sighs. “You’re really not going to tell me what happened, are you?”

 

  “No.”

 

  “How did you get so much willpower anyway?”

 

  Nabiki holds out her hand, “One-thousand yen.”

 

  Ukyo frowns, “You know I don’t have it, Nabiki, I’m barely making rent...”

 

  “Which is more important, having more willpower, or having one thousand yen.?

 

  “If I’m even one thousand yen behind on my payments they’ll take Ucchan’s away from me.”

 

  “And whose fault is that?”

 

  “I...I  just haven’t been able to work as much because...”

 

  “Because you can’t let go of your grief over Ranma. Because you don’t have enough willpower, Kuonji-chan.” Nabiki put her hand to her side. “You have to know the value of things. You have to know what’s important and fight for that, without letting your emotions get in the way. Ranma is dead. Feel sad or angry about that as much as you want, but don’t forget your responsibilities. Or is throwing a tantrum over a dead man really the most important thing in your life?”

 

  “You keep on skirting the issue whenever I ask if he’s dead or not, and Ranma IS the most important thing in my life!”

 

  Nabiki is silent for a moment. She takes a breath. “Then why didn’t you ever spend any time learning what he liked, what he wanted out of life. Why didn’t you ask if he even wanted a fiancée. Why did you hold the engagement over his head instead of being his friend when he so desperately needed someone, anyone to talk to who didn’t have a separate agenda? “

 

  “The engagement was a matter of honor! And of course I didn’t have as much time to get to know Ranma because...of...work.”

 

  Nabiki nods. “Okonomiyaki, your honor, Ranma....any one of these things you could have devoted your life to. But your will, your goal, is only as strong as your ability to not be dissuaded from it.”

 

A light wind picks up, rustling a few leaves and loose pieces of paper.

 

“I’ve answered your question. You don’t have to pay me,” Nabiki says. “I’ve had my own lessons to learn.”

 

  The okonomiyaki chef frowns. Idly, she kicks a stray stone straight into the air, unsheathes her spatula and bounces the stone off the flat end for a while before finally whapping it off the roof. She holds her hand across her brow, tracking its motion and nods slightly in satisfaction when a metallic ping sounds in the distance. “Nabiki?” she asks, turning once more to her companion.

 

  “Hmm?”

 

  “You could call me ‘Ucchan.’ I wouldn’t mind that. It’s just when you say ‘Kuonji-chan’ I think you’re making fun of me.”

 

  A hint of a smile softens Nabiki’s features even as she continues to stare into the horizon. “Fine...Ucchan.”

 

  Ukyo turns to look in the same direction. The aurora that’s been in sky since a month ago is there, turning red, then green, then blue as it wavers in the sky. “That strange rainbow...I’ve been seeing it a lot recently.”

 

  Nabiki turns.

 

  She’s looking right at you as she says, “It’s not a rainbow.”

 

~~~~~Vol. 3: Life Can Be So Nice~~~~~

~~~~~Scene002: Sanjuuichi Ice Cream Shop~~~~

 

  “I’m sure he exists”

 

  “What?”

 

  “The kami of death!”

 

 “Boogiepop?”

 

  “You’re kidding!”

 

  “Because I heard that senior in Furinkan disappeared.”

 

  “You mean Daisuke Jonouchi? The police are looking for him.”

 

  “I heard he lived alone with his father. I don’t know...”

 

  “What do you think, Kasumi-oneechan?”

 

  I smile. “Excuse me?” I was only halfway paying attention to what the girls were saying. I started going to the ice cream shop every Friday as a way of rewarding myself for the week’s work. A group of high school girls shares this tendency; so I’ve unofficially joined their little clique. They look at me as an older sister, often calling me “oneechan” and often asking me for advice in their personal affairs, which I’m happy to give.

 

  We are all five of us sitting in one of those delightful booths that are shaped like a semicircle around the table. I’ve been enjoying a strawberry parfait and thinking about whether I should start supper first tonight or take a risk and attempt to clean the bathroom first. I’ve noticed the grout is turning a little brown.

 

  Kaede, who has a rather unfortunate hairstyle —so short and wild, and it’s dyed a color that looks almost orange! — is a dear and repeats the question for me. “Boogiepop. Does he exist?”

 

  “Who knows? Boogiepop...probably exists.” I take a bite of my parfait, finding it humorous how they all seem surprised at my answer. I give them a reassuring look as I say, “But even if he does, he really doesn’t have any affect on this world.”

 

~~~~~Furinkan High School Alumnus: Home Worker Kasumi Tendo, age 21~~~~~

 

  They laugh a little and murmur their nervous assent.

 

Akane and her friends Sayuri and Yuka are actually part of the group most times. Yuka is here today, but Sayuri and Akane wanted to see a movie.

 

Yuka is actually looking a little down right now, which is a shame, because normally she has such a pretty face, and while normally I don’t like curly hair on a Japanese, she pulls it off expertly.

 

  “Yabe! Let’s hit the arcade!” Kaede asks of her friend sitting next to her on the edge of the booth. Yabe is a little plainer than she, with the tips of her ears protruding from long hair and glasses covering her eyes.

 

  She nods and starts to bring her money out onto the table.

 

  “Anyone else want to come?” Kaede asks, “Arisu, Yuka...Kasumi?” She laughs a little at my name. She knows full well I don’t much like the arcade.

 

  Yuka simply shakes her head while Arisu says, “I’m sorry I can’t. There’s a school council meeting...” Her ink-black hair curves stylishly around her face. Her father is an American and she has a lovely blend of features, marrying the gracefulness of Japanese beauty with the strength inherited from that other continent. Unfortunately I fear she is destined for politics, which will no doubt spoil her looks before she finds someone to marry.

 

  “Well, see ya!” Kaede says as she and Yabe leave.

 

~~~~~traffic~~~~~

 

  It behooves the rest of us to leave shortly afterwards, and we do so, paying and parting company at the door. I turn to head home when I realize that Yuka has returned.

 

  “Kasumi-oneechan, could I walk home with you?” Yuka normally takes the subway, which is faster as her house is five or so blocks farther down the road than my own, but she sometimes walks with Akane and me for the company.

 

  “Of course,” I tell her and we start down the sidewalk, the traffic of the road beside us. “So, Yuka-chan, you got the highest grade in class again...Your parents must be very proud.”

 

  “Daisuke Jonouchi...” she says oddly as she stops walking.

 

  “Hmm?”

 

  Jonouchi-kun...they haven’t found him yet, have they?” She seems a little distressed over this and I wonder if this is the cause of her dampened spirits of late.

 

  “No, I guess not,” I say, “I’m afraid I don’t know much about the boy. I’m worried about him though. Poor soul.”

 

  Yuka raises her left hand to her heart, “I...I’ve felt this pain...ever since he disappeared.”

 

  A car passes us and I ask, “Yuka-chan, were you and he...?”

 

  She’s looking down still, as if she hasn’t heard me. I almost finish the question, but the roar of a passing bus seems to break her from her reverie and she gives a half-hearted laugh as she explains, “Oh, no. It’s not like that.”

 

  “Are you sure?”

 

  “Yes! It wasn’t like that at all! With Jonouchi there was...I don’t know...something important.”

 

  It’s okay, Yuka-chan,” I say before I walk a few steps ahead of her. I won’t be able to help her, poor dear. I look up at the sky. There’s a magnificent shimmering rainbow with all manner of color in its undulating form. The clouds are white and fluffy and curve into interesting formations around the spectacle. “Oh my! The sky right now is just priceless! It’s almost winter, isn’t it?”

 

  Yuka giggles and I look behind me. “Kasumi...you’re a strange one.”

 

  “How’s that?” I ask.

 

  “You accept everything for what it is. Talking to you, I sometimes feel stupid, worrying about little things. You’re a person of integrity, Kasumi-oneechan.” A white car rolls by, followed by a fruit truck and she adds, “But...Kasumi...I know from Akane your family’s not Christian; why do you wear that cross around your neck?”

 

~~~~~kousaten ~~~~~

 

  Yuka and I part ways at an intersection just before home. I watch her walk away. Truthfully, I’m a little embarrassed. “I’m not a person of integrity,” I say aloud to her back, when she’s too far away to hear. “I’m just...”

 

  “...just loving this world.”

 

  Across the street, under the curved surveillance mirror stands Panuru. A head smaller than myself, she has her hair in a perfect orbicular bob around her child-like face, that smiles over her cross necklace.

 

  Panuru!” I call out to her.

 

~~~~~yomichi~~~~~

 

  That’s right! I’m just loving this world. I’m loving, affirming, and accepting.

 

  Some evenings after everyone’s asleep I like to walk downtown. Just the city at night, the people walking from one place to another, each with their own purpose, for the most part oblivious to what is going on around them. I love all of it, and I learned all this love from...her.

 

  I’m walking down the street with Panuru now, following a group of people that don’t know each other but are all going in the same direction. “To accept the world,” she says looking up at me.

 

“Even amidst the loss and chaos,” I continue. We both ascend the stairs to the upper level of the city where all manner of shops and kiosks still operate. We come across a crowd of people gathering next to a black and white police car.

 

 One of Ranma-kun’s friends —I believe his name is Mousse? — is being detained by two police officers. One is a young man, roughly my age; the other is much older, possessing a broad face with rather chiseled features.

 

  “Morita!” The younger officer yells, “grab that side!”

 

  “Calm down!” advises the older officer— I gather his name is Morita—as he grabs the collar of Mousse’s voluminous robe and pushes him down to the pavement. Mousse crumples weakly, apparently not in possession of the great strength he held in his fights with Ranma-kun.

 

  He reaches out to me, moaning out something like “Rie,” and I notice he has a sparkle of saliva sliding out of one side of his mouth and his eyes are lolling about haphazardly.

 

  I feel sorry for him of course, but it really is not my place to interfere, and so I pretend not to see him as we pass by.

 

  “In this world everything exists,” Panuru says as we walk along the chain link fence that Ranma-kun was so fond of practicing on, heading toward where Tofu’s clinic used to be. “Anything can happen,” she says, “and...”

 

  It was right here, on this section of street three years ago that I saw Dr. Tofu put his arm around Nabiki as he was returning to the clinic. I had thought for a time previous that he was interested in me, but as it turned out, he was more enamored of my younger sister. Every time I would visit him after that he would act so odd...as if he were purposely trying to avoid confronting me about something. I suppose my younger sister could have picked a worse man to lose her virginity to. It’s not my place to judge.

 

  “And everything does happen,” I say aloud.

 

“Even though there is suffering you must still love and accept this world.” Panuru fades from my vision.  I was only imagining her after all.

 

  I smile. I’ve never lost my temper or gotten upset, because I accept everything for what it is.

 

  “Liar!”

 

  I look up, startled.

 

  Panuru stands before me now...only she looks like she did that day five years ago... Her head hangs at a wicked angle, bloody and broken like the rest of her rag doll body. Her eyes open. They’re looking at me now, those eyes. Accusing. Threatening. She raises her twisted arm, her finger pointing directly to my breast.

 

  “LIAR!” she screams.

 

  I know this is just a hallucination. A side effect of childhood trauma. It’s nothing to get upset about. She fades away just like always.

 

  Still, I say her name once more under my breath. Panuru.”

 

~~~~~hon-ya~~~~~

 

  The next day, after Akane leaves for school, I decide to visit the book store. It’s fairly quiet this time of day and the older lady that works there is pleasant company. She asks about Akane and Nabiki and then there’s an awkward moment when she realizes I’m not a mother. That I’m less than half her age. Before she can think to ask of my marriage prospects, I ask if there are any new books that have come in recently.

 

To my pleasure, a brand new translation of a book from that marvelous “Chicken Soup” series has just arrived.

 

 Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul it’s called. Although I’m hardly a teenager, I’m not that much older and if nothing else I might be able to use the insights I find to help my friends at the ice cream shop. I get two copies, and I ask Mariko-san— that’s the name of the nice old lady that works here— to gift wrap one of them.

 

  I’m going to visit Panuru today.

 

  As Mariko-san’s wrinkled hands deftly fold the paper around the book though, I catch sight of the clock hanging over a poster advertising a book signing. It’s almost noon! If I don’t hurry back home, Father’s lunch will be late! 

 

~~~~~tendou no doujou~~~~~

 

  I rush into the kitchen. Father had an early meeting with the city council today, and I was hoping to surprise him by baking cookies, but I have to be quick if I want to get done before he gets back. I have all the ingredients out; so I’ll go ahead and preheat the oven.

 

  Ranma did show me one practical use of the Art. If pressed I can cook up to ten times faster now. Of course I’d rather die than try to use any of the more violent movements, but I try to be practical about these things.

 

  Just as I open the oven door, though there’s a terrible screeching and a strange shock of electricity. I jump away from the oven, startled. The door sticks, only partway open.

 

  After catching my breath for a moment, I try to move the oven door but it will not budge, and looking at the hinges, I discover that they are rusted solid.

 

  I look and I see rust now on the faucet, the steel wool pad I use for cleaning, even the fittings of the hose on the wall mounted water heater.

 

  “Who?”  I hear a male voice call out. It sounds like Ranma-kun. “Who...?”

 

  “Oh my!” I exclaim. The voice sounds like its echoing inside me... Through me.

 

  Who summoned me?”

 

~~~~~doki doki~~~~~

 

  I sense something above me and I look up to find that there’s a strange discoloration in the ceiling. Something is moving up there. I see colors swirling in the growing stain, like in an oil slick. Slowly a face begins to take shape. I can see a nose now...a mouth...eyes. the figure solidifies into a definite human form. A young man with black hair in a pigtail. He looks at me and smiles before dropping to the floor. “Yo!” He greets with one hand raised.

 

  “Why hello, Ranma-kun! I must admit you gave me quite a start!”

 

  “Sorry ‘bout that, Kasumi.”

 

~~~~~unstability~~~~~

 

  “So,” Ranma says conversationally leaning against the kitchen counter, “You’re the one that called me? Why? How’d ya do it? What kind are you? Are you like Saotome Ranma or...” Ranma steps closer to me. His eyes go blank for a moment as he seems to peer into my skull. “Okay, yeah. Now I see. In your brain. The memories you got...the structure’s there. Cool...cool.”

 

  “Would you like to help me in the kitchen, Ranma?” I ask, “Then maybe we can talk for a while. It’s been a long time hasn’t it?”

 

  Ranma smiles and morphs into her girl form. “Sure, that would be great. You’re making cookies, huh? Sorry I ruined your oven....”

 

~~~~~Scene003: Kitaguchi Park~~~~~

 

  There are swing sets here... jungle gyms, and slides. Children play oblivious to what happened here five years ago. And that is as it should be of course. I stand over the small tree growing over where I found Panuru’s body.

 

  “I brought you the latest ‘Chicken Soup’ book, Panuru. Here, let me read some to you...”

 

  I open to the first chapter “On Relationships” and read. “Relationships— of all kinds— are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers.” I close the book and smile.

 

  “So that’s Panuru, huh?” Ranma-chan walks out from behind a tree. At my request, she has her beautiful hair out of its usual pigtail and she’s wearing a lovely sundress.

 

  Strange though...she reminds me of the time Happosai used that unfortunate “Yin Yang Thank You Ma’am” personality splitting incense. She walks gracefully toward me as if born a woman and there’s this eerie prismatic glow about her.

 

  Still, it’s nice to see her again.

 

  “You already accept me, huh? I could do anything and it wouldn’t faze you? No matter what happens in this world, you will always love it.”

 

  “Yes,” I nod setting the gift wrapped book on the ground and standing once again. I close my eyes and grasp the silver cross dangling from my neck. “That is the wisdom of St. Panuru.”

 

  Abruptly Ranma laughed. “You humans are strange. You think your silly little theories are special powers or something.”

 

  “I suppose...”

 

  “You still wanna enlighten people to world love? Panuru’s world love?”

 

  “Yes.”

 

  “Then you know what ya gotta do.”

 

  I nod my head. I would have never expected Ranma-chan to be so insightful...so caring. Nabiki-chan told me she was dead five months ago. Of course it’s Nabiki’s nature to lie on occasion, I just have to accept that and provide her with a sister’s love. Anything more would be like grasping sand too tightly.

 

  I’m glad Ranma’s alive in any case, though perhaps it really wouldn’t matter who she was. She’s simply the first person aside from myself who understands St. Panuru.

 

~~~~~furinkan koukou~~~~~

 

  I’m visiting the high school today. Earlier this morning, I called Yuka-chan and told her I’d like to speak with her about something. The school brings back so many happy memories. I did well in my classes here, and I was planning on being a doctor. I remember as a first year everyone remarked on how easily I adjusted after my mother’s death. Sometimes I would tell them of how I met Panuru and how she made me understand world love. They would always give me a confused look and then smile, saying things like “I’m glad you could find some peace.”

 

  None of them really understood, but I couldn’t make them understand. So I just stopped trying. Tofu-kun had just graduated with a degree in Biology two years early, already well on his way to becoming a doctor. Back then I still thought Tofu and I were romantically involved. He would always pick me up after class and we’d see a movie or maybe just go to the Library. After I saw him with Nabiki I decided it wouldn’t be proper to see him again. He started to act strangely after that. Nabiki was probably torturing the poor dear, but there wasn’t anything I could really do. I just accepted what was and went on with my life.

 

  In my senior year my grades took a bit of a slump. I discovered I really didn’t want to be a doctor like Tofu, and decided to dedicate my life to being a homemaker. Father still had bouts of severe depression and Akane was growing more obstinate.

 

  Also... Nabiki had killed my mother. If she had just called the paramedics Mother might still be alive, but they wouldn’t put her in jail for that; so I had to watch her around Akane and Father and try to give her what love I could. Because of these obligations, I was already spending more and more time at home, cooking and cleaning and watching.

 

  Becoming a homemaker seems like a foregone conclusion now, but back then it was a real turning point in my life. I had spent so much energy trying to learn to be something I would never be. But being a doctor just wasn’t in the cards for me. I just trusted in St. Panuru and that saw me through..

 

  My life is so much better since I started loving the world, it bothers me when I see people get upset about little things. I want to tell them the teachings of St. Panuru. I want them to understand and not be upset anymore.

 

  And now, thanks to Ranma, I can do that.

 

  I remember yesterday, when Ranma-chan and I were making cookies she started crying, the tears falling into the batter.

 

  “What’s wrong?” I asked.

 

  “I can’t breathe!” She sobbed, “The Manticore...won’t let me escape...Please Kasumi, you’ve got to tell Nabiki and Akane that I’m sorry...all those people...You got to tell them Kas...”

 

  Ranma’s face became blank suddenly, and she smiled.

 

  “Oh my! Ranma-chan, what was that about? Are you okay?” I asked.

 

  “Sorry bout that, Kasumi-oneechan. That’s the part of me that’s still human. I had to let it out for the tears.” Ranma winked, “They’re the special ingredient!”

 

  Ranma seemed better then; so I didn’t press the issue. I remember how when I first started loving the world I would still have times when I would despair. It will take Ranma-chan a while to fully accept the world I guess.

 

  I open the bag of cookies and smell them. So sweet, with a hint of vanilla. My best cookies yet. They’re special. Anyone that eats them will accept the teachings of St. Panuru with open arms.

 

  I’m waiting in the computer room for Yuka. They hadn’t had the computers when I was going to school here. They look a little impersonal all lined up in rows, lit through the large window by an overcast sky. The monitors are all dark, as if they’re asleep.

 

  Yuka comes in the door, her pretty face marred by worry lines and puffy eyes. Her curls are a little unkempt too. She walks to me and we both look out the window for a while. I’m smiling at the rainbow in the sky, still there even without sunlight. She’s frowning at some symbol etched lightly in the ground underneath the clock tower. I noticed it earlier. It’s circular with many different designs all around it. You can’t see it from the ground, only here on the third floor where the slight discoloration is noticeable. It gives me a queer feeling... It’s almost like a crop circle, only this is lightly etched in the pavement. It’s strange, but anything can happen in this world. It is better to focus on the positives.

 

  “Kasumi...I just can’t.” Yuka says suddenly. “Since that day, it’s been getting worse. I remember now what Jonouchi-kun did...Jonouchi-kun...he...”

 

  “Yuka-chan, there’s someone I’d like you to meet.” Just after I say this, the monitors of all the computers click to life like thirty electronic eyes opening, their screens now emitting a baleful glow. Yuka steps back from them, her hand in front of her face. The poor dear hasn’t learned to accept things as they are. But Ranma says she can help. She says that Yuka is ready to learn about St. Panuru, that the cookies are for the others who haven’t attained a level where they can be reached.

 

  Ranma materializes alongside Yuka in his male form. His compassionate eyes assessing her even as she backs away, startled anew. “Who...?” Yuka asks.

 

  “He’s your savior, Yuka-chan. Remember when you told me I’m so accepting of everything? Yuka, you can be like me too.”

 

  “Really? He’ll be able to make me feel better...like Jonouchi-kun did?”

 

  Ranma smiles. He reaches out for Yuka and brings her lips to his. He seems to be drinking all her worry and fear away...

 

He has his own way of enlightening people to the world of St. Panuru...

 

~~~~~kurasu~~~~~

 

Omo-sensei hands out the daily quiz to his students. Noting the empty desk where Daisuke used to sit all the time he shakes his head and mutters to himself. “It’s starting again...the disappearances...”

 

When he sets the paper down on Sasaoka Yuka’s desk, she seems to have a completely blank expression, like she’s daydreaming or something. “Sasaoka, pull yourself together,” he commands, “Your last quiz score was very disappointing. Please do your best on this one okay?”

 

  Yuka looks lazily up at the teacher and smiles slightly. “Thank you...Sensei.” She says...just before collapsing.

 

  Sasaoka!” Omo-sensei shakes Yuka’s shoulder but gets no response. A string of saliva oozes out of the corner of her mouth reaching her desk through her curls. “Tendo!” Omo-sensei yells to Akane, “Go get the nurse, tell her to call the paramedics!”

 

  Akane nods and runs out of the classroom.

 

~~~~~sirens~~~~~

 

  Sasaoka Yuka is already cold to the touch when they put her on the stretcher. One of them reaches to her face to close her open eyes before pulling the sheet over her head.

 

  You startle awake after an eraser hits your head. You fell asleep in class again, despite all those caffeine pills.

 

  The dreams...they won’t stop...

 

~~~~~sanjuuichi ~~~~~

 

  I’m sitting with all the girls in the ice cream shop. They all loved the cookies. And they’re sprawled on the seat of the booth relaxing as I talk.

 

  “Yuka-chan died before having the chance to experience the joy she was promised,” I explain to them

 

  Kaede nods sleepily, her head with its wild, orange hair almost hitting the table in the downward motion. “That’s... so sad...”

 

  “That’s part of the world too though, you must remember.”

 

  “Yes.” Arisu agrees, her exotic features hidden by her arm as she cradles her head on the table. “I concur...death...life...”

 

  “Kasumi...?” Yabe asks, her glasses crooked and her face at an odd cant.

 

  “Yes, Yabe-chan?”

 

  “Am I alive?...Am I dead?”

 

  I smile, “Well, as long as you love this world I suppose it doesn’t really matter, hmm?”

 

  “I...suppose not.”

 

  “What did you do to them?” a strident alto voice demands.

 

  I look up to see Nabiki standing over me, scowling. Her hair is longer now, paradoxically this makes her look stronger somehow...less soft. “I just gave them some cookies, Nabiki-chan. They really enjoyed them. Here...” I pull one out of the bag and hand it to her, “would you like to try one?”

 

  Nabiki snatches it out of my hand, breaks it in half and brings it to her nose. She glares at me. “Slave!” she seethes. “Where did you get this, Kasumi? Were you looking through my things?”

 

  “I don’t see why I should answer if you’re going to be rude about it, Nabiki-chan. Please calm down and we’ll talk about this like mature women.”

 

  Nabiki throws both pieces of my cookie to the floor. I notice Nabiki’s wearing those clunky combat boots with her black pants (they are much too baggy to be called slacks by any stretch) stuffed inside them. She’s really let herself go. She used to at least appear feminine, even though she harbored some ideals that clashed with how a young girl should behave. Now it’s as if she doesn’t even care about that anymore. I am almost sure that her hair is long more from not visiting a hair salon then from any sort of fashion statement. I notice the strap that holds the crossbow to her back...she’s even starting to act more violent. I fear she may have lost sight of her goals entirely.

 

  “Kasumi, listen to me,” She says, “These cookies have a drug in them, it destroys people’s will and puts them in a hypnotic state. Kasumi, if they get addicted they end up in a coma! I’ve seen it before. You’ve got to stop giving these to people. Please tell me you only made one batch.”

 

  “Now, Nabiki, I’m sure you’re exaggerating. That isn’t lady-like. Besides, I didn’t put any drugs in the cookies. I’d never do something like that. Why are you so upset, Nabiki-chan? I don’t remember seeing you this...crazed.”

 

  “Kasumi, there are times for composure. This is NOT one of them. This is a time for getting pissed off, because whether she knows it or not, my older sister is helping the same thing that killed...almost killed me and murdered more than a hundred others.”

 

  “Now, Nabiki-chan, it isn’t nice to fib...”

 

  Nabiki slams her hand on the table. “Wake up, Kasumi! Ranma’s dead, and whoever’s helping you, killed him! You can’t run away from reality. You can’t make things better by ignoring them!” A beeping sound emits from the pocket of Nabiki’s black pants, and she pulls out a white, rectangular object. “It’s here!” She exclaims. She grabs the bag of cookies from me and says “Whoever’s giving you this stuff, stop talking to them immediately. I’m worried about you.” With that she runs out of the door of the shop.

 

  I see the stares of the other customers and give them an embarrassed smile for my sister’s behavior.

 

  I look to my companions who look back at me with watery eyes. Suddenly I feel a twinge...is it really a good thing that they are in this...trance state? They appear barely conscious and...

 

  But of course I’m forgetting myself. I’m helping to make their lives better. I just have to accept that some sacrifices must be made. Still...I would never have done something like this if it hadn’t been for Ranma...I never realized how much I missed her until she came back.

 

  I’ll have to ask her about it when I see her again. But for right now there isn’t much I can do to change the situation. “Can you all make it home all right?”

 

  They all try for a nod with varying levels of success. “We can make it home. All right!” Yabe says with a vague giggle as her glasses fall off her face into her lap and she makes a slapping motion to try to catch them after they’ve already landed.

 

  “Then I’ll say good bye for now.” I get up and leave them to their own devices.

 

  They should be okay.

 

~~~~~yomichi~~~~~

 

  It’s still fairly early in the evening. People are just getting off work and I walk amongst large clusters of them now. Currently I’m stopped at a light, waiting for the sign to change to “walk.”  I look behind me, but I can only see the grim faces of people coming back home after work. No one familiar.

 

  “Who are ya lookin for?” Ranma asks, looking up at me. She looks very charming in her blue jumper and green blouse. The glow around her has lessoned somehow and she seems...not more real, of course she looks real, she is real, right? But more normal I think is the term I’m looking for. There’s something about her eyes though...

 

  I decide to tell her the truth. “I was looking for Panuru. She’s usually with me when I go out at night.”

 

  “Aw, don’t worry Kasumi. She probably just figures she don’t need to stick around, since I’m here.”

 

  “Yes but...” The music that plays so that the blind can know when to cross echoes out of the speakers above me and I’m startled into walking. I feel like I’m being carried by the crowd of people behind me. Suddenly...it’s like I’m not in control.

 

  “Tendo Nabiki.” Ranma intones seriously. “We need to teach her world love.”

 

  “My sister?”

 

  “Yes. Over there.” Ranma-chan points to a corner of the street which houses a combination convenient store and pharmacy. The bend in one of the neon letters of its sign sizzles a little with electricity. There is a phone booth in front of the store, covered in incomprehensible graffiti. “That should do. It would be better if you had a cell but...”

 

  I walk to the booth, getting my phone card out of my purse.

 

  Ranma sees me do this and shakes her head. “You don’t need that. I lured your sister away by creating a concentrated pulse of electricity. Manipulating a pay phone should be no biggie.”

 

  Nodding dumbly, I slide open the accordion door of the booth and step inside. “I don’t know her cell phone number.”

 

  “Don’t worry about that. Just tell her to meet you on the bridge in the old city redevelopment area...and make sure to mention that I’m with you.”

 

  I lift the receiver off of its cradle and Ranma-chan puts her hand on the box. There’s a faint tingling sensation, and then I hear ringing.

 

~~~~~kitaguchi park~~~~~

 

  Just yesterday this place was full of boisterous children playing on the swings, the slide, the jungle gym. Now...it’s abandoned. Everything is covered in rust now. It must have happened overnight somehow. The dusty red color of it seems almost like blood in the twilight of the sunset.

 

  Nabiki runs into the playground a white rectangular object in her hand before her. Suddenly, she stops.

 

  She turns around.

 

  “Where is it?” she asks in a frustrated tone.

 

  She sees you sitting underneath a tree.

 

  “You. You were on the roof the other day, weren’t you? When I was talking to Ukyo?”

 

  Apparently this isn’t just another one of your visions. It doesn’t matter whether you’re awake or asleep anymore. They just keep coming. It’s getting hard to tell whether you’re here or...there now. You nod yes to Nabiki’s question.

 

  “You know something about what’s going on. Tell me.”

 

  You shake your head. “I don’t know anything. I just get these...dreams and...”

 

  Nevermind.” Nabiki waves you off. “Did you see anything strange come through here?”

 

  “No...just...there’s rust everywhere now.”

 

  Nabiki gives all of the playground equipment a cursory glance. “Yes...it’s the Manticore. It’s traveling through electricity now and the ionization of the air is causing the metal to oxidize faster. I tracked it over here, but...it’s gone now.”

 

  Just then you hear the first notes of Madonna’s “Material Girl” played out in shrill mechanical tones. Nabiki takes her cell phone out of her jacket pocket. “Hello?...Kasumi?...” her eyes widen. “What?” Her face becomes grim as she straightens herself. Her free left hand touches her neck. “Ranma.”

 

  You can feel the vision coming now. You grit your teeth in preparation. When it starts you realize immediately that it is not a vision of the present or the future, but of the past.

 

~~~~~furinkan koukou~~~~~

 

  The three of them were lying on the floor of the storage shed unconscious: Sayuri Yamaguchi, Kei Niitoki, and Ranma Saotome. Nabiki had dragged them here. They would be waking up soon, the knock out gas only lasted a couple of hours.

 

  Ryoga came up behind her, his clothes torn and stained with old blood, his gait uneven. He seemed to be struggling to breathe.

 

  Nabiki returned her attention to the three on the floor. “It should be one of them.” She was hoping it was Ranma. Even though it would mean he was dead, she still hoped, because it would mean it wasn’t her fault... that there really wasn’t anything she could have done anyway.  As for the other two, Sayuri was Akane’s friend and visited the house a lot while Akari had been nursing Ryoga back to health in the dojo. She and Akari had become friends. Most likely when Kei, the class leader gave the announcement for Nabiki to go to the broadcasting room to discuss Akari’s disappearance, she came out of curiosity.

 

  As for Kei, she was the only student with access to the intercom, so she was no doubt innocent as well. But Nabiki could take no chances. It was obvious that the call on the intercom was a setup. So instead of entering the broadcasting room she opened the door, threw a gas bomb inside and closed it again. Later, when nearly everyone in school had left for home, Nabiki dragged the bodies to the sports equipment shed, where they were now.

 

  Ranma was starting to wake up. The black sleeve of his Chinese shirt came up to his face to rub the sleep from his eyes.

 

  Nabiki let Ryoga in front of her. He held his arm outstretched, toward Ranma, his palm outward. He closed his eyes. Then he moved to Sayuri, to Kei. Finally he lowered his arm to his side turned to Nabiki and shook his head.

 

  “None of them is the Manticore?” Nabiki asked.

 

  “None,” Ryoga replied. Nabiki stood for a minute, thinking. It just didn’t make any sense!

 

  “What the...” Ranma said, standing unsteadily. “Nabiki...and Ryoga.”  He cracked his knuckles, smirking with his eyes half-lidded. “It’s been a long time...Echoes.”

 

  “It’s been a long time,” Ryoga nodded sadly.

 

  Ranma’s eyes thinned.

 

  Nabiki took in a breath. The last time Ranma and Ryoga met was at the failed wedding. That was before Ryoga had become Echoes. There was no way Ranma could know that unless...

 

  Kei and Sayuri were just starting to stir. Nabiki rushed to them helping them both up. “I’m sorry, I don’t have time to explain, but...get out of here NOW!”

 

But they were both too dazed. Nabiki heard a footstep behind her. She whirled around. Kodachi was standing there, a stoic expression on her face. Suddenly it all fell into place. It was Kodachi! Kodachi was the Manticore! But Ryoga was too far away to help.

 

Nabiki surprised herself by making a sweeping crescent kick, which Kodachi easily dodged. She seemed to disappear then. She was fast, but in almost all cases when someone speeds off like that, they attack your back...Nabiki dodged just as Kodachi’s fingers from her outstretched arm popped in a small sonic boom where Nabiki’s neck would have been. If she had not moved, she would have died.

 

  It had been five years since Nabiki studied martial arts at all and she was surprised at how easily it was coming back, but she also knew that she couldn’t keep this up. She pulled out the stun gun from her pocket, turned it on.

 

  Kodachi thankfully didn’t seem to have her propensities toward ribbons since becoming a man eater. She advanced on Nabiki directly, and, betting on blind luck, Nabiki lunged at her face with the stun gun.

 

  Arcs of electricity flew out of the weapon as it came near Kodachi, she was thrown back into a shelf of soccer balls right next to Ryoga. Her face still crackled and popped with electricity for a moment making branching welts across one side of her face.

 

  Ryoga, seizing his opportunity, grabbed Kodachi by the throat and slammed her against the wall.

 

  A ribbon fell from her hair. Pink with little black pigs on it. Akari’s.

 

  Seeing this, Ryoga growled in rage and slammed Kodachi once more into the wall.

 

  But then Ranma rushed from behind and stabbed the side of Ryoga’s neck with a makeshift syringe made out of a pen.

  Slave

 

  Ryoga let Kodachi go and staggered backward, making a choking sound.

 

  “There,” Ranma said, “That stuff’s poisonous to you, right? You might have evolved but ya ain’t immortal, pigbrains. Say hello to Akari for me in the next life.”

 

  Nabiki knew then that it was time to leave. She edged toward the door hoping she could maneuver herself into a good position before Ranma returned his attention to her. She heard a sound that froze her though. CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK. The sound of an exacto knife being extended.

 

  “Sayonara, Nabiki-chan,” Ranma saluted and spun the blade at her.

 

  She tried to dodge but she was too late. The point lodged deep into her neck, slicing through the carotid artery. There was a warm splash on her shoulder that she knew was blood. She pulled the blade out. Already the inside of the shed looked darker and she felt dizzy. She staggered toward Ryoga and then collapsed, her head making a loud thud against the concrete floor.

 

  Her vision fading, she could just make out a pool of blood spreading from her face.

 

  “Damn it, Nabiki,” She heard Ranma’s voice as if from far away. “For some reason I’d thought you’d be more of a challenge.” Oddly, there was a tremulous note of sincerity in the sarcasm.

 

  He wants someone to stop him, Nabiki thought...and then she was gone.

 

~~~~~kitaguchi park~~~~~

 

  The vision takes only moments to see, and when you come back to reality Nabiki is there in the park next to the rusted jungle gym and swing set, yelling into her phone. “Kasumi get away from him! You hear me? That’s not Ranma that’s...shit!” She mashes the end button and turns to you. “What is it?” She asks.

 

  “You...died.”

 

  “How did....?” She nods, “You had a vision. That’s an ability Echoes had...Come on.” She grabs you by the wrist. “You’re coming with me.”

 

~~~~~old city redevelopment center~~~~~~

 

  It’s so nice that the city is always seeking to improve itself.

 

  That’s what I should be thinking. But I miss the sakura blossoms. The trees that used to be here...Now there’s only this rusted metal bridge joining two skeletal half finished buildings together. To be fair, it probably wasn’t rusted before we got here, but...

 

  It’s part of the world and I love it. It may be ugly but it has a different sort of beauty—much the way the smell of garbage is just evidence that the microbes are doing their job and after a while the garbage will be food for plants, trees, flowers.

 

  “Ranma-chan, what are we doing here?”

 

  “We’ll wait here until Nabiki comes, and then we’ll make our move,” Ranma smiles impishly, patting my shoulder. “If she thinks I’m here she’ll definitely come. My name’s the best bait for her.”

 

  “’Bait,’ you say...It...it feels like we’re doing something wrong...”

 

  “You are doing something wrong, but the bait isn’t Saotome...it’s you.” The voice is strange, mechanical yet organic, it echoes through me and all around me. It’s feminine...There’s a tingle all through my body like static electricity and I see a shadowy figure materialize in front of me.

 

  “May I ask your name?”

 

  “I am what your friends call ‘the death kami.’“ She’s wearing all black. A cloak with a strange white and black ribbon that floats above her shoulders and a cylindrical hat of some sort. When she steps into the light and I can see her face, I’m startled to find it’s Kodachi.

 

  “Ranma-chan! It’s Kodachi! She’s come to visit! ...Ranma-chan?” I turn to find my erstwhile companion, but Ranma isn’t there.

 

  “I am not Kodachi. That girl is dead. I am only using her face. Similarly the entity you were talking to was not Saotome Ranma but a man-eater. Manticore’ in ancient Persian. The old personalities of Kodachi and Ranma are bound in that creature, but it only uses them for its own ends.”

 

  “I had to let it out for the tears...they’re the secret ingredient.”  I shake my head clear of the memory. I haven’t been doing anything wrong, only helping people realize world love...

 

  “You were supplying it with a source. Allowing it to materialize. You were helping the enemies of this world.”

 

  “Now, Death-chan,” I laugh, “I’m afraid you got it wrong. Ranma and I aren’t the enemies of this world! It’s the other way around we...”

 

  “You are not the real Panuru..”

 

  Wha...?”

 

  “Your world love and Panuru’s world love are completely different. Your fate was already sealed when you took the cross from her that day.” Her eyes are burning into me and I have to struggle to meet them and not turn away.

 

  “It’s not like that! When I took her cross I took over her world love! I was respecting her memory and...and...”

 

  Liar!”

 

  I turn and see her again. Panuru. Her head bent at an odd angle, her limbs twisted, her face bloody. Her eyes bloated in their sockets...glaring at me...

 

  LIAR!

 

  Tears come flowing from my eyes, “I’m not lying! Please, believe me, Panuru! I...I...”

 

~~~~~Scene004: Junior High School~~~~~

 

  “Kasumi, don’t cry.”  Panuru sat beside me on the bank of the canal, she looked younger than I, even back then. we were both sixteen, just a month into high school. The serial killer tore apart my mother just a week before. Nabiki had watched her die. It was wrong of me to hate my sister, but I couldn’t help it. She was something concrete, while the serial killer was just a vague shadow.

 

  I was crying because the evening before, at the funeral, Nabiki had an eulogy prepared, while I...I had not even thought about saying anything. I just stayed in my room looking through mothers old recipes and the books she published. Nabiki’s speech was...it was beautiful. Anyone listening to her would know that she loved Mother as much as any of us. And yet I still hated her. I hated her even more I think, because she was able to do something I could not.

 

  She said goodbye.

 

  I met Panuru at the funeral. She was my mother’s cousin’s daughter, but despite being related to me and going to the same school as me, I had never met her. She made it a point to be friendly to me for some reason and after class the next day she asked if she could walk with me.

 

  We talked about so many things, but I forgot most of it. What I remember is what she told me that day at the canal and afterwards.

 

  “Why are we born?” I asked her, “Why do we have to live?”

 

  “Why do you think?” She asked me. My mother, she used to say the true end was a privilege to those who hadn’t been born yet, that once a person is born they will never feel peace again as long as they live.

 

  “That’s what I don’t understand!”

 

  “There is no reason.” She smiled...she was so peaceful... “Somehow, we are born, and we live. That’s about it.” She threw a pebble idly into the canal. The orange and pink from the sunset sparkled off the crown of water from the splash. “In this world, everything exists. No matter how you suffer, this is still our world. Even though there is suffering, you still have to love and accept this world. These are the words of St. Panuru.” She fingered the cross that hung around her neck.

 

  “St. Panuru...who’s that?” I asked. That’s right...her name wasn’t really Panuru...it was Miyazaki Shiriko, I think.

 

  She turned to me, beaming. “It’s a secret!”

 

  I started calling her Panuru at the train station as we waited for the train that would take her back home.

 

  “Don’t call me that!” She protested.

 

  “It’s alright! I say it out of respect!” I said, “I want to learn more about St. Panuru.”

 

  “Really?”

 

  “Yes. And more about this world, about love, about affirmation, and so much more.”

 

  Her train came and she stepped on board. She turned around, “Do you want to get together again tomorrow?”

 

  “Yes!”

 

  “After school, in Kitaguchi Park...I’ll meet you there.”

 

  “Okay! See you!” And the train’s door slid closed between us. Her face was so sweet, smiling kindly. Her hair in a perfect bob. Even her school uniform, it was immaculate. I remember her at that moment more clearly than any other, because that was the last time I saw her alive.

 

  After school, in Kitaguchi Park, I saw her dead. Her eyes wide in shock, her limbs twisted, her body bloody. The same way Mother was before she died. The serial killer had struck again. My heart was in my throat. The world seemed to spin around me...

 

  And then, in my mind I heard her words: “This is the world... No matter how you suffer, this is still our world.”

 

  I calmed down then.

 

  I nodded.

 

  “I understand, Panuru.” And I reached down, underneath her cold neck, and gently removed her cross necklace, fastening it so that it hung over my heart.

 

~~~~~old city redevelopment area~~~~~

 

  “I took over Panuru’s will!” I tell Death. “I accepted the world for what it is.”

 

The specter in front of me with Kodachi’s face shakes her head. “What you accepted was not the world. It was simply her death.”

 

Her eyes aren’t Kodachi’s blue color, I notice now, but a strange, glowing yellow. They pierce right through me...I feel like I’m waking up after a long sleep.

 

 “You didn’t take over anything from Panuru. You’re just pretending to love this world in order to protect yourself from it. And it was that ‘love’ that gave that thing this chance. Your pitiful attempt to evolve allowed him to materialize in this world.”

 

  “Evolve?” I look away from those burning eyes, to the rusted pipes and gratings around me. And suddenly it hits me. Ranma appearing through the ceiling, rusting the oven door. Ranma...crying into the batter, telling me to give the cookies to everyone, to father...Ranma...killing Yuka-chan while I watched, smiling....

 

  I grab the sides of my head, stumbling backward, “No...NO!”

 

  Boogiepop—she’s Boogiepop! She’s real!— glides in front of me. “Did the rainbow disappear?” She asks me.

 

  I feel something release within me, like all this time I’ve been filled with some gas that’s kept me afloat, and now all of it has been let out. I fall to the ground. “I had no choice,” I say, and suddenly I realize I’ve been saying it all along, “I had to or I couldn’t continue living. What else could I have done? In this fucked up world...how should I have lived?”

 

  I look up at Boogiepop, at the stoic face, those burning eyes...I don’t even see Kodachi in there anymore...I reach up. “Take me!” I beg her, “Take me like you took Jonouchi!”

 

  “I can’t take you,” she says, and I think those words would quiver in my insides even without her strange voice. “I’m sorry, but you’re not even worth taking.” She glides back away from me, into the shadows, and disappears.

 

  I am alone.

 

  “Boogiepop!” I yell out. But no one answers.

 

~~~~~yomichi~~~~~~

 

  She is stumbling down an alley way just outside of the redevelopment center. Her long hair is in disarray, her house dress splotched with dirt from falling on the ground. “Help me!” she pleads. “Help me!” She screams out again. “Save me from this world!”

 

  A voice fills her mind, a young girl in an accusing tone: “Liar! LIAR! LIAR!”

 

  Her hand goes to a cross hanging from her neck. She rips it off...throws it to the ground. “Help me! Somebody...help me!” At the end of the alley way she sees a heavyset officer with a chiseled face...she remembers him from the night she saw Mousse. Officer Morita, is his name. “Help me officer!” And she grabs his body like a drowning woman.

 

  “What a nice surprise,” he says, looking down at her.

 

  He smiles.

 

  You hear bones snapping, blood splattering, inhuman laughter...

 

~~~~~kawasaki~~~~~

 

  You are back, holding desperately to Nabiki’s waist as she speeds through the city streets at night on the black and chrome motorcycle. She stops at a red light. “Can you see her? Where is she?” she asks over the idling engine.

 

  You tell her as best you can where you saw her after she left the unfinished bridge. You worry that it’s already too late...

 

  When Nabiki passes the alley you nudge her and point to where it is. You see Morita getting out of his white and black patrol car a little down the road. Nabiki u-turns on to the side walk via a wheel chair ramp and speeds to the alley way and inside.

 

  There she is, just like in your vision. Tendo Kasumi, her hair in disarray, her dress splotched with dirt. “Somebody help me!” She pleads.

 

  Nabiki scrambles off the motorcycle, barely giving you a thought as she tears your arm from her waist and runs to her sister. Kasumi and Nabiki embrace each other tightly. Tears stream down Kasumi’s face. “Kill me, Nabiki!” She cries, “Kill me! I deserve to die! End my suffering! Save me from this world!”

 

“Easy, sis,” she says quietly, rubbing her older sister’s back, “You’ve got some work to do remember? I can’t make enough money for us to live on, save the world, AND take care of Daddy and Akane, now can I?” Her voice cracks just a little at the last part, and you realize that Nabiki is crying too.

 

  You look out of the alley at the street. Officer Morita pauses at the opening. He glares at you... as if he knows...and then he continues walking.

 

  Looking back past Nabiki and Kasumi still cradling each other...you see a glint of silver. You find the motorcycle’s kickstand, let it down, get off the bike and walk over to what you saw.

 

  On the dark asphalt, glinting from the light of a streetlamp, is a silver cross

 

  “In this world everything exists. Anything can happen, and everything does happen...”

 

  You see a spark of electricity sizzle across it for a moment before it jumps up a nearby streetlamp and in three directions along the power lines over head. You stare at it for a few moments, then...on impulse you pick it up.

 

  It’s a little tarnished now. You wipe off some of the dirt. It could be polished again. It’s not worthless. You get the impression that it is a good thing, that it was just misused.

 

  Maybe you’ll change your mind later. For now though, you keep it with you.

 

  Looking at Kasumi, crying in the arms of her sister, you find yourself muttering something under your breath...

 

Liar.”

 

~~~~~[END]~~~~~

 

Love For a Pure Girl...

 

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