FACE IN THE MIRROR II
Heartbreak on the "Information Highway"
I was a normal,happy and contented housewife and mother.
I had no complaints with my life that I was aware of.
You know, the house, the car, the occasional night out.
Two wonderful grown sons and a husband that loved me.
On July 5th,1995 all of that was to change.
No one knew it. No one suspected it, but a monster
was crawling into my home.
It was to change my life and the lives of my husband,
family, and many others.
My husband and Older son had gone shopping.
They returned home with a computer. I did not like
them myself because my husband had an Amiga
and spent hours on it before it died. I had never
really used it.
They spent hours getting it set up and around 8pm
that night called to me and said "Mom, come here,
we have something just for you."
THAT was the beginning of the end. On the
screen was the log on to "America on Line".
They walked me me through the initial sign on
and helped me select a name. The entire time
I was doubtful that there could be anything for
me here. Little did I know!!!
Minutes later I was on line and looking
around. "Ok,I thought, humor them for a while."
They went to watch "Star Trek" leaving me
to do my "thing".
I happed to see the two little faces at the top
of the screen
and clicked on it. I found myself in a place
with a screen and names and conversation
going on. "WOW!" I thought. "Can I type
here and other people everywhere can read
my words and know what I am saying?"
I got into a conversation (later to know this
was call chat) and before I realized it the guys
were back saying, "It has been over an hour.
You have to sign off now because you only
have ten free hours for a whole month."
Amused I did and thought "That is not a
problem, ten hours is a lot to sit here."
But, a day or so later I was alone at home
and again ventured into a chat room and
met several people. One a gal from
California and I became friends and
would meet every so often to chat. Then
I met another two from my home state
and WE got together and talked. Much
of this was when I was alone and bored
so I had no clue how long I was actually
on line that month.
UNTIL THE AOL BILL CAME.
It was for $140.00!!! My initial response
was that they MUST have made a mistake.
There is no way I was on line THAT
much in ONE month!
But,when we checked the minute thing
on line, indeed I had been. I was in shock.
I kept being drawn into the chat rooms
to meet my new friends. Then to offset the
time I was using over my "free",
we got a trial to several other servers.
I had GNN, imagination, Prodigy ( more
on this in a few) and a couple more.
I also got several additional 50 hour
trials for AOL under different names.
I was spending two hours a night on line
and checking mail a couple times during
the day (boy those minutes do mount up).
Two months after getting AOL I met
some really nice people. A group. We started
hanging together.One of them,lived and worked
in the same town as my older son.
He worked for a major tv network and kept
me posted with minute-by-minute news updates.
When we went to that town to visit our son
my daughter in law and I went to have lunch
together. What the guys did not know was that we were
meeting this guy.
I was so flustered I could not eat. It was funny
but sad. I had a drink instead. He paid for lunch
and it was fun but I found out HE was married and
that did not set well with me. But, then so was I,
and we WERE only having a social lunch,(AND lying to
people). At the same time I was talking to a guy
in Virginia.
He was especially helpful
to me in getting to places on the net and
with programs etc. Then suddenly he
started getting personal.
I was flattered because he was 6 years
my junior and quite well to do (so he
mentioned)
I did not really think too much of
this until he started sending me sweet
emails, and even went so far as to come
on line to talk via lap-top and cell phone
while on a camping trip (Ok so I was a
newbie and naive then).
He wrote me some really beautiful
letters too. I also wrote letters back to him too.
I said things I never should have said.
I stored them in my computer
and read them over and over. It was nice
to have someone "court" me in a way
because I had been married 30 years to
the same man.
I would chat with him alone whenever we
were there during the day. That is I did
until he asked me to go to a "room" with him.
I did not know about these (rooms) and he just said
it was so we could talk faster. I agreed and
we went and within minutes he was asking
me to have cyber sex with him because he
loved me. Well, I did not KNOW what
cyber-sex was actually but I DID know
I was not into having THAT kind of a
relationship with anyone because I loved
my husband. My online time was for fun
not for anything serious, sinful or whatever.
I left the room and signed off. I was in shock.
How could he have done this? We had a
good friendship going and he ruined it.
I refused to talk to him again and the
next day went to the directory and started
looking for some women to talk to.
NO MORE MEN for me.
Well the damage had been done.
Almost a week after the incident my
husband was clearing files and found the
letters from my friend. He was angry enough
that I was scared. He refused to listen to wha
t had happened ( I now agree that I was
to blame for a great deal of it and never should
have gotten into it to begin with )
and how I handled the
situation.
HE put down a no men rule (which
I had already done anyway) and life continued.
OR DID IT? READ ON
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I was a normal,happy and contented housewife and mother. I had no complaints with my life that I was aware of. You know, the house, the car, the occasional night out. Two wonderful grown sons and a husband that loved me. On July 5th,1995 all of that was to change. No one knew it. No one suspected it, but a monster was crawling into my home. It was to change my life and the lives of my husband, family, and many others. My husband and Older son had gone shopping. They returned home with a computer. I did not like them myself because my husband had an Amiga and spent hours on it before it died. I had never really used it. They spent hours getting it set up and around 8pm that night called to me and said "Mom, come here, we have something just for you." THAT was the beginning of the end. On the screen was the log on to "America on Line". They walked me me through the initial sign on and helped me select a name. The entire time I was doubtful that there could be anything for me here. Little did I know!!! Minutes later I was on line and looking around. "Ok,I thought, humor them for a while." They went to watch "Star Trek" leaving me to do my "thing". I happed to see the two little faces at the top of the screen and clicked on it. I found myself in a place with a screen and names and conversation going on. "WOW!" I thought. "Can I type here and other people everywhere can read my words and know what I am saying?" I got into a conversation (later to know this was call chat) and before I realized it the guys were back saying, "It has been over an hour. You have to sign off now because you only have ten free hours for a whole month." Amused I did and thought "That is not a problem, ten hours is a lot to sit here." But, a day or so later I was alone at home and again ventured into a chat room and met several people. One a gal from California and I became friends and would meet every so often to chat. Then I met another two from my home state and WE got together and talked. Much of this was when I was alone and bored so I had no clue how long I was actually on line that month. UNTIL THE AOL BILL CAME. It was for $140.00!!! My initial response was that they MUST have made a mistake. There is no way I was on line THAT much in ONE month! But,when we checked the minute thing on line, indeed I had been. I was in shock. I kept being drawn into the chat rooms to meet my new friends. Then to offset the time I was using over my "free", we got a trial to several other servers. I had GNN, imagination, Prodigy ( more on this in a few) and a couple more. I also got several additional 50 hour trials for AOL under different names. I was spending two hours a night on line and checking mail a couple times during the day (boy those minutes do mount up). Two months after getting AOL I met some really nice people. A group. We started hanging together.One of them,lived and worked in the same town as my older son. He worked for a major tv network and kept me posted with minute-by-minute news updates. When we went to that town to visit our son my daughter in law and I went to have lunch together. What the guys did not know was that we were meeting this guy. I was so flustered I could not eat. It was funny but sad. I had a drink instead. He paid for lunch and it was fun but I found out HE was married and that did not set well with me. But, then so was I, and we WERE only having a social lunch,(AND lying to people). At the same time I was talking to a guy in Virginia. He was especially helpful to me in getting to places on the net and with programs etc. Then suddenly he started getting personal. I was flattered because he was 6 years my junior and quite well to do (so he mentioned) I did not really think too much of this until he started sending me sweet emails, and even went so far as to come on line to talk via lap-top and cell phone while on a camping trip (Ok so I was a newbie and naive then). He wrote me some really beautiful letters too. I also wrote letters back to him too. I said things I never should have said. I stored them in my computer and read them over and over. It was nice to have someone "court" me in a way because I had been married 30 years to the same man. I would chat with him alone whenever we were there during the day. That is I did until he asked me to go to a "room" with him. I did not know about these (rooms) and he just said it was so we could talk faster. I agreed and we went and within minutes he was asking me to have cyber sex with him because he loved me. Well, I did not KNOW what cyber-sex was actually but I DID know I was not into having THAT kind of a relationship with anyone because I loved my husband. My online time was for fun not for anything serious, sinful or whatever. I left the room and signed off. I was in shock. How could he have done this? We had a good friendship going and he ruined it. I refused to talk to him again and the next day went to the directory and started looking for some women to talk to. NO MORE MEN for me. Well the damage had been done. Almost a week after the incident my husband was clearing files and found the letters from my friend. He was angry enough that I was scared. He refused to listen to wha t had happened ( I now agree that I was to blame for a great deal of it and never should have gotten into it to begin with ) and how I handled the situation. HE put down a no men rule (which I had already done anyway) and life continued.
OR DID IT? READ ON
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