Disclaimer: I do not own Biker mice from mars or the character Rimfire.. Marvel and others do. I make no money from this. Hayden and the concept of this song fic belong to me. The song I Wish You Would belongs to the group Train. (A really great group too). Listening to the song while reading is recommended.

It be easy to pretend that she was just out visiting her sister and was staying late, Rimfire though staring at nothing in particular. It was much better than the reality that she wasn't just visiting her sister, she was staying there now...at least till she went back to Detroit in a few weeks. Rimfire picked up the picture of them that lay next to him on the couch, and ran his real fingers against her image. He'd finally chased her away, but that what he'd been trying to do wasn’t it? He'd finally gotten it through her head that the mouse she feel in love with was gone and dead and that the new one didn't need or want her around.

Rimfire gave a off a sorry excuse for a laugh, looking again at the picture of Hayden's smiling face. Who in Mars was he kidding? He needed her. It was a gnawing gapping hole eating away at his chest since she'd walked out. Rimfire had lost himself in wallowing self-pity and hatred, taking all his pain out on the one person that was keeping him sane.

A drink would have been wonderful right now, he thought bitterly, then reminded himself that the beer had been part of why she'd left. He'd dumped it all out, as if just that would bring her back to him. What a fool he'd been, he treated her like dirt when all she did was try to love and understand him. And that is what seemed to have made him the angriest at time. He still, even now that she was gone, couldn't understand how she could love him still.

Hayden had told him they needed some time apart, to figure out things on their own. Told him she loved him still but couldn't live with the way he was treating her and that he was still the same mouse she'd fallen in love with. Rimfire just had to find that part of him again.

I don’t know if I’m gonna have to redesign my mind

The three week since she'd left seemed like forever as he sat in the darkened apartment day after day. Sure he's uncle had been by to see him and talk…well lecture him mostly. The disappointment he saw in his uncle's eye hurt Rimfire almost has much as Hayden leaving him.

Rimfire closed his eyes resting his head on the back of the couch covering his face with his metal hand. Why hadn't he just opened up and told her that it was more than the metal hand? Why hadn't he confided in his Uncle all that had happened to him during his captive? Wouldn't the nightmares be easier to deal with if he'd let Hayden hold him while he told her about the dream?

The way you wished I would

Had he really gone so far into himself, let him self sink so deep into self-pity that he'd left her far behind? Rimfire still loved her…desperately and just thinking her of made him want to hold her and beg her forgiveness. Mars knew he had so much to ask her forgiveness for. He would beg on his knee's if he thought that would bring her back, but he knew it wouldn't. Rimfire would have to show her…prove to her…that he was willing to stop wallowing in self-pity and try….with her help…to somehow move on.