Worthless Yes
If it's not worthless
Then what is it
Tell me what I don't know
Show me how all these things I've done
All that I've written
All that I've felt
All that I've known
Tell me how that isn't worthless
Tell me so that I can see
That months of my life haven't been wasted
Wasted with all my thoughts of you
Wasted with all those poems for you
Wasted with everything I've done
Because you don't love me
I have nothing in my heart but love for you
Nothing but thoughts dreams and hopes of being with you
And they get me nothing
Perhaps pity
But no true feelings
And I have no chance with you
It is all worthless
And it is all my fault
I have only me to blame
For all of my pain
Because all the faults lie in me
All the problems come from me
Everything that causes pain is me
So what's left for me
Death?
Life with more pain?
Which is better
Which one will lay claim
And I am so sorry for saying these things
I know they will probably bring you pain
But I feel so hollow
And I know constant pain
And today
I was hurt very deeply
By three tiny words
They made me cry
They made me want to die
And I'm sorry
I don't want to try
And keep living
I don't want to hold on
To this pathetic existence
But a promise is a promise
So I cannot die
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Last updated 7-29-99