now things are so unclear...things are back not even to the way they were, they are so different in a worse way...i'm hardly spoken to and hardly touched..at least he doesn't give me excuses..not really..is "i don't know" and excuse?..i'm really confused about what is going on in his head...it would be so easy to let go if i didn't have to see him so often..

it's so tempting to go back and back time and time...but it will lead to what happen last time because i still haven't gotten over this little part...