June 10, 1999

each day i tell myself that i will update my page when i get home from work...but i haven't until now...i still need to fix my links and a few webrings..but that can wait till sunday i suppose...i hope the space in between updates won't be so long this time
well aaron blew me off for good..i knew it would happen..just didn't think so soon..but that was awhile back and i only think about him when i want to feel sorry for myself.
on the other hand...i'm being told what the rest of my life will be...i thought this was the reason i've gone thru the hell i've been thru this year...but maybe it will work..maybe not..but i'm scared about the whole "kids" thing...i'm only 17 damnit..i don't want to think about that...right now my main concern is getting overtime, moving out, and just staying sane for awhile..