another night of hide the tears for no reason..he knows they are there..can't imagine what he thinks...but i don't know what he wants me to do or what i can do without losing him..so it goes and goes..
i have this funny tingly feeling from them again...it's kinda fun till you know you will go black..

fuck old navy

i'm afraid i'll scratch too hard..at not one but so many simplistic things...so there's my problem all together..i want the reaction that i know i can never get...then it's blown up to something completely different and there surfaces another one of my insecurities...sooooo many to pass around...
to only be held..