i guess i somewhat got what i wanted...a new way to see...and a few more to come
just waiting for xtian to come back..everything is so empty without him..makes me think of things i want to forget...i'm tired of wondering and tired of wishing because i'd just be less happy than i am now..i think..i hope..because i'm not giving it up..just yet..
need to take more pills...forgot for awhile..i realized when i looked around...i hope it doesn't stay like this

still seeing him in circles
still wishing for her in points

curves and he's so soft.